________________
(the Indian television network). I was told, It seems that you are stretching too much, delaying a lot." Questions arose in parliament. "When is Sita going to be married?" "When shall the bow be broken?" I remember that there was one particular member of parliament who was very humorous. He said, "I have told Sagar Saheb that if the bow doesn't break by next week I shall break it." So, when the matter was brought before me and I was told to move things faster, I said, "I am a film producer. I know how to present the films, how to write the scripts, how to attract the audience. But I am not making a film now. Had I wanted to make a film I would have done so years ago. I wouldn't have tried to produce this one hundred episode classic. Through this I am trying to convey what the great saints have said. I am merely a postman."
They asked me to cut out a few sections. I said, "Look, I do not know what can be removed from this, which part of it can go and what must remain. I am like an honest postman simply trying to deliver honestly. An honest postman does not tear letters up, he delivers all of them." And this is how things rolled
on.
I am narrating my experiences, so I shall tell two descriptive long tales. In the beginning, as Swamiji said, my work was greatly publicized. I had many fans in my half century in film production, but now the expression varied, the behavior was different. The fans were different altogether, touching my feet and all, and I was disturbed that a simple person of my caliber should receive such adoration.
Everyday as I sat for my prayers and worship, I begged the Divine Mother and Gurudev to tell me what situation they had put me in. I was doing things on their guidance, but I begged not to be judged or in trouble, because the ego was growing fast.
Once in Canada I went to a prosperous household. All the Indian citizens came over, and we had a long discussion in their temple. One of the prominent citizens took me to his house, and there the people started prostrating on the floor. I bore all of it silently. Then I was taken to a room on the top floor. I saw that the mother of the person in whose house I was staying had come up with her daughter-in-law. She was crying, and said, "O Lord, she is not able to beget a son. Please give her a benediction. Please bless her." I trembled all over be
Jain Education International
239
For Private & Personal Use Only
www.jainelibrary.org
