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for looking passionately at Shilsannah at the court. The preceptor tried to remind her in many ways. She criticized the remaining sins & violence committed. At last Acharyashri told her, “If you have committed any sin in the court of the king by passionately staring then you should confess it. Sadhviji Rukmini thought that, “This preceptor knows about my sin but if I accept it I would be considered as mean & vile. How should I protect my self-respect?” Due to ignorance and with an intention of protecting her pride & ego, she distorted the entire story & replied, “I did so to justify the character of a minister. Thus, she hid her sin & didn't confess purely. In consequence of the same she had to take birth for one lakh times in this world.
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After confessing for several sins, if we hide and do not confess even a single sin, our self-criticism will not be pure. If we do not remember all the sins then we should say, Oh Guru! I have committed much more sins which I do not remember. Thus, the sins which are not criticized due to ignorance, I am ready to accept atonement for them. "Micchami Dukkadam” for all those
sins.
Chaumatho mudhmano kitiiyamittam sambharai jeevo
Jam cha na sambharami, micchami dukkadam tassa || 1 || That means, Oh Rescuerer Gurudev! I am ignorant & silly minded person. How much can I remember? Therefore, the sins which are not remembered by me, I apologize for them. Micchami Dukkadam.
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