Jinsutra Lecture 24 Mang Nahi Ahobhav Ahogati

Author(s): Osho Rajnish
Publisher: Osho Rajnish
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/340124/1

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caubIsavAM pravacana mAMga nahIM-ahobhAva, ahogIta

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prazna-sAra baiThe-baiThe dile-nAdAM ye khayAla AyA hai hama nahIM Ae yahAM koI hameM lAyA hai kisane nanhA-sA muhabbata kA ye jalA ke diyA dile-vIrAM ke aMdhere pe tarasa khAyA hai| para dIyA to jalatA najara nahIM AtA...? bhagavAna, tumhAre caraNoM meM zata-zata praNAma ! kala jisa kSaNa Apane kahA ki mahAvIra ne svAdhInatA ko AtyaMtika mUlya diyA, usa kSaNa maiM Apako nihAratA hI rhaa| kyA kara diyA Apane? / mujhe itanA kucha mila rahA thA ki aMtara meM samAtA nahIMaura pyAsa bhI itanI hI hai|...prbhu! yaha saba kyA ho rahA hai? www.jainefibrary.org

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halA praznaH tarapha aMdherA hai, aMdhere meM lagA svArtha hai| dUsarI-tarapha aMdhere kI baiThe-baiThe dile-nAdAM ye khayAla AyA hai takalIpheM haiN| dIye kA khayAla paidA hotA hai| jaba taka tuma aMdhere hama nahIM Ae yahAM koI hameM lAyA hai ke svArtha na tor3a loge, taba taka tuma dIyA jalA na skoge| yaha kisane nanhA-sA muhabbata kA ye jalA ke diyA | sIdhA gaNita hai| to dIye jalAne kI to phikra chor3o, pahale yaha dile-vIrAM ke aMdhere pe tarasa khAyA hai| dekha lo ki 'aMdhere meM hamArA svArtha hai ? hama aMdhere ko cAhate haiM para dIyA to jalatA najara nahIM AtA...? ki banA rahe? aMdhere se kucha milane kI AzA hai? aMdhere meM mana | ko lagAyA hai? bhaviSya ko aMdhere meM chipAyA hai, sapane dekhe kavitA udhAra hai| kisI aura kA dIyA jalA hogA, usane gAyI haiM?' agara aMdhere se kucha bhI milane kA, kahIM bhI thor3A-sA hai| apane kAvya ko janmAnA hogaa| khayAla hai to tuma dIyA kaise jalane doge? koI jalA bhI de to dIyA to sabhI kA jala sakatA hai| dIyA hai to jalane ke lie use bujhA doge| jo dIyA jalAye vaha duzmana mAlUma hogaa| hai| dIyA hai to jalane kI saMbhAvanA hai| lekina koI dasarA aMdhere meM tamhArA baDA nyasta svArtha hai tumhArA dIyA jalA nahIM sktaa| tumhArI svataMtratA parama hai| tuma isalie dIyA nahIM jala rahA hai| tumhAre aMdhere para koI kitanA na jalAnA cAho to dIyA jalAyA nahIM jA sakatA aura tuma hI tarasa khAye, to bhI agara tuma aMdhere meM rahanA cAhate ho to isa jalAnA cAho to koI tumheM roka na skegaa| tumane cAhA nahIM hai | tarasa se kucha bhI na hogaa| ki dIyA jle| abhI aMdhere meM tumhAre bar3e lagAva haiN| mahAvIra Ate haiM, buddha Ate haiM, kRSNa Ate haiM, krAisTa Ate akasara maiM logoM ko dekhatA huuN| ve cAhate haiM, aMdherA bhI banA haiN| tarasa kI kucha kamI nahIM hai| karuNA bar3I hai| mahAkaruNA ke rahe aura dIyA bhI jala jaaye| aisI ulajhana hai| kyoMki aMdhere meM srota Ate haiN| svayaM sUrya tumhAre dvAra para Akara dastaka dete haiN| bar3e svArtha haiN| lekina tuma apane aMdhere meM chipe baiThe ho| tuma socate ho ki jaise eka AdamI corI karane gayA ho, to kaI bAra TakarA jAye, prakAza bhI jala jaaye| lekina kabhI tumane bhItara kA dvaMdva dekhA? dIvAla-daravAje se Thokara khA jAye, to socane lage mana meM ki ki prakAza ke jalane ke sAtha hI aMdhere ke sabhI svArtha naSTa-bhraSTa dIyA hotA to ThIka thA lekina dIyA ho aura rozanI ho jAye to ho jaayeNge| to aMdhere se pAne kI tumane jo-jo AzAeM bAMdhI haiM, corI na kara skegaa| to agara koI kahe ki yaha rahA dIyA, lelo vaha sabhI dhUla-dhUsarita ho jaayeNgii| usa aMdhere se bharI AzAoM to vaha kahegA, pAgala to nahIM samajhA hai majhe? ko hI to hama saMsAra kahate haiN|| to tumhArI dikkata yaha hai ki tumhArA jIvana doharA hai| eka to jaba taka saMsAra meM thor3A bhI aisA laga rahA hai ki kucha mila 516 :

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jina satra bhAgaH1 sakatA hai, milegA--taba taka tuma sthagita karoge, dIye ko tamhAre prakAza kI AkAMkSA aMdhere ke viparIta nahIM hai-aMdhere jalane na doge| taba taka tuma rozanI se ddroge| agara rozanI A ko chipAne kA upAya aura vyavasthA hai| jAye to tuma pITha kara loge| tuma hajAra tarka, vicAra khoja loge tuma prakAza kA khUba zoragula macAte ho, AMsU bahAte ho, rozanI se bacane ke| tuma kahoge, yaha to rozanI AMkhoM ko cillAte ho, 'prakAza cAhie', tAki sArI duniyA dekha le ki tilamilAtI hai, ki yaha rozanI to hamArI sArI vyavasthA ko | agara aMdherA hai to tuma jimmevAra nahIM ho| tuma to prakAza kA DagamagAye detI hai, ki yaha rozanI to asurakSita kara degii| hama kitanA guNagAna kara rahe ho| bhale, hamArA aMdherA bhalA! barTeDa rasela ne likhA hai, jagata meM bar3I ajIba viDaMbanA hai: lekina beImAnI aisI hai ki tuma agara ise bhI sApha dekha lo to yahAM jo AdamI jitanA anaitika hogA, utanI hI nIti kI carcA bhI rAstA bana jaaye| tuma sApha kaha do ki 'hama aMdhere meM hI kregaa| kyoMki nIti kI carcA se vaha eka havA paidA karatA hai, jIyeMge! baMda karo prakAza kI bAtacIta ! hameM kucha lenA-denA nahIM jisase patA cala jAye ki aura koI ho anaitika, maiM to kama se hai| lekina tuma utane ImAnadAra bhI nahIM ho| kama nahIM huuN| jaba koI prakAza kI bAta karatA hai to tuma itane spaSTa bhI nahIM yahAM abhI kisI kI jeba kaTa jAye to jo AdamI jeba kATe, ho ki kaha sako ki 'baMda! yaha bAta se hameM kucha lenA-denA nahIM | agara usameM thor3I bhI akala ho to usako bar3A zoragula macAnA hai| hama aMdhere meM jInA cAhate haiM aura aMdhere meM hI jiiyeNge| aura cAhie ki jeba kaTa gayI, pakar3o cora ko| daur3a-dhUpa karanI aMdherA hamArA sukha hai|' caahie| eka bAta nizcita hai, usako koI bhI na pkdd'egaa| yaha bhI tuma nahIM kaha paate| tuma yaha bhI dikhalAnA cAhate ho kyoMki usane agara corI kI hotI aura jeba kATI hotA to vaha to ki tuma prakAza ke premI ho| tama yaha bhI dikhalAnA cAhate ho ki | bhAga gayA hotaa| vaha to yahAM bIca meM khar3A rhegaa| vaha to corI tuma zubha ke pakSapAtI ho| ke khilApha bolane lgegaa| eka baharA AdamI roja subaha carca jAtA thaa| ravivAra ko vaha do AdamI machalI mAra rahe the| aura tabhI usa sarovara kA sabase pahale pahuMca jAtA thA aura pahalI paMkti meM baiThatA thaa| vaha nirIkSaka A gyaa| eka AdamI bhAga khar3A huaa| to vaha usake bajra badhira thaa| use na to pravacana meM kucha sunAyI par3atA na samajha | pIche bhaagaa| koI do mIla jAkara hAMphate-hAMphate usako pakar3a meM aataa| na saMgIta carca meM hotA, vaha usako sunAyI pdd'taa| paayaa| aura jaba pakar3a pAyA to usane jaldI se khIse se eka dina eka AdamI ne pUchA ki 'tuma itane jaldI Ate | nikAlakara lAiseMsa batA diyaa| usako machalI mArane kA haka kisalie ho? roja tuma carca cale Ate ho, mIloM clkr| thaa| to usa AdamI ne kahA ki 'are nAsamajha! to phira bhAgA tumheM kucha sunAyI to par3atA nhiiN| na tuma saMgIta suna sakate ho, na kyoM?' to usane kahA ki isIlie ki dUsare ke pAsa lAiseMsa tuma pravacana suna sakate ho, to tuma Ate kisalie ho?' nahIM hai| vaha AdamI haMsane lgaa| usane kahA ki maiM jatalAne AtA hUM loga bar3I hoziyArI se cala rahe haiN| ki sArI duniyA dekha le ki maiM kisa pakSa meM huuN| aura paramAtmA bhI tuma prakAza kI khUba bAtacIta karate ho tAki eka bAta to noTa kara le ki maiM koI sAMsArika AdamI nahIM huuN| dhArmika hUM! | nizcita ho jAye ki tuma prakAza ke AkAMkSI, abhIpsu! to tumheM to tuma yaha moha bhI nahIM chor3a pAte ki tuma dhArmika ho| dharma ke | koI soca bhI na sakegA ki tuma aura aMdhere kA vyavasAya karate sAtha bar3I pratiSThA jur3I hai| dharma ke sAtha bar3A bala jur3A hai, hooge| AsAnI se loga phaMsa jAyeMge tumhAre vyavasAya meN| tuma prabhutva jur3A hai| vastutaH tuma jitane beImAna hote ho utane hI jebeM jyAdA sugamatA se kATa skoge| beI dhArmika dikhalAne kI ceSTA karate ho| kyoMki beImAnI ko dhArmika honA jarUrI hai| dukAna ThIka calAnI ho to maMdira jAnA chipAne kA isase acchA koI upAya nhiiN| prakAza kI AkAMkSA | jarUrI hai| maMdira jAnA dukAna ke ThIka calane kA hissA hai| karake aMdhere ko DhAMkate ho, chipAte ho| dukAnadAra bhI khAte-bahI likhatA hai to Upara likhatA hai, 'zrI 516

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nahIM-ahAbhAva, ahogIta ALL gaNezAya namaH' 'laabh-shubh|' Izvara kA smaraNa karake kitAba aba matalaba samajhe? ve zAMti cAhate haiM tAki ThIka se azAMta bAjAra kI zurU karatA hai| Izvara kA smaraNa-usa kitAba meM ho skeN| aura azAMti ko chor3ane kI taiyArI nahIM hai| zAMti kI sahayogI hone ko! vaha yaha kaha rahA hai, 'bAdhA mata ddaalnaa| hama mAMga bhI azAMti ko hI calAye rakhane ke lie hai| to tumhAre bhakta haiN|' to maiMne unase kahA ki phira kahIM aura jAo, kyoMki asaMbhava jaisA maiM dekhatA hUM, saikar3oM loga cAhate haiM dhyAna! lekina dhyAna maiM na kara skuuNgaa| zAMta tumheM koI bhI nahIM kara sakatA, jaba taka jina zartoM se ghaTa sakatA hai, vaha zarte pUrI karane ko rAjI nhiiN| tuma na samajha lo ki azAMta karane ke upAya baMda karane hoNge| koI zarta pUrI karane ko rAjI nhiiN| sirpha bezarta, muphta! aura maiM jahAM-jahAM se azAMti AtI hai, vahAM-vahAM se hAtha khIMca lenA tumase kahatA hUM ki agara yaha saMbhava hotA ki dhyAna muphta diyA hogaa| zAMti ke lie kucha bhI nahIM karanA par3atA--sirpha azAMti jA sakatA--cUMki saMbhava nahIM hai, isalie tuma maje se mAMgate se hAtha khIMca lete hI zAMti nirmita ho jAtI hai| zAMti to azAMti rahate ho| koI khatarA nahIM hai--agara yaha saMbhava hotA ki dhyAna kA abhAva hai| zAMti ke lie sIdhA kucha bhI nahIM karanA hai| maiM tumheM uThAkara de detA, to maiM jAnatA hUM tuma mAMgate bhI nhiiN| tuma tumane aMdhere meM apanI bar3I AkAMkSAeM jor3a rakhI haiM, unako haTA bhaagte| tuma kahate, 'abhI nahIM! abhI bacce bar3e ho rahe haiN| lo! dIyA to jala jaayegaa| dIyA to jalane ko tatpara hai, abhI thor3A aura jIvana ko samhAla lene do| abhI dhyAna! abhI pratipala tatpara hai, kyoMki dIyA jalane ke lie hai| dIyA to jalane nahIM!' kyoMki dhyAna kahIM saba asta-vyasta na kara de! aura kI saMbhAvanA lekara AyA hai aura ro rahA hai| tumhAre dIye se dhyAna mahAkrAMti hai, asta-vyasta to kregaa| | Tapakate AMsU maiM dekhatA hUM ki kaba jalAoge, kyA mujhe aise hI lI hai| tumhAre cAroM tarapha tumhArI duniyA hai| tuma badaloge, tumane use vidA kara diyaa| janma milA, lekina jIvana na milaa| tumhArI duniyA gira jaayegii| kyoMki vaha AdamI hI bIca se haTa janma ke sAtha hI jIvana thor3e hI milatA hai! janma to kevala gayA jisakI duniyA thii| vaha keMdra gira gayA jisake sahAre cAka saMbhAvanA hai| jIvana arjita karanA hotA hai| jarUrI nahIM hai ki ghUmatA thaa| eka nayI duniyA nirmita hogii| tuma janma gaye to tumane jIvana pA liyA ho| janma ke sAtha to to agara tuma dhana kI daur3a meM lage ho to tuma dhyAna na kara bujhA dIyA milatA hai| phira use jalAnA par3atA hai| skoge| gahana saMgharSa se jIvana kI jyoti pragaTa hotI hai| jaise do eka bar3e rAjanItijJa mere pAsa Ate the| vaha mujhase kahate, kucha lakar3iyoM ke gharSaNa se Aga paidA ho jAtI hai, do pattharoM ke gharSaNa zAMti kA upAya btaaie| maiMne kahA, azAMti tuma karate ho, zAMti se Aga paidA ho jAtI hai-aise tuma jaba jIvana kI sArI kA upAya mujhase pUchate ho? chor3o mahatvAkAMkSA! mahatvAkAMkSA cunautiyoM se saMgharSa lete ho, taba tumhAre bhItara kA dIyA jalatA se to azAMti paidA hogii| jahAM bhI rahoge, pIr3ita aura parezAna hai| aura koI upAya nahIM hai| udhAra jala nahIM sktaa| rhoge| jahAM bhI rahoge, asaMtuSTa rhoge| zAMti kaise hogI? yaha kavitA kisI aura kI hai| aura jarUrI nahIM ki jisane unhoMne kahA ki Apa vaha mata kahiye, maiM to Apake pAsa | gAyI ho usakA bhI dIyA jalA ho| kyoMki akasara to aisA isIlie AyA ki thor3I zAMti ho to thor3A DhaMga se pratispardhA kara hotA hai, loga kavitAeM gAkara soca lete haiM ki jala gayA diiyaa| skuu| azAMti ke kAraNa pratispardhA nahIM kara pA rahA huuN| rAta nIMda jinake jIvana meM prema nahIM hai, ve prema ke gIta gAkara sAMtvanA kara nahIM aatii| becainI rahatI hai| to mujhase pIche AnevAle loga lete haiN| mukhyamaMtrI ho gaye aura maiM maMtrI-pada para hI aTakA huuN| jitanI maiM bahuta kaviyoM ko jAnatA huuN| tumhArI aura unakI parezAnI meM daur3a-dhUpa ve loga kara lete haiM, maiM nahIM kara paataa| isIlie to | maiMne jarA bhI bheda nahIM paayaa| zAyada tumase badatara unakI parezAnI Apake caraNoM meM AyA hUM ki thor3I zAMti do, tAki daur3a-dhUpa hai| pharka hai to itanA ki ve sapane sajAne meM kuzala haiN| tuma itane ThIka se kara skuuN| kazala nahIM ho sapanoM ko raMga dene meN| ve itane kazala haiM ki bajhe 51 -

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jina sUtra bhAgaH1 dIye ko bhI jale dIye kI taraha mAnakara jI sakate haiM, gIta gunagunA AdamI jo dUsare khaMbhe se baMdhA thA, usane kahA, 'isakI bAtoM meM sakate haiN| mata par3anA, maiMne ise kabhI bhejA hI nahIM! yaha sarAsara jhUThA hai|' akasara aisA hotA hai : jo tumhAre pAsa nahIM hai usakI sAMtvanA lekina jo paigaMbara kI taraha baMdhA thA, usane kyA kahA? vaha tuma aneka rUpoM se apane pAsa juTA lete ho| prema jisake pAsa muskuraayaa| usane kahA, 'yaha to likhA hI hai zAstroM meM ki nahIM hai, vaha prema ke bahuta gIta gAkara dhIre-dhIre bharosA kara letA usake paigaMbaroM ko sadA takalIpheM jhelanI pdd'eNgii| tumhAre kor3oM se hai ki prema ho gyaa| yaha bar3I viDaMbanA hai| prema ke gIta jitane kucha bhI siddha nahIM hotA hai--itanA hI siddha hotA hai ki zAstra logoM ne gAye haiM unameM se ninyAnabe ne prema ko jAnA hI na thaa| jo | sahI haiN|' nahIM jAna pAe jIvana meM, jo yathArthataH na ghaTa pAyA, use unhoMne pAgala AdamI kA artha kyA hotA hai? itanA hI ki jisane sapanoM meM ghaTA liyaa| sapane paripUraka haiN| aba khulI AMkha sapane dekhane zurU kara diye; jo apane sapanoM meM Adhunika manovijJAna isa satya ko svIkAra karatA hai ki sapane bharosA karane lagA hai--itanA ki yathArtha jhUThA par3a jAtA hai, sapane paripUraka haiN| jo tuma jIvana meM nahIM kara pAte ho vaha tuma sapane meM jyAdA saca mAlUma hote haiN| karake apane ko samajhA lete ho| dina meM upavAsa karo, rAta sapaneM | to tumhAre kavi aura pAgaloM meM koI bahuta aMtara nahIM hotA hai| meM bhojana kara loge| dina meM brahmacarya sAdho, rAta sapane meM suMdara | kavi thor3e kuzala pAgala haiM, jinake pAsa kucha pratibhA hai; suMdara striyAM, suMdara puruSa tumhAre AsapAsa nAcane lgeNge| tumhAre gIta raca sakate haiM, ki suMdara citra banA sakate haiN| akasara to tuma RSi-muniyoM ke AsapAsa apsarAeM yUM hI nahIM nAcI thiiN| koI kaviyoM ke pAsa mata jAnA--unake gIta kA sauMdarya dekhakara, vastutaH apsarAeM kahIM se AtI nhiiN| kisa iMdra ko par3I hai? | anyathA vahAM eka kurUpa AdamI paaoge| gIta ko suna lenaa| kahAM kauna iMdra hai? vaha to RSi-muni ne hI jo dabA liyA thA, gIta meM bar3A sauMdarya ho sakatA hai| kabhI-kabhI to bar3I AkAza damana kara liyA thA; vaha jisako pragaTa nahIM kiyA thA jIvana kI UMcAI kavi chU lete haiN| meM-vaha sannATe meM rAta ke, taMdrA ke kSaNa meM, nidrA ke kSaNa meM pragaTa | sapanoM ko bAdhA kyA hai? sapanoM ko koI sImA nahIM hai| jahAM hone lgaa| aura agara bahuta dabAyA to AMkha baMda karane kI bhI taka sapanA dekhanA ho, dekha sakate ho| na pahAr3a rokate haiM, na jarUrata nahIM, apsarA khalI AMkha pragaTa ho jaayegii| yaha nirbhara | AkAza rokate haiN| lekina sapane tama jo dekhate ho vaha khabara dete karatA hai ki tumane damana kitanA gaharA kiyaa| agara damana bahuta | haiM ki jisa cIja kI kamI raha gayI, usako sapane meM pUrA kara rahe gaharA kara liyaa| itanA gaharA kara liyA ki aba damana ko ho| bhikhamaMgA sapane dekhatA hai samrATa hone ke| aura akasara bardAzta nahIM kiyA jA sktaa| to khulI AMkha bhI tuma sapane samrAToM ne bhikhamaMge hone ke sapane dekhe| dekhe hI nahIM, pUre kiye| dekhane lgoge| khulI AMkha aura baMda AMkha meM damana kI gaharAI mahAvIra, buddha samrATa the| lekina bhikhArI hone kA sapanA paidA ho kA hI pharka hai| tuma baMda AMkha se dekhate ho| tumane pAgala gyaa| na kevala sapanA dekhA, use pUrA kiyaa| AdamI dekhe? ve khulI AMkha se dekha rahe haiN| bhikhArI samrATa hone ke sapane dekhate haiN| jo nahIM ho rahA hai, jo eka pAgalakhAne meM eka AdamI dAvA karatA thA ki vaha Izvara nahIM hai pAsa usako sapane meM dekhanA par3atA hai| kA bhejA huA paigaMbara hai| jisa musalamAna khalIphA ne use to jarUrI nahIM hai ki jisane ye paMktiyAM likhI hoM...ye kaidakhAne meM DalavA diyA thA, vaha usase milane aayaa| kahA thA | paMktiyAM pyArI haiM, sArthaka haiN| ki tIna saptAha ta phira se soca le| vaha jaba usase milane AyA baiThe-baiThe dile-nAdAM ye khayAla AyA hai to vaha eka khaMbhe se baMdhA thaa| usako kor3e mAre gaye the, tIna hama nahIM Aye yahAM koI hameM lAyA hai| saptAha bhUkhA rakhA gayA thaa| aura jaba usane usa AdamI se pUchA khayAla to durusta hai| lekina yaha khayAla hI nahIM hai, yaha satya ki kyA khayAla hai, kyA aba bhI terA khayAla hai ki tujhe paramAtmA hai| tuma yahAM Aye kahAM? koI lAyA hai| tumane na to Ane kA ne paigaMbara banAkara bhejA hai, isake pahale ki vaha bole, eka dUsarA nirNaya kiyA thA, na tumane Ane kI AkAMkSA kI thii| na tumase 518 Jait Education International

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mAMga nahIM-ahobhAva, ahogIta kisI ne pUchA thA ki tuma saMsAra jAnA cAhate, jIvana meM utrnaa| nATakIya DhaMga se ghusA mArakara Tebala para kahA ki agara Izvara ho cAhate? koI tumheM utAra gayA hai| eka dina acAnaka tumane to maiM cunautI detA hUM, isI vakta apane kisI devadUta ko bhejo jAgakara pAyA ki tuma yahAM ho| hamane sadA apane ko jiMdagI ke | tAki mujhe eka cAMTA mAre-cAMTA sunA jA sake, dekhA jA ske| bIca meM pAyA hai| jiMdagI ke prAraMbha meM to kisI ne nahIM paayaa| aise koI devadUta to Ate nahIM, Izvara aisI cunautiyAM letA nhiiN| jarUra koI lAyA hai| koI AMkha para paTTiyAM bAMdhakara isa bagIce aisA le to muzkila meM par3a jaaye| itane loga haiM, itanI cunautiyAM meM chor3a gayA hai| haiN| lekina eka AdamI bIca meM se uThA, usane Akara eka cAMTA baiThe-baiThe dile-nAdAM ye khayAla AyA hai| maaraa| usane kahA, yaha kyA karate ho? usane kahA ki Izvara ne hama nahIM Aye yahAM, koI hameM lAyA hai| mujhe bhejA hai| Izvara ne kahA ki tuma isa yogya nahIM ki devadUta aura agara yaha khayAla hI rahA to jyAdA dera na TikegA, calA bheje jAyeM, maiM hI kAphI huuN| jaayegaa| khayAla Ate haiM, jAte haiN| khayAla basate thor3e hI haiN| makAna tumase banavA letA hai| dukAna tumase calavA letA hai| khayAla kA koI bar3A bharosA thor3e hI hai! jaba taka ki yaha kAma tumase hajAra karavA letA hai| lekina tumako hI jaba usane khayAla dhyAna na bana jAye, taba taka isa para bharosA mata krnaa| banAyA aura tumhArI niyati meM, tumhArI prakRti meM bIja DAle yaha to AyI hai taraMga, calI jaayegii| abhI AyI hai, abhI bhUla vAsanAoM ke, icchAoM ke| unhIM icchAoM ke bIjoM kA phira jaaoge| kSaNabhara meM utara jAyegA khyaal| rUpAMtaraNa hotA hai, vRkSa banate haiN| jisa dina yaha khayAla dhyAna bana jAye, yaha tumhArI sthira citta | tama jarA pakSiyoM ko dekho? unhoMne to koI ArkiTekcara kA kI bhAva-dazA bana jAye ki koI lAyA hai-kyA pariNAma | koI zikSaNa nahIM liyaa| kaise pyAre ghoMsale banA lete haiN| aise bhI hoMge? pariNAma bar3e daragAmI hoNge| agara koI lAyA hai to pakSI haiM ki unako janma dene ke bAda mAtA aura pitA to ur3a jAte tumhAre ahaMkAra ke lie koI jagaha na raha jaayegii| janma kisI ne haiN| aMDA hI chor3akara ur3a jAte haiN| aMDA bAda meM phUTatA hai| to diyA, jIvana kisI ne diyaa| tuma kyoM akar3e phirate ho? tuma pakSiyoM ko apane mAM-bApa se milane kA maukA bhI nahIM aataa| nAhaka bojha Dho rahe ho isa 'maiM' kaa| na tuma Aye, na tuma ho, na isalie zikSaNa kA koI upAya bhI nahIM hai, koI skala nhiiN| tama jaaoge| koI lAyA. koI rakhe hai, koI le jaayegaa| lekina jaba ve pakSI bar3e hote haiM, phira ghoMsalA banAte haiN| aura hiMdU purANa bar3I madhura kathA kahate haiN| jo lAyA vaha brhmaa| jo ghoMsalA ThIka vaisA hI hotA hai jaisA unake mAM-bApa ne banAyA samhAle vaha vissnnu| jo le jAyegA vaha shiv| tuma para kucha thaa| ve bhI ur3a jAyeMge aMDe ko rkhkr| aMDA phUTegA taba chor3ate nhiiN| kAma hI nahIM chor3ate kuch| brahmA le AyA hai, viSNu / mAM-bApa pAsa na hoNge| punaH sadiyoM-sadiyoM anaMta kAla taka samhAle haiM, ziva le jaayeNge| matalaba kevala itanA hai ki virATa ne aisA silasilA calatA rhegaa| tuma meM eka taraMga lI hai| vaijJAnika bar3e cakita the ki yaha ghoMsalA bana kaise jAtA hai! vahI virATa jaba cAhegA to taraMga samA jaayegii| aura ghoMsalA koI choTI prakriyA nahIM hai| eka pakSI kA ghoMsalA tuma apane ko bIca meM mata laao| jaba itanI virATa cIjeM bhI | utArakara banAne kI koziza kro| tuma bar3I muzkila meM par3a tumhAre binA ho gayIM, to tuma choTI-choTI bAtoM kA hisAba mata jaaoge| tinakoM se, dhAgoM se, paMkhoM se pakSI aise suMdara ghoMsale rakho ki maiMne makAna banAyA hai| jaba tumane apane ko hI nahIM banAte haiN| kabhI-kabhI to bar3e jaTila ghoMsale banAte haiN| banAyA hai to tuma makAna bhI kyA banAoge? yaha to jisane tumheM koI banavA letA hai! jisane pakSiyoM ko banAyA hai, usI ne banAyA hai, usI ne banavA liyA hogaa| usI ne tumase yaha makAna zAyada pakSiyoM ke dvArA ghoMsale banAne kI yojanA bhI unake bhItara bhI banavA liyA hogaa| kara rakhI hai| binA zikSaNa ke karavA letA hai| eka kahAnI maiM par3ha rahA thaa| eka nAstika bola rahA thaa| tuma kahate ho maiMne prema kiyA, ki maiM eka strI ke prema meM gira Izvara ke viparIta pramANa de rahA thaa| aura aMtataH usane bar3e gyaa| yaha tumane kiyA? yA ki jisane tumheM janma diyA, usane 519

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jina sUtra bhAgaH1 hI yaha prema bhI tumheM diyA? | tuma pAogeH saba kavitAeM phIkI haiN| jIvana ko thor3A parakho! phira se chAno! phira se vizleSaNa __ jisa dina tumhArA jIvana gIta gunagunAegA, usa dina tuma kro| tuma pAoge: koI karavA rahA hai| pAoge : saba kavitAeM kUr3A-karkaTa haiN| yaha khayAla to bar3A acchA hai agara dhyAna bana jaaye| aura aura ghabar3AnA mata! dhyAna se merA artha hai, agara yaha khayAla sthira bhAva bana jAye, | dIyA agara bujhA hai to ise isa taraha dekhanA ki yaha jalane ke tumhArA bodha bana jaaye| lie pratIkSA hai| bujhe ko nirAzA mata banA lenaa| aisA mata baiThe-baiThe dile-nAdAM ye khayAla AyA hai, socanA : 'aba kyA kareM? aMdherA saghana hai| dIyA bujhA hai|' hama nahIM Aye yahAM, koI hameM lAyA hai! hAtha-paira rokakara gira mata pdd'naa| thaka mata jAnA! itane para hI sArA dharma pUrA ho jAtA hai-agara tumheM ye samajha meM hama jisako mauta samajhate haiM paigAme-hayAte-jadIda hai voha A jAye ki koI hameM lAyA hai: koI hameM le jAyegA: koI hamAre / ye phUla camana meM jitane haiM, phira khilane ko majhAte haiN| bhItara zvAsa le rahA hai| koI hamAre bhItara jI rahA hai| to tuma jisako hama mauta kahate haiM, vaha bhI mauta nhiiN| vaha bhI naye akartA bhAva ko upalabdha ho gye| phira tuma kartA nahIM ho| | jIvana kA saMdeza hai| aura jaba tuma kartA nahIM ho to tumhArI sArI jIvana-UrjA sAkSI ___ hama jisako mauta samajhate haiM, paigAme-hayAte-jadIda hai voha bana jaayegii| kartA meM niyojita hai jIvana-UrjA, karane meM lagI ye phUla camana meM jitane haiM, phira khilane ko muhate haiN| hai| agara karane se tumhArA hAtha alaga ho jAye aisA nahIM ki karma jo phUla mujha gayA, usameM tuma naye khilanevAle phUla kI chavi baMda ho jAyegA; karma to calegA-aura suDaula calegA; aura dekhnaa| yahAM saba phira se khilane ko muAtA hai| agara dIyA zubha clegaa| bhUla-cUka kama ho jAyegI, kyoMki tumhAre kAraNa | bujhA hai to jalane ko hI pratIkSA kara rahA hai ki jle|| jo bAdhA par3atI thI vaha bhI miTa jaayegii| abAdha usakI dhArA ise nirAza hone kA kAraNa mata banA lenaa| vastutaH yahI to tumase bahane lgegii| karma to calatA rhegaa| vaha to usa AzA kI kiraNa hai, ki tumhArA dIyA abhI bujhA hai| jala sakatA calAnevAle para hai| vaha to pUrNa para hai| lekina tuma, tumhArI UrjA hai| kucha hone ko bAkI hai| yahI to AzA kI kiraNa hai ki saba bcegii| vahI UrjA saMgRhIta hokara sAkSI-bhAva banatI hai| vahI ho nahIM gayA hai| jo huA hai vaha kSudra hai| jo nahIM huA hai vaha UrjA samAdhi banatI hai| virATa hai| vaha virATa abhI pratIkSA kara rahA hai| vaha hone ko hai| kisane nanhA-sA muhabbata kA ye jalAkara diyA yahI to jIvana kI saMbhAvanA, utphullatA hai, prasAda hai, ki kucha dile-vIrAM ke aMdhere pe tarasa khAyA hai| hone ko hai| aura vahI UrjA, vahI samAdhi dIyA bnegii| vahI jalegI to tuma to paira meM tuma ghughara bAMdha sakate ho aura nAca sakate ho| aura prakAzita hooge| jaba taka dhyAna kI jyoti na jale bhItara, tuma jo hone ko hai vaha sabase bar3A hai| jo ho cukA hai, jo huA hai prakAzita na ho skoge| aura dhyAna kI jyoti bAhara se bhItara janma, jo huA hai deha kA milanA, jo huA hai dhana-saMpatti, nahIM DAlI jA sakatI-aMtartama meM hI khilatI hai| pada-pratiSThA-vaha saba choTA hai| jo hone ko hai-dhyAna, jaise vRkSoM meM phUla lagate haiM to vRkSa meM rasadhAra bahatI hai-usI samAdhi, mokSa-vaha virATa hai| jo huA hai vaha nA-kucha hai| jo rasadhAra ke AkhirI chora para raMgIna phUloM kA janma hotA hai| aise hone ko hai vaha saba kucha hai| ise AzA kA saMcAra smjhnaa| ise hI tumhAre jIvana ke vRkSa meM rasadhAra baha rahI hai| vahI rasadhAra jaba | samajhanA jIvana kA sNdesh| katI hai, samAdhi ke phala khilate haiN| taba tumhAre aura eka bAra tumhAre bhItara AzA paidA ho jAye aura tama bhItara dIyA jlegaa| | nirAza na raha jAo, hatAza na baiTha jAo, tumhArI jIvana UrjA kavitAoM ko gunagunAkara bhUla meM mata par3a jaanaa| kavitAeM uTha baiThe, AzA se bharapUra-to rasadhAra bahane lagI! phUla pyArI haiN| lekina jaba tumhArA jIvana kA kAvya nirmita hogA taba khileNge| dIye bhI jleNge| 520

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mAMga nahIM-ahobhAva, ahogIta. yaha terA tasavvura hai yA terI tamannAeM kaThina hogaa| saMgharSaNa hogaa| lekina usI saMgharSaNa meM tuma dila meM koI raha-rahake dIpaka-se jalAe hai| jAgoge, AMkha khulegii| yaha terA tasavvura hai yA terI tamannAeM aura acchA hai ki AMkha khulate-khalate hI dIyA bhI jle| dila meM koI raha rahake dIpake-se jalAe hai| koI dUsarA jalA de dIyA to tuma AMkha na khologe| jarA tumhAre bhItara AzA uThe to usakA tasavvura, usakI / aisA maiMne sunA hai, eka purAnI cInI kathA hai, eka kisAna ne tamannA, usakI khoja ke lie paira Age bar3hane lge| usakI khoja / paramAtmA se bar3e dinoM taka prArthanA kI ki 'he prabhu! tujhe karanI hai jisane tumheM bhejA hai| usakI khoja karanI hai jahAM se tuma khetI-bAr3I kA kucha patA nhiiN| jaba pAnI cAhie taba pAnI nahIM; Aye ho| agara hiMduoM kI bhASA kA upayoga karanA ho to kahoH jaba pAnI nahIM cAhie, taba betahAzA pAnI! bAr3ha bheja detA hai! usakI khoja karanI hai, jisane tumheM bhejA hai| agara jainoM kI bhASA tujhe kucha samajha nhiiN| tUne kabhI khetI-bAr3I nahIM kii| oloM kI kA upayoga karanA hai to kaho : usakI khoja karanI hai, jahAM se tuma kyA jarUrata hai ? jaba dhUpa cAhie taba dhUpa nhiiN|' Aye ho| mUla-srota kI! jIvana ke mUla-biMdu kI, jahAM se Akhira parezAna ho gayA paramAtmA bhI sun-sunkr| usane sArA vistAra huA hai| | kahA, 'Akhira tU cAhatA kyA hai?' usa kisAna ne kahA ki jarA-sA bhI tumhAre bhItara usakI khoja kA aMkura par3a | eka sAla mujhe maukA deN| Akhira jiMdagI ho gayI khetI-bAr3I jAye-dila meM koI raha-rahakara dIpaka-se jalAe hai| to karate hue| mujhe patA hai, tUne kabhI khetI-bAr3I kI bhI nhiiN| eka pala-pala dIye para dIye, dIyoM kI paMktiyAM, dIpa-mAlAeM jala sAla jo maiM cAhUM, vaisA ho|' utthegii| tumhArA rAstA jyotirmaya ho jaayegaa| paramAtmA ne kahA, 'cala yahI shii|' lekina isa jyotirmaya ke pahale jokhima uThAnI pdd'egii| agara eka sAla aisA huA ki kisAna jaba dhUpa cAhatA taba dhUpa; jokhima na uThAyI to kavi raha jAoge; agara jokhima uThAyI to jaba pAnI cAhatA taba paanii| bar3I phasala utthii| aisI kabhI na RSi ho jaaoge| jokhima uThAnI pdd'egii| jokhima hai usa saba uThI thii| gehUM kI bAleM itanI bar3I-bar3I huIM ki kisAna ne kahA, ko khone kI, jo aMdhere meM hI milatA hai aura aMdhere meM hI mila 'aba dekho! sAlabhara ke bAda dikhalAUMgA ki kyA tuma aba sakatA hai| aMdhere ke sAre ke sAre vyavasAya ko khone kI jokhima | taka parezAna karate rahe saMsAra ko!' AdamiyoM ke siroM ke Upara zarta hai-dIye ke jalane kii| calI gyiiN| phira vakta AyA phasala kATane kaa| phasala kATI dIyA jala sakatA hai| kImata cukAne ko rAjI ho jaao| muphta gyii| bAleM to bahuta bar3I-bar3I thIM, lekina gehUM unameM na the| vaha vaha dIyA nahIM jlegaa| aura acchA hai ki muphta nahIM jltaa| kisAna bar3A hairAna huA ki yaha mAmalA kyA huA! usane prabhu kyoMki muphta jala jAtA to koI rasa na hotaa| muphta jala jAtA | ko kahA, 'he prabhu! samajhe nahIM-dhUpa jaba cAhie taba dhUpa dii| to tuma dhanyavAda bhI anubhava na krte| muphta jala jAtA to tuma varSA jaba cAhie taba varSA dii| varSabhara ThIka mere hisAba se saba praur3ha hI na ho paate| muphta jala jAtA to tuma jAga hI na paate| to claa| aura bAleM itanI UMcI gayIM, kabhI na gayI thiiN| kisI ne dIyA bhI jalatA rahatA aura tama kamare meM aMdhere meM hI rhte| tama dekhI na thIM itanI UMcI baaleN| lekina mAmalA kyA hai? aMdara AMkha baMda kiye soye rhte| | koI gehUM nahIM hai! dIye ke jalane se hI thor3e hI rozanI ho jAtI hai-AMkha bhI to to paramAtmA haMsA aura usane kahA, 'tUne sirpha dhUpa mAMgI, pAnI khulI honI caahie| sUraja bhI nikala Aye aura tuma AMkha baMda mAMgA, ole nahIM mAMge, tUphAna nahIM mAMgA, AMdhI nahIM maaNgii| kiye par3e raho to tuma aMdhere meM rhoge| choTI-sI do palakeM itane | AMdhI aura tUphAna ke binA bhItara kA satva saMgRhIta nahIM hotaa| bar3e sUraja ko nakAra detI haiN| to bAleM bar3I ho gayIM lekina bhItara prANa saMgrahIta na hue|' to canautI svIkAra karo! dIyA jala sakatA hai-isa AzA se saMgharSa ke binA kahIM prANa saMgRhIta hue haiM? udvelita hoo| uTho! to agara tumheM muphta mila jAtA hotA bhItara kA dIyA bhI to 5211

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jina sUtra bhAgaH1 tumhAre bhItara AtmA paidA na hotii| tuma bAla ho jAte bar3I laMbI, | prnnaam| yaha bhI pahalI daphe kahA hai| magara bhItara gehUM kA dAnA na hotaa| nAguphtanI hadIse-muhabbata nahIM magara isa jIvana meM jaisA hai, saba vaisA hI jarUrI hai| jo ceSTA se jo dila kI bAta vaha kaheM kyA jabAM se hama? milanA cAhie, vaha ceSTA se hI milatA hai| kyoMki binA ceSTA -prema koI chipAne kI bAta nhiiN| ke vaha mila hI nahIM sakatA; vaha paidA hI nahIM hotA; tumhArI nAguphtanI hadIse-muhabbata nahIM magara pAtratA hI nirmita nahIM hotii| -prema koI na kahane kI bAta nhiiN| jo dila kI bAta vaha kaheM kyA jabAM se hama? dUsarA praznaH bhagavAna, tumhAre caraNoM meM zata-zata praNAma! lekina jo dila kI bAta hai use kaise jabAna se kahA jAye! kahanA bhI cAheM to bhI kahI nahIM jA sktii| jo bhI kahA jA 'darzana' ne pUchA hai| sakatA hai, vaha buddhi kA hotA hai| jo nahIM kahA jA sakatA, vahI prazna to hai hI nhiiN| 'darzana' kI vRtti bhI prazna pUchane kI nahIM | hRdaya kA hai| hai| usane sirpha apanA ahobhAva pragaTa kiyA hai| to use maiMne rote dekhA hai, haMsate dekhA hai; prasanna dekhA hai, udAsa ise smjhnaa| dekhA hai| lekina kabhI usane kucha kahA nhiiN| isa na kahane ke jo pUchate haiM, jarUrI nahIM ki samajha paayeNge| pUchane ke kAraNa hI | kAraNa use bahuta kucha milA hai, jo unako nahIM mila pAyA jo bahuta bAra tuma samajhane se vaMcita raha jAte ho| kyoMki jaba tuma bahuta kahane meM lage haiN| pUchate ho to prazna ko tuma itanA-itanA bhArI samajha lete ho, aura | lekina, phira bhI khAmoza bhI raho, cupa bhI raho to bhI hRdaya tuma prazna meM itane vyasta ho jAte ho ki uttara ke lie jagaha hI kucha kahanA cAhatA hai| nahIM kaha sakatA, asamartha pAtA nahIM milatI tumhAre bhItara praveza pAne kii| tuma uttara ke lie hai phira bhI kucha kahanA cAhatA hai| kahane meM, abhivyakta hone daravAjA nahIM chodd'te| meM saMbaMdhita honA cAhatA hai| samajha to ve hI sakate haiM jo pUchate nhiiN| na pachanA ThIka-ThIka ___ maiM hajAra jabta karUM to kyA, maiM hajAra kucha na kahUM to kyA ? uttara ko samajha lene kA anivArya caraNa hai| ki dayAre-nAje-habIba meM, merI khAmuzI bhI savAla hai| to 'darzana' ne na to kabhI kucha pUchA hai sirpha eka bAra ko | usa premI ke darabAra meM, usa premI kI mahaphila meM, maiM hajAra jabta chodd'kr| pahalI bAra jaba vaha mujhe milane AyI thI, varSoM pahale, karUM to kyA, maiM hajAra kucha na kahUM to kyA na kaho, samhAlo taba vivAda karane AyI thii| koI bAta use jaMcI na thI to tarka to bhI : dayAre-nAje-habIba meM, merI khAmuzI bhI savAla hai| karane AyI thii| maiMne usI dina dekha liyA thA ki vaha ulajha | lekina cupa rahanA bhI to abhivyakti ho jAtI hai| na kucha gayI, aba lauTa na skegii| AyI thI tarka karane, raha gayI sadA kahakara bhI to kucha kaha diyA jAtA hai| mauna bhI to apanI eka ko| usake bAda usane kabhI kucha pUchA nhiiN| varSoM bIta gye| mukharatA rakhatA hai| aura ina varSoM meM bahuta loga Aye-gaye, vaha phira mere sAtha rhii| to yadyapi 'darzana' ne kabhI kucha kahA nahIM, lekina bahuta kucha rAstA Ubar3a-khAbar3a thA to bhI kaMTakAkIrNa thA to bhii| aba to vaha kahatI rahI hai-apanI cuppI se, apane zAMta mauna se| maiM dhIre-dhIre Azvasta ho gayA hUM ki lauTakara pIche dekheMgA to aneka bAra maiMne usase pUchA bhI hai, lekina phira bhI vaha bacA gayI, koI bhI na ho, to bhI 'darzana' hogii| usane kucha kahA nahIM hai| vaha chAyA kI taraha pIche rahI hai| pahale hI dina vivAda usane | aisI bhAva dazA jaldI hI parama phaloM ko upalabdha hotI hai| chor3a diyaa| saMvAda zurU hotA hai tabhI, jaba hama vivAda chor3ate aura Aja usane pahalI daphA likhA hai| eka bAra aura usane patra haiN| uttara pahuMcane lagatA hai tabhI jaba hama prazna chor3a dete haiN| usane likhA thA-vaha bhI khAlI kAgaja bhejA thA; usameM kucha likhA kucha pUchA nahIM, itanA sirpha kahA hai, tumhAre caraNoM meM zata-zata nahIM thaa| uttara maiM usakA bhI diyA thaa| kyoMki khAlI kAgaja meM 522

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mAMga nahIM-ahobhAva, ahogIta bhI to koI bar3I aMtartama se uThI huI praznAvalI hai| kucha jo nahIM priya ko dekhanA raha gayA ho| kahA jA sakatA, jise zAyada vaha khuda bhI nahIM taya kara pAtI ki hajAroM tUra usI kI hasarate-dIdAra para kurbA, kaise kaheM, usako khAlI kAgaja meM likhakara bheja diyA hai| apane | ki jisakI jiMdagI hI hasarate-dIdAra ho jaae| zUnya ko! Aja usane dhanyavAda diyA hai| kucha likhA hai| tumhAre use maiMne 'darzana' nAma diyA hai| 'darzana' kA artha hotA hai: caraNoM meM zata-zata prnnaam| usake bhItara kucha ho rahA hai, vaha 'hasarate-dIdAra'; dekhane kI abhilaassaa| aura usakI dekhane kI bar3I pIr3A se gujara rahI hai| purAnA saMsAra TUTa rahA hai| naye kA abhilASA gahana hotI calI gayI hai| aba to yahAM baiThatI bhI hai abhyudaya ho rahA hai| ina pIr3A ke kSaNoM meM atyaMta jarUrI hai ki to AMkheM baMda karake hI baiThatI hai| jaise-jaise dekhane kI abhilASA vaha jo hone jA rahA hai, usake prati ahobhAva se bharI rhe| gahana hotI hai, vaise-vaise AMkha bhI baMda hone lagatI hai| kyoMki anyathA, purAnA saMsAra kAphI vajanI hai! usakA jAla-jaMjAla | AMkha se to vahI dekhA jA sakatA hai jo rUpa hai, AkAra hai, nAma gaharA hai| usameM bAra-bAra utara jAne kI, ulajha jAne kI hai| AMkha baMda karake use dekhA jA sakatA hai jo arUpa hai, saMbhAvanA hai! lekina usake saubhAgya se vaha jAla khuda hI TUTA nirAkAra hai, anAma hai| jA rahA hai| vaha jAla khuda hI pIche haTA jA rahA hai| hajAroM tUra usI kI hasarate-dIdAra para kurbA, sadA hI aisA hotA hai| jisa dina tuma taiyAra ho, usI dina ki jisakI jiMdagI hI hasarate-dIdAra ho jaae| saMsAra tumheM chor3ane ko taiyAra ho jAtA hai| tuma lAkha kahate ho ki aura 'darzana' kI jiMdagI aba usa dizA meM pravAhita ho rahI hai, kyA kareM, kaise chor3eM, saMsAra nahIM chor3a rahA hai| galata kahate ho| | usakI nAva, jahAM usa parama pyAre ke sivAya koI aura na bcegaa| jisa dina tuma chor3anA cAhate ho, usa dina saMsAra kSaNabhara ko nahIM kaThina hogI yAtrA! saba chuuttegaa| lekina saba chUTane ke mUlya pakar3atA hai, kyoMki saMsAra ne tumheM kabhI pakar3A hI na thaa| idhara para hI saba milatA hai| eka hI bAta khayAla rakhanAtuma chor3ane lage, udhara saMsAra apane Apa chor3ane lagatA hai| harama ho, butakadA ho, daira ho, kucha ho, kahIM le cala aisI hI ghar3I se vaha gujara rahI hai| aisI ghar3I meM praNAma karane kA jahAM vaha husna-lAmahadUda ho, ai dila! vahIM le cl| khayAla, saubhAgya hai kyoMki aise samaya meM to zikAyata karane kA -jahAM vaha parama sauMdarya ho, aba vahIM caleMge! mana hotA hai| agara vaha zikAyata likha bhejatI Aja to maiM harama ho, butakadA ho, daira ho, kucha ho, kahIM le cala samajhatA ki ThIka thA, tarkayukta thA; kyoMki pIr3A se gujara rahI -maMdira ho, masjida ho, kAbA ho, kAzI ho, kucha bhI ho| hai, ghanI pIr3A se gujara rahI hai| Aja vaha mujha para nArAja hotI to harama ho, butakadA ho, daira ho, kucha ho, kahIM le cala samajha meM AnevAlI bAta thii| kyoMki yaha bilakula svAbhAvika jahAM vaha husna-lAmahadUda ho, ai dila! vahIM le cala! hai ki jaba pIr3A se koI gujare to kahIM na kahIM, kisI na kisI ko jahAM vaha asIma sauMdarya ho! jahAM usa parama priya kA darzana ho! doSa de| aura mujhase jyAdA karIba usake koI bhI nhiiN| to jo bhI usake lie saba nichAvara karane kI taiyArI rkhnaa| vaha karIba ho, usI ko hama doSa dete haiN| . | AkhirI dama taka parIkSA letA hai| vaha AkhirI-AkhirI ghar3I Aja isa dukha kI ghar3I meM svAbhAvika thA ki vaha kahatI ki | taka parIkSA letA hai| AkhirI-AkhirI ghar3I taka pIr3A detA hai! 'tumhIM' ne saba kharAba kara diyaa| saba ujar3a gayA! saba dhAge | lekina jo usa pIr3A se gujara jAtA hai, vaha usa mahApAtratA ko Te jA rahe haiN| lekina isa ghar3I meM usakA caraNoM meM praNAma bhejanA upalabdha ho jAtA hai-jahAM tumheM paramAtmA ko khojane nahIM jAnA bahuta bahumUlya hai| isa kiraNa ke sahAre hI vaha pAra ho jaayegii| par3atA, paramAtmA tumheM khojatA AtA hai! hajAroM tUra usI kI hasarate-dIdAra para kurbA, aura agara, ahobhAva ho to ghar3I dUra nhiiN| zikAyata se loga ki jisakI jiMdagI hI hasarate-dIdAra ho jaae| dUra hote haiM paramAtmA se; dhanyavAda se pAsa hote haiN| jitanA hajAroM sUraja bhI usakI AMkhoM para kurbAna haiM; usakI dekhane kI dhanyavAda gahana hotA jAtA hai utanI dUrI kama hotI jAtI hai| agara abhilASA para kurbAna haiM jisake jIvana kA lakSya hI usa parama | ahobhAva paripUrNa ho jAye to dUrI samApta ho jAtI hai| ahobhAva 523 www.jainelibrar.org

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jina sutra bhAgaH1 - ke kSaNa meM acAnaka tuma pAte ho vahI hai maujUda! usane hI tumheM laga jaayeNge| saba tarapha se gherA hai| usake atirikta aura koI bhI nhiiN| 'darzana' vahAM hai jahAM samhAlakara calanA hogA prtipl| aura usake atirikta aura kucha bhI nahIM hai! roja-roja samhAlane ko jyAdA samhAlanA hogaa| jyAdA gula meM, zaphaka meM, dAmane-abre-bahAra meM sAvadhAnI, saavcetii| dekhA jo maiMne Ae najara tuma jgh-jgh| ina pIr3A ke kSaNoM ko agara ThIka se pAra kara liyA to maMdira saMdhyA kI lAlI meM dekhA, ki vasaMtoM kI varSA meM dekhA! jyAdA dUra nahIM hai, pAsa hI hai-kuhAse meM DhaMkA hai| gula meM, zaphaka meM, dAmane-abre-bahAra meM dekhA jo maiMne Ae najara tuma jgh-jgh| tIsarA prazna : kala jisa kSaNa Apane kahA ki 'mahAvIra ne vahI dikhAyI par3ane lgegaa| aisA ahobhAva ho ki kahIM mana ke svAdhInatA ko AtyaMtika mUlya diyA, vaha mUlya kisI aura ne kone-kAtara meM bhI sarakatI koI zikAyata na raha jAye, usake | nahIM diyA' usa kSaNa maiM Apako nihAratA hI rhaa| kyA kara dukha bhI svIkAra hoM, usakI pIr3A bhI svIkAra ho| usane dI diyA Apane? maiM apanI abhavyatA dekhatA rahUM, alpatA dekhatA pIr3A, isa yogya smjhaa| yahI kyA kama hai! aise bhAva meM maMdira | rahUM, aura Apako nihAratA rahUM, zIza navAtA rahUM! nirmita hotA hai| aise bhAva kI dazA meM bhakta nirmita hotA hai| aura 'darzana' jaldI hI usa dazA ko upalabdha ho sakatI hai| sunA yadi zAMta mana se to kabhI-kabhI aise jharokhe khuleNge| lekina jitane hama karIba pahuMcate haiM, utanA hI khatarA bhI bar3hatA mahAvIra ne to kahA hai ki agara koI ThIka se suna le to mAtra hai| jo jamIna para calate haiM, samatala jamIna para, unake girane kA | zravaNa se bhI pAra ho jAtA hai| isalie mahAvIra ne kahA ki mere koI bhI Dara nhiiN| lekina jo pahAr3a kI UMcAiyoM para car3hate haiM, | cAra tIrtha haiM, cAra ghATa haiM jinase loga usa pAra jA sakate haiM: girane kA Dara bhI usI ke sAtha-sAtha bar3hatA jAtA hai| gire to burI | zrAvaka, zrAvikA, sAdhvI, saadhuu|| taraha gireNge| isalie jitanI UMcAI AtI hai, utane hI | / zrAvaka-zrAvikA kA artha hotA hai| jinhoMne ThIka se sanA, samhalakara aura sAvadhAna hokara calane ke kSaNa Ate haiN| jamIna zravaNa kiyaa| sirpha sunakara koI pAra jA sakatA hai? nizcita para gire bhI to kyA gire, phira uThakara khar3e ho jaayeNge| hii| lekina sirpha sunane ko koI choTI ghaTanA mata smjhnaa| maiMne sunA hai, bAyajIda eka gAMva ke pAsa se gujara rahA thaa| sirpha sunanA bar3I ghaTanA hai--karane se bhI bar3I ghaTanA hai| karanA usane eka zarAbI ko dekhA, jo DagamagAtA cala rahA thA! | to AsAna hai, sunanA kaThina hai| kyoMki ThIka sunane kA artha hai : bAyajIda ne use pakar3A aura kahA ki, 'suna pAgala! kitanI pI | jaba tumhAre bhItara koI vicAra kI taraMga na ho; tabhI tuma vaha suna rakhI hai? kucha hoza samhAla! gira par3egA to kIcar3a macI hai, pAoge jo kahA jA rahA hai| agara vicAroM kI taraMgeM haiM to tuma saba kapar3e kharAba ho jaayeNge|' vahI suna loge jo tumhArI vicAra kI taraMgeM vyAkhyA kreNgii| usa zarAbI ne AMkha kholI aura haMsane lgaa| usane kahA, maiM yahAM bola rahA huuN| tuma vahAM soca bhI rahe ho| to mizrita 'bAyajIda! hama agara gire to kapar3e hI kharAba hoMge; tuma agara | hogA sunnaa| mere kahe para tumhAre vicAroM kI khola car3ha jaayegii| gire to...?' mere kahe para tumhAre vicAroM kA raMga bikhara jaayegaa| tuma vahI bAyajIda bar3A sUphI phakIra thA, bar3A saMta thaa| samajha loge jo tuma samajha sakate the; vaha nahIM jo maiMne kahA thaa| 'tuma agara gire to?' to kabhI-kabhI aisI ghar3I ghaTegI sunate-sunate ki tuma usa to kahate haiM, bAyajIda ne usake caraNa chue aura kahA ki ThIka jagaha pahuMca jAoge jisako mahAvIra zrAvaka kA tIrtha kahate haiN| samaya para tUne mujhe cetaayaa| agara hama gire to kapar3e to dUra, zravaNa ke ghATa para pahuMca jAoge! acAnaka! taba kyA maiM kaha AtmA taka kharAba ho jaayegii| tU girA to subaha nahA-dhokara rahA hUM, yaha savAla nahIM hai koI bhI zabda, bhAva-bhaMgimA mAtra, ThIka ho jAyegA, yaha bhI saca hai| agara hama gire to janma-janma tumhAre bhItara koI jharokhA khola degI! koI dvAra jo baMda par3A thA 524

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mAMga nahIM-ahobhAva, ahogIta janmoM se, havA ke eka jhoMke meM khula jAyegA! koI dRzya jo tumane baccA mRta hogA yA ardha-jIvita hogaa| kabhI na dekhA thA, dikhAyI par3a jaayegaa| aisA hI kucha huA hai! | to jo bhI yahAM ghaTegA mere nikaTa tumhAre bhItara, tuma use ghaTane de 'kala jisa kSaNa Apane kahA, mahAvIra ne svAdhInatA ko rahe ho-itanA yAda rkhnaa| bhUlakara bhI yaha mata socanA ki maiMne AtyaMtika mUlya diyA, vaha kisI aura ne nahIM diyA, usa kSaNa maiM | kucha kiyaa| tumane kucha hone diyaa| agara yaha tumheM khayAla rahe Apako nihAratA hI rhaa| kyA kara diyA Apane?' to tuma mAlika rhoge| tuma jaba hone denA cAhoge tabhI ho maiMne kucha bhI nahIM kiyaa| mere kiye kyA ho sakatA hai? tumane | jaayegaa| agara tuma satata hone denA cAhoge to satata hotA rhegaa| kucha hone diyaa| maiMne kucha kiyA nhiiN| tumane kucha hone diyaa| lekina mAlakiyata mere hAtha meM mata de denaa| isa pharka ko ThIka se samajha lenaa| aisI bhUla akasara ho jAtI hai| akasara, jIvana meM hamArA sArA agara tumane aisA socA ki maiMne kucha kara diyA, to yaha to tarka yahI hai : koI tumhAre pAsa se gujarA aura tumheM namaskAra na parataMtratA kI nayI jaMjIra zurU ho jaayegii| taba tuma rAha dekhoge kiyA-krodha A gyaa| aba tuma kahate ho, isa AdamI ne ki maiM kucha karUM to ho| krodhita kara diyaa| isa AdamI ne kucha bhI nahIM kiyaa| yaha isa bhrAMti meM mata pdd'naa| yaha bhrAMti hotI hai| usakI marjI namaskAra kare na kre| hAM, eka maujUdagI banI, eka tuma eka rAha se gujara rahe ho| eka suMdara strI dikhAyI pdd'ii| avasara bnaa| usane namaskAra nahIM kiyaa| krodha to tumane hone kucha ho gyaa| aba tuma kahate ho, 'isa strI ne kucha kara diyaa|' diyaa| ise doSa dUsare para mata denaa| isa strI ne kucha bhI nahIM kiyaa| tumhAre bhItara hI kucha huaa| tumhAre bhItara koI dUsarA kucha karatA nhiiN| aisA hI samajho ki isakI maujUdagI ne sahArA de diyaa| isane koI jAdU nahIM kiyA, eka sUkhA kuAM ho aura hama usameM eka bAlaTI DAleM, khUba koI vazIkaraNa nahIM kiyA, jaisA loga samajhate haiN| zAyada ise to khar3akhar3AeM, khUba DubakI lagavAeM bAlaTI kI, lekina kucha bhI na khayAla bhI na ho| tumheM kucha huA, yaha pakkA hai| isakI ho, kyoMki kuAM sUkhA hai| bAlaTI khAlI kI khAlI vApasa A maujUdagI ne kaiTeleTika ejeMTa kA kAma kiyaa| zAyada isakI jaae| phira bhare kueM meM hama bAlaTI DAleM, to bharakara A jaaye| maujUdagI meM na ho pAtA, dera-abera hotA, lekina isakI maujUdagI tuma agara prema se bhare ho to paristhitiyAM anukUla bana jAyeMgI meM koI cIja tumhAre bhItara jhalaka gayI; lekina jo jhalakI hai vaha | jinameM tumhArA prema ubharakara A jaayegaa| tuma agara krodha se bhare tumhArI hI aMtara-dazA hai| isakI maujUdagI meM tumako jhalaka ho to paristhitiyAM anukUla bana jAyeMgI, jinameM krodha ubharakara milI prema kI, lekina prema tumhArI bhAva-dazA hai| tumhAre bhItara | A jaayegaa| par3A huA prema phUTa pdd'aa| isakI maujUdagI avasara bnii| isane yaha saMsAra sabhI paristhitiyoM kA samAgama hai| yahAM sabhI kucha kiyA nhiiN| isakI maujUdagI niSkriya avasara hai| paristhitiyAM maujUda haiN| tuma jisase bhare ho vahI pragaTa hone ThIka vaise hI buddhapuruSoM kI maujUdagI niSkriya avasara hai| buddha lgegaa| agara tuma thor3e zAMta, mauna se bhara jAo, to tumhAre yA mahAvIra tumhAre bhItara kucha karate nhiiN| nahIM, itanI hiMsA bhI bhItara bahuta kucha ghaTegA, bahuta-se vAtAyana khuleNge| ve na kara skeNge| yaha bhI hiMsA ho jaayegii| asamaya meM kucha kara | lekina bhUlakara bhI yaha mata kahanA ki maiMne kucha kiyaa| jyAdA denA aisA hI hogA jaise garbhapAta ho jAye samaya ke phle| nahIM ve se jyAdA itanA hI kahanA ki merI maujUdagI meM tumane kucha hone pratIkSA kreNge| diyaa| aura phira ye bhI koziza karanA ki merI maujUdagI ke binA sakarAta kahatA thAH merA kAma dAI kA kAma hai, middvaaiph| bhI vaha ho jAye, tAki tuma usake mAlika bana sko| dAI kA kAma yaha hai ki jaba baccA paidA hone ke karIba ho taba vaha mujhe suna rahe the, kucha huA-acAnaka tuma cauMka gaye, avAka jarA sahArA de de| binA sahAre ke bhI paidA ho jAyegA bccaa| raha gae, cakita! thor3A sahArA de de| thor3I DhAr3hasa baMdhA de| thor3I himmata baMdhA do| aba aisA hI subaha baiTha jAnA, sUraja Ugate hI, sUraja ko lekina samaya ke pahale bacce ko bahAra na nikAla de, anyathA dekhanA! phira vaise hI zAMta, mauna use dekhate rhnaa| tuma acAnaka 525

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jina sUtra bhAgaH1 jina sUtra bhAga : 1 - pAoge: kisI dina sUraja ke Ugane se bhI vaisA ho jaayegaa| saMyogavazAta tuma cupa the| mana meM sannATA thaa| sunane ko Atura phira pakSiyoM ke kolAhala ko sunnaa| unake kalarava ko the, isalie bola nahIM rahe the| usa AturatA meM bhI koI aisI ghar3I sunnaa| kisI dina tuma pAogeH sunate-sunate-sunate phira tAra | AyI hogI jahAM mere zvAsa ke aura tumhAre zvAsa ke bIca eka mila gae! phira ho gayA! taba to eka bAta pakkI ho jAyegI ki layabaddhatA A gayI, eka tAlamela ho gyaa| to jisa taraha, tuma jahAM bhI hone dete ho vahIM ho jAtA hai| jisa jagata meM maiM spaMdita ho rahA hUM, kSaNabhara ko tuma mere sAtha nAca phira kisI dina bIca bAjAra meM, jahAM hone kI koI AzA nahIM | liye, spaMdita ho ge| kucha huA! kucha--jisase tuma cakita dikhAyI par3atI, vahAM tuma bAjAra ke zoragula ko mauna bhAva se hoo! kucha--jisa para tuma bharosA nahIM kara sakate! sunanA aura tuma cakita hoogeH vahAM bhI ho jAtA hai! kucha--jisako tuma cAhoge ki maiM kahUM ki maiMne kiyA! kyoMki taba tuma mAlika hone lge| taba tuma apane pairoM para khar3e hone | tumheM apane para AtmavizvAsa nahIM ki tumase aisA ho skegaa| lge| taba maiM tumhAre lie baisAkhI na banA, varana merI maujUdagI ne phira bhI maiM tumase kahatA hUM, tumhIM se huA hai| aura bAra-bAra tumhAre pairoM ko bala diyaa| | tumase yahI kahUMgA ki jaba bhI ho, smaraNa rakhanA tumhIM se ho rahA dhyAna rakhanA, tumhArI AkAMkSA mujhe baisAkhI banA lene kI hai| hai| merI paristhiti kA upayoga kara lo| merI maujUdagI kA lekina baisAkhI mila jAe to bhI tuma laMgar3e hI rhoge| | upayoga kara lo| merI maujUdagI tumheM tumhAre bhItara kI saMpadA ke kisI guru ko baisAkhI mata bnaanaa| aura jo guru svayaM ko prati thor3A jAgarUka kara de, phira tuma mujhe bhUlo! kyoMki maiM bAhara tumhArI baisAkhI banane de vaha tumhArA mitra nahIM, za vaha tumhAre laMgar3epana ke lie zAzvatatA de rahA hai| aba tuma sadA buddha ne kahA : buddha-puruSa izArA karate haiM, calanA tumheM par3atA ke lie laMgar3e raha jaaoge| hai| mahAvIra ne kahA hai : maiM sirpha upadeza karatA hUM, Adeza nhiiN| yahI bAta akasara ghaTatI hai| tuma kinhIM logoM ke pAsa jAkara maiM vahI bola detA hUM, jo hai| tuma agara sunane ko rAjI ho suna kahoge, ki ApakI maujUdagI ne, Apane aisA kucha kara diyaa| lo| jIsasa ne kahA hai : agara tumhAre pAsa AMkheM hoM to dekha lo, sadaguru aura asadaguru kI pahacAna yahI hai| asadaguru kahegA, | maiM maujUda hUM! tumhAre pAsa kAna hoM to suna lo, maiM bola rahA hUM! 'hAM, merI zakti se aisA huaa|' sadaguru kahegA, 'kisI kI tumhAre pAsa hRdaya ho to dhar3aka lo mere sAtha! zakti kA koI savAla nhiiN| tumane hone diyA', aura tuma agara aisA hI samajho ki thor3I, kSaNabhara ko, tuma mere sAtha dhar3aka hone do to koyala kI kuhU-kuhU se bhI ho jaayegaa| pAnI ke jharane liye, zvAsa se zvAsa mela khA gayI, dhar3akana se dhar3akana mela kI AvAja se bhI ho jaayegaa| sAgara ke tumula nAda se bhI ho khA gyii| eka kSaNa ko eka Aroha huaa| tumhAre bhItara eka jaayegaa| phira to bIca bAjAra meM bhI ho jaayegaa| bhIr3a, taraMga uThI, usane AkAza chU liyA! lekina ise maiM cAhatA hUM ki kolAhala, calate hue loga, hajAra taraha kI bAteM, tuma sadA smaraNa rakhanA ki vaha tumhAre hI kAraNa huaa| kyoMki zoragula-usase bhI ho jaayegaa| kyoMki asalI bAta bAhara se agara mere kAraNa huA to tuma mujhase bNdhe| phira bAjAra meM na ho bhItara nahIM A rahI hai-asalI bAta bhItara se bAhara jA rahI hai| | skegaa| phira pakSiyoM ke kalarava meM na ho skegaa| phira sAgara ke asalI bAta hai ki tuma zAMta hokara sunane meM samartha ho gae; tumane | tumula nAda meM na ho skegaa| phira tuma baMdhe mujhse| phira to maiM koI pratikriyA na kii| tumhArA nazA ho gyaa| phira tumheM merI talapha lagegI, ki jAeM nizcita hI, pahalI daphA usI vyakti ke pAsa ho skegaa| | vahAM, suneM vahIM, phira satsaMga kreN| jisase tamhArA bar3A zraddhA kA lagAva hai| pahalI dphaa| vahAM nahIM, satsaMga kA artha hI yaha hai ki tumhArI aisI ghar3I A jAye AsAna hogA, jahAM bar3A prema kA lena-dena hai; jahAM do hRdaya | ki saba jagaha, jahAM tuma ho vahIM satsaMga hone lge| nahIM kahatA sAtha-sAtha dhar3akate haiN| ki yahAM mata AnA, lekina vaha AnA tumhArA roga na bana jAe; jaba tumane merI yaha bAta sunI taba kisI kAraNa se, vaha zarAbI kI lata na bana jAe! 526

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mAMga nahIM-ahobhAva, ahogIta tuma AnA aura prasanna honaa| aura tuma AnA aura khulnaa| anahonA ghaTa gayA, to loga kaheMge, isa bolane meM kyA rakhA hai? aura tuma AnA aura prasAda ko upalabdha honaa| lekina smaraNa | ye zabda to sAdhAraNa haiN| rakhanA ki saba tumhAre bhItara ho rahA hai| aura jaba tuma yahAM se 'mahAvIra ne svAdhInatA ko AtyaMtika mUlya diyA, vaha mUlya jAo, to jo huA hai use saMbhAlakara apane sAtha le jAnA, use kisI aura ne nahIM diyA'-ina zabdoM se kyA ghaTa sakatA hai? yahAM mata chor3a jaanaa| aura dhIre-dhIre viparIta paristhitiyoM meM bhI tuma dUsare ko mata samajhAnA! ye bAteM to dIvAnoM kI haiN| hAM usakI jhalaka ko pAne kI koziza krnaa| jahAM koI saMbhAvanA | kisI aura ko huA ho to usase bAta kara lenaa| nahIM to khatarA na dikhAyI par3atI ho, jahAM dukha hI dukha, pIr3A hI pIr3A ho--phira kyA hai? khatarA yaha hai ki agara tuma auroM se yaha kahoge to ve tuma AMkha baMda karake usI bhAvadazA ko, usI taraMga ko apane | samajheMge, ki kucha gar3abar3a; tumhArA dimAga kharAba ho rahA hai, bhItara laanaa| tuma cakita hooge ki dhIre-dhIre vaha taraMga uThane kisI sammohana meM par3a gaye ho| aura Dara yaha hai ki ve kahIM lagI, mAlakiyata hAtha meM Ane lgii| tumhArA Atma-avizvAsa na jagA deN| agara Atma-avizvAsa taba kahIM bhI, AMgana kitanA hI tirachA ho, tumheM nAca A gayA jaga gayA to dubArA yaha na hogaa| to tuma nAca skoge| jyAdA se jyAdA yahAM maiM itanA hI kara rahA hUM | to aisI ghaTanA kabhI bhI ghaTatI ho, mujhe kaha denA yA gairika raMga ki tumheM caukora AMgana de rahA huuN| isase jyAdA nhiiN| jo jagA hai ke bahuta pAgala yahAM haiM, unase kaha denA; magara samajhadAroM se mata vaha tumhAre bhItara hI soyA thaa| kahanA, nahIM to ve tumheM nukasAna pahuMcA sakate haiN| aMtataH jaba phira ye kaisI kasakasI hai dila meM, tumhAre jIvana meM saba sApha ho jAyegA, phira to koI nukasAna nahIM tujhako muddata huI ki bhUla cukaa| pahuMcA sktaa| lekina abhI jaba aMkura bar3A komala hotA hai, vaha jo kasakasI phira se mAlUma huI, vaha kucha bAhara se nahIM abhI jaba bIja TUTA hI hotA hai, taba hara khatarA prANaghAtI ho AyI hai| vaha usI kI yAdadAzta hai jise tuma muddata huI bhUla | sakatA hai| cuke| vaha tumhAre mUlasrota kA smaraNa hai| jaba dila pe na ho kAbU apanA, kyA jabta kareM kyA sabra kreN| phira ye kaisI kasakasI hai dila meM mujha jaise kAza vaha ho jAeM jo A-Akara samajhAte haiN| tujhako muddata huI ki bhUla cukaa| kaI loga tumheM samajhAyeMge ki 'kyA pAgalapana kara rahe ho? itane bhUla cUke ho ki aba yaha bhI yAda nahIM ki bhUla cuke| hoza meM Ao! buddhi smhaalo| yaha tuma kina bAtoM meM par3e jA bhUla cuke haiM, yaha bhI yAda rahe to bilakula bhUle nahIM, yAda hai| rahe ho?' lekina hama itane bhUla gaye haiM ki yaha bhI aba yAda nahIM ki bhUla | jaba dila pe na ho kAbU apanA, kyA jabta kareM kyA sabra kareM! cuke| mujha jaise kAza vaha ho jAeM jo A-Akara samajhAte haiN| tuma mere karIba, vaha muddata huI jise tuma bhUla cuke, janama-janama | lekina vaha tumhAre jaise na hoNge| aura Dara yaha hai ki vaha tumheM kA gherA, bahuta dUra raha gayI vaha bAta jo tumhArA mUlasrota thI aura apane jaisA banA sakate haiM, kyoMki ve jyAdA haiN| jo tumhArI, aMtima jIvana kI niyati hai; prathama jo thI aura bhIr3a hai| aura hama bhIr3a para bar3A bharosA karate haiN| hamArI aMtima jo hai, vaha bAta bhUla gayI hai-yahAM tumheM yAda A jAye, dhAraNA hI yaha hai ki jisa bAta ko bahuta loga mAnate haiM, vaha ThIka thor3I surati A jAye! basa itanA kAphI hai! honI caahie| akasara to ulaTA hotA hai| jisako bahuta loga aura isa bAta ko tuma hara kisI se kahate mata phirnaa| nahIM to mAnate haiM vaha bAta akasara to galata hotI hai| kyoMki bahuta loga loga hNseNge| yaha bAta to dIvAnoM se hI karane kI hai| galata haiN| akasara to aisA hotA hai, ThIka bAta ko kabhI koI agara tumane yaha kisI aura ko kahA ki maiM yaha bola rahA thaa| eka-Adha mAnatA hai| bhIr3a to sadA galata ko hI mAnatI hai| ki 'mahAvIra ne svAdhInatA ko AtyaMtika mUlya diyA, vaha mUlya isalie satya ke jagata meM koI lokataMtra nahIM hai, koI mata nahIM hai, kisI aura ne nahIM diyA', usa kSaNa meM tumhAre bhItara kucha ki nabbe pratizata logoM ne sAtha de diyA to satya honA caahie| 527

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jina sUtra bhAgaH1 akasara to aisA huA hai: jaba mahAvIra ne kahA to ve akele, to popa ko samajha meM bhI A rahA thA, lekina phira bhI usane jaba buddha ne kahA to ve akele| gailIliyo ko kahA ki tuma kSamA maaNgo| adAlata meM ghuTane dharma ko choDa deM. vijJAna ko leN| gailIliyo ne kahA, Tekakara gailIliyo ne kSamA mAMgI lekina vaha AdamI bhI baDA koparanikasa ne kahA to akele| AiMsTIna na kahA to akele| gajaba kA thaa| usane kahA ki maiM kSamA cAhatA huuN| Apa kahate haiM, sArI duniyA mAnatI thI sadiyoM se ki jamIna capaTI hai| aura zAstra kahate haiM to sUraja hI cakkara lagAtA hogA, pRthvI khar3I jaba gailIliyo ne kahA ki jamIna gola hai to vaha akelA thaa| hogii| lekina eka bAta maiM kahe detA hUM, mere kahane se kucha bhI nahIM sArI duniyA mAnatI thI sadiyoM se ki sUraja UgatA hai, DUbatA hai| hotaa| lagA to pRthvI hI cakkara rahI hai| mere kahane se kyA aba bhI sabhI bhASAeM yahI kahatI haiM: sUryAsta, sUryodaya; hogA? maiM kSamA mAMgatA huuN| merA isameM kucha hAtha hI nahIM hai| maiM sanarAija, snsett| gailIliyo ho cukA, isase bhASA meM abhI thor3e hI pRthvI ko calavA rahA hUM? to maiM jhaMjhaTa meM nahIM par3anA pharka nahIM par3A hai| tIna sau sAla ho gaye, lekina bhASA aba bhI | caahtaa| lekina eka bAta maiM kahe detA hUM ki maiM kSamA mAMgU yA na galata bolI jA rahI hai| mAMgU, maiM kahUM yA na kahUM--isase kyA pharka par3atA hai? gailIliyo ne kahA, na sUraja UgatA hai na DUbatA hai-sUraja Adamiyata mAne yA na mAne, isase kyA pharka par3atA hai ? sUraja calatA hI nhiiN| khayAla yaha thA ki sUraja pRthvI ke cAroM tarapha | khar3A hai pRthvI cakkara lagA rahI hai| cakkara lagAtA hai| dikhatA hai lagAtA huA, isameM koI zaka duniyA meM satya ko jAnanevAle to kabhI-kabhI hote haiN| bhIr3a to nhiiN| aba bhI khAlI AMkha se dekho to lagatA hai ki cakkara | asatya ko mAnatI hai| lekina hamAre mana meM eka dhAraNA hai ki lagA rahA hai| | jisako bahuta loga mAnate haiM vaha ThIka honA caahie| itane loga asaliyata bilakula ulaTI hai : pRthvI cakkara lagA rahI hai| mAnate haiM! aura hamArA koI AtmavizvAsa to hai nhiiN| sUraja khar3A hai| lekina hama pRthvI para baiThe haiM to hamako pRthvI kA to dUsaroM se mata khnaa| anyathA ve hNseNge| unakI haMsI tumhAre cakkara lagAnA to dikhAyI par3a nahIM sktaa| isalie sUraja jIvana meM jahara ho sakatI hai| ve tumheM pAgala smjheNge| unakA cakkara lagAtA huA dikhAyI mAlUma par3atA hai| samajhanA tumheM DagamagA sakatA hai| kabhI tumane khayAla kiyA? Trena meM tuma baiThe ho aura dUsarI Trena isalie ye bAteM to aisI haiM ki jo tumhAre hI rAste para cala rahe bagala meM khar3I hai| tumhArI Trena calatI hai to lagatA hai dUsarI Trena haiM aura jinheM kucha aisA honA zurU haA ho, unase kara lenA; to cala pdd'ii| cauMkakara tumheM lagatA hai dUsarI Trena cala rahI hai| tuma eka dUsare ke lie sahayogI banoge, sahArA banoge, bala doge, calatI tumhArI hai, lekina tuma to apanI Trena meM baiThe ho| tuma bhI Atmabala vikasita hogaa| aura jitanA Atmabala bar3hegA utanI usake sAtha cala par3e, isalie patA nahIM cltaa| donoM kI gati aura ghaTanAeM saMbhava ho jaayeNgii| barAbara hai| lekina pAsa kI Trena khar3I hai| vaha calatI huI mAlUma par3atI hai| AkhirI praznaH mujhe itanA kucha mila rahA thA ki usakA gailIliyo ne kahA hai ki sUraja khar3A hai, pRthvI calatI hai| AnaMda aMtara meM samAtA nahIM thaa| itanA AnaMda, itanI khuzI hajAroM-hajAroM sAla se AdamI mAnatA thA : pRthvI khar3I hai, sUraja kahAM rakhaM, kaise samhAlUM-samajha meM nahIM aataa| aura pyAsa calatA hai| lekina isase kucha pharka nahIM pdd'taa| bhI utanI hI hai| jinakI kRpA se jIvana kI saMdhyA meM mujhe yaha gailIliyo ko adAlata meM le jAyA gayA thaa| kyoMki popa saba mila rahA hai, unase pAsa hote hae bhI dUra hai| ina do bAtoM ke khilApha thA, kyoMki bAibila meM to likhA hai ki pRthvI khar3I hai| lie pAgala-sI jI rahI thii| kucha dinoM se saba cupa hone lagA aura dharmaguru sadA Darate rahe haiM ki agara zAstra kI eka bhI bAta hai| ghaMToM baiThI rahatI hUM yA leTI rahatI huuN| kucha karane kA mana galata ho jAye to logoM meM zaka paidA hogaa| loga soceMge jaba | nahIM hotaa| na kucha burA lagatA hai aura na acchaa| prabhu, yaha eka galata ho sakatI hai to bAkI bhI galata ho sakatI haiN| saba kyA ho rahA hai? 528

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rakama a mAMga nahIM-ahobhAva, ahogIta - zubha ho rahA hai| pyAsa thira ho rahI hai| pyAsa gaharI ho rahI hai| hai, kauna bhagavAna hai| nadI jaba uthalI hotI hai to zoragala karatI hai| nadI jaba gaharI rAmakRSNa apane Upara hI phUla DAla lete the| bhagavAna ko hotI hai to zAMta ho jAtI hai| itanI zAMta ho jAtI hai ki patA hI car3hAne jAte, khuda hI para DAla lete| bhagavAna ko bhoga lagAte, nahIM calatA ki calatI bhI hai yA nhiiN| khuda hI ke muMha meM DAla lete| logoM ne zikAyata kI ki yaha to gaharI nadI ko dekhA? thira mAlUma hotI hai| basa aisA hI ho koI pUjA na huii| ye to pUjA kA ullaMghana hai| rahA hai| jo pyAsa aba taka thor3I taraMgeM bhI paidA karatI thI, vaha rAmakRSNa ne kahA, 'karUM kyA? bheda hI nahIM mAlUma hotaa| aura gaharAI para jA rahI hai| aba saba cupa ho rahA hai| | yaha muMha bhI aba usI kA! yaha sira bhI usI kaa| ye hAtha bhI kucha roja ye bhI raMga rahA iMtajAra kA, usI ke! ye phUla bhI usI ke!' AMkha uTha gayI jidhara basa udhara dekhate rhe| kauna kauna hai, pakkA patA nahIM calatA! AMkha haTAnA bhI bhUla jaayegaa| vicAra karanA bhI bhUla ika terI tamannA ne kucha aisA navAjA hai, jaayegaa| Thage-Thage se! baitthe-baitthe| mAMgI hI nahIM jAtI aba koI duA hmse| kucha roja ye bhI raMga rahA iMtajAra kA, aba yaha jo ghar3I A rahI hai, isa ghar3I meM kucha bhI mAMganA mt| AMkha uTha gayI jidhara basa udhara dekhate rhe| aba to sirpha dhanyavAda, sirpha ahobhaav| use dhanyavAda denA ! aisI dIvAnagI AyegI, A rahI hai| svAgata karanA usakA! jo bhI vaha de, dhanyavAda denaa| udAsI mAlUma par3e to bhI dhanyavAda palaka pAMvar3e bichAnA usake lie! ghabar3A mata jaanaa| kyoMki | denA; jaldI udAsI zAMti meM pariNita ho jaayegii| aisA lage, pahale-pahale jaba zAMti utaratI hai to lagatI hai udAsI hai| kyoMki utsava kho rahA hai to bhI dhanyavAda denaa| eka nayA utsava zurU ho hama udAsI se paricita haiM, zAMti se paricita nahIM haiN| donoM ke | rahA hai jo abhivyakti kA nahIM hai, jo anabhivyakta hai, jo zAMta cehare meM thor3A tAlamela hai| hai aura mauna hai| to jaba pahalI daphe zAMti AtI hai to aisA lagatA hai kahIM ye to maiM tumase kahatA hUM, mahAvIra bhI nAce haiM, mIrA hI nahIM naacii| nahIM ki hama udAsa hue jA rahe haiN| pahale-pahale AnaMda bhI bAje lekina mIrA kA nAca bAhara bhI AyA, mahAvIra kA nAca bhItara hI bajAtA hai| phira dhIre-dhIre bAje zAMta hone lagate haiM, kyoMki bhItara raha gyaa| itanA gahana hai| bAjoM kA zoragula bhI AnaMda meM bAdhA hai| phira AnaMda kI eka jaise dekhA nIla nadI hai, ijipta meM! kaI mIloM taka jamIna ke aisI ghar3I AtI hai jaba utsava bhI zAMta ho jAtA hai| nIce hI bahatI hai, dikhAyI nahIM pdd'tii| phira pragaTa hotI hai| to bhItara-bhItara, bhItara-bhItara raga-roeM meM samA jAtA hai| nAca bhI | sadiyAM ho gayIM, logoM ko patA hI na thA ki isakA janma-srota nahIM hogA-nAca itanA gaharA ho jAtA hai| koI kriyA Upara kahAM hai, yaha udagama kahAM hai! kyoMki kaI mIloM taka to vaha dikhAyI na pdd'egii| jamIna ke nIce hI bahatI hai to udagama kA patA kaise cale? pahale to zauke-dIda meM saba kucha bhulA diyA mIrA aisI hai jaise nIla nadI pragaTa ho gyii| aura mahAvIra aise aba meM najara ko DhUMr3ha rahA hUM, najara mujhe| | haiM jaise nIla nadI abhI jamIna ke nIce bahatI hai| nAca to hai aisI ghar3I AtI hai ki apanA hI patA nahIM cltaa| hI-lekina nAca bar3A mauna hai, cupa hai, bar3A garu-gaMbhIra hai! pahale to zauke-dIda meM saba kucha bhulA diyA-pahale to usa kaThinAI hogii| ye pratIkSA ke pala pIr3A ke pala bhI hoNge| paramAtmA ko dekhane kI AkAMkSA meM saba bhulA baitthe| lekina usa kabhI-kabhI to aisA lagegA, kucha kho to nahIM gyaa| pahale to saba bhulAne meM najara bhI kho jAtI hai| aba maiM najara ko DhUMr3ha rahA bar3e AnaMdita mAlUma ho rahe the; vaha AnaMda bhI calA gyaa| pahale hUM, najara mujhe| aba kucha samajha meM nahIM AtA kauna kahAM hai, kauna to bar3e nAce-nAce mAlUma par3ate the; vaha pulaka calI gyii| kahIM kauna hai? kucha kho to nahIM gayA! AkhirI ghar3I meM kucha bhI patA nahIM calatA bheda kA : kauna bhakta | zabe-iMtajAra kI kazamakaza na pUcha kaise sahara huI 529]

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jina sUtra bhAga: 14 kabhI ika cirAga jalA diyA, kabhI ika cirAga bujhA diyaa| apanI jholI meM ghara se DAla lie| denevAloM ke lie thor3I milana kI rAta kI kazamakaza na pUcha aura yaha mata pUcha ki kaise himmata hotI hai ki calo isako auroM ne bhI diyA hai| to bhikhArI subaha huI! bar3I muzkila huii| kabhI eka cirAga jalA liyA, thor3e-se paise apanI thAlI meM DAlakara baiTha jAtA hai| to phira bujhA diyA, phira jalA liyA, phira bujhA diyA! aisI | nikalanevAle ko thor3A sAhasa rahatA hai ki koI hama hI nahIM phaMsa udher3a-buna huii| rahe haiM, aura logoM ne bhI diyA hai| to thor3I lajjata bhI AtI hai, zabe-iMtajAra kI kazamakaza na pUcha kaise sahara haI | to thor3I lajjA bhI lagatI hai, thoDA zarma bhI. saMkoca bhI lagatA hai kabhI ika cirAga jalA diyA, kabhI ika cirAga bujhA diyaa| ki aba aura de cuke haiM to hama koI itane gaye-bIte to nahIM, calo aisI kazamakaza aaegii| ghabar3AnA mt| basa eka hI khayAla eka paisA de do! to thor3e-se cAvala ke dAne DAlakara jholI meM rakhanA ki jo bhI ho rahA hai, jo bhI hotA hai-zubha hai| yahI | bhikhArI claa| rAha para AyA, kabhI socA bhI na thaa| sapanA bhI tumhArI prArthanA ho aba ki jo bhI ho rahA hai, zubha hai| aura taba na dekhA thA-rAha para A rahA hai usa mahArAjA kA ratha-svarNa zubha ke naye-naye dvAra khalate jaayeNge| ratha, sUrya kI kiraNoM meM camakatA huA! usane socA, Aja mere dila se milatI to hai eka rAha kahIM se Akara, dhanyabhAga, Aja mere bhAgya khula gaye! Aja to jholI pasAra dUMgA socatA hUM ye terI rAhagujara hai ki nhiiN| aura mAMga luuNgaa| aba rAjA hI sAmane A rahA hai, dvAra se kabhI isa ciMtA meM mata par3anA kyoMki aba jaldI hI dila ke pAsa jo bhItara jAne kA maukA milatA na thaa| dvArapAla dvAra se hI bhagA dete paramAtmA kA rAstA gujaratA hai vaha dikhAyI pdd'egaa| soca-vicAra | the| aba Apa to rAste para mila gye| meM mata pdd'naa| jaba saba sannATA ho jAtA hai, utsava bhI calA to vaha bIca meM khar3A ho gyaa| ratha rukaa| rAjA na kevala use jAtA hai, AnaMda bhI calA jAtA hai aura saba zAMta ho jAtA hai aura apane pAsa bulAyA, khuda utarakara nIce aayaa| lekina rAjA ko AdamI ThagA-ThagA raha jAtA hai tabhI hRdaya ke pAsa se jisakA pAsa dekhakara vaha ghabar3A gyaa| kabhI rAjA kI sannidhi nahIM kii| rAstA gujaratA hai usake darzana hote haiN| hama apane karIba Aye, yAda hI na rahI, avAka ThagA raha gyaa| dekhatA rahA rAjA ke muMha asaMga hue, nisaMga hue! yahI saMnyAsa kI parAkASThA hai| saMsAra kI trph| aura isake pahale ki vaha apanI jholI phailAye, rAjA aura bAhara kA saba bhUla gayA! bhItara, bhItara, bhItara utarate gye| | ne apanI jholI phailA dii| aura usane kahA, manA mata karanA, apane keMdra para aaye| vahAM se gujaratI hai rAha paramAtmA kI! taba | inakAra mata karanA, kyoMki mere jyotiSiyoM ne kahA hai ki Aja maiM saMdeha meM mata par3a jAnA kyoMki ye mana meM vicAra, AkhirI vicAra bhIkha mAgU to rAjya bacegA, anyathA rAjya para khatarA hai|| yahI AtA hai ki kahIM yaha rAstA sahI hai ki glt| aba kaThinAI hama soca sakate haiM : bhikhArI jisane kabhI diyA dila se milatI to hai eka rAha kahIM se Akara, nahIM, sadA mAMgA! dene kI koI Adata hI nhiiN| dene kA koI socatA hUM ye terI rAhagujara hai ki nhiiN| saMskAra hI nhiiN| vaha bahuta ghabar3AyA, lekina aba inakAra bhI na yaha mata socnaa| yaha vicAra karanA hI mt| aba to vicAra | kara sakA, kyoMki rAjA ne kahA, 'inakAra mata karanA, pUre rAjya ko pUrA kA pUrA hI tyAga do| aba to nirvicAra ho rho| aura jo para khatarA hai| kucha bhI de do, usane hAtha bhItara DAlA jholI ke| | bhI ho, usako svIkAra karate jaao| dhIre-dhIre usI rAste para muTThI bAMdhatA hai, kholatA hai| kabhI diyA to hai nahIM, dene kI usakA ratha bhI aayegaa| aura jaba vaha ratha se utare aura tumhAre Adata hI nhiiN| bAmuzkila eka cAvala kA dAnA nikAlakara sAmane apanI jholI phailA de to kaMjUsI mata krnaa| saba DAla usane rAjA kI jholI meM DAla diyaa| ratha AyA-gayA ho gayA, denA ! svAhA! saba DAla denA! dhUla ur3atI raha gayI! vaha to khar3A raha gyaa| usane kahA, 'yaha ravIMdranAtha kA eka gIta hai| eka bhikhArI subaha-subaha utthaa| to hadda ho gyii| aura garIba kara gayA! eka dAnA aura pAsa thA, apanI jholI ko kaMdhe para TAMgakara bhIkha mAMgane niklaa| jaisA | vaha bhI le gayA!' ' ki bhikhArI karate haiM, usane bhI kiyaa| thor3e-se cAvala ke dAne phira sAMjha ghara lauTA bhIkha maaNgkr| usa dina khUba bhIkha 530

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HARYALAL mAMga nahIM- ahobhAva, milii| aisI kabhI na milI thii| jo detA hai use milatI bhI hai| usa dina ghara lauttaa| prasanna honA cAhie thA, lekina thor3A udAsa thaa| vaha eka dAnA kama thaa| ghara Akara patnI ne pUchA, 'itane udAsa?' to usane kahA, 'kyA karUM? hadda ho gyii| milane kI AzA bAMdhI thI, vaha to dUra, aura hamase, hAtha se le gayA! bhAgya kI viDaMbanA, majAka to dekho, vyaMgya!' usane jholI bar3I udAsI se udd'elii| dekhakara cakita huA, eka dAnA sone kA ho gayA thaa| jo diyA thA, vaha sone kA ho gayA thaa| chAtI pITa-pITakara rone lgaa| patnI to kucha samajhI nhiiN| usane kahA, 'huA kyA hai ? mAjarA kyA hai?' 'luTa gaye', usane kahA, 'luTa gaye! sAre dAne de diye hote, to sAre dAne sone ke ho jaate| lekina avasara AyA, gayA!' to itanA hI kahatA hUM, yaha jo ghar3I paka rahI hai, isako pakane denaa| jaldI hI hRdaya ke pAsa se usakI rAha milegii| rAha hI nahIM, usakA ratha bhI AtA hai, svarNa-ratha, sUrya-kiraNoM meM camakatA! usa vakta mAMgane kA mana hogA, kyoMki hama sadA bhikhamaMge rahe haiN| mAMganA mata! aura agara vaha jholI tumhAre sAmane phailAye, jaisI ki usane sadA hI phailAyI hai, to de denA! taba aisA mata karanA kRpaNatA, kaMjUsI ki eka dAnA DAla denA; anyathA phira rooge janmoM-janmoM taka! kyoMki phira kaba dubArA usakA ratha milegA kahanA muzkila hai| saba de ddaalnaa| jholI aura tuma svayaM bhI chalAMga lagA jAnA, tAki saba svarNamaya ho jaaye| saba svarNamaya ho sakatA hai| honA caahie| hama bAdhA na deM to ho jAye, abhI ho jaaye| ciMtA-vicAra na krnaa| zubha ho rahA hai! saba zAMta hotA jA rahA hai| jaldI hI ratha Ane ke karIba hai| usa ghar3I kI ahobhAva se pratIkSA! kaThina hogI prtiikssaa| dIyA jalegA, bujhegaa| jalAoge, bujhaaoge| gujAra denA rAta! ghabar3AnA mt| jitanI pratIkSA pIr3AdAyI hogI, utanA hI milana AnaMdadAyI hai| Aja itanA hii|