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cause I knew that I was not fit for that. I am not a yogi, nor an adept, nor do I have psychic abilities. This sentiment had become so deeply ingrained in her head, and I was deeply touched..
That day and in the evening and the following days, I kept praying to the Almighty. "There is nothing that I can do, O Lord, but a lady has come to me with such great faith. I have told her that I don't know anything, that I am a commoner but she doesn't accept it." I kept praying, there was nothing else that I could do. But I was very much disturbed about the incident and I began to think, what am I doing? I had the feeling that I should be doing this thing and I should be doing that thing.
One day as I was on my terrace where I have my meals and do my regular worship, prayers and meditation, my servant came up, and said, “There is a sadhu at the door." I asked him for what purpose and the answer came, ''It's just a young boy sadhu, nothing special." I asked my wife to go down as I do not go down before my regular worship. (These sadhus keep coming and saying that they are going to Benares or Rameshwaram, and some want a donation of a blanket or some such thing and we have devised a policy as to who is who and who is to be given what.) So, I sent her, but suddenly I had a peculiar feeling that I should go myself. I said, “Wait, I am
going."
When I came down I saw an innocent looking, gerudonned being in the hall below. I said, "Oh welcome, please take a seat." He said, “I haven't come to sit." I said, "What would you like to have? Some milk? Fruit?" He replied, "I won't accept anything either”. I said, "Please command. May I know where you have come from?" He answered, “My guru sent me." I said, "From where have you been sent by Gurudev?" He said, "From the Himalaya." asked, "What are the instructions for me?" He replied, "My guru says, What are you?" Such a straight forward question, and he talked in such an implicating way that I was flabbergasted and surprised. He asked me, "What are you? Who do you consider yourself to be? What are these head trips that you are having? 'I am doing this. I must show this. Let me do some research there. What was being implied in that Ramayana which was produced in Afghanistan. What shall be the implication here? What should
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