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REALIZE WHAT YOU ARE:
In meditation you locate your mind in one place. That is why we use mantras. When you breathe in, you use vee When you breathe out, you use rum. Veerum means to be, brave enough to accept the real nature of yourself. This may seem contradictory. You may ask, “To accept the nature of yourself you have to be brave?" Yes. To enjoy your blissfulness, to knowyour inner thought, and to be in a relaxed mood, you need bravery, because your mind is loaded with worry, anxiety, fear and negativities.
As soon as something beautiful happens we are afraid. We are afraid to embrace happiness. A student recently came and she told me, “For six days I have been feeling joy. Now I don't know what terrible thing may happen to me. When I am so happy and it lasts for six days, I worry that something is going to happen. I don't know what, but I feel it."
The mind is not ready to enjoy blissfulness, the Sat, Chit and Ananda. These three qualities are in us, but we don't believe that. We have doubt. We believe only for awhile, on the word level. It will be a great day for you when you believe that “This is my nature, to be happy, blissful, full of knowledge and immortal. I am Sat, Chit, Ananda." Sat means immortal. Chit means consciousness. Ananda means bliss. These qualities are within us,this is what we have forgotten.
We doubt these gifts are for us, as though they belonged only to certain blessed and higher souls. We say, “Oh, Christ was the Son of God; Mahavira was fortunate because he was born in that time. The Buddha was lucky, he was enlightened. But me-don't think of me. How am I to enjoy that?” We don't have faith that this is our birthright, our real quality.
