Meditation and Enlightenment

Author(s): Chandraprabh
Publisher: Jityasha Foundation

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the good or bad which you have done since your birth till now, study it minutely, and learn from it some thing as you do from Gandhi's autobiography. You would be surprised that no revolution has come so far on reading Gandhi's autobiography, but while perusing your own autobiography, in a single day life ascended on the dais of Gandhi.
It is better to read your own autobiography once than reading others' autobiography a hundred times.
If at the time of meditation you feel that the mind is becoming a vagabond, then do not run away from meditation, but see and read by making the personality of the mind a witness. Understanding the nature and the activities of the mind is the unfailing means of keeping the mind fixed.
The mind is anxious to tell something. It is eager to say something, but it would say that to the person in a solitary place. He will tell you, only when you are willing to hear. When the eyes are closed, lips are silent, body is motionless only then can the mind murmur something in your ears. Try to listen to the murmurs and the whispers of the mind.
The mind would never come to say good things. It would not itself teach, but it would provide the means to learn. It would inspire and encourage to learn from the person's past that had turned into misfortune. It would show the clippings lying dumped in its pocket. The mind would sprinkle a palm-ful of water to awaken the manliness of self. It would make the person meet those aerial imaginations, which the person has himself caused to sprout. He has done so throughout his life. As such the fickleness of mind that occurs at the time of meditation, is factually the photography of the person's insatiation and desire.
That is why I say: Try to understand your weakness. Try to realize your lust, and your sexuality. The mind would become unshaken with burden the moment you would realise your weakAll its movement would remain connected with 'Ram', and
ness.