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The Self Realization
I studied so well that I could explain the book to my teacher who started teaching it to me. I cultivated very wide reading.
I had much faith in mankind and I loved the natural world order.
My great grandfather was a Vaishnava,a staunch devotee of Lord Krishna. I heard from him many devotional songs about Radha and Krishna, also the mysterious stories of the wonder-works of Lord Krishna and other incarnations of God. I took religious initiation at the hands of a Sadhu named Ramadasji. I daily went for the darshana of Lord Krishna and attended lectures and devotional congregations. I believed the incarnation of God as real God and I cherished a strong desire to see His residence. I dreamt to be a great spiritual follower of Lord Krishna and a powerful preacher of His Faith. I considered it to be the pride of my life if I could become a great Sannyasin performing Hari Kirtana in the public and leading an upright ascetic life. I was so much saturated with such thoughts that I hated the Jainas who did not accept God as the creator of the world. I believed that nothing could be created without a creator, that the world was a masterful creation and such an uniquely supreme creation could only be the work of God and none else. The Jaina Banias in my native place praised me as the most intelligent boy of the village. But they ridiculed my initiation in Vaishnavism and they argued with me to dislodge me from my faith. I did not succumb but gradually I read the Jaina sacred books such as Pratikramana Sutra. The fundamental idea of the Jaina works was the advocacy of non-violence and love to all high and low in the world. I liked this idea of universal love and non-violence very much. After.my age of 13 years, I used to attend to my father's shop.
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