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CHAPTER THREE to house from daybreak, seeking superior food. Nevertheless, he did not obtain any anywhere by any means. Exhausted, he was led into his house by a laborer in the afternoon. The sour rice-gruel, kodo millet and boiled rice were given by the laborer. As he was very hungry, he ate them; and was given a rupee as a gratuity. When the rupee was tested, it proved to be false. Ashamed, he formulated the doctrine of Fate. “What will be, will be.”
After he had passed the second rainy season since his initiation, the Master left Nālandā and went to the hamlet Kollāka. At that time a Brāhman, named Bahula, was feeding Brāhmans with great zeal and the Lord went to his house for alms. He gave the Lord a dish of milk, sugar, and ghi; and the gods made the five divine things in his house. The Lord broke his fourth month's fast, the means of crossing worldly existence for a man, the giver, who has faith.
Now Gośāla, ashamed, slowly entered the shed in the evening. Not seeing the Master, he asked the people, “Where is the Master?” No one gave him news of the Master and the wretched man wandered for a long time in the hamlet Nālandā in search of the Master. Reflecting, “I have again become miserable, alone,” he shaved his head, abandoned clothing, and left. He went to Kollāka and heard, “ This Brāhman, Bahula, is fortunate, in whose house a rain of jewels was produced by the gods because of a gift to an ascetic.” When he heard that, he thought: “Such power as this belongs to my guru alone and not to anyone else. Surely he is here.” With this idea, wandering around in search of him with a shrewd eye, he saw the Lord standing in kāyotsarga in a certain place.
He bowed to the Lord and said: “I was not worthy of initiation before because of attachment to clothes, et cetera. Now I have given up attachment. Accept me as a disciple. Be my guru for life. I can not endure a moment without you, Supreme Lord. What affection is there in you devoid of passion? Clapping can not be made with one hand. How
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