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98/Meditation and Enlightenment : Chandr Prabh
variety of thoughts rise when he is seated for meditational 'Sadhana'. I can't remain at peace in mind. Prescribe some way. I have become worried. The more I try to control mind, the more fast it runs.
I studied his inner consciousness. Told him-Okay, do a thing from today; when in the evening you are seated to perform meditation allow those thoughts to come that come to your mind. You work in the capacity of a journalist. Assume that you have been sent for reporting and some leader is making a speech. You go on noting down those thoughts in your diary.” He asked“What will happen from this ?” I told him-"Do just try. Leave the rest to me.” He went away and did as instructed by me. Next day he came to me, then I asked him— "Have you brought what you have written ?” He nodded assent. I told him : "Now you write the same thing for fifteen days.” After a fortnight when he came to me, his diary was filled-up. I took the diary and asked him to perform meditation regularly.
Again after about a fortnight I got all that he had written in his diary typed and sent with a note for publication in the newspaper of the same journalist. When he read those typed pages, came running to me and said : “Maharaj Shree ! (Your Exalted Honour)! You are a very learned and a wise person. But what these absurdities have you written and sent for publication in my paper ?”
I explained to him that you have today at least acquired this knowledge that these things are absurd. O brother ! these are not my thoughts, but they occur in your mind during meditational 'sadhana'. Just go and read it in solitude. This is your autobiography. Even if you read the autobiographies of Gandhi and Tolstoy for fifty times, but you haven't perused your own autobiography of the inner self is better than reading Gandbi's autobiography fifty times.
If you read your own autobiography all your meaningless thoughts would disappear and you would feel angry with your own self. The current of forgiveness originates, when a person expresses his anger upon himself. Bereft of this all his forgiveness are mere
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