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the neighbouring girls whenever I got an opportunity. I ignored their painful shriek & accumulated the bundle of sins. I have also fastened a black dot on their character. There was no hesitation to touch others as well as to expose myself. These evil deeds had no boundaries.
I crossed all the limits in spending money to make the hunt enjoyable so that it should not escape from my command. Big thefts too became compulsory inorder to fulfill the evil desires & to make all the related persons happy. I undertook various types of gambling such as lottery, matka, shares etc. Really, the book of my life became throughtly black. At the age of 21-22 yrs I was
engaged. It was just a formality. Internally, I became stuffless like a rotten tomato because of the sins. I have muddled the characters & virtues of so many people. The wicked & dirty sequence of writing love letters had started as if I had received right to write love letters. Oh! So many times, in the pretext of wandering outdoors, I have committed the great sin of experiencing the relationship as of husband-wife before marriage. My sins expanded like a drop of oil on water surface. My mind became occupied in plannings such as to whom & when I should meet? With whom I should live? Gurudev what should I do? What will my future be? I began to like the company of shameless, heartless,
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