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My compassionate Gurudev By a bhakt who wishes to remain anonymous
One winter morning I was on my way to Rohini for the darshan of our Guruji. In the middle of all the screeching and honking of the Delhi traffic, I thought I heard my mobile ringing. I could barely hear the caller. It was my Aunt. I just caught a few words. Surely what she was trying to tell me was a mistake. I thought I hadn't heard it right. I tried to listen to her more carefully, closing the other ear to block off all the noise around. My cousin, the light of our family, vivacious and young, had just passed away in a car accident. I couldn't hear the rest. I was shocked. How could it happen? Why should it happen? My mind was flooded. I felt like crying out aloud but I told myself to hold my emotions tight and pretended to be normal. Havoc was playing inside. I sat in stunned silence. Somehow I reached Rohini and tottered up to Guruji's ashram. I did my usual pranams. He was busy talking on the phone. He looked up and blessed me. While he was on the phone, I ran out of the room to call my Aunt again to find out what exactly had happened. After a couple of calls, I went back to him and sat down quietly. I could not hold myself any longer. I told him in between sobs, about this news.
Guruji, without meditating or pondering over it, told me in a consoling voice, “Don't be sad. She has gone very comfortably”. Then he explained in details how the soul leaves the body in different ways. Either it shoots out like a bullet painlessly or like a weaver's weave ('julaha' is the exact word he used). It moves and struggles and has to leave slowly with difficulty. He said she had gone out like a bullet and that it was time for her to go anyway because she had learned all the lessons she had to, in this birth. Then again in a contemplative mood as if he was watching something he said ' there were two people in the car. The driver was driving' I was half listening to all that he was saying because I was drowned in sorrow. He said don't cry for her because she
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