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THE DYNAMICS OF MEDITATION
You must ask, “For what am I living? Is there really happiness in the things I live for or am I putting the happiness in?" Objects don't hold happiness. You put your happiness in them. It is a sugar coating which you have applied, it is your imagination. Because of your imagination the things appear sweet, without it they appear bland. When you go into kohum meditation, you are not just imagining, you are knowing.
Two things happen in this meditation. In the first stage your mind will investigate. When it becomes tired, it will become calm, quiet; it will give up the race. This is the second stage, when you are able to reach your real Self. To be with yourself is bliss.
When your mind starts working for someone else, worrying about the job or the boss or an old friend, or longing for something you don't have, then say kohum. Who am I? I want to be with myself under all circumstances. Whatever comes, let it come. You are open for beautiful gifts. If they don't come, it does not upset you. Still you are you. You are not shutting off the world of friends, but you are not always craving or running after things and you are not unhappy because you don't get those things.
You begin watching every moment. You don't let anyone disturb your peace. You watch so that your words don't disturb anyone else. Watch so that no one takes your precious time in vain and you don't waste anyone else's time. Don't allow anyone to put negative thoughts in you and watch so that you do not put negative thoughts in anyone else.
