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THE PATH TO SELF-LIBERATION
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THE PATH TO
CONFESSIONS SELF-LIBERATION
Author Param Pujya Yuvakjagrutiprerak Dikshadaneshwari Acharyadev Shrimad Vijay Gunaratnasurishwarji Maharaj Saheb
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CONFESSION
THE PATH TO SELF-LIBERATION
LEARN FROM THE PAST LIUE I THE PRESENT OM PLAN THE FUTURE, One should learn from the mistakes of the past... Live in the present & plan the future in such a way that the mistakes are not repeated. Mistakes can be committed by every human being, but the person, who confesses them & atones for the same from his gurudev, really becomes venerable.
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Salutations to Jinshasan! In which, there is an excellent rite of confession to wash out the sins of a person... Will the water of river Ganges remain contaminated forever? No! If process is carried out then it will become pure & sacred. Confession has the power to make a soul pure & sacred. If you don't want to hide your sins.. go to Gurudev as early as possible & confess them.
To strengthen the foundation for an excellent life, the fear of sins should rise in the heart. If fear is created for the sins, hatred will emerge for them, & then only we will like to become pure & sacred by atonement. TO TELL A (IE IS Ban. BUT TO TELL d [IE S HIDE IT IS WORSE
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"A Tribute to all those innocent hearts who have a will to confess."
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Param Pujya Dwishatadhik Dikshadaneshwari Acharya Shree Gunaratnasurishwarji Maharaj
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INTRODUCTION OF THE
BIRTH amwat 1989, Poush (Third month of Vikram year) fourth day of bright half of lunar month, A.D.1932, Padarali (Raj)
1. Accepted asceticism at the young age
of 21 after leaving engagement.
INITIATION Samwat 2010, on the fourth day of bright half of lunar month Maha (Fourth month of Vikram year) A.D.1945 (Mumbai)
2. A record of collective Chaitri Oli of
3200 people at Jirawala.
GURU Param Pujya Siddhant Mahodadhi Acharya Premsurishwarji's disciple, Param Pujya Vardhaman Taponidhi Bhuvanbhanusurishwarji's disciple, Param Pujya Jitendrasurishwarji Maharaj Saheb
3. The historical foot pilgrimage Sangh
of 2700 people from Malgaon (Raj.) to Palitana, 6000 people to Ranakpur and 4000 people from Palitana to Girnar.
4. Initiated 28 young ladies and gents
in Surat, 38 of them in Palitana comprising to 244 initiations on collective basis.
GANI PADVI Samwat 2041, eleventh day of bright half of the lunar month Magsar (First month of
Both of Vikram year), A.D. 1985, Ahemadabad
PANAYAS PADVI Samwat 2044, second day of bright half of the lunar month Fagan (Fifth month of the Vikram year), Jalore (Raj)
5. 274 ladies and gents adopted life time
celibacy during Chaitri oli at Bheru Tarak Pilgrimage, which was build by
his inspiration 6. Historical 4700 attham at Mahatirth of
Shankheshwar
7. Collective Samayik of 51,000 people in
Surat, 52,000 in Palitana and 5,500 in Ahemdabad on occasion of initiation.
ACHARYA PADVI Samwat 2044, tenth day of bright half of lunar month Jetha (Eighth month Vikram year), Padarli (Raj)
LANGUAGES
Gujarati, Hindi, Marathi, Rajasthani, Sanskrit, Prakrit
English,
8. The author of Kshapak Shreni treatise
which was admired by German
Professor Klause Broon. 9. Successful lecturer of 51 spiritual
knowledge camps. 10. Guru of 81 disciples. 11. Brightened the lives of 1 lakh students
by giving knowledge through free Vishwaprakash postal tution scheme undertaken by Nakoda Trust.
LITERATURE Kshapak shreni, Upashamanakaran, etc. worth 60 thousands quatrains in Sanskrit and Prakrit treatise as well as Sau Chalo Siddhagiri Jaiye and Jain Ramayan in Gujrati, Hindi and English
STUDIES Sanskrit Grammar, Nyaya, Kavya, Aagamas, Vedic literature and other scriptures
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I have gone through the book concerned with "Bhav Alochna”. It is necessary that such literature is distributed to Shri Sangh. - Hon. Late Gacchadhipati Acharyadevshri Vijay Bhuvanbhanusurishvarji M.S.
OPINIONS OF HOM PRECEPTORS
Spiritual and well versed preceptors have given tremendous importance to repentance. Therefore this book “Confession for Self-liberation” is beacon against number of sins increasing in this era. - Hon. Acharyadevshri Hemprabhasurishvarji M.S.
Acharyadevshri is hard working and has a thorough knowledge of scriptures. His books are systematic, elegant and pertaining to the scriptures. - Hon. Siddhant Divakar Gacchadhipati Acharyadevshri Jayghoshsurishvarji M.S.
The books of Hon. Acharyadevshri Gunaratnasurishvarji M.S. are beneficial for the educated and young generation of today. - Hon. Acharadevshri
Prabhakarsurishvarji M.S.
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of praise. Shri Shrenikbhai, the chief of Jain Trusts, daily newspapers such as Mumbai Samachar, Janmabhumi, Dainik, Sandesh, Jaihind, Samabhay,
Prabhat etc also enlighted the FROM THE
significance of this book. It is
well said “One picture is worth EDITORIAL DESK
a thousand words? The pictures
can explain the message of the Modern civilization is undergoing
writer in a better way. That's why dreadful thoughts & occurrence
we published the Ninth edition of sins, it is very much necessary
in Hindi & Seventh edition in to control the same. For that,
Gujarati along with pictures & the mind of a person should be
some other additions. We are changed. To bring that revolution confident that this book will now Achryadev Shrimad Vijay be more useful & significant for Gunaratnasựrishwarji Maharaja
the readers. Saheb had written this book in
In this book, artist Arvindbhai hindi language. There was such a
have drawn the pictures with the heavy demand for this book from
guidance of Dikshadaneshwari everywhere that eight editions
Acharyadevshri, & some pictures have been printed in a very short
are taken from Jain Chitravali, period. After that the book was
Shri Mahavir Chitrasamput etc. demanded in Gujarati language.
We are thankful to them. Revised edition was prepared in Gujarati language. Six editions of As one reads the book thoroughly that book have been published & there will be a feeling of remorse now we are happy to publish the in the minds of reader which will English version.
also be helpful to relieve many
evil deeds. Several people had On previous publications,
tears in their eyes while reading Hon. Sanghahitekankshi
this book & due to that they were Bhuvanbhanu Surishwarji
able to reduce the consequence Maharaj Saheb, Hon. Acharya
of their deeds with the tears of Hemprabusurishwarji Maharaj
remorse. So, it is requested to the Saheb, Hon. Gacchadhipati
readers that they should read the Acharya Jayghoshsurishwarji
book not just once but three to Maharaj Saheb, Acharya
four times & inspire others also Prabhakar Surishwarji Maharaj
to read this. Saheb, Acharya Vidyanand Surishwarji Maharaj Saheb
- Jin Gun Aaradhak Trust, etc had showered the flowers
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TABLE OF CONTENTS
1 (01) Internal thoughts of a great soul
(02) Worries of future
15 (03) Consolation of gurudeva
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(04) Importance of confession
22 (05) Who is eligible for the penance of self criticism
) Self-criticism is a must for all
27 (07) Even today, the rite of confession exist
(08) Who is the Guru giving atonement ?
THE WITHERED FLOWERS WHO DIDN'T CONFESS
35 (01) 1 lakhs births of Rukmini
(02) A farmer killed a louse
40 (03) Rajja Sadhvi drunk unboiled water
(04) Marichi's pride and falsehood
5) Ardrakumar's Illustration
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(06) Metarjmuni's lowercaste and attainment of durlabhbodhiness
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(07) Chitrak and Sambhuti were born to a butcher
(08) llachiputra didn't confess in his previous birth 55
(09) Kamalshri took birth as a dog and monkey
(10) The deteriotation of Rupsen's seven births 60
(11) Chandra & Sarga didn't confess for anger
(12) Laxmana sadhviji suffered for not confessing 70
(13) Princess Rishidatta 7
(14) Why was innocent Sitaji slandered? 84
(15) What compelled Harishchandra to stay at the cemetery?
(16) King Shripal suffered due to non-confession
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(17) Punishment of theft & Devki Mata
(18) Dhandhankumar & hurdles
(19) Draupadi had to marry five men
(20) Unconfessed jealousy 98
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(22) Queen Kuntala
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(23) As the embodied soul of Bhagavan Mahavir Swami did not confess
103 (24) Harikeshibala took birth in an ancestry of executioner
104 (2)
(25) Kalavati's wrists were cut-off
'106 (26) Eggs held in hands
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(27) Why was Devananda's embryo transfered
107 (28) Didn't confess for disrespecting knowledge
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(29) Didn't confess for using the wealth meant for religious purpose
| (10) ATONED THE SINS AND BECAME GLITTERING STARS
(01) Kamalaxmi attained omniscience with her son
2) Pushpachula purified herself by confession
(03) Salutations to Khandhak Mahamuni
118 (04) Arnikkumar repents
(04) Arnikkumar repents
(11) The Power of Atonement
122 12) Question and Answers
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ITERNAL THOUGHTS OF
GREAT SOULI
U Gurudev! I have come to you, I am a sinner, an unrighteous person. What kind of sins and immoral acts or deeds have I not committed throughout my life? Today, under the impression of your preaching, all those sins are prickling my existence like thorns. I am experiencing a loud and excessive clanking and jingling sound. O Gurudev! It is now impossible as well as unbearable for me to put up with all these within myself. Oh Soul! What will be your future? Beginning the initial stage of life with series of sins! Oh No! What's this! Initially, I started stealing chocolates and peppermint. The inclination of hunger became more and more rigorous gradually resulting in stealing of food from other's house. Oh! alas! I had even stolen food and prasad secretly from temples and other religious places. Eventually, I was caught red handed but managed to escape cunningly by telling lies. At that time I had pleasure in telling lies and later on I expertised myself in doing this on regular basis.
Once upon a time, accidently and enthusiastically, I had a enjoyable
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What will happen to my soul?
experience of becoming a secret witness of my elders enjoying physically which resulted into attraction towards it. Later on, I started enjoying touching small innocent children while playing with them. Thereafter while playing either 'Kho Kho' or 'Carrom', nurture and satisfaction of this inclination became my prime objective. I became fond of touching hands etc of the children of opposite gender under any pretext or excuse. Under the guise of fun and jesting, the fire of inclination was startling continuously within me. What more should I say Gurudev! I don't have enough courage to admit but I am upset by the series of sins.
O Gurudev! I have realized from your speech that if I do not remove dirt from the drain of soul, the fragrance of worship will also become full of filth. One can be relieved even from the tumor of cancer by undergoing surgery but if a small thorn is not removed from the body, it becomes a cause of septic and even death. Hence, it is not possible to gain peace unless the sins are confessed. I will have to overcome from shame or disgrace otherwise I shall be more dreadful.
During the age of 8-9 years, I became victim of the company of a wrong person, who took me to multiplexes at his expenses. Those vulgar scenes in the movie made me to stare at ladies with shamelessness. Thus, the sins of my heart increased in multiples. I was not able to control myself in looking at couples in gardens & parks. What will happen to my soul?
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O Gurudev! otp My innocence
That person took advantage of my innocence and at the age of 12-13 made me indulge in
As if this was not enough, the aphrodisiac medicines made the situation worse. Now I engaged myself in touching women. To accomplish this, I started eating Pavbhaji, Bhelpuri and drinking Soda-Lemon with my friends. The habit of eating wafers and other outside eatables started increasing due to bad company. At the age of 14-15, I got a nice opportunity to increase the sins by participating in co-curricular activities, coeducation and games.
I turned temples and hostel rooms into places of evil activities and my elders were not even aware of all this. They were totally in the dark regarding the misuse of pocket money given to me. They couldn't even imagine that after attending a period for just half an hour, I spent the rest of three hours in a talkies or garden. The beginning of massacre of sensory organs started from the school life itself.
masturbation. I also enjoyed it and practised it frequently in privacy. It resulted into my deterioration. Emaciation of body began and I started looking for advertisements to get medicines that stimulated the energy level.
Our science teacher demonstrated an experiment of dissection of frog. For a moment I felt giddy. What's this? Cutting a living being up this way? My
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friend consoled me saying not to hesitate as we were supposed to learn biology in future by this way only. Now contempt towards violence started diminishing and I also had inserted the nails into the legs of a living frog. O Gurudev!, what should I say? I never thought about the trouble and misery suffered by that creature. I became insensitive by splitting his heart. Oh no! Just because of dissecting improperly, I had cut another frog. Later on I started buying frogs only to slaughter them. Oh no! Numerous living creatures were killed by me during my life span. When will I get rid of all these sins? One of the souls was hanged to death only for killing a louse, then, how many times will I be hanged to death?
Oh Gurudev! you are my only saviour. A grave incident occurred during my school life at the age of 16 years. Remembering it, I feel giddy and ashamed. I was going for tuition to a lady teacher. One day, she couldn't control her senses and hugged me tightly. I
too couldn't control myself. Thus at a very young age I was trapped in a great sin. How can one save himself in such a situation? I have completely blackened my life like a coal. O Lord! How unfair it is to commit physical relationship with teacher! What will happen to my dirty soul?
Later on, I entered in the college life. Here my sins of violence would have increased by leaps and bounds, but I was unsuccessful in gaining better marks and thus couldn't get admission in science and took admission in Commerce.
Here, I got an open field to fulfill and nurture my inclinations. My parents were satisfied by thinking that I was studying. But, after attending a period, I escaped for movies with my girlfriend. An evil thought took birth in my mind that one is considered intelligent only if he has a girlfriend. I was misusing or taking disadvantage of the pocket money provided by my parents. I started trapping many girls by
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doing such evil deeds. I used to call them sister & under the pretext of giving them a lift, I tried to influence them. I did many deeds to trap the unknown girls through Internet chat schemes. Oh! I used to call them sister but at the end I definitely made them the victim of my evil desires. Gurudev, what should I tell? The freedom & money provided by my family spoiled my young life. I also tried to boost my evil desires by watching several films, of physical exposures, of different countries on computer. What will happen to me! Gurudev, I don't understand what to say! My heart is overwhelmed! I can't speak, how will all these sins be relieved? What will be my future? This evil soul wants to hide himself beneath the earth. I am not worthy to show my face! I know that suicide is the greatest sin, so, I want to wash-out the sins with criticism. O Gurudev! please listen to my evil deeds. After watching adult movies, these evil desires have crossed all the limits. I also did the cruel activities of aggression on
DISAPPOINTMENT
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the neighbouring girls whenever I got an opportunity. I ignored their painful shriek & accumulated the bundle of sins. I have also fastened a black dot on their character. There was no hesitation to touch others as well as to expose myself. These evil deeds had no boundaries.
I crossed all the limits in spending money to make the hunt enjoyable so that it should not escape from my command. Big thefts too became compulsory inorder to fulfill the evil desires & to make all the related persons happy. I undertook various types of gambling such as lottery, matka, shares etc. Really, the book of my life became throughtly black. At the age of 21-22 yrs I was
engaged. It was just a formality. Internally, I became stuffless like a rotten tomato because of the sins. I have muddled the characters & virtues of so many people. The wicked & dirty sequence of writing love letters had started as if I had received right to write love letters. Oh! So many times, in the pretext of wandering outdoors, I have committed the great sin of experiencing the relationship as of husband-wife before marriage. My sins expanded like a drop of oil on water surface. My mind became occupied in plannings such as to whom & when I should meet? With whom I should live? Gurudev what should I do? What will my future be? I began to like the company of shameless, heartless,
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unworthy people. I followed them in such a manner that I began to like amorous reading very much. Five star hotels became the house of my evil activities. I became characterless by touching others in the darkness of theaters. Once I was caught & insulted too! I could not sleep. Later on I got rid of such fear & after few days the same routine began. The preparation for my marriage ceremony started and I was afraid that somebody would interrupt the marriage. At last I got married. I didn't have the sincerity to consider other's wealth as stone & other's woman as mother. While walking by the roadside my wandering sight made others the victim of my evil desires. Oh! What have I done?
I also forgot the spiritual rule that the waste of a single drop of vitality is equivalent to death. O Guru! From one month's diet one litre of blood is produced in the body which further produces just 10gms of vitality: I neglected such bodily science also. The sequence of such evil deeds was going on continuously. O Gurudev! Nine lakh living beings are killed during a single physical intercourse. I didn't even recall the religious thoughts that the slaughter house of such violence should be stopped. I even didn't think about my next birth that where will such violence lead me when the soul moves after death.
O Gurudev! The desires are endless. I didn't try to mitigate the same with the help of knowledge. As the desires were not fulfilled, the ocean of deterioration overflowed. One terrible day, after getting the consent of a bad friend, we agreed to exchange our wives. Being a victim of passions, I totally neglected the thoughts of good character & virtues. Fortunately, my moral wife refused. To
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in the same life. Gurudev! Please make me sacred by providing atonement before all those sins bear their fruits.
TRXOUR
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Whenever I remember my sins, I contempt myself by saying, "Oh Shameless! what have you done? Gurudev ! if this earth gives me a place, I want to hide myself inside it. I am not even worthy to show my face. What more to tell you Gurudev? I did not uproot desires with spiritual knowledge and further declined by conducting the wicked activities like strike, plunder and so on.
convince her, I told the wrong examples of the characters in Ramayana like Prabhav, Sumitra & Vanmala. At the end, to protect her character, she gathered courage and threatened to complain at the nearest police station. Later on, I too realized my mistakes.
Today, I consider her as my moral friend. Previously she appeared to me as an enemy. Horrible karmas are accumulated by my soul. Perhaps, all such sins will be repaid in this life itself because the sins, which are committed with an intense desire, shows the consequences
People will spit on my life story. Oh! What shall happen to me? I didn't think about it sincerely. Today, I am wailing. As I had a senior position in the job, I misguided the subordinate lady staff and also made them the victim of my evil desires by offering various temptations. I made them stuffless such that they couldn't live without me and would obey me. Now, the flower of my youth has withered. I am in a dilemma what to do? Not
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only this, inspite of being born & brought up in a well cultured family, I have also manipulated the sacred relationship of brother in law & bhabhi. Oh no! by being addicted to physical enjoyments, I have manipulated the nobility of my family. By the desires of consuming delicious & tasty food, I burdened myself with the sins such that even after taking many births on this earth, I will not be able to rescue myself from it.
I even didn't go to monasteries to wash my sins but instead, I criticized the people who went there calling them Bhagat: On the auspicious day of Samwantsari during Paryushna, I had dinner in a hotel secretly. During the Pratikramana also I did nothing but just played mischief. During fast, with the excuse of passing time, I would go to hotels and have my food. I have committed numerous sins with my wandering eyes. I have accumulated many layers of sins on my soul by hearing vulgar songs of movies & spoiling my mind.
To hide the unpleasant smell of my immoral behavior, I used more & more cosmetics & perfumes. But it was in vain. Later, diseases inhabited my body and I became a permanent victim of medicines.
I commenced business & my luck supported me. I began to earn lots of money as if I was minting them. Now, I considered my parents as an obstacle in the way of my pleasure. That's why, I started to behave with hate & rudeness with them. Instead of being grateful towards them, I drove them away from the house & offered a
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What should I tell about the story of my misfortune? My tongue has also enjoyed the taste of egg, omelet & chicken. Oh! what have I done? Killing living creature Oh! What : will happen to me? I have committed such wrong deeds that I will get place nowhere : but hell. I didn't realize that sins were taking their hold in my life. The person who sows cactus will only get thorns in return & never receive mangoes out of it. I also forgot this natural rule. I was trapped with physical & mental pain as well as many troubles. My strength & vigour was destroyed. I was ruined. Remembering this today, I feel frustrated. With the temptations of maintaining my youth & with a craze of touring, I compelled my wife to terminate pregnancy. My evil desires made her a cruel killer instead of being a kind mother. The virus of illness of my evil desires had began to infect the people around me. O Gurudev! What will happen to me?
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job as a professor in a college. During that time a female student was coming to me for tuition. Meanwhile, my wife was out of station for 2-4 days & under the pretext of tuition I took advantage of loneliness. My soul was captured with evil desires & I became a demon instead of a teacher. I have also manipulated the teacher-student relationship by observing physical relationship with her.
I became an expert in malpractices in business. To present false bills & manipulate the accounts was usual to me. I considered it as 'my intelligence by showing the customer some goods & deliver some other. Many times, instead of ten notes I received eleven notes from the customers & without any hesitation I put them in the cash box. My evil desire for acquiring wealth can be compared with Mamman Sheth. Probably his desire for wealth · could be considered insignificant. I disliked donation & charities. I hate my stinginess which was concentrated only towards protection
& fulfillment of my evil desires. My inner feelings were so cruel that if anybody came in the way of acquiring wealth, I wished to ruin him by hook or crook.
I didn't even think that only I myself would suffer the consequences of such evil deeds. Where & with how much cruelty will my soul be tormented? I always priorated money & wealth. I cheated so many persons so as to acquire wealth. I didn't even consider the day & night toils in the way of acquiring wealth.
Lust of wealth had also compelled me to have late night meals. I don't think that my soul & heart, which are corrupted by
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the evil deeds, will be cleaned without tears. Gurudev, you are telling "don't cry” but what should I do? Tears are flowing over & again from my eyes. Gurudev! Please help to apply the soap of repentance on my soul so as to make my heart & soul pure.
I didn't keep any limits at beating other people as well as my wife & children by getting angry over triffle matters. I never conveyed Micchami dukkadam with the good & lovely feeling & if I did so, it was just a formality. I nurtured hatred for them within my heart and continued their resentment. I wished to ruin them. I didn't keep any limits at misbehaving my neighbours. What will my destiny be? O Gurdev! I was the statue of pride. I couldn't control my anger if my name was not announced in the meeting where other's names were mentioned. I was also ready to ruin the gathering even if it were a religious one. Oh! Gurudev, Now, it's too much of my deeds. I considered myself intelligent in cheating others by adopting tactics and I held self pride for not being caught red-handed while doing so. In fact, I myself have cheated my soul. What should I do to get rid of my sins? I wish to repent in your presence and purify myself.
Dear readers, this is just an outline
of some possible sins that may be commited. Everyone's life is unique in itself just as the imprints of thumb. One may have commited many other sins by means of computers, internet, blue films, video clipping, mobile phones; abroad journey, shooting and killing in computer games, eating uneatables, gambling, cricket betting, drinks, tobacco, F & O, stock marketing and the list is endless. You should write down the sins committed with the details regarding your age at that time, place, circumstances etc.
. Be not ashamed to confess that you have been in the wrong. It is but owning what you need not be ashamed of that you now have more sense than you had before, to see your error; more humility to acknowledge it, more grace to correct it.
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WORRIES OF FUTURE
Gurudev!, As I remember my filthy past life, I feel giddy and ashamed and my heart-beats increase. O Soul!, what will be your future? You have committed huge amount of sins for enjoying a few moments. How will you withstand the consequences of these sins which are going to come in vast numbers? You can't even tolerate a slight rise in the temperature and turn on air conditioner, then how will you tolerate unbearable heat of the furnace of hell where iron also liquifies? How will you tolerate or deal with demons who will roast you like corn flakes? Being restless and planning violent struggles to'escape, you will have to face bitter words of demons instead of consolation. They will say, “Let's enjoy now. You were told by Gurudev, be a vegetarian. At that time you replied saying, Who knows about hell or heaven? You were eating fishes and other creatures by boiling them. Now see what happens to you”, saying this, they will fry me in hot liquified lead and pour the same in my mouth. At that time, nobody will listen to my misery or pain. What will happen to me Gurudev? And this is not enough, demons
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will also tell that, “You were enjoying in criticizing others, so I will pull out your tongue
"You were happy in drinking non consumable drinks like soda-lemon, bear, whisky. Now you quench your thirst with hot juice of lead. You liked
kissing and hugging number of women, now do the same with their hot iron statues.”
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numerous years. You didn't like viewing deformed and ugly people and had a feeling of hatred towards them. Now have view of all ugly, deformed souls for numerous years. You were frustrated on listening about your mistakes and enjoyed disclosing other's mistakes, now hear about your sins, evil-deeds and mistakes repeatedly. I will split you into tiny pieces by colliding or striking if you try to escape” Presently, I become violent even if salt or spices are not in proportion in my food then how will I eat tasteless, stinking and disgusting food? Gurudev, my soul is afraid of sins. O blissful Gurudev, show me righteous way as I am confused. Tell me quickly!! What should I do?
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CONSOLATION OF GURUDEUS
O righteous man! Truly speaking, you deserve praises. To get involved in sins is not surprising. Who hasn't committed sin in the delusion of Karmas? Is the soul of Tirthankara, saved from bewitchment? Didn't they commit sins in their past lives? Haven't they undergone pains of the seventh hell? You deserve praise as you have brightened the dark side of your life by disclosing it. You truly deserve praise for disclosing your sins like an innocent child and jotting them down. : O fortunate fellow! Your open hearted criticism and observation has created a tide in the ocean of love in my heart. It is said in religious books that one who confesses and self introspects, is a true worshiper or devotee. Can fragrance of devotion be expected in stinking gutter of heart? No, you have cleaned your heart by disclosing your sins. Now, your life will be full of . fragrance of devotion and you are eligible of praise. Now onwards be careful
not to hide any sin in your heart as well as do not hesitate and feel shy in
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disclosing or confessing it. You will really feel relaxed and stress free. Your heart will be cleaned and bright
O devotee! I admire you after hearing your self introspection and criticism. Great! you have done a terrific job. You have uprooted all the thorny sins. You have done a wonderful penance. In which words can I admire your courage and faith? I am falling short of words. The dictionary of my brain has exhausted.
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Don't keep any thorn of sin in your heart. One had to cut the leg of a horse due to septic as he didn't remove the thorn, in same way, do not suffer by hiding any sin. Don't feel ashamed and have blind faith in me that whatever you have confessed will not pass on to anyone and will go along with my dead body. What else can I say? The scriptures say that the person who listens should be such that nothing should come out from his heart. The guru who gives atonement (penance etc.) is like a pot of stone from which not even a single drop drips out. So, don't have shy or fear. There are instances in shastra where a mother and son were engaged into adultery. O! even brothersister relationships, which became full of sins by adultery, have became pure by self-introspection and self-criticism. They too have
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achieved salvation by acquiring spiritual knowledge.
O righteous soul! Listen to me, It is said in Mahanishithasutra that the feeling of self criticism has such influence that many great people have acquired Omniscience just with the thought of confession, others also have attained omniscience while confessing the sins. What else can I say? Many great souls have also acquired spiritual knowledge on the way to Gurudeva with a determination to confess.
Those nobles are praiseworthy and their anxiety to become pure is worth admiring. You shall also follow their footsteps. Oh goodman! you will become savior of others as you have cleansed and purified your spiritual ground. Just remember that your future life will ruin if you aren't sincere at self criticism even after having company of Gurudev. Don't think that Gurudev will consider me vile and mean, as my inner self is black like coal, whereas outwardly, I look clean and white. A learned guru is aware of sins of many from his experience and believes that inspite of committing sins one becomes a great devotee by confession. A scrupulous soul only wishes for confession and self criticism. Scrupulousness is the quality of a soul. If Guru develops hatred towards god-fearing people, he loses asceticism and becoming an atheist, falls prey to illusions. Therefore, Gurudev will never think like this in his heart. Confess without any hesitation so that, you will become eligible to salvation at the earliest. Self criticism and confession itself is a meritorious deed and Gurudev can never discourage anybody from doing so. If he does so, consent and support to meritorious deed will be in vain and he shall also have to undergo numerous births.
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Having known the examples of Rukmini and others, O noble person! don't keep even a small bit of sin in your heart. There is no doubt that you'll become a great devotee.
O devout soul! Tell me about your sinful crime and under what circumstances you have committed them. Don't hesitate. You might have committed sins intentionally, by ignorance, forcefully, at religious places or hotels, during the day or at night, with attachment and enjoyment, or by reluctance and jealously, tell me all with innocence. If you don't have courage to say or have forgotten them then write down. Read it out after writing and write down again in details. Don't fear anything. It is said in religious treaties that
Sahasa annaen va bhien va pillien va Vasnenayaken va muden va ragadosehin ||1||| jum kinchi kayamkajjum ujjuyum bhanai tan taha aloeja mayamayavippamukko ||2||
Any unworthy or improper deed done suddenly, without awareness, fear, under pressure, trouble, jealousy, attachment and deciet should be disclosed and confessed innocently, without pride or illusion.
O soul! You were not afraid while committing sins then why are you afraid while confessing them? You didn't feel shame while commiting sins then why feel shame in confession? O soul! Disclosure, self criticism and confession improves the future births of a soul. What more, it lifts him upto omniscience. It takes him to ultimate peace and gratification.
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IMPORTANCE OF CONFESSION
Jambudipe je hunti pavvaya, te yev hunti hemass Dijjanti satkhite, na chhutte divas pachhint am ||1||
Jambudipe je hujja valua, tau hunti rayanai
Dijjanti satkhite, na chhutte divas pachhint am ||2||| The soul, that have committed numerous sins can't become pure even after donating gold equivalent to all the mountains of Jambu island and precious stone as equals all the sand of Jambu island. But the same soul becomes pure by confessing innocently and willingly as well as by repenting.
Aaloyanparinao sammam sanpaithio gurusagase
Jai antravi kalam karei aaraho tahavi ||
What else can we say, the great soul, who has moved towards .confession, even though dies before or during atonement, becomes pure. The soul confessing improperly, even after completing the recommended atonement etc, doesn't become pure. Hence one has to confess purely.
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fear of losing scholarship or by shame or pride, don't become pious.
THE 10 FAULTS OF PERSONS CONFESSING IMPROPERLY
Lajja gorven bahussuyabhaen
vavi duchariyam je na kahanti gurunam, na hu te arahaga hunti | 1 |||
Feeling ashamed in admitting such deeds, due to pride, being a great devotee or a scholar etc. may cause hesitation in confessing sincerely. The souls who do not truly confess due to
Aakampaetta anumanaitta, jan dittham bayaram va suhumam va
Channa - saddakalayan, bahujan avata tassevi || 1 ||
Gaining sympathy and feeling in
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The confession of smaller mistakes, ignoring the bigger, assuming that the Guru would consider that he is confessing even small mistakes minutely and therefore must be doing the same for bigger ones. The reason for not confessing the bigger ones should be that he has committed any. By doing this, he believes that he has maintained his pride and image. He self-criticizes sincerely before the master who is not familiar to him so as to gain false satisfaction of pure confession.
Speaks in such a way that the guru can't understand clearly.
Does self criticism where there is lot of noise so that guru can't hear properly.
Spreads news about atonement of self criticism to create a nice image and raise ones self pride.
Confesses before Gurus, who doesn't possess knowledge of religion and “ched” scriptures.
Does confession before somebody who has commited same sins like him so as to avoid hatred and punishment.
ones favour by worshipping and serving Gurudev and requesting for little penance against sins.
Assuming that one will receive little atonement by flattering guru.
One who confesses his mistakes which others know, but doesn't confess the ones which he alone knows.
• One who self criticizes his big mistakes and errors but neglects the smaller ones.
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WHO IS ELIGIBLE FOR THE PENANCE OF SELF CRITICISM?
Na hu sujjzai sasallo jaha bhaniyam sasne dhuyaranam
Uddhariyasavvasallo, sujjzai jeevo dhuyakilese ||1|||
It is said in the administration of Almighty, who is free of karmas, that no soul can become pure by hiding any sin. The soul can become pure by revealing all hidden sins and leaving all illusions and attachments. Therefore, one has to go for self criticism to become pure.
One who has committed sins intentionally or by unawareness and discloses them before guru innocently like a child without playing trick, becomes eligible to gain atonement and the soul of that person becomes pure. Inspite of knowing the sins, even an omniscient Lord doesn't give atonement for them, which one hides within himself. After hearing the sin of a person 2-3 times if the Guru feels that one is deceitful then he doesn't
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give atonement and sends him elsewhere for the same. Guru tries to remind the sins a of person in various ways if he has forgotten due to ignorance but doesn't remind them if he hides them purposely. It is said in scriptures that -
Kahehi savvam jo vutto,
janamane guhai Na taras dinti pachchhitam, binti annattha sohaya ||1|||
Na sambharai jo dose, sabbhava na ya mayao Pachchakakhi sahai te u maino u na sahai ||2||
If someone says vaguely that he has done lots of sins and asks for atonement, or hides the sins which he knows, can't be given atonement and is advised to confess elsewhere. If a person
confesses his each and every sin and in case can't remember some, and asks for atonement, he becomes eligible for it. It is said in scripture that - "chhaumanth moodhamano
kitiya mittam sambharai, jan cha ni sambharami tassa michhami dukkadam ||
How much can a soul remember as he is dunce and forgetful therefore, michhami dukkadam for whatever he couldn't remember. Many souls have gained salvation by selfcriticizing and hence it is said in scriptures - Nithiyapapapanda sammam
aaloiun gurusagase
Patta anant jiva, sasaysuham anabaham ||1|||
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SELF-CRITICISM IS a MUST FOR ALL
Jaho sufusalo vi vijjo, annarasa kahei attano vahi
Evam jangassa vi salludharanam parasagase ||1|| A skillful doctor also discloses his disease to another doctor, likewise the guru who knows the atonement should also confess before his seniors. Thus preceptors, saints, followers of Jainism, all should observe self-criticism. One cannot be pious without self-criticism.
The harm of not making self-criticising :- Those sufferings which do not occur due to poison or weapons or arrows, are caused by deceitful afflictions hidden inside the heart. By hiding the sins Rukmani had to take birth for 1,00,000 times on this earth. Poison kills only once but due to the hidden sins, one has to face death thousands of times. It is said in the scriptures.
Na vi tam satham va visam, dappayutto va kunai vetalo Jam kunai bhavasallam , annudhariyam savvaduhamulam || 1 |||
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An evil spirit, weapon, poison or pride can't create those pains or miseries, as those created by undisclosed sins. Gurudev always admires the person who self-criticizes. However, for the betterment of a person if master gives some rebuking he should not get annoyed. One should not feel remorse or regret for confessing. Oh! What have I done ? I have disclosed all the weaknesses of my life? Oh! Now what will happen?A person should not think like this because confession is a good deed & therefore should not be regreted. It is said in the scriptures that -
hearted. Self-criticism is a good deed. One should not let others know the atonement received by him. After observing self criticism and atonement, efforts should be made in such a way that similar mistakes are not repeated. However, if mistakes are committed under bewitchment, one should confess again. It is said in scriptures that -
Tassa ya payachchitam jam maggaviu guru uvaisanti
Tam taha aayriyavvam, anavattha pasangabhaen ||1||
One should follow the instruction of guru after taking atonement so as to avoid occurance of previous mistakes and sins.
Ananutapi amayi, charanjualoyaga bhaniya ||1||
The self criticizer who does not regret after confessing is of good character as well as pure
A person not confessing won't become pure even if he
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observes life-time fast, on the contrary, may wander till infinite births. The ancient Gurus have said that -
Jam kunai bhavsallam, anuddhariyam uttamathakalammi
Dulahabohiyattam anantsansariyattam cha | 1 |||
That means, one who doesn't remove hidden sins becomes stubborn and wanders till infinite births even after observing lifelong fast.
A flower like finest human birth, if it does not undergo self-criticism, in spite of
having gurus, religion and lord nearby, will wither and droop into spiritual degeneration for numerous births. Therefore, one has to sprinkle the water of repentance regularly on the blossom of the soul constantly. O soul! Take this opportunity of self criticism or else you'll be thrown into spiritual degeneration like a withered flower. One should confess anually after confessing complete previous life. This is mentioned in 11th duty of the followers of Jainism. If you don't have the company of a guru you should confess whenever you happen to be with him.
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EUEN TODAY, THE RITE OF CONFESSION EXISTS
If anyone says that nowdays neither confession nor person advising atonement exists, then that person wanders for infinite births. The 'Achara Kalpa' and Vyavahara sutra' extracted from the third vastu of the ninth purva and dedicated selfless gurus are still existing. The soul becomes lighter by taking atonement from masters just as a labourer feels relaxed after letting off weight from his head. It is said in Vanditasutra that,
“Kayapavo vi manusso, aaloiya nindiya gurusagase Hoi aereg a lahuo, aohriya bharuvva bharvaho || 1 ||”
One who has committed sins, if he confesses them before Guru, will be relaxed, just as a labourer feels relaxed after letting off weight from his head.
It is nothing surprising to commit a sin as since times immemorial, the soul has committed sins under the influence of karmas and bewitchment. The souls of Tirthankara's also had committed sins, but managed to purify themselves by self-criticism. Scholars have said that -
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may you get what you wish - EVERYTHING
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“Tam na dukkaram jam padisevijjai,
Tam dukkaram, jam sammam aaloijai tti."
It isn't tough to commit sins, but it is tough to confess them in a righteous way.
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WHAT KIND OF GURUS ARE ELIGIBLE TO apulce ATONEMENT FOR CONFESSION?
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One who has studied Nishith and Chhedsutra, whose body soul and act is adorned by penance and meditation, who posseses a clear character, who is blessed to get the atonement accepted by those who have come before them, who has vast knowledge needed for atonement, one who doesn't have disgust towards those who have committed various kinds of sin, who doesn't get
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frustrated but provides atonement by encouraging the criticizer by giving examples of great men. Beside this -
Acharavamaharava vavaharopavelai pkuvve ya Aprissavi nijja avayadansi
guru bhanio ||1||
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criticism properly. He shouldn't disclose to others about the sins of someone. He should recommend the penance accordingly for the aged and ill ones. He should redalert the criticizer about the pains and sufferings in future births, if he doesnt confesses properly.
Agitarth guru, who doesn't have adequate knowledge of advising penance, gets trapped in worldly life by advising inadequate atonement. The seeker also has to bear troubles for innumerable births. One should look for geetarth guru for 12 years even if he is 700 yojans (5600 miles) away.
If one doesn't find an eligible guru until the recomended time and space and performs self criticism under immense feeling of repentance in absence of guru also achieves spiritual knowledge E.g. The king who ordered to kill saint Zhanzaria. One purifies himself even if he dies in search of an eligible guru, but having the company of gurus, if he neglects or ignores self-criticism, he can't become pure.
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WHO IS THE GURU GIUING ATONEMENT
(PENANCE ETC)?
The Guru who gives repentance falls under five categories.
Aagam Origin :- It means who has omniscience, Manaparyava gyani Avadhi gyani or Gyani of 14, 10, 9 Purvas should be prefered for confession.
Shrut Vyavahari :- If Guru of aagam origin is not available then atonement should be taken near shrut vyavahari i.e. who posess knowledge starting from half to eight purvas, or 11 angas or Nishit scriptures.
Aagna Vyavahari :- If fate is not favourable to meet Shrut Vyavhari then one can get two preceptors. If this is also not possible then one should explain the sins to smaller saints in code language who informs the perceptor & the preceptor also replies in code language.
Dharana Vyavahari :- The atonement can be taken from the Guru
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bow before pasatha also while taking atonement. If pasatha do not consider himself eligible and doesnt allow to bow before himself then one should offer him a seat & then take atonement after greeting him. If parshvasthaadi preceptor is not available then atonement should be taken from sarupic preceptor.
who is not Aagna Vyavahari but who remembers the atonement taken from his preceptor.
Jeet Vyavahari :- If Guru is not a Dharana Vyavahari then atonement should be taken from a Guru who gives more or less atonement according to place, time & circumstances. At present atonement should be taken from spiritual guide of one's own sect. If one is not able to meet the spiritual guide of his own sect then atonement should be taken from Preceptor, Upadhayaya, Sthavir, Ganavchedak. If they are not available then atonement should be taken from the Guru who has knowledge of Svagacha (your own sect). If such preceptor is also not available then atonement should be taken from the ones who follows other samachari.
If one cannot avail preceptor till 156 kilometres & 12 years, then atonement should be taken from Geetarth Pasatha. It is the basic rule of religion that one should
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If Pasatha is also not available then the deities of Gunsheel temple of Rajgruhi and likewise, who have seen Tirthankars and Ganadhars giving repentance, should be pleased with penance like 3 days fasting etc. If that deity is dead then one should send another deity to Mahavideh Kshetra & ask for atonement from Arihant Bhagvan.
If it is not possible then one should confess before the image of lord. If this is also not possible then one should confess facing north east in the witness of Arihant & Siddha Bhagwan & seek atonement. One should not refrain from self-criticism of his sins. The person who does not confess & dies with the thorn of sin, becomes non-devotee & his soul loiters in this universe. Here, care should be taken that atonement should be taken from swagachiya preceptor, but if one ignores the perceptor and makes self criticism under the witness of Arihant & other deities, he does not become pure.
Eight virtues emerge within the selfcriticizer :Lahua lhai jananam appaparanivatti ajjav
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confession a person feels relaxed in his heart & mind because now there is no burden of sins.
As person spends money for some good deeds & feels happy the same happiness & satisfaction can be experienced by making the mind free & empty from the burden of sins by confession.
By confession one becomes free from faults in himself & if by following him others also observe self criticism then they shall also be purified
The virtue of simplicity comes into being. A soul becomes pure & sacred.
Under the instincts of previous births it is obvious for a person to commit sins, but it is tough to criticize for the same in front of Gurudev because such can be done only when he has an intense will of attaining salvation.
Lord is worshiped by following his orders regarding self criticism.
The person who confesses becomes free from the thorns of sins.
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THE WITHERED FLOWERS WHO DIDN'T CONFESS
1.1 LAKHS BIRTHS OF RUKMINI
The daughter of Kshitpratishthit's king had to face a major disaster in her life. When she stepped into adolescence, her husband died. She was afraid of being a child widow. To her, becoming helpless wasn't that painful as much as practising celibacy life-long was. She prepared to burn herself into ashes. At that time her father explained that, “Committing suicide is one of the greatest sins. It results into spiritual decline of a soul. A murderer can become pure by repentance but not the one who commits suicide and obviously you will not meet your husband in the other world. So involve yourself in religious activities. The state will provide all your requirements. You will be able to practice celibacy by being involved in religious activities. Your mind will also get busy."
Rukmini made up her mind to follow her father's advice. She made arduous efforts in worship and penance day by day. Beside this, she
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gradually developed the virtue of celibacy. The fame of her celibacy spread to each nook and corner. Meanwhile, her father expired. The ministers worried that who should be coroneted as the King had no sons. Few of them were of the opinion that “Although Rukmini is a female, she is a great and holy soul. She deserves the throne. All the others agreed with them. Even after ascending the throne, she was intact at celibacy. Hence, her fame spread allover.
One intelligent and celibacy adorer youth named Shilsannah
came to her, attracted by her celibacy, with a desire to fill the post of a Minister. He thought that, “I shall make my living by serving a virtuous soul”. He was selected for the post of a minister.
Once, minister Shilsannah was sitting in the royal court. Sitting on the royal throne, Rukmini was looking in all directions. With the glance of Shilsannah, her eyes remained still and gazing at him she thought “Oh! He is so handsome and charming! He is full of adolescence and enthusiasm."
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Such evil thoughts arose in her mind deteriorating her sight. staden
Shilsannah immediately perceived her passions and thought "Oh no! I was under the service of a reputed and well known celibate lady and here there is blaze in water! Despise to this bewitchment! Should I burn into ash in this fire of bewitchment? No, No, I will go elsewhere and not stay here. I do not know, when shall the fire of her passions burn
satisfaction I want to know if you have served any other emperor then, let me know his name" He replied, “Sorry, I can't tell the name of that emperor as by taking his name you will have to leave the bite from your hand” The emperor said, “What rubbish are you talking? Is it possible that I will have to leave food from my hand just by hearing someone's name? Are you crazy or joking? I will order for food just now.' By saying this he ordered for food.
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me into ashes. Before the fire of her passion's catch hold of me, better escape from here" thinking this he left the kingdom.
Shilsannah went to another emperor named Vicharsar. He applied for the post of ministry. After conducting various tests the king said, “After testing your intelligence, I am confident that you are eligible for the post of minister. But for further
After taking the food in hand he said Shilsannah to tell the name of king: No sooner did Shilsannah speak the name of Rukmini then a messenger arrived and informed him by saying that, “Oh Master! Come fast as enemies have attacked our kingdom and our troops are on the way to defeat, retreating against them. It is a matter of our survival and the situation is critical. Please come as soon as possible.” botos
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The King left the bite from his hand in the dish and left for war. Shilsannah entered the battle field by obstructing the king and the enemy attacked him. Impressed by his celibacy, a deity made them motionless and there was a divine speech that, “Salutation to Shilsannah who is devoted to celibacy.” Then he showered flowers on Shilsannah.
Hearing the divine statement, Shilsannah fell in deep thoughts & at that time he acquired the Avadhi gyan i.e. clairvoyance. He thought that
if love towards celibacy alone can lift his soul so high then asceticism along with celibacy i.e. control over senses would create miracles. Thus, he was overwhelmed with the feelings of being an ascetic & accepted austerity then and there.
Once Shilsannah arrived at Kshitipratishthit Nagar. Rukmini came to bow before him & heard his sermon in the garden. She was overwhelmed with the feeling of asceticism. She abondoned
all the worldly relationships & Shilsannah accepted austerities. accepted austerity.
Shilsannah became an Acharya. Once Sadhvi Rukmini came to him & said, “I want to fast untill death” The preceptor (Acharya) told her, “One should confess his sins before fasting & purify the soul so as to achieve salvation. Without self-criticism, thousands of years of penance is all in vain.” She accepted to confess. She confessed various types of violence, falsehood, theft, etc, but didn't confess
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for looking passionately at Shilsannah at the court. The preceptor tried to remind her in many ways. She criticized the remaining sins & violence committed. At last Acharyashri told her, “If you have committed any sin in the court of the king by passionately staring then you should confess it. Sadhviji Rukmini thought that, “This preceptor knows about my sin but if I accept it I would be considered as mean & vile. How should I protect my self-respect?” Due to ignorance and with an intention of protecting her pride & ego, she distorted the entire story & replied, “I did so to justify the character of a minister. Thus, she hid her sin & didn't confess purely. In consequence of the same she had to take birth for one lakh times in this world.
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After confessing for several sins, if we hide and do not confess even a single sin, our self-criticism will not be pure. If we do not remember all the sins then we should say, Oh Guru! I have committed much more sins which I do not remember. Thus, the sins which are not criticized due to ignorance, I am ready to accept atonement for them. "Micchami Dukkadam” for all those
sins.
Chaumatho mudhmano kitiiyamittam sambharai jeevo
Jam cha na sambharami, micchami dukkadam tassa || 1 || That means, Oh Rescuerer Gurudev! I am ignorant & silly minded person. How much can I remember? Therefore, the sins which are not remembered by me, I apologize for them. Micchami Dukkadam.
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20 d FARMER
KILLED I LOUSE
The intensity of the sins depends on our internal feelings and intention while committing the sin. Thus, a farmer who, with an intense feeling, killed a louse by a thorny stick, had to be hung to death for seven times.
Shallow men believe in luck, believe in circumstances Strong men believe in cause and effect - Ralph Waldo Emerson
3) Raja SADHUI
DRUNK UMBOILED WATER
Rajja Sadhvi and all others are drinking unboil water except one who drinks boiled water.
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Rajja Sadhvi was affected by leprosy. One of the sadhviji asked her, “How did this disease infect you?” She replied, “I am infected due to the heat caused by drinking boiled water” She consealed the fact that her illness was due to her past sins. In fact, she had consumed heavy foods which disturbed her digestive system and led to this disease. By hearing such explanation from their guru, other sadhvijis also followed her and started drinking unboiled water.
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One of her disciple kept her mind firm & didn't follow her. She firmly believed that the path shown by Lord Arihant cannot lead to any diseases. Diseases disturb the balance of the mind. If any disease arrives or increases, it causes a hinderance in devotion, so how can lord show such a path? In every drop of her blood there was a faith for the preachings of God. She tried to convince other sadhvijis in different ways but due to the fear of leprosy they weren't convinced.
Theyoungsadhvijiremorsed, "O Lord! It's the result of my sins
due to which these sadhvijis are not believing me, even though I am telling the truth.” Thus by repenting, self-criticizing & performing several other worships, she attained Kevalgyan i.e. omniscience. Later, deities came to admire this Kevalgyani. At that time other sadhvijis felt that they had committed a great mistake. They confessed in the presence of Kevalgyani & became pure by taking atonement. Rajja sadhvi did not confess, therefore she had to take several births. Thus everyone should confess & undertake atonement.
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40. MARICHI'S, PRIDE
AND FALSEHOOD
Freedom is not produced by a full enjoyment of what is desired, but by controlling the desire
Marichi, the son of chakravarti emperor Bharat, accepted asceticism near Lord Rishabhdeva. Finding himself weak to follow the 'austerity, he accepted the tridandi robe and took bath with a little water, wore pedals and kept an umbrella etc. Once, emperor Bharat asked Lord Rishabhdev in the Samvasaran, "Is any soul existing here who would be a Tirthankara in future?” The Lord replied that, "Your son Marichi will be the first vasudev in Bharat, chakravarti in Mahavideha and the last tirthankara of Bharatkshetra."
- Epictetus
Hearing this, emperor Bharat went to Marichi and bowed before him and said, “I did'nt bow to your robe, but after becoming first vasudeva and chakravarti in Mahavideha, you shall be the last tirthankara of Bharatkshetra that's why I bow you. This incident arose
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1) Tridandi Marichi, dances with pride.
2) Kapil bows before Marichi and becomes his disciple.
pride in the mind of Marichi. He thought that, “My race, tribe and family are the best because my grandfather Lord Rishabhadev is the first Tirthankar, my father Emperor Bharat is the first chakravarti and I will be the first vasudev, chakravarti & last tirthankar. Oh! How great my family and tribe is? He danced in pride, which bound him to the sins of a. lower tribe. He didn't confess and hence this sin bore fruit in the last birth of Mahavir.
Prince Kapil approached Marichi to accept initiation. He advised, "Go to Lord Adinath for asceticism” Kapil asked, “Does
religion exists only there?, Don't you possess religion?” Marichi thought that, “I have got a befitting disciple and I need someone to serve me in sickness.” He lied that, “Religion exists there as well as over here.” Kapil became his disciple but Marichi didn't confess of this lie which resulted into his innumerable births. Jaindarshan (Jain philosophy) has never favoured anyone's sins. The law of karmas is indifferent to all. After reading this be careful before uttering that," there is religion in worldly life as well as asceticism” orelse you shall wander in this world for innumerable births like Marichi.
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Abhaykumar gifted Lord Mahavira's idol to Ardrakumar seeing which, he recalls his mistakes of previous birth.
5) ArpRakumar's
ILLUSTRATION
For there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; neither hid, that shall not be known
In his previous birth, Ardrakumar was a Brahman called Somaditya and his wife was Bandhumati. Once being overwhelmed with the feelings of asceticism he accepted austerity along with his wife at the feet of Acharya Susthirsurishwarji. One day he saw his previous wife, going for Gochari and remembered the past sexual pleasures which he had experienced with her.
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How terrible are the passions. They annoyed him even after accepting the ascetic life. As days passed, his passions grew.
When Sadhvi Bandhumati came to know about this matter, she thought, “Munirajshri is accumulating sins. I should end my life by fasting so that he will not commit sins by my cause.” Thus, by showing her sentiments & getting the permission from her Guru, she fasted continuously & on a auspicious day she was born in the heaven after death. When Somaditya muni came to know that the sadhviji had fasted for his reason & sacrificed her life, he felt very sad. Oh! What a daring sadhviji! What a sacrifice! Just to restraint me from these sins, she has greatly sacrificed & shame to me for I have broken the vow. I became the cause of her death. Do I have the right to live? To get rid of all my sins, I should observe fast unto death. Thus, he observed Anshan & after death was born in heaven. He neither confessed for this sin nor took atonement. After completion of his heavenly life, he had to take birth in non-aryan country where he couldn't even hear a word of religion.
King Shrenik and Ardrakumar's father had a friendly relationship and they exchanged precious gifts on various occasions. In order to nurture the relationship, Ardrakumar sent a gift to Abhaykumar. Considering him to be a divine soul he too sent an idol of Adishwar Bhagwan with an intention to join him in a holy life. He also sent the message to open it secretly.
After seeing the sculpture of the Almighty, he rembered his virtuous previous birth and feelings of asceticism arose in his mind.
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Ardrakumar made a firm determination to accept the vows. He sought consent from his parents for the same. They were in delusion and strictly refused. They appointed 500 brave warriors so that he couldn't escape. Ardrakumar considered this situation as an imprisonment. He took all the 500 warriors in his confidence by his behaviour. No sooner he gained an opportunity, he escaped from his Anarya country and reached to the Aryan country and accepted asceticism. At that time there was a oracle that, “Ardrakumar ! your karmas of previous birth are still pending." But endorsed with both pleasure and sentiment, he didn't pay heed to it. He accepted the vows and travelled from village to village.
Once, Adramuni arrived to Vasant Nagar and stood still meditating in the garden. Young girls entered to play there. In the game, they were holding poles of garden and saying, "this is my husband" One young girl, named Shrimati, (Ardrakumar's wife of previous birth) unknowingly held Adramuni, who stood stun like a statue, saying “He is my husband.” Later she realized that it were a muni. Due to the instincts of previous birth, she declared that, “If I am going to marry, I shall marry only him orelse remain unmarried and virgin.” Deities showered 12.5 lakhs gold coins. After taking that money Shrimati returned to the village along with her father. The Muni travelled elsewhere.
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Gradually, when she grew up, her father was in search of a bridegroom. She told about her firm decision of marring none other than the muni held by her in the garden. Her father told her to invite the munis, coming to the village for food. After 12 years the muni arrived. She identified him from his foot and held his feet. The king and leading merchants persuaded the muni to marry Shrimati.
that, “Your father is going to take vows." The child tied both the legs of his father with a cotton thread and spoke stammeringly, “How will you take vows now? I have bound you.” Ardrakumar's heart melted with his childish pranks. He counted the knot of threads which were twelve, so he passed another 12 years in this materialistic world.
Recollecting the oracle, Adramuni showed his consent for marriage. After marriage also he was sad and yearned for asceticism. He had a son after marriage. After 12 years of materialistic life, he made up his mind to get initiated and revealed his wife about it. Shrimati was spinning the wheel in a gloom. After playing with his friends, her son came to house and asked his mother, “Why do you seem so gloomy?” Shrimati answered
Later, Ardrakumar accepted the vows. Those 500 warriors, who had came in search of Ardrakumar, didn't go back to Anarya country due to fear of the King. They made their living by stealing. Wandering, they met Ardramuni. He preached and initiated them. Later he arrived to Magadha Kingdom with these 500 munis. After reaching a highest level of devotion and penance he attained salvation. He had to take birth in an Anarya country and spend there 24 years for not confessing the sins.
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6) METARAJMUNI'S
LOWER CASTE AND attamMENT OF DURLABHBODHINESS
There was an emperor named Munichandra ruling over Ujjain nagar. His elder brother Sagarchandra accepted monkhood, leaving materialistic life. The prince and chiefminister's son Souvastik were very imprudent and mischievous. Any saint coming to Ujjain was invited to their palace and forced to dance. In case they refused, they were beaten and tortured. The saints brought this matter to the notice of Sagarchandra. He felt that, if saints will stop coming to Ujjain then people will be aversed from religion resulting to their spiritual degeneration. Therefore, he arrived at Ujjain. The prince and his friend Souvastik forced him to dance saying, “We have forced many saints even by beating them.” After realizing the ignorance of this two youths, Sagarchandra said that, “I want a
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musician to play while I dance and if he commits even a single mistake, I shall loose my temper and he will be punished.” Both the youth said, “We don't know to play any musical instrument.” Then they said that, “You will have to wrestle with us. They wrestled with the muni. While fighting with them, the muni displaced their bones from all the joints and returned. Both yelled with severe pain. The king came to know about the matter and ordered to search for the muni. Finally, the muni was found meditating outside the village. The king went there and to his astonishment, the muni was no other than his brother. He said, “O Master! What have you done?” Muni replied, “O King! Should this type of harassment towards saints happen in your family? Till today, you didn't listen to the people and now you want to relieve your children from punishment. It is really a big mistake on your part to overlook the insult of saints.” The king pleaded, “Forgive them as they are innocent. Now onwards they will not repeat such a mistake.” Muni said that, “By harassing virtuous souls, they have gained serious karmas. I will rearrange their bones only if they are ready to accept initiation orelse they will have to suffer the consequences of their karmas on their own.”
1) Sagarchandra muni displaced the bones of the prince and purohit's son.
2) The king begging pardon from the muni.
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The king bowed the muni and came to his sons and said, “Oh my sons! That muni is your uncle. You are punished for harassing the saints. He will rearrange your bones only if you take vows of asceticism otherwise you will have to bear this pain.” Hearing this, both of them unwillingly accepted to follow asceticism. The muni rearranged their bones and they were initiated. The priest's son, being from a brahmin caste, hated the soiled clothes due to which he acquired karmas of being born in a lower caste. He also had the feelings that his benefactor Guru had initiated him forcefully which wasn't fair. This feelings brought him the karmas of durlabhbodhi due to which he wouldn't have faith in religion. The muni didn't confess for these feelings. The sin remained with him. Both of them reached the heaven by their good conduct. As the priests son had
a dislike for muddy clothes, he had to take birth in a chandal's tribe after completing the stay in heaven.
One mistress had the problem of miscarriages. She was immensely sad and deppressed. A butcher's lady asked the cause of her sorrow. She said that, “I have a gloomy experience of miscarriages due to which I am not able to give affection to any child” The butcher's lady said, “I frequently have pregnancies.” Hence, the mistress offered gold coins for exchanging her child for a dead one after birth. Their new borns were exchanged as per the agreement. The point to note here is that for a single mistake, the muni had his birth in a butcher's family.
Had the muni confessed for his misthought, he would have purified himself and taking birth
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in the butcher's family wouldn't have occurred. He had made a commitment with his friendly deity during his stay at the heaven that he should come down and motivate him to initiate, even by force. Now, he had betrothal with 8 virgin girls. The preparation for marriage ceremony were going on. His friend deity came to know about this and arrived to convince him for initiation. As Metaraj had become durlabhbodhi, due to his past deeds, he didn't have faith. The deity transformed himself as a chandal in marriage procession
to interrupt the marriage. Later, on Metaraj's request, he allowed him to marry with 8 girls and also the princess of king Shrenik. He didn't gain enlightenment due to durlabhbodhi karma and asked for a tenure of 12 years. When the deity returned after 12 years to remind him, he again requested for another 12 years through his wives. Later on, after the completion of that karmas, he gained faith to accept asceticism. On the completion of a months fast, Metaraj muni reached a goldsmiths house for food.
The muni noticed the heron bird picking up golden barelys.
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After hearing Dharmalabh, the goldsmith greeted him. He was moulding 108 golden barelys. He took the muni in kitchen for food. Meanwhile, a heron bird picked up the golden barelys which was noticed by the muni. The bird sat on heights after picking up them. The muni returned after taking food. When the goldsmith returned to his work place, he didn't see the golden barelys and doubted that the muni must have stolen them. He asked the muni but he didn't answer due to compassion for the bird, orelse the Goldsmith would have taken those barely even by killing it. The Goldsmith grew furious and tied a wet leather strap on the muni's head and kept him in sunlight. Due to scorching heat, the leather contracted and pulled out his veins and eyes, breaking the bones. The Muni was in equilibrium without any anger and fear and attained salvation gaining omniscience. Being afraid by the falling of a bundle of wood, the heron excreted to remove
the barely. Realizing the fact, the Goldsmith deeply regretted. He accepted asceticism before Lord Mahavir and attained salvation by confessing.
If he had confessed for seeing the faults of his Guru, he wouldn't have to take birth in a lower caste nor would face such
life threatening circumstances. The goldsmith became angry & strapped wet leather on the muni's head and
forced him to stay in sunlight.
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7) CHITRAK and
SAMBHUTI WERE BORN TO 2 BUTCHER
Once, a muni was passing through the forest. In the afternoon, he lost his way and fell unconscious. Four cow-herds, grazing their cows over there, saw this from a distance. They came near him and found that his lips were dry. They assumed him to be thirsty and extracted milk from a cow and poured into his mouth. The muni attained consciousness. He preached them that, “Our soul is wandering in the forest of this world. Asceticism is the only way to free ourselves from pains." All of them gained faith and accepted monkhood and two of them achieved omniscience and salvation.
The want of
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The other two muni thought that, “How can one become pure without taking a bath?. Why should we keep our clothes muddy?”. By these thoughts they
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Chakravarti king Sanatkumar's queen's hairs touches the feet of Sambhuti muni.
acquired the karmas of gaining birth in a lower caste. They didn't confess for the same and after death, took birth as Chitrak and Sambhuti.
explained them the prominence of human life. Both of them accepted asceticism and visited different towns and villages.
They arrived at Hastinapur and went for Gochari at the end of a months fast. The minister of emperor Sanatumar, Namuchi, remembered his enemity and ordered to remove them out of the town. Sambhuti muni couldn't tolerate this insult and prepared himself to throw tejoleshya (a destructive power) on Namuchi. Flames of fire emerged out from his mouth. People were afraid seeing this. Emperor Sanatkumar apologized before the muni alongwith minister Namuchi. Chitrak muni also advocated Sambhuti muni to cool down and he did forgive them. Both the munis realized that they had to do many unrighteous deeds only for the survival of their body. As a remedy to this both of them observed a severe fast in the forest,
People praised their penance. Hearing this, the chief queen came to bow the munis
Both of them had a melodious voice which attracted a huge crowd of people and ladies in particular. The king considered this to be a cause of misdeeds in
future therefore exiled both of them.
Endorsed with grievance, both of them attempted to commit suicide by jumping from à mountain. A muni arrived over there and
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alongwith 1,92,000 other queens. While bowing, her hair touched the feet of Sambhuti muni. By the touch of her hair, infatuation arose in his mind and he decided that, “If I am eligible to the benefit of my penance and self control, I should have a queen like her." Chitrak muni persuaded him to confess but he didn't pay attention to his advice and said, “Whatever I have uttered is my firm decision which is not going to change,
so don't discuss anything about this” Chitrak muni gave up and remained quiet. After death both of them went to heaven. The soul of Chitrak became the son of King ShrenikofPurimataland Sambhuti was born as Brahmadutt, emperor of Kampilapur. Brahmadutt went to the 7th hell after his death.
Thus, if he would have confessed in his previous birth, he wouldn't have suffered.
8) LACHIPUTRA DION'T CONFESS
M HIS PERUIOUS BIRTH
There was a brahmin named Agnisharma in Vasantpur town. He took vows along with his wife Priyamati. Their mutual attachment remained as before for which they didn't confess.
It is not our wrong actions which it requires courage to confess,
so much as those which are ridiculous and foolish,
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Sadhvi Priyamati had the pride of being a brahmin and was engaged in physical cleanliness which bound her to karmas of having birth in a lower caste. She didn't confess for the same and was born in heaven after death. The muni also had an attraction towards Priyamati. After death, the soul of Agnisharma took birth as a deity and completing the life there, was born as llachiputra at
Ilavardhan town. His wife Priyamati was 1) Agnisharma muni went to
born in a lower caste as a daughter of a heaven without confessing.
rope dancer, as she hadn't confessed for 2) Priyamati was proud of being from a brahamin tribe
being proud of her caste in her previous and engaged in hygiene, birth. Agnisharma had strong sentiments went to heaven after death.
for his wife. Inspite of being born in
a royal family as llachiputra, he got obsessed with the rope dancer's daughter seeing her perform at the street. Without thinking about his
Ilachiputra was fascinated with family status, he went away with
a rope dancer looking her perform. the rope dancer. Therefore, one should become pure by confessing the sins.
Ilachiputra, once, requested her father, “I have also become a rope dancer. Allow your daughter to marry me.” He replied, “You should acheive a reward from the King, then only I will allow
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my daughter to marry you” Later on, the king was invited at the banks of river Benatat to view their performance. The girl played the drums, while llachiputra climbed on the rope. The audience was fascinated by his skill and clapped aloud screaming in joy. The king was fascinated with the lady playing the drums. The king asked him to perform again and again but didn't give any reward.
Ilachiputra climbed the rope for the fourth time. Being fascinated with lady rope dancer, the king wished the death of Ilachiputra. While performing on the rope, Ilachiputra's sight fell on a palace where a newly married lady was offering food to a muni. The muni, who had subdued his senses, didn't even look at her and refused for the sweets. Seeing this,
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Ilachiputra developed hatred and disgust towards his passions and a feeling of respect arose for the for muni. The increment of his sentiments resulted into mediation which gained him kevalgyan (omniscience). Deities offered him saint's robes and bowed at him. Later, Ilachiputra Kevali gave a sermon. The lady dancer also remembered that she had not confessed in her third previous birth as well as in present birth. Recollecting this she regretted heavily & finally acquired kevalgyan.
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9) kama SHRI TOOK BIRTH as a dog and Monkey
Our greatest foes and whom we must cheifly combat,
are within - Migud de Cervantes
There were two brothers named Shivbhuti and Vasubhuti. Shivbhuti's wife was attracted towards her husband's younger brother Vasubhuti and tried to seduce him. Vasubhuti was agitated by her obscenity and thought, “Alas! these passions and attachments claim unworthy demands. I will not surrender myself to them.” With the feeling's of asceticism, he took vows. Kamalshri came to know about this. She still longed him and didn't confess her verbal and mental sins. Therefore, she had to take birth as a bitch after death.
Once, Vasubhuti muni was on his way for gochari. The bitch saw him and, due to the attachment of previous birth, she followed him
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like his shadow. People started calling him as Shunipati Maharaj i.e. the muni with a bitch. He felt embarrassed by hearing this and managed to escape from the bitch.
The bitch died when she didn't see the muni and took birth as a monkey in the forest.
When the muni was passing through the forest, she saw him
1) Kamalshri was obsessed with her husband's younger brother Vasubhuti and not confessing, she was born as 2) a Bitch 3) Monkey 4) Swan and 5) Vyantardeity.
and, due to subtle impressions of attachment of previous births, followed him. People called the muni as Maharaj with a monkey. When people used to say this, she enjoyed it and showed gestures of passions. Once again, the muni managed to escape from her. The lady monkey died and took birth as a swan in a lake.
Once, the muni was in meditation to afflict pain and misery to his body. The swan saw him and spoke ambiguous and indistinct words to express her feeling of suffering from separation and hugged him. The muni was deeply immersed in his meditation. Later on, he escaped from there. She also died when she didn't find him over there and took birth as a vyantari deity.
With the help of divine knowledge she came to know about her previous relation with the muni. She held him responsible for all her births as he rejected her proposal when he was the younger brother of her husband. She tried to kill him with anger but came
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to nothing due to the might of his penance. Hence, she began to harass and trouble him in different ways. The muni was firm in his penance and attained kevalgyan. He also narrated to the people the previous births of the deity. She also acquired faith and the muni ultimately attained salvation.
We should learn from this that by nurturing a perverse desire and not confessing, we suffer grave consequences in animal life. If we don't purify the sins in our life then what shall their consequences be?”
Hence, we should confess to purify ourselves.
10) THE DETEROITATION OF RUPSEN'S SEUEN BIRTHS.
Without forgiveness
life is governed by
an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation.
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Pruthvibhushan nagari was ruled by King Kanakdhwaja. He had a daughter named Sunanda, who grew into a beautiful maiden. She was gorgeous and a charming beauty. Once, the fourth son of king Vasudatta of Bangadesh, Rupsen, came to a pan shop which was exactly opposite to the palace of king Kanakdhwaja.
Sunandasawhimandbecame desperate for him at the very first
sight. Sunanda sent a message to Rupsen through a maidservant, “On an occasion of Kaumudi Mahotsav, you should come to the palace from the back door."
At the arrival of Kaumudi Mahotsav, Sunanda pretended of headache & stayed in the palace with her maidservant. She did not attend the Kaumudi festival. Her parents & other people in the palace went out of the village to witness the Kaumudi Mahotsav. Likewise, Rupsen also stayed at home.
Rupsen left his house with the intention of meeting Sunanda. He was walking towards the palace, thinking of the amazing beauty & charm of Sunanda & with a wish to meet her. On the way, the wall of a house collapsed on him and he lost his life. What a pitiful condition had the passions put him into! He didn't receive anything but his soul had accumulated sins from his evil desires.
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1) Princess Sunanda and prince Rupsen
looked at each other passionately.
2) Rupsen lost his life by the
collapse of a wall.
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On the other hand a gambler named Mahabal entered the city with an intention of theft as all the people were at the festival. While taking a stroll, he saw a rope-ladder, hanging behind the palace. Hearing the sound of the rope, Sunanda's maidservant thought that Rupsen had arrived. The queen sent other maids from kaumudi Mahotsav to know about Sunandas health. They were coming towards the palace at the time, Sunanda's maid servant put
off all the lights of palace & told them that the Princess was asleep, Thus they returned. Climbing the ladder, thief Mahabal entered into the palace. A maid servant welcomed him in the darkness & whispered in a slow voice, "Welcome Rupsen ! Don't make noise.” He thought that it was better not to talk anything. He just exclaimed as hm! hm! & went to Sunanda. He commited ill deeds with her in the darkness & returned. The soul of Rupsen took
1) Sunanda undergoes abortion.
2) Sunanda's husband kills the snake.
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The king killed the swan.
birth as an embryo of Sunanda.
As time elapsed a maid recognized the symptoms of pregnancy on Sunanda’s body. They gave her saline substances and Rupsen's soul was aborted enduring lots of pain. Then he took birth in the embryo of a snake & after some time was born as a snake. On the other hand, Sunanda was married to the king of Kshatipratishthit nagar. Once they were strolling in the garden. Suddenly, the embodied soul of Rupsen, who had taken birth as
a snake, came there. Looking at Sunanda, his sight became still. Seeing the snake, Sunanda was frightened. Her husband killed the snake with an arrow.
After the death as a snake, Rupsen took birth as a crow. The king was listening to music with his queen in the garden. At that time the crow made a loud noise looking at Sunanda. Annoyed, the king killed him.
After death as a crow, Rupsen took birth as a swan. That
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The king's chefs cooked the flesh of the deer, which the king & the queen enjoyed eating. At that time two well-versed sages were passing by. One of them said the other, “How peculiar are the karmas resulting from illicit love. Rupsen had committed sins by sight & thoughts and had to suffer terribly in seven births. Now, his flesh is being eaten by Sunanda” He commented thus & shook his head. The king & queen
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swan had friendship with a crow. The king & queen were enjoying themselves under a tree. The swan's sight fell on Sunanda and he was excited. The crow shit on the kings head & flew away. The king saw the swan above them & killed him with an arrow. In the life of Rupsen, just by an inclination to the desires, he had to die untimely in all his future births.
After the death of the swan, he took birth as a deer. Once the king was hunting with his wife. They chased a deer on horse back The deer was running fast but when he saw Sunanda he became steady. The King aimed an arrow at the fleshy body of the deer & immediately its soul left to the embryo of an elephant
The king and queen were eating the flesh of a deer while the sages passed by.
noticed this & asked the reason. The sage agreed to explain on the condition that Sunanda woudn't
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be punished. He said, “Sunanda had great feelings of love & attachment towards Rupsen. She was now eating the flesh of the same soul.
“Knowing this, Sunanda felt very sorry. She said, “O Gurudev! The person, who committed the sin with me, just by his sight & thoughts, had to suffer for seven births. What will happen to me? I have committed more sins than him.” The sage replied that if one confesses the sins committed and observes atonement for the same, he can purify himself and even attain salvation. Hearing this, she accepted asceticism and following restrains after confessing, gained Avadhigyan i.e. clairvoyance.
With the help of Avadhigyan, she came to know that the soul of Rupsen had taken birth as an elephant. She made her way to the forest to preach him. The villagers tried to stop her but she was firm and entered the forest without any fear. When the elephant saw her, he stood still and stared. At that time the sadhviji said,
“Bujha, Bujha, Rupsen!. O Rupsen awaken, get an inspiration. Holding an attachment as well as affection towards me, you became a victim of so many sufferings. Why are you not abandoning that attachment?" Hearing this, the elephant remembered his previous births. He saw the sequence of the troubles & sufferings borne by him in all the seven births & regretted. “Oh! What have I done? Due to ignorance & fascination of evil desires, I have undergone spiritual degeneration. Now I don't want to continue the same cycle”. His soul was awakened. The sadhviji recommended the king that the elephant was now his
Sadhvi Sunanda preaching the elephant.
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religious fellow therefore special care should be taken of him. The elephant observed fasts and reached the celestial world after death."
This story reveals that sins committed by sight can prove dreadful. As. Rupsen didn't confess, his seven births had been spoilt. What an amazing act of confession & atonement is, by which Sunanda had uplifted her soul. She became a sadhviji & being free from every guilt, achieved complete knowledge & salvation thereby. Thus everyone should purify himself by making confession
11) CHANDRA 8 Sarga DIDN'T CONFESS FOR ANGER
In Vardhaman town there lived Sughad's wife Chandra with her son Sarga. One day Chandra went to work at somebody's house. She got late due to the excess work over there. Her son came with a bundle of firewood from the forest. He was very hungry & searched for food everywhere in the house but didn't find any. He was greatly perplexed due to hunger. Chandra also returned from the work suffering from hunger & thrust. Sarga asked her with anger, “Did you go to mount on a spear?” “Why did you take so much time to come here?” Hearing the words of anger & hatred, Chandra too lost her temper & told him, “Were
your wrists cut off? Coudn't you take the food from the case”. After saying these words in anger they didn't confess. It is said in the scriptures, “Te puna mudhatanai kathavi naloyai kahavi”. It means, due to ignorance one doesn't confess. After death, the soul of Sarga took birth as the son of a tradesman in Tamralipta nagar. His name was Arundeva, whereas Chandra took birth as the daughter of Jasaditya in Patliputra. Her name was Devani. After attaining youth, coincidently, Arundeva & Devani were married. What a strange coincidence of karmas! The relationship of a mother & son, in previous birth, turned into
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Every cause has its effect;
every effect has its cause everything happen
· according to law; chance is but a name for law
not recognised there are many planes
of causation; but nothing escapes the law.
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(1) Arundeva was mounted on a spear and (2) Devan's wrists were cut off. (3) In anger, Sarga said his mother that whether she had been to hang on noose and she replied weather his wrists were cut-off.
the relation of husband & wife.
Once Arundeva left with his friend in a ship through sea routes. Due to the consequences of past deeds, the ship broke. Both the friends got a plank and reached the coast. Walking ahead they reached the outskirts of patliputra.
His friend said, “Arundeva! This is the town where your
father-in-law lives and we have suffered a lot. Let's go to his house.” Arundeva replied, “It will not be fair to go there in such a bothersome position.” His friend told him, “you sit here & I will come soon after visiting there.” Thus he left & Arundeva took rest in a temple nearby. As he was very tired, he fell asleep. Meanwhile, Devani arrived at the
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& hatred wasn't observed by Chandra & Sarga in their previous births, due to which, Chandra's wrists were cut off & Arundeva was mounted on a spear. Thus, one should confess & take atonement of anger also.
garden nearby, wearing precious ornaments. A thief came there & stole her bangles, cutting off her wrists, & ran away. She shouted loudly for help, hearing which, the soldiers ran after the thief. He found no other place to escape than the temple where Arundeva was sleeping. He left the bangles and the sword near him and managed to escape. The soldiers entered the temple and caught him considering him to be the thief. He was taken to the king, who ordered to impale him.
After some while when his friend returned, he came to know that Arundeva was impaled. He gave this news to his fatherin-law. He went to the king & explained, “Arundeva is my sonin-law & someone else has stolen the bangles of my daughter."
Knowing the fact, the king ordered his soldiers to get down Arundeva from the spear.
Arundeva was treated and cured. · Arundeva & Devani fasted & moved to heaven after death. Here, confession regarding anger
One angry moment does wrongs for what we repent for years. It can never be recovered by sorrows and tears...
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12) Laxmana SADHUIJI SUFFERED FOR NOT CONFESSING
No one can achieve
serenity until the glare of passion is past the meredian.
- Cyril Connolly
During the 24th Tirthankara of the past 80th sequence of 24 Tirthankaras, there was a princess named Laxmana. She became a widow, immediately after the marriage ceremony. Following the duties of a lay woman, she accepted asceticism on a auspicious day. She became a preceptor of many female disciples. One day, watching a sexual intercourse between a male & a female sparrow, she thought that “Why did Arihant Bhagwan condemn such acts? Oh! Bhagwan is an almighty soul, how can he know the sufferings of an embodied soul?” She had such a thought just for a moment. Later, she remorsed that her thought was wrong because Arihant Bhagwan are omniscient and therefore can understand the miseries of all embodied souls.
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She decided to confess her thoughts and began her journey towards her Gurudev in order to confess. On the way, a thorn pricked her foot. She considered it to be a bad omen. She thought, "If I confess, I will be looked down by Gurudev. He will consider me to be faithless and devotionless. She was confused by such thoughts. Finally, she decided to take atonement for the sins by not disclosing herself. She told Gurudev, “Oh! Gurudev! if anybody thinks such then what could be the atonment for it?". She did not reveal that it was herself who thought such & thus she did not make pure confession. After that, for 10 years she did several fasting of 2, 3, 4 & 5 days. She consumed roasted grains for two years and monthly fasts for sixteen years. She did Ayambil for 20 years, & consumed only dried chana for 2 years. Thus, she
observed severe penance but her sins were not purified & she had to take many births on this earth. She will get salvation in the duration of the first promoter of Jainism of next twenty four promoters. As she did not confess sincerely, her soul wandered in life forms. If she had confessed sincerely then she wouldn't have to observe so many fasts, nor would have to suffer in future births. As she hid her sin, her penance also were in vain. So one should get purified by confessing evil thoughts also.
Many confess their sins occurred by the body but neglect the sins committed by thoughts. Very few of them confess their evil thought. It should be kept in mind that while confessing, one should also reveal their evil thoughts. Atonement is necessary for the mental sins as well as the physical sin.
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The jealous are the troublesome to others,
but torment to themselves.
- William Penn
13) PRINCESS RISHIPATTA
Rajkumari became pious... There was a town Gangapur, which was ruled by King Gangadutt. He had a queen named Ganga and daughter Gangasena. By the inspiration of a sadhvi, Gangasena restrained herself from worldly pleasures and understanding the theory and concept of Jainism, accepted celibacy at a young age.
She observed fasts and ayambils, thus tormenting the body.
Didn't take repentance of allegation... There was a poor lady, Sanga, who was the follower of a Jain sadhvi. After acquiring knowledge from her, she adopted vows. Sincere devotion and penance acquired her supernatural powers which made her popular
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everywhere. Princess Gangasena couldn't stand this due to jealousy. Envious thoughts haunted her mind such that, “Initially people were praising me, but now her. No, It shouldn't happen” She spread over false rumors about Sanga. She said that she observed fasts in the daytime whereas ate corpses at night. It is said that frequent repetition of a lie becomes truth. Thus people started believing her blame.
This rumour spread like forest fire. How could one doubt the words of holy and pious Gangasena. The people accepted it and started believing that Sanga wasn't a sadhvi but a monster.
· People uttered the proverb, "All that glitters is not gold. Sanga is pretending to be a sadhvi but in fact, she is monstrous. Shame on her.” Sanga, like a river of peace, harmony and tolerance, tolerated V T all this blemish "quietly and silently, considering it as the
consequences of her previous karma. She didn't have a feeling of anger and hatred for Gangasena. Princess Gangasena died without confessing and after death, she had to wander in many births. She was, once again, born as a princess in Gangapur and accepted asceticism. After the completion of this birth, she attained the status of devi in devlok. Later on, she was born as the daughter of Priyamati, the queen of King Harishen of Mritikapada city.
Once, king Harishen told her wife, “My dear ! I am leaving this kingdom and going to the forest for observing penance and self realization. You stay over here." The devoted queen Priyamati said, “Your path is my path of life, so I will also follow you.”
The king didn't knew that she was pregnant, so he happily
agreed. The couple acquainted the practice of penance. They started surviving by eating fruits in
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the forest. As days passed, the pregnancy progressed. The kulpati (head of ashram) was frightened seeing this and went away leaving the couple.
Rishidatta frequently disappeared... As days passed, 9 months of pregnancy completed & Priyamati gave birth to a beautiful & charming girl. After giving birth, she immediately died. This child was obtained by the blessings of a sage so her father named her “Rishidatta”. Gradually, Rishidatta grew into a young maiden. Harishen was deeply concerned about the protection of his beautiful & charming daughter in this forest, so he told his daughter, “I am giving you the power to disappear. Protect your character & chastity with the help of this skill” Harishen gave the power to
his daughter Rishidatta by which she disappeared occasionally.
Kanakratha's departure for marriage... In Rathamardan town there lived the son of king Hemratha called Kanakratha. King Sunderpani of Kaberipuri sent an invitation to this young, dashing, skillful prince to marry his daughter Rukmini. Honouring the invitation, Hemratha sent his son to Kaberipuri with some soldiers.
Coincidently, the prince arrived in that forest where Rishidatta was living. Being confounded by thirst, the prince sent his soldiers in search of water. They wandered in the forest & finally fetched some after a long time. After quenching his thirst, the prince asked them the reason for being late.
They replied, “O My lord! you will be surprised but it is true. We were wandering in the forest in search of water... about 12 km away. There, we saw a beautiful lake and temple under a banyan tree. A sage practicing penance was sitting under the tree & beside him we saw a beautiful & charming young girl & soon she disappeared. Was it an illusion or an imagination?,
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In this confusion we stood there watching her. Frequently she appeared & disappeared. The incident was amazing.
Rishidatta's Marriage... The next day, due to curiosity, the prince moved in that direction. Reaching there, he saw a young & beautiful girl, appearing and disappearing. He entered in the temple and saw the old sage. The sage welcomed him & got his introduction. The prince asked his permission to stay there & he happily agreed.
One day, seeking an opportunity, the prince asked the sage about the disappearing young girl. Harishen thought that the prince was interested in his daughter & readily told the entire story. Hearing this, the prince was dumbfound. Harishen thought him to be suitable for his daughter, so he conducted their marriage. After having the virtuous wife Rishidatta, Kanakratha forgot the intention for which he had started his journey. He returned to his town along with Rishidatta with pomp and grandeur. When Rukmini came to know about their marriage, she prepared herself to take revenge like a female serpent. She thought, “At any cost I should separate Kanakratha from Rishidatta so that he will agree to marry me? Isn't it a storm of passions? What an evil desire! A person prepares to fulfill his own desire even by hurting another person. He wants to achieve his evil goals by hook or crook.
Unbearable allegations on Rishidatta... One day Rukmini coincidently met a penance practicing woman called Sulasa & made a conspiracy to defame Rishidatta. She made such a dramatic presentation of her trouble
some situation that Sulasa tapasi asked her, “Tell me! What you 'want?” Rukmini expressed her evil wishes, “Get Rishidatta away from Kanakratha I don't want this
thorn like interference between me & kanakratha." The tapasi gave her an assuarance & made a vow that she would definately fullfill her desires.
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The tapasi reached to Rathamardana town and seeing Rishidatta, her eagerness regarding fulfillment of Rukmini's desires had broken. She thought, “Wow! After having such a beautiful, charming & virtuous wife who will expect another one? Whatever decision taken by the prince is absolutely right. But... but... I have made a commitment... What about it?" It was the matter of her self-esteem.
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flesh... The tapasi practised black magic and killed the honourable persons of the kingdom & coloured the hands & mouth of innocent Rishidatta with blood & flesh. Gradually, this news spread among the people
& they said, “Rishidatta is a By the power of black magic, Sulasa killed the
monster. She kills people at honourable persons of the kingdom & coloured
night & eats their flesh” the hands & mouth of innocent Rishidatta with blood & flesh.
The prince asked Rishidatta “Whatever the
people are saying, is it true?” Rishidatta replied, “Oh! My master! I don't know anything about this... due to the bad deeds of previous births, such blemish is laid upon me... I don't know anything more? Hearing her innocent explanation his doubt was cleared.
Sulasa continued to play her game without loosing hope. She crossed all the limits. Pieces of flesh & swords, coloured by blood, started appearing on the bed of Rishidatta. By the influence of black magic, the prince was not able to see the arrival & departure of Sulasa. The prince also began to lose
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faith and one day told Rishidatta, “O dear! If you have a desire or habit to eat flesh then please tell me so, I will secretly make arrangements for the same. But this should not happen."
Rishidatta cried blaming her destiny... “O My master! right from birth, I am following the principles of non-violence. I can't expect such things even in dream.” That virtuous woman politely said, “Till today, I didn't hide anything from you. If you do not believe me, it's not your fault but it may be the consequences of my deeds done in previous births.”
Kanakratha became helpless.. he was experiencing the state where he couldn't say anything nor tolerate everything as it was. He was neither ready for the seperation of his virtuoes & innocent wife, nor had the courage to see such dreadful scenes anymore. At last he found out a golden mean...he told his father that he didn't know anything regarding this matter.
King Hemrath's anger & decision... One day, being terribly angry with his courtiers, he said, “Each and every day murders are taking place in the kingdom & you are sitting carefree. What does it mean?. Has your intelligence become blunt?”..
possible efforts, but in vain. At the end, they surrendered to Sulasa. She became very happy as everything was going on according to her wish. Sulasa, who excelled in deception, answered that the matter was complicated. She would give them a definite answer after adoration & prayers to Goddess. She also mentioned the name of Goddess so that people could trust her without any doubt.
During that night, Sulasa put Rishidatta to deep sleep & put the pieces of flesh in her mouth. To gain their trust, she went to the king and courtiers and
By hearing the words showing anxiety & love for the subject as well as non-violence, the courtiers were conscious-stricken. They made all
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said, “O Lord ! go there & assure yourself." The king & courtiers went at the place where Rishidatta was sleeping. Seeing the pieces of flesh in her mouth, they became assured that it was she, who had committed all the murders in the kingdom, and lost their temper.
“Oh No! It is Rishidatta who kills the people & drinks their blood. I am the eye-witness. Now, there is no need to ask the prince regarding this matter." He immediately called the executioners & ordered them, “let the earth be relieved from the burden of this sin?
that the king wouldn't blame us.”
Thinking about herself, Rishidatta moved towards the hermitage of her father. She reached there and came to know that sage Harishen had died. She had a divine herb by which she transformed herself into a male, so as to protect her celibacy and character. She lived there as Tapas Kumar.
Kanakaratha's marriage with Rukmini... By the separation of his dear Rishidatta; Kanakratha became restless just like a fish without water. The pain of separation became intolerable. A messenger of King Sundarpani arrived with the proposal of Rukmini's marriage. King Hemratha convinced Kanakratha for the marriage and sent him towards Kaberi. On the way, he reached the place where he had met Rishidatta for the first time. His right eye fluttered (a good omen) and he felt that there would be some good news for him. Meanwhile, he saw the tapaskumar
The executioners took helpless Rishidatta to the cemetery & threatened her. Her reply was flowing in the form of tears from her eyes.
Executioner's sympathy... By the fortune of that devoted lady, the executioners thought that such an innocent & caring lady can't commit such sins.
They pitied & told her, “Sister! run far away from here so
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and was attracted at the very first sight. He called him and asked him to introduce himself. Tapaskumar hid his real identity and said, “Oh Prince! There was a hermit called Harishen who lived with his daughter Rishidatta. She was married to a prince and later on Harishen expired. I came here wandering and liked the temple situated in this lonely place. Hence, I am staying over here. The humble answer of the tapaskumar made Kanaratha feel that he had literally met Rishidatta.
have done penance on advice of Guru but still, I haven't attained any powers nor attained any knowledge." Being proud, Sulsa said, “I have skills and magical powers like Awswapini, etc, which I have successfully implemented on Rishidatta.” Saying this, she narrated him the whole event and he realized that she was the one behind all his troubles. He quietly replied, “I am not interested in these kinds of powers.” How patient and forgiving was he ... The tapsi went away.
Intimate friendship between Tapaskumar and Kanakratha... The prince had conversation with the tapaskumar forthe whole night. Knowing the prince perplexed and restless, he asked, “Who was this Rishidatta, without whom you stay so afflicted. Kanakratha described about her beauty, charm and virtues emotionally and said, It's impossible to describe her?'
The night got over and sunrise thrilled the entire earth with joy. A minister arrived from
He said to the tapaskumar, “looking at you, my soul feels immersed in the ocean of joy and happiness. Kindly stay with me.” He replied, “We don't hold any relations with worldly beings." Kanakratha insisted strongly therefore, he agreed to stay with
him.
Coincidently, Tapsi Sulsaalso arrived over there. Tapaskumar guessed that she was the person behind her troubles and miseries. Therefore, he said Sulsa that, “I
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Kaberi and requested the prince for departure. He replied that “If my friend tapaskumar will come along with me, then only I shall continue with my journey, not otherwise” The prince requested, “O my friend! I promise you that after marriage I will drop you here."
The prince departed in an auspicious hour and entered Kaberi. Kanakratha married Rukmini. He stayed for many days in Kaberi, immersed in the memories of Rishidatta, and spent days in gloom.
Once, Rukmini casually asked Kanakratha, “Swami! Why do you seem so gloomy? What was in Rishidatta that after having a beautiful wife like me, you can't forget her?” He replied, “It's no use of comparing you with her. How beautiful she was! What can I say about her charm, qualities and virtues? I have prepared myself for marriage due to the persuation of my father, otherwise I wouldn't have come here."
Rukmini got frustrated and
said in anger, “This was my conspiracy that you came here, otherwise!". Saying this she revealed the whole story and disclosed the secret.'
Hearing this, the prince became annoyed as she had blamed such a spiritual lady. Extreme feelings of hatred arose for Rukmini alongwith regret that he couldn't save Rishidatta. At that time, Rishidatta, in the disguise of tapaskumar, became happy as she had become free from the allegations slammed on her.
The prince wasn't able to console himself for being the cause of the sorrowful death of Rishidatta. “I want to confess this. There is only one way to free myself from this grave sin and i.e. to burn myself in the flames of fire. I don't have the right to stay alive for getting such a devotional lady assassinated."
This news spread all over the city rapidly. People praised the virtues of Rishidatta and criticized the conspiracy of Rukmini. They
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also wished to console the prince as he couldn't tolerate the death of such a pious soul. The king exiled Sulsa but was firm on his decision to plunge in the burning flames. The fumes of burning logs of woods were touching the sky. King Sundarpani tried extremely to convince him but it was in vain. The king didn't loose hope and asked the tapaskumar, “Stop the prince from entering the fire by any means. Do something as you
are his friend." ľ Tapaskumar was also in a
great trouble. Anything could happen if the situation wasn't handled tactfully. Considering the appeal of the king he convinced, “Friend! What are you doing? Suicide! Suicide results into great degeneration of a soul. Your future births will be deteriorated. It is said that fortune favours the existing.” Hearing this, the prince optimistically said, “Dear friend, if you bring Rishidatta back to me and unite me with her, I will change my decision and will give
you whatever you desire. I want to know if you have seen Rishidatta anywhere?” He replied, “Yes, I have seen her with God” The prince said, “Then, please go there and bring her back.” He said, “If I send her over here then I won't come and I will have to be there” The prince said, “If you come then well and fine but send Rishidatta back.” He said, “Tie a curtain, I will go to heaven by meditation and send her back, but I shall not return."
How selfish can a human be. The prince, who was unable to survive without his friend, was ready to leave him for Rishidatta.
The tapaskumar went behind the curtain and using the divine herb, transformed into Rishidatta. People were astonished seeing her and murmured within themselves, “Leaving the virtuous Rishidatta, the prince wasn't happy with Rukmini."
Now, the prince had no affection for Rukmini. He didn't even look at her. This made pious Rishidatta unhappy.
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Rishidatta appeared from behind the curtain and people were dumbstruck seeing her.
Rishidatta's Generosity... Seeing Kanakrath cheerful, Rishidatta told him the whole story of tapaskumar which relived the prince from the remorse of the separation of tapaskumar. She also reminded the prince about the boon which he had promised. Kanakratha agreed.
Rishidatta appealed him, “O master! I wish that you behave with Rukmini in the same way as you behaye with me." Kanakratha was astonished seeing her generosity and bowed her. What a great personality was Rishidatta, who forgave Rukmini and had love and sympathy for her, in spite of being tormented by her. Tears rolled out from his eyes and he willingly accepted her. After a few days, he went to Rathmardan along with his wives and bowed his father Hemratha.
King Hemrath's repentance and initiation... King Hemratha also had severe repentance that in illusion, misunderstanding
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and ego, he had committed a big blunder. With the feeling of asceticism, King Hemratha also adopted monkhood under Yashodharsuri Maharaj Saheb.
The asceticism of Kanakratha and Rishidatta... Kanakratha lawfully ruled the kingdom. Once Rishidatta dreamt of a lion and later on gave birth to a male child who was named Sinhastha as per the dream.
King and queen were engrossed in observing the natural scenes in the sky in the evening. The · colourful clouds adorned by light, seemed to be dancing in the sky. The king said, “What a beautiful arrangement of this clouds is!” Suddenly, those clouds disappeared and the king anxiously thought, “Oh! my life and powers will also disappear some day like these clouds. This thought disturbed his mind and he was filled with detachment of this ephemeral world. He was filled with the feelings of asceticism and at that time Acharya Yashodharsuriji Maharaj
Saheb arrived with Hemrathmuni at the garden
After hearing the sermon of the muni, Rishidatta asked, “Why was I slandered in spite of being innocent?” The muni said, "Oh Rishidatta, you had also committed the same with the pious lady Sanga in your previous birth and didn't confess as well as repent. If you had confessed at that time, you wouldn't have been put in trouble in this birth."
By hearing this, Rishidatta remembered her previous birth. Handing over the kingdom to Sinhastha, Kanakratha and Rishidatta accepted asceticism and attained salvation by observing severe penance.
Dear readers! this is the peculiarity of karmas. If one doesn't confess even for his small sin and purify himself, the small spark develops into a great fire in future. Had Rishidatta confessed and atoned for calling Sanga a monster in her previous birth, she wouldn't have to suffer.
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another village.”
The villagers thought that, “such a statement... & that too by a trustworthy girl of our village.” Everybody trusted her false
statement.
An allegation was made against the pious & devoted lady Sitaji. Jainism believes in cause & effect theory. No action occurs without a cause or it can be said that every action is followed by a cause.
In her previous birth, Sitaji didn't confess for her sins therefore, she was blamed. This is how the story goes...
The wife of Brahman Shribhuti, Saraswati, gave birth to a female child. She was named Vegavati. Gradually, Vegavati grew into a young woman and was interested in religious activities. One day she saw Sudarshan sage, involved in meditation. He practiced severe penance and was selfless therefore, all the people in the village used to come to bow him.
Out of spite, Vegavati spread rumors among the villagers, "This saint is pretentious. Why do all of you bow before him with respect? I saw him with a lady in
The next day, nobody came to him except birds. Sudarshan sage was puzzled and wondered about the cause of this. Enquiring with some people, he came to know that Vegavati had spread such a rumour about him. He did not blame Vegavati and thought all this was the consequence of his past deeds. So, by uttering Appanam vosirami' he stood in meditation & he decided to continue it until the blemish was removed. Due to his meditation, the seats of deities trembled and they distorted Vegvati's face. Her face became disfigured and blackish like a coal. Seeing this, her father was shocked. “What disease
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have occurred to my beautiful daughter?” He asked Vegavati, “Dear, what have you done? Have you applied any medicine on your face? Did you try anything wrong with your face?”
Vegavati replied politely, "I haven't done anything intentionally but by mere curiosity & mischief, I blindly announced that, I have seen Sudarshan sage with a lady." Hearing these words Shribhuti became angry & said,
"Oh No! What have you done? Right now, go to that saint & beg pardon.” Vegavati went near him & apologized in the presence of all the villagers & asked for forgiveness but she didn't take atonement for the same.
Later, Vegavati took vows & by sincere devotion, moved to heaven after death. In her next birth she was born as the daughter of King Janak & Queen Videhi. After her marriage with Rama,
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during their stay at the forest, Ravana kidnapped her. A fierce war was fought between Rama & Ravana. Ravana was killed and Rama won the battle. The subjects of Ayodhya welcomed Rama, Lakshmana & Sitaji, joyfully.
Some people charged Sitaji that she stayed at Ravana's palace alone for so many days and yet, how could she be considered to be chaste? Ramchandra allowed her in his house without any chastity tests. When people blemished Suryavansh then, in spite of knowing that she was quiet innocent, pious & devoted, he decided to abandon her in the forest.
Rama called charioteer Krutantavadan & ordered him to take Sitaji by the pretex of pilgrimage and leave her in Sihaninad forest. He left for the woods with pregnant Sitaji. After arriving the dense forest, Krutantavadan told with a shivering heart, “I am the servant of Ramachandraji & as a part of my duty, I have to tell you to get down from the chariot. It is an order
of my master to leave you in this forest, alone & helpless, & I should return back to Ayodhya..! They have taken such a decision to get rid of the gossips & allegations made by the people
As Sitaji heard this, she shattered & fell down. Her eyes closed & her breath stopped. She fell unconscious. The charioteer felt very sorry and thought that his words had caused her death. He stood there helpless. At that time, cold winds blew. It revived Sitaji
Sitaji fell down from the chariot.
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and she gained consciousness. She told Krutantvadan, “You have completed your duty. Now, go back to Ayodhya & convey my message to King Dasharatha's son that you have abandonded me due to the gossips & blemish of people, yet it may do you no harm but likewise, don't leave the religion by their words, or else your entire birth will be spoilt.
After hearing this, his eyes were full of tears & heart, full of praise for the truth of the chaste lady. It is well said that, “Who can try the one, protected by God.”
When Sitaji was alone in the forest, King Vajradanta happened to be there with his minister Subuddhi, in search of elephants. Seeing her alone & helpless, he came to help her with his soldiers. Assuming him to be a thief, Sitaji threw all her ornaments towards him. He told her, “Don't worry, we will not harm you. We came
here to help you and are like your brothers.” Sitaji told him the entire incident. He consoled & took her to his kingdom Pundarik, with respect. Sitaji gave birth to twins Lava & Kusha. When they grew up they fought with Rama. In the battle, Rama & lakshmana were perplexed. At that time, Naradji came there & introduced them to each other. The battle ended & Rama met Lava & Kusha happily. He brought them to his kingdom with honour & respect. Then, as per the order of Ramaji, Sitaji performed Agnidivya i.e. chastity test.
Everyone welcomed her. Sitaji plucked her hair out with her hands & accepted asceticism. We all are familiar with the story of Ramayana.
As Vegavati did not confess, she had to suffer a lot. She had to tolerate allegations; she had to part from Rama & had to wander in the forest alone.
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- a man of purest character,
boils over and is at once dissipated
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15) WHAT COMPELLED HARISHCHANDRA
TO STAY AT THE CEMETERY?
Harishchandra & Taramati were the king & queen in their previous birth also. One day, looking at two saints, the queen grew passionate. She tried to attract them by making various gestures but all her efforts were in vain.
The saints criticized her demands & told her that to get attracted towards a fascinating bag of excrement is an ignorance. Inwardly, the body is full of excrements, so why to get attracted towards its beautiful exterior? But how can the person, who has worn the spectacles of desires & has become blind, realize the true nature of things. Thus, in order to take revenge of her insult, she spread rumours about them. She alleged, "These wicked saints have attacked my character. Help! Help !" Soldiers arrested and took them to the king.
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The king grew furious. Flames of anger were blowing out of his eyes & he ordered, “These saints are deceitful.. take them to the prison. Make them half-dead by whipping. Beat atleast 100 lashes to each of them every day.”
A month later, the king came to know the fact. He relieved the saints from the prison & apologized for his deed. He did not confess & take atonement. As a result, in their next birth (in the birth of Harishchandra & Taramati) they had to stay at an executioner's house in a cemetery for twelve years. An allegation of being a monster was made on Taramati & she had to tolerate the separation of her son Rohit.
All these were the consequences of the sins of previous birth. As they did not take atonement in the presence of Guru, they had to tolerate such miseries. So, we should make pure confessions.
* 16) KING SHRIPAL SUFFERED
DUE TO NON-CONFESSION
King Shripal was known as King Shrikant in his previous birth. Once he saw a sage in muddy clothes & said, “you are a leper (person with leprosy).” Another day, seeing a sage meditating on the bank of a river, he forced him to dive in the water. The sage thought that it was nothing but the consequence of his deeds. King Shrikant was bound with sins for this deed.
King Shrikant did not confess & atone for both of the sins, so, in his next birth, he was affected with leprosy. Later on, Dhavalsheth threw him in a sea. By the grace of Navpada, a crocodile saved him by imposing him on . his back.
The consequences of not confessing are very miserable! Thus we should confess before Guru at the earliest.
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17) PUNISHMENT OF
THEFT 8 PEUKI Mata
Vasudeva’s wife had stolen seven gems of her co-wife in her previous birth. Looking at her distress, she pitied her & returned one gem. She did not confess the theft & was born as Devki in her next birth.
In Bhaddil village there lived a merchant called Nagil and his wife Sulsa. Once a forecaster foretold that she would give birth to dead children. Worried, she worshiped dev Harinaigameshi. He told her that, “It is not in your fate to give birth to a live child. I can hand over other's children to you. You breed them.” Sulsa thought that something is better than nothing. She agreed for the same.
At the time of marriage ceremony of Devki, Aimutta Muni told Jivayasha, the wife of Kansa, “The seventh child of Devki will kill your husband” Being afraid of death, Kansa convinced Vasudeva
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Devki's soul, in her previous birth, had stolen 7 gems from her co-wife.
that he should hand over all his seven children to him. He decided to kill all of them. It is well said that, none can harm the one who is protected by God. The fate of those children was favourable and Harinaigameshidev exchange them, as they were born, with the dead children of Sulsa.
Unaware of the fact, Kansa striked their dead bodies on a rock and cut them with a knife. He was assured that they were dead. Devaki had to bear the separation of her six children. (All these six children grew up & accepted vows
near Lord Neminath.) When the seventh child was born, Vasudeva handed over him to Yashoda with much precaution & kept her new born girl beside Devki. Kansa cut off her nose. Thus, due to the theft of gems, Devki had to suffer the separation of her six children. She had returned one gem therefore, she was departed from Krishna for some time & ultimately met him.
This story teaches that any theft done by us in the influence of greed or intense longing should be immediately confessed.
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18) DHANDHANKUMAR & HURDLES
In his previous birth, Dhandhan kumar was a supervisor of farmers. After finishing their work, when the tired farmers returned to have their meal, he would send them to plough his farm. Thus he caused a hindrance in their meal. One by one, the farmers would do some work in his farm. Thus, his field was ploughed by them free of cost. He did not confess for getting the work done free of cost as well as creating an obstacle in their meals.
In his next birth, Dhandhankumar was initiated under the aegis of Lord Neminath & vowed that if he acquired food by his own fate then and only he would break his fast. Here, the time came to tolerate the consequences of the evil deed of creating an obstacles in others meal. Philosophers says, "Bandh samaye chit chetiye re udaye sho santap" It means a person should be careful & concerned while committing a sin but, it is useless to remorse at the
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19) DRAUPADI
HAD TO Marry FIUE MEN
time of suffering its consequences. O soul ! You merrily committ sins and therefore cannot get rid of them merely by crying. You have to suffer the consequences also. Dhandhanmuni wandered for six months but he did not obtain food by his own fate. One day Krishnaji saluted Dhandhanmuni. Seeing this, one big hearted person offered him food and accepting it, he went near Lord Neminath.
He told Dhandhanmuni, “O Dhandhan! As Krishnaji was your devotee and he bowed before you, you obtained food. Thus, you received food due to him & not on your own. Your pledge is still incompleted” Hearing this, he went to dispose that food. While doing so, he was deeply involved in meditation & attained kevalgyan. As he did not confess & atone for the sin committed in the previous birth, he had to suffer heavily. Hence, all of you readers should confess without fail.
Sukumarika sadhviji was meditating in the sunlight, in the month vaishakh, in the woods. At the same time five men came there with a prostitute. They touched various parts of her body and behaved sensually. Passionate people ignore all the limits & shame. Sadhviji saw this scene and lost her senses.
She determined that, “As a result of all my dévotion, fastings & worship, I should have five husbands in next birth.“She didn't confess for this thought. After death, Sukumarika took birth as the daughter of King Drupad and was named after him as Draupadi. A ceremony was organized for selecting her husband by the bride herself. In the marriage ceremony, according to the condition, Arjuna hit the Radhaved target. Hence, Draupadi offered a garland and accepted him as her husband. Surprisingly, at the same time,
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the garland was also seen around the necks of other four Pandavas. King Drupad was shocked, Oh! What is this happening? At that time, a divine oracle was heard that whatever happened was just. A Charanmuni gave the solution that Draupadi wouldn't wish for another unless his turn comes.
As she hadn't confessed, she was put in such a situation. She wouldn't have to fast for months in atonement of her thoughts, but it was her ego which kept her away from confessing. One has to bear unending sequence of sorrows & miseries due to pride. The well versed people advise us to be careful and wash all the black side of your life by confession & atonement.
- Oscar Wilde
Sukumarika bears the heat, outside the village, inspite of being condemned by the Scriptures.
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20) UNCONFESSED JEALOUSY
Jealousy can be compared to the fire that not only harms other person but also burns the one to ashes from where it arises. Guru praised his disciples Bahu & Subahu who were serving 500 saints in the monastery by bringing food and pressing their legs etc. This made Pitha & Mahapitha jealous. They thought, “Whole day, we are wasting our energy in discussing the scriputure & Guru praises the disciples who are just performing a manual work of bringing food
and water. It is our devaluation. They didn't think that everybody is praised for his work according to the occassion. Their hearts were burning in the flames of jealousy.
They did not confess for this jealousy and all the four disciples died. Pith & Mahapith took birth as females due to their jealousy. They were born as Brahmi & Sundari whereas Bahu & Subahu were born as Bharat & Bahubali. So, we should confess & purify ourselves.
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21) ananasundari
Kanakratha, the king of Kanakpura, had two wives, Kanakodri & Lakshmivati. Lakshmivati worshiped a gem idol of Jineshwar Bhagwan in the palace. She became popular as a pious person. Kanakodri was jealous of her popularity. She thought that the cause of her popularity was the worship of the idol. “If cause is destroyed the effect will automatically cease.” Thus, she threw the idol in wastes. Lakshmivati searched the idol. She suspected that none other than Kanakodri could do such task. Sadhvi Jayshree, who arrived there, also came to know about this. Lakshmivati persuaded Kanakodri with warmth. Kanakodri conducted a ceremonious bath of water on the idol & then installed it again but she didn't confess for her sin.
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Due to this, in her next birth, she had to suffer the separation from her husband for 22 years. In her previous birth, Vasanttilaka had inspired & supported her for committing the sin, so she also had to suffer with her.
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22] QUEEWN Kuntala
Queen Kuntala promoted to her co-wives towards devotion for Bhagwan Jinendra & several other religious rituals. All that queens progressed in faith and religion. This made Kuntala jealous. She had preached them about religion and now they surpassed her.
She didn't have the generosity to see them progressing. After all, they were striving for a selfless cause. She wasn't against the rites and rituals they performed but the only thing that bothered her was that, they shouldn't excel 'her. It is the general tendency of every human mind to interrupt or create obstacles in other's progress, rather than trying hard to perform better. Kuntala also had such a tendency, which made her a bitch in next birth. Now, in this birth, she had nothing to do except barking.
It is well said regarding the jealous tendency of dogs... "A full moon rose in the sky, showering the moonlight & the entire
To cure jealousy is to see it for what
it is a dissatisfaction
with self.
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Tripushtha Vasudeva poured hot lead in the ears of a shayyapalak servant.
surroundings became bright! But in that moonlight, the dogs awoke & started barking? Does the moon stop the shower of light by the barking of dogs? As dogs see widespread moonlight, they get encourage to bark more & more. Let them go on, but the stars in the sky will not fall down! Stars will continue glittering & dogs will continue barking! Stars never complain to dogs that, “If you want to bark then do so but why do you bark staring at us. Stars glitter & the dogs bark. Jealous tendency flows in the blood of dogs.
If others are jealous, should we? No! but we should remain just like the glittering stars. Suppose someone owns three bungalows or four cars and we don't have any then should we feel jealous? No... never. If one is eating a sweet dish made up of almonds & we have to try hard for a stomach-full meal then should we feel jealous? No. definitely not... Remember, if you are victimized by jealousy then confess for the same. Otherwise, your condition could be worse than Kuntala.
23) AS THE EMBODIED.
SOUL OF Bhagawan MaHaulo Swami DID NOT CONFESS
Bhagwan Mahavir Swami had humiliated a queen in his birth of Tripushtha Vasudeva & also poured hot lead in the ears of shayyapalak servant. He did not confess & repent for this sin. As a result, in the birth of Tirthankar, that queen became Katputana & caused severe tortures. Shayyapalak servant was born as a cowman & hammered nails in the ears of Bhagvan Mahavir Swami.
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24) HARIKESHIBALI TOOK BIRTH m an ANCESTRY OF EXECUTIONER
After initiation, Somdev Brahmana had pride in his ancestry. He observed fasts, worships & devotions & relieved himself from many karmas. He did not confess for the false pride of his caste & ancestry. By the rise of its consequence, he had to take birth as Harikeshibala, in an ancestry of downtrodden caste of executioners. Harikeshibala accepted asceticism & after meditation, attained ultimate spiritual knowledge & salvation too.
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In her previous birth, Kalavati detached the wings of a parrot. She enjoyed the act and the agony of the parrot. She did not confess it. In the subsequent birth, the parrot became a king & Kalavati his queen. One day seeing her armlets, her friend asked, “Where did you get the armlets from?" The queen replied, "It is sent by a person who remains in my heart forever & in whose heart I do. Seeing him, my joy knows no bounds.” The King over heard this secretly & doubted her character. He thought, “Does my wife hold a bad character? Her mind is somewhere else; perhaps she is devoted to the person who has sent these ornaments” The king became very angry & ordered his soldiers, "Take the pregnant queen to the forest & cut off her wrists along with the armlets & bring them to me." The soldiers carried out his orders and
returned with her armlets. The queen gave birth to a male child. Being impressed with her good conduct & character, a deity cured & restored her wrists. He also created a palace in the forest.
When the king saw the names of the queen's brother Jay & Vijay on the armlets, he was remorseful. He searched for her & brought her back to the kingdom with respect. On being asked, Bhagwan Mahavir answered them that it was the consequence of detaching the wings of a parrot as a queen in her previous birth. Hearing this, the king & the queen handed over the kingdom to their son & accepted asceticism. Eventually, after shedding all her karmas, the queen attained salvation. As she did not confess for the sin in her previous birth, her wrists were cut-off & she had to suffer a lot. So, one should not hesitate to confess.
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The pea-hen hatched her eggs, cleansed by the rain, after 6 hours 24 minutes.
The queen took the eggs of a pea-hen out of curiosity.
26) EGGS HELD IN HANDS
In one of her births, Rukmini's embodied soul was a queen. Once, the King & the queen were hanging around in the garden for recreation. A pea-hen had laid eggs. The queen took the eggs in her hand merely with curiosity. They became reddish by the red kum-kum in her hands. The pea-hen did not hatch them as she did not recognize them. After six hours & twenty four minutes, it rained & the eggs were washed off (cleaned). Recognising them the pea-hen hatched them. The queen did not confess for the same, as a result, in the birth of Rukmini, she had to suffer the separation of her child for 16 years. On being asked the reason for the separation of her child, Lord Neminath explained the cause. Hearing it, Rukmini accepted asceticism and ultimately attained salvation.
As Rukmini touched the eggs, the pea-hen had to suffer the separation of her brood for 6 hours & 24 minutes (16 ghadi). Hence, she too had to suffer the separation for 16 years. One should keep in mind that what would be the destiny of the people who literally consume eggs and omlets?
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27) WHY Was peuAnanda's
EMBRYO TRANSFERED
In her previous birth, Devananda was the elder brother's wife and Trishala was the younger's. Devananda stole many precious stones from Trishala. In a conflict, she returned few of them. Trishala angrily said, “May I get your child.” Devananda didn't confess. In subsequent births, the foetus of Lord Mahavir was transited from her womb to Trishala's womb.
That's why one shouldn't be careless in confessing of theft.
28) DIDN'T CONFESS FOR DISRESPECTING KNOWLEDGE
Acharyashri Vasudevsuriji stopped preaching his 500 disciples in his previous birth. He observed silence for 12 days and died without confessing and took birth as Vardatta. Consequently, he suffered from leprosy & was poor in studies. Later he met Vijaysensurishvarji Maharaj who said the · reason of his dullness. He worshiped Gyanpanchmi and attained salvation
after three births. Due to the disrespect of knowledge and by not preaching and confessing, he was infected with leprosy and had a dull mind.
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29). DION'T CONFESS FOR USING THE WEALTH MEANT FOR RELIGIOUS PURPOSE
A merchant of Saketpur was managing the construction of a temple. With intention of earning, he paid the labourers in the form of commodities from his shop, rather than money. Doing so, he earned 1000 kankani i.e. Rs.12.5/. He didn't confess for this. Due to this sin, he took birth as a fish, intermediately wandered in the hell twice, was born for 1000 times as swine, goat, deer, rabbit, stag, fox, cat, rat, lizard, snake, and lakhs of
birth as insects and flies. At last he took birth as a poor man and asked a well versed guru, the cause of his miseries. Hearing from the Guru, he confessed and spent Rs. 12,500 (i.e. 1000 time more) in religious fields and later on attained salvation, being a Tirthankara.
"Useage” of religious wealth troubled a great soul of Tirthankara also. Hence, nobles should try their best to be sincere and undergo confession
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10. ATONED THE SIMS AM BECAME
GLITTERING STARS
1) Kamalaxmi aTTammep OMNISCIENCE WITH HER SOM
Kamalaxmi goes to fetch water leaving her son.
There lived a poor brahmin named Vedsar in Laxmitilak town with his wife Kamalaxmi and son Vedavichakshana. The neighbouring king attacked Laxmitilak town. At that time, Kamalaxmi was out of the town to fetch water.
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A soldier took Kamalaxmi to the king.
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You too come there and we'll escape to our native place."
In the palace, she pretended to have a stomach ache. Many doctors tried to cure her but in vain. Kamalaxmi told king that, “During your sickness, I had taken a oath that if you were cured, we would worship devi
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A soldier took her to his king who was fascinated by her beauty and made her his queen. Later on when Vedavichakshana grew up, the brahmin Vedsar handed over the responsibilities to him and went in search of his wife.
Kamalaxmi held feelings for her first husband and therefore began charity everyday, with the hope of meeting him. Once Vedsar came to take donation. Kamalaxmi recognized him and introducing herself, made a plot to escape and said, “On 7th day from today, I will come in the temple of deity Chandi at night.
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Chandi on the 14th of the dark half of lunar month. At that time, you recovered from illness but I forgot to worship her. Hence, we should worship her at the earliest.” She pretended of getting cured, after the king agreed to come with her. They went to the temple riding on horse back. No sooner did the king keep his sword outside the temple and bowed his head while entering the temple, then Kamalaxmi took the sword and with a single blow, cut off his head. Inside the temple,
she found that her husband Vedsar had died due to snake bite. She thought that if she returned to the palace, she will be charged with the king's murder. Hence, she went to forest on horse back and reached near a gardener's house in another town. She entered a temple, where musical instruments were played. Seeing her ornated, one of the women asked her to introduce herself and where did she belonged to. She falsely replied that, “During
our journey through the forest, some thieves killed my husband and I managed to escape from there. Now, I don't have anyone and I am helpless? She fascinated Kamalaxmi by sympathetic talks and took to her house. She was a prostitute and joined her in prostitution after teaching music and singing.
The queen blew the sword on the kings throat.
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Burning myself alive in fire could bethe only repentance forthis.” The chief prostitute tried to console her, but Kamalaxmi didn't listen to her words and jumped into a blazing fire. At that time, it rained and there was flood within no time. She was being dragged away in the flood, when a cowman rescued her. He nursed her back to health and accepted her as his wife.
Once, Kamalaxmi went to sell curd, filled in an earthen pot. Another lady accompanied her with a pot of water. On the way, an elephant chased them.
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Prostitute Kamalaxmi was visited by his son.
Onthe other side, Vedvichakshana thought that his father had been in search of his mother and he didn't return. What could he do now? He too left in search of his parents. Moving places, he happened to be near those prostitutes and stayed there. After some days, he prepared to leave from there as he had no money. On being asked by Kamalaxmi, he disclosed his identity. Hearing him, she felt pain and regret. Vedvichakshana left away but Kamalaxmi thought, “Oh! I have committed a great sin with my son.
Kamalaxmi ablazed fire and jumped into it. In the meanwhile it rained and there was flood within
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Hence, both of them walked fast and their pots broke. The other women was troubled and unhappy, while Kamlaxmi laughed aloud, although she lost the pot of curd.
On the way, a purohit asked her the reason for laughing She said that, “Why
said that «Why The cowman saved Kamalaxmi from dragging into flood. should I grieve at such trivial matters, as I have faced greater miseries in life. One doesn't bother about small debts when he is under a greater liability. Kamalaxmi narrated her life story to the purohit, who was none but her own son Vedvichakshana. By hearing this, he also felt regret and pain for the sin committed in ignorance.
Both of them confessed at the feet of Lord Mahavira, a divine personality of mercy and sympathy, and attaining omniscience achieved salvation. Without any hesitation in heart, they innocently confessed and attained salvation. Hence, we should confess without any shy and hesitation.
Even though the pot of curd was broken, Kamalaxmi was laughing and other lady alongwith her was crying as her pot of water was broken.
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2) PUSHPACHULA PURIFIED HERSELF BY CONFESSION
In Pushpabhadra town there lived king Pushpaketu with his queen Pushpavati. She gave birth to twins named Pushpachul & Pushpachula. Pushpachul & Pushpachula grew up and couldn't live without each other. The king thought that if I marry daughter Pushpachula then the twins will be separated. As such he called the meeting of his subjects & asked them, “If any precious stone
comes into existence on my land then, where should it be related?” The people replied that you have the authority to relate the precious stones produced on your land. Thus, the king declared, “I am relating both my precious stones i.e. my son & daughter by a nuptial knot.” Thus, the king deceitfully married his son & daughter with each other. Pushpavati became very much distressed seeing such
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Pushpachula dreamt of hell.
of the dream, she told the king about it in the morning. He called various ascetics to know about the nature of hell.
unacceptable relationship and accepted asceticism. After some time she died & was born in the celestial world. King Pushpaketu also reached the other world after his death.
Pushpachul & his sister Pushpachula lived as a husband & wife. Their mother's soul saw them through clairvoyance. “This is totally immoral. For committing such a sin they will have to suffer in the hellIn order to awaken them, she showed a dream of a hell to Pushapachula. Being afraid
They said “ king! The sorrows that are to be suffered in hell are grief, seperation, sickness dependance etc.” Pushpachula told the King that the dream which she had seen was quite different from such miseries. Those sufferings didn't account even a minute portion of what she had dreamt. Then, they asked Jainacharya Arnikaputra & he
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described it exactly according to her dream, regarding the sorrows to be suffered by a soul in all the seven hells.
Later on, her mother deity showed her a dream of the delightful celestial world. Pushpachula asked different ascetics regarding the nature of heaven but wasn't satisfied with them. Hence, she asked the same to Jainacharya Arnikaputra. His description was similar to what she had seen in her dream. So, with the feeling of asceticism, she took vows & by confessing &
atoning, she received the ultimate knowledge & attained salvation in the same birth.
It is worth noting that due to ill fate, Pushpachula and her brother were related as a husband & wife, but by confessing her sins, she attained salvation. We should also confess and purify ourselves as we haven't committed sins similar to that of Pushpachula. Why should we be afraid? O soul! You were not afraid while committing the sins, why are you afraid confessing them.
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3) SALUTATIONS TO KHANDHak Mahamuni
Khandhakkumar, the son of l be known as Khandhakmuni. king Jitshatru & queen Dharini, After taking vows, he underwent rejoiced a lot by peeling a several fasts such as Chatha, Kothimda (a kind of vegetable) Attham etc. (i.e. for 2 days 3 days in his previous birth. He bonded
etc.) and weakened his body. himself with karmas & did not confess for the same. After
One day Khandhakmuni being the prince, he heard the
arrived the village of his sister & preachings of Dharmaghosh brother-in-law. His sister saw him muni and realised the from the window of the palace. ephemerality of the world. He She thought that before taking accepted asceticism & came to vows, her brother was healthy
and pink as a rose & now his body was full of wrinkles & black as a coal due to penance! She was overwhelmed by emotions and recalling the past, tears rolled down her eyes. The king saw her crying looking at the sage and thought that the sage must be her paramour (illict Lover) in the past and therefore she was crying as she could not enjoy his company.
Khandhakmuni's body became so very pale & weak due to penance that the king couldn't recognize him & ordered his executioners, “Peel off the skin of that sage without killing him.” The executioner went to the sage & told, “It is an order of our master to peel your skin.” Instead of getting angry, the sage thought that the body & soul are distinct from each other. They would peel the skin from his body & due to that, his soul would get rid of karmas. Taking this to be an opportunity to get rid of the sins, he told the executioners, “Due to fasting & penance my skin has become rough & full of wrinkles hence, you guide me how to stand so that you can accomplish your task without much effort." What a great thought! Instead of worrying about
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his calamity, he was concerned for the executioners. Dear readers you decide who suffers more? The person whose skin is being peeled off or the one who is peeling it?
In spite of being innocent, the muni wasn't angry neither with the king nor his executioners. He was deeply engrossed in meditation and the executioners gradually peeled off his skin. The muni achieved omniscience & attained salvation. His muhappatti was completely coloured with blood. A kite took it to be a mass of flesh and flew with it in the sky. Coincidently, it dropped near the queen in the palace. She enquired from her servants and came to know that the king had ordered the executioners to kill her brother. Knowing about his
death, her heart trembled with pain and sorrow' and was filled with remorse. The king also came. to know about the truth and couldn't control himself by the grief. They thought that it was by accident that they had committed such an unjust and shameful act. Staying at the unrealistic material world could again cause the same in future. Hence, they accepted asceticism. After confession, penance, criticism and devotion both attained salvation gaining kevalgyan.
The muni had to get his skin peeled off for not confessing the sin of rejoicefully peeling the skin of a vegetable. On the contrary, the king, who was responsible for his death, confessed and attained salvation.
4) ARNIKKUMAR REPENTS
Arnik muni practised asceticism with uttermost care and sincerity. One noon, he was on his way for accepting food and was exhuasted by the heat of the sun from above and the path below. He stood under the roof of a building belonging to a passionate lady. She invited the muni through her servants under the pretext of offering food. The muni was trapped by
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her romantic & amorous speech. His mother was depressed and restlessly looked for him from one street to another. Arnik was temendously shocked seeing her pitiful condition. He left the palace and bowed at her feet. She sent him near his Guru. Arnik confessed his sins and atoned for them. He abandoned his body by lying on a rock stone and observed life long fast. During the fast he obtained omniscience and attained salvation. Inspite of breaking his vows, he purified his soul by confession.
The three hardest tasks
in the world are neither physical feats nor intellectual achievements,
but moral acts to return love for hate, to include the excluded,
and to say, "I was wrong"
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- THE POWER OF
ATONEMENT
A cancer patient can be cured if given the proper treatment but a small thorn, allowed to remain in the feet, can kill him. In the same way, one can be pure and pious by confession but hiding a small sin in the heart can cause a series of damage in forthcoming births. One should surrender himself to a learned, selfless and noble guru and admit all the sins committed, without any arrogance, fear or hesitation. The guru should be informed about the darker side of life so that even a tiny sin shouldn't remain unturned. Let all the physical, mental, spiritual and moral sins turn into ashes. The confession has the power of a mega atom bomb.
By constantly committing sins and not confessing them, one invites the miseries of the hell, where the demons repeatedly inflict pain and sufferings. As a part of the punishment they cut ones body into pieces, fry in boiling lead and cause other measures of torture. Due to this pain, one longs for death, yet death stays quite far-away from him. One shall have to take birth as a pig and get roasted in hot climate of Andhra or as a buffalo, and do the
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Sometimes of even to live is an act of courage.
- Seneca
hardwork of fetching water by climbing on high mountains of Bharuch. At that time, he shall remember that if he had observed the atonement of sins, he wouldn't have to suffer.
Great things are done more
through courage than through wisdom.
- German saying
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QUESTION AND ANSWERS
Q.1 What are the benefits of confession?
A.1 Due to attachment, wrong faith, ignorance, hatred and unsound mind, one binds himself to the karmas. The same karmas detach while confessing with a sincere heart. At that time fascination, illusion, attachment, jealousy and passions reduce and one can even attain salvation. It is said in the Uttaradhyayan that, “alochanaenam bhante! Jive kim janayai mayaniya? Michchha - darisanasallanam mo kh ma ga viggh a n a m anantsansarbandhananam uddharanam karei. Ujubhavam cha janyai. Ujjubhav padivaenam viyanam jive amai itthiveyam napusangveyam cha na vachchai puvvabaddham cha nam nijjarai.” i.e. While confessing, simplicity emerges by the destruction of affliction and illusion, which is an obstacle in the way of salvation. It also avoids conjunction of womanhood and asexuality. If such karmas are bound, they remain no more. Confession not only destroys all the karmas but also helps to attain salvation. It is also said that - "uddhariya savvasalla, titthagaranae sutthiya jiva, bhavasayakammai,
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khavio pavai gaya sivam thanam hi.”By following the commandments of one who has subdued his desires, one can confess of all afflictions & destroying all the sinful karmas, attain salvation. Even poet Kalapi has said “The large stream of repentance has came down from heaven. A sinner becomes pious by bathing in it."
Criticism should
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our cause, no matter in what manner it comes to us.
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HOW TO WRITE
THE SIMS?
The types of sins that may occur during ones life ‘are explained in a separate book called “Bhav Alochana Margadarshika” or “guide to confession”. This book is provided along with this book. One should note down the sins which he has committed in a note book and mention whether they were committed coincidently or intentionally, either at home, hotel or religious place, with whatever feeling of joy or pain, in detail. Recheck whatever is written and submit it to hon. Gurudev. Try to accomplish the atonement given by Gurudev.
The collection of many possible sins are given in this book. Reading it, we shall come to know about our sins. Our soul will become pure only if we disclose all sins and violations and take atonement from gurudev.
[Anything written against the Scriptures is sincerely regretted.]
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