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O Gurudev! otp My innocence
That person took advantage of my innocence and at the age of 12-13 made me indulge in
As if this was not enough, the aphrodisiac medicines made the situation worse. Now I engaged myself in touching women. To accomplish this, I started eating Pavbhaji, Bhelpuri and drinking Soda-Lemon with my friends. The habit of eating wafers and other outside eatables started increasing due to bad company. At the age of 14-15, I got a nice opportunity to increase the sins by participating in co-curricular activities, coeducation and games.
I turned temples and hostel rooms into places of evil activities and my elders were not even aware of all this. They were totally in the dark regarding the misuse of pocket money given to me. They couldn't even imagine that after attending a period for just half an hour, I spent the rest of three hours in a talkies or garden. The beginning of massacre of sensory organs started from the school life itself.
masturbation. I also enjoyed it and practised it frequently in privacy. It resulted into my deterioration. Emaciation of body began and I started looking for advertisements to get medicines that stimulated the energy level.
Our science teacher demonstrated an experiment of dissection of frog. For a moment I felt giddy. What's this? Cutting a living being up this way? My
Confession : The Path to Self-liberation...3
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