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be investigated?' From where are you getting all these ideas?" He asked me why I was so disturbed and what sort of work did I expect to be able to do whilst in such a state of mind. I specifically remember that he said, "Look in this world."
I do not know what his realization was, but the young sadhu told me that it has been decided by the powers and divine energies that the time for spiritual renaissance in this world has come, and that India was to play a leading role. He informed me that some people have been given specific responsibilities, specific duties to perform and had been posted at a gate to guard the gate. He said, "So you guard the gate and forget the rest, do not consider yourself to be the door!" And saying so, he left without looking back. I was left standing like
a statue.
After that day, I realized something. I started having experiences, and I was now very relaxed. Previously I had been having sleepless nights spent worrying, "Such and such a word does not go with that shot. What will the response of the people be? How shall Shankaracharya react if I project this in this manner? What will the response of the rickshaw puller be? How should I take care of this?" I used to feel very responsible and do all the work. Believe me, since that incident the feeling of responsibility has gone. I am calm, relaxed and not having sleepless nights.
My assistant would rush up in the early hours saying that a scene has yet to be written or prepared and asking what we were going to do the next day. I would say, "Look, it is not ready and I am exhausted. We shall look into this tomorrow." He would say, "But sir, the shooting is to take place tomorrow." I would reply, 'It shall be taken care of." I was full of conviction and faith. This has continued till today. Divine Mother Bhagavati is taking care that the scene is written. Who writes it, no one knows. I have realized that I am merely a pen; everything written shall be written with the pen but nothing shall be written by the pen. Some hand has to hold the pen and write! So the pen is moving around, stuffed with pride, "I have written and I am the doer"
How can I tell you from where the inspiration germinated. I am not even capable of doing that. Once in New York a youngster from the audience asked, "Do you believe in miracles?" I replied, "Yes," He said, "Have you seen any miracles?" I replied, "Yes" He became anxious, and asked,
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