Life of Shrimad Rajchandra

Author(s): Manu Doshi
Publisher: Manu Doshi

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of separation were removed from the heart of Lallujiswämi and he was delighted to learn that he would be getting the contact of Shrimad.
Saubhagyabhai and Ambälälbhäi then went back to Rälaj and Dungarshi Gosalia went to Saurashtra.
Chapter 19: CONTACT AT VADVÄ
On account of Lallujiswämi, five other monks had also developed attraction towards Shrimad. As such, when the latter was to reach Vadvä (Khambhät), all the six monks went to receive him. Shrimad and Saubhägyabhäi were coming from Rälaj in a chariot. As they saw the monks, Saubhägyabhäi got down from the chariot and walked up to Vadvä along with the monks.
Later on, Shrimad called all the six monks in a lonely place at Vadvä. The monks bowed to him and sat in front of him. Lallujiswami's heart was overcome and he said, "Lord, please keep me at your service forever, I do not want this Muhapatti (piece of cloth tied around the mouth)." So saying he put the Muhapatti in front of Shrimad and with tears in the eyes and in a choking voice he said, "I cannot bear this separation."
On seeing that Shrimad's delicate heart also was overflowed. The tears came in his eyes and it was hard to stop the same. Lallujiswami was overwhelmed to see that. He thought. 'Oh, what did I do? Lord of the devotees, did I indulge in any irreverence? What should I do now?' That way he was full of remorse. Everyone sat there with amazement. That situation continued for about an hour. At last, Shrimad said to Devkaranji, "Give this Muhapatti to Lalluji and let him keep it for the present."
This occasion of devotional affection may seem queer to many people, some may also find it as crazy, some faultfinders, hard-hearted may also consider it spurious. However, the pangs of separation, which were experienced by the cow-women of Vrundävan can be experienced at present by the rare affectionate people, who have reached a similar state. There is a devotional song under the title "The arrows of Räm are known only to those who have been struck with that Shrimad has pointed out that state in the following letter.
"Earlier, the worldly soul has several times come in contact with live personality, by virtue of whose words one can gain liberation. But he has not recognized the same. ... If the sight is unclean, the attention towards such personality also remains externally oriented. As such, the recognition does not take place. When one recognizes, he develops so much affection for the person that he finds it hard to spend even a moment in separation; in other words, during the separation he lives grievously while remaining mindful of that person. Connection with other objects and death are equal to him. When one arrives at such a state, be sure that he is very close to the path. Attachment is a big problem in coming to that state. However, one who has firmly determined to bring out such a state, generally attains that state within a short time."
Lallujiswämi has mentioned as under in the notes dictated about contact with Shrimad.
SECOND DAY
"The second day the graceful Lord was pleased to speak out the unprecedented words that can lead to the sense of calming down and detachment. Adopting a superb detached posture and staying within the pure Self, he said that those words were coming out of the Self, coming out by