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therapies around in Europe, there were people meeting, even fighting and sometimes blood was shed! Of course, that did not happen during the three month course!
There was more confrontation at that time. People did not understand very much and I had to tell them why they had to sit still in meditation and things like that. The idea of meditation was not yet in the subconscious understanding of Europe. It took some time, but some changes took place around 197879. Again, in the early 80's there were more changes. Everybody had to hug each other, the whole thing was about love. It sort of became an outward thing. Then in the last few years in Europe, the interest has been going towards the occult, towards doing yoga, opening the chakras, and things like that.
I was teaching antar mouna on this three month course, sometime in the late 70's. I teach the way that Paramahamsaji was teaching. He never left us alone. You could not get lost in a thought. You have to see the thought. I remember the first few weeks I was here, I tried to send him telepathic messages like, "Can't you shut up so I can meditate!" Of course he is a great man and if he picked it up he did not get offended; he understood. But I do not think he picked up all the thoughts of all the students, because then he would have had a lot to do!
Anyway, later on, I found myself in the same situation. I discovered that when you are with the students all the time and you feel something within yourself, you know that the same something is going on in the group, and you have to guide them accordingly. When you open up to this kind of awareness, you become the medium to the group. You are helpless, you cannot do anything. It is the people in front of you who decide how you have to teach. In this course nothing happened. I mean, of course, the usual things happened, you teach and it works; the individual sits and has a nice little meditation, but the feeling was not there. After some weeks I suddenly stopped the meditation and asked the group, "Say, what are you doing in this course? It is strange, it is different from what other people are doing."
Something has happened here and instead of me having to pull the course along as I did in the early 70's to struggle with them, now people started pulling me, doing more and running ahead of me. In fact, it was so much so that they went too far. So I had to ask them, "Are you trying to meditate all day? Be
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