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________________ paulliAmaw , va na nA pA||||III ruitmmid sudarzana tillllllllllllllllllan uubihuinhuis.WHINNORLD bhAga 1 le. ( janmathI lagna) all eka kalpita jaina navalakathA. BUNDAN HADIR lakhanAra: vADIlAla motIlAla zAha adhipati ane mAlika jainasamAcAra", "jainahiteccha" tathA "hiMdI hitecchu. madhumakSikA, hitazikSA, dharmatatva saMgraha, namIrAjaatihAsika dha, samyakatva,saMsAramAM sukha kahAM che?, satI damayaMtI vagerene kartA dANApITha- amadAvAda. lil J lIII DIhuuulminguillllllhpA IIIIIIIIIIII Ilillllllllllllllllllllli liD AvRtti bIjI : sana 1911 : prata 2000 mUlya -100 L ! [[lish l/IMINI panArAnA llllllllllll jhallery lllllll jAti Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ bALabrahmacArI sva. panyAsajI mahArAjazrI bhAvavijayajI mahArAja, janma sa'. 1900 phAgaNa zudI 8 dikSA sa. 1932 mAgazarazudI r vaDI dikSA sa. 1932 caigavarda panyAsapada sa, 1958kAratakava svargavAsa sa. 1979 zrAvaNa zudI 3. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ aNu sadhaLA dehAmAM eka ja AtmA joI zakavA jeTale 'ahaM'paNAne je jItI cUkayA che; je nAmathI mAtra kahevaDAvavAnuM pasaMda nahi karatAM svArthavRtti ane jAheramatanA ene chatI parihatA ( jene AnA sAMsArika ane dhArmika adherA dUra karavAnA kAryamAM ) kamara kasIne lAgI paDayA che; je A sthUla jagamAM rahIne ke adRzya bhUvanamAM rahyA rahyA A kSudra lekhakane eka naguNIA varga mATe lITA kahADavAnI, bakavAnI ane raDavAnI pRcchA ane utsAha prere che, evA saghaLA ane te A pustaka sAdara samaraNa karU chu. teo te svIkAravA kRpA karaze te A nirmAlya lekhakanI lekhinImAM navuM kauvata praveza karaze ane mAje pragaTa thatA A pahelA bhAganA sAMdhaNu tarIke khIjA sAta bhAga pragaTa karI zakAze. 6 vA. mA. zAha. C darajje jaina ' Dara e Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ samApanA - A pustaka mAtra janahitArtha lakhAyuM che; keInI paNa majAka karavAnA, koInI paNa lAgaNI dukhavavAnA, ke koIne paNa nukasAna karavAnA AzayathI lakhAyuM nathI. chatAM keTalIvAra "jene TepI baMdha besatI Ave te paherI le che" ema jANI paheluM prakaraNuM zarU karyA che pahelAM ja huM sarva prakRti-sarva svabhAvanI kSamA cAhuM chuM ane khatrI ApuM chuM ke emanA ane emanA bIjA sarva bhAIonA bhAI' tarIke je kAMI mahArAthI belAya te mAtra premanA kuvAmAMthI ja nIkaLatA zabdo hAI hemane sukhakara ja thaI paDaze. bhAInI ghavAyalI chAtI para bhAI malamapaTTI nahi kare to bIje koNa karaze ? ane tema karavA jatAM kadAca bhAInI "ALI" cAmaDI jarA duHkhAze te paNa "bhAI" ja hene pheMkaze paMpALaze ane dIlamAM dAjhaze." vA. mo. zAha. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ prastAvanA. ke eka jaina chuM; hA jena chuM. jaina dharmane mAnanArA kuTuMbamAM mahAre janma thayo che. ane janma ApanAra jamIna (svadeza), mAbApa ane dharma e cArane upakAra karyo vidvAna pUrepura varNavI zakaze ? jemanA pratApe A zarIra che, hemane ja te arpaNa thavuM joIe; hemanI bhaktimAM ja hemAvuM joIe; hemane "zAtA" pamADavAmAM zarIranA harakeAI aMgane-re AkhA zarIrano bhega Apavo paDe che te Apa joIe. hAre zarIra ja teone arpAyeluM samajavAnuM che, tyAre te zarIranI mAlikInI gaNatI cIje (dhana-vastrAdi)ne bhege ApavAnuM to pUchavuM ja zuM? huM eka jena chuM. jainanA paMdara lAkha gaNAtA mANasamAM jahAM sudhI eka paNa ajJa che, hAM sudhI mane kharUM jJAna kadI nahi maLe; teomAMne eka paNa mANasa hAM sudhI bhUkhe marata haze tyahAM sudhI mahAruM peTa uNuM ja raheze. "AkhAmAM hene bhAga samAyale che AkhA jaina varganI unnatimAM ja hArI unnati che; huM, eklI mArI jAtane-mahAre paMDane unnata kadApi karI zakuM nahi. huM eka jaina chuM. badhA jenemAM huM potAne jevA talasuM chuM, mathuM chuM, bIjA jemAM je nIcatAnA DAghA jouM chuM te mATe huM mahane ja kamanazIba mAnuM chuM. ane "mahArI A dazA !" ema kahI ekAMtamAM rahuM chuM. koI jaina sAdhunI ajJAna dazA ke kaSAyAdhina ! daza bhALuM chuM, tyAre hArI A dazA" ema kahI vilApa karuM chuM, Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ 6 O mhane emanI vikRti mhArI ja bhAse che ane eTalA ja mATe mheM ekadA vicAra karyo ke huM mhArA bhagavAnanA hukama pramANe pratikramaN karUM arthAt AtmanirIkSaNa (Self-examination) ; ane mtane lAgyuM ke jaina nirIkSaNa e ja AtmanirIkSaNa che. jaitAmAMnA huM eka hAvAthI jaina vanuM AkhuM svarUpa jo huM kALajIthI tapAsa -enA dareka aMga ane kALajuM barAbara tapAsu te e mhArU ja nirIkSaNa karavA kharAkhara che. ane haeNne peAtAne ALakhavAne mATe mhAre A nirIkSaNanI prathama jarUra che. Ama vicArI mheM jaina vanI-jaina saMdhanI arthAt sAdhu-sAdhvI-zrAvaka-zrAvikAnI AMtara taMdurastI temaja bAhya taMdurastI tapAsavA ane eLakhavAnA TharAva karyAM. e TharAvanA amala e ja A 'sudarzana' pustaka ! huM kahI gayA ke hu eka jaina chuM. jaina vamAM AtmArthI saMta ke paramA parAyaNu gRhastha huM jouM hyuM te| mhArI A dazA ? kahI praphullIta thAuM chuM ane mhArUM uccIkaraNa thAya che. mheM vicAryuM ke jaina vargInA ucca dazAnA purUSA ( uttama grahasthA temaja uttama sAdhue ) nuM citra AlekhI prakAzamAM mUkuM teA khIjA ghaNA cetAnuM uccIkaraNa thAya ane ethI bIjA jaitAnI utkrAntithI mhArI utkrAti ( evolution ) jaladI thAya. eTalA mATe A pustakamAM 'gRhastha' temaja 'bhikhkhu' banne varganAM keTalAMka uttama pAtrA paNu kalpyAM ane hemanA vaDe jaina saMdhanI unnati kema thAya che te batAvIne jaineAnI sAMsArika tathA dhArmika unnatinA rastAnuM sUcana karyuM. 'sudarzana' e kASTha paurANika ke zAstrIya purUSa nathI; ziyaLaguNu mATe zAstrakArAe vakhANelA sudarzana zeThe mhArI A kalpita kathAnA sudarzanakumArathI kAi jAtanI sagAi dharAvatA nathI. A te mhArI kalpanAe prasavelA ane mhArA magajamAM ja pATha bhajavatA sudarzana che, ke je mhArA duHkhanA vakhate mhane AnaMda Ape ane hate eka naguNI dunIAmAMthI uMce kheMcI jai svargIya cakhADe che. A sudarzanane mhe' janma ApyA tA te hate dunIA vacce sva Ape che. tethI mhe e sukha vadhAre lAMkhA vakhata cAle evA irAdAthI A vArtA 5-6 varSa sudhI calAvavAnuM dhAryuM che, daravarSe eka be bhAga bahAra pADavA ane banatAM sudhI maphata vaheM cavA mArA irAde che. suSa Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ A prathama bhAgamAM lIdhelA viSaya sambandhI spaSTIkaraNa karavAno A vakhata nathI, te kAma leke ja karaze te ThIka paDaze. keTalIka bAbatane marma hArI jIMdagImAM khulle karavA jevo nathI. keTalIka bAbate hArI IcchA na chatAM jaina saMghane apalI mahArI lekhinIe svecchAthI ja cItarI kahADI che.-ahA teNIne "dAsa chuM, huM teNInI sattA bahAra DagaluM bharavA karatAM AkhA jaina saMdhanIre zahenazAhatanI sattA bahAra DagaluM bharavA vadhAre sahisalAmatIthI himata dharI zakuM. - A bhAgamAM sudarzanakumAranA janmathI lagna sudhI prasaMga virNavyo che, bIjA bhAgamAM te gharasaMsAra kema calAve che te Avaze. henI ardhAganA jaina sudhArAnA henA kAmane aDadhe beje kevI rIte upADI le che te hakIkta sAthe hene sAdhu mitra sAdhuvarganI sudhAraNuM mATe kevA rastA sUcave che, e vagere varNana paNa Avaze. A sarva lakhANa karavAmAM mahe mAtra eka ja lakSyabindu kacyuM cheH "jaina sudhAro. - ane e lakSyabindue pahoMcavA mATe huM eka ja saDaka pasaMda karI che, ke je saDaka hRdayane pUchIne kalama pote ja zodhI kahADe che. te satI Aja sudhI kAInA DarathI, keAinI lAlacathI, ke koInI khuzAmatathI bhraSTa thaI nathI, ane te ja kAraNathI teNI je saDaka zodhI kahADaze te kharI ja haze e bAbatane mahane saMpUrNa bhare che. teNIe pasaMda karelI saDaka para cAlatAM huM lekavAyakAnA vAgha ke. garIbAIne sarpanI leza paNa tamA na rAkhavAnA zapatha lauM chuM. devI lekhinI ! bhagavatI ! te zapatha pALavAnI tAkAda paNa tyAre ja ApavAnI che, te bhUlatI nA. vA. ma. zAha.. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ anukramaNikA. prakaraNa 1 luM. , 2 jI. 0 9 , 5 muM. beTe ApanAra bAvAjI ! .. - "ThAryA hoya tevAM kare!... vivAhanI vAta. .. kanyAnI zodhamAM. lagna. . lagna (cAlu) .. lagna (cAlu) semasUrinuM Atmakathana. + zuM che ? $ $ 8 - Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ -- -- "jena' e kAMI judI pRthvI paranuM prANunathI; e bIjAo jema jana che-manuSya che, mAtra be mAtrA enI vizeSatA che. bhavya AkAzagAmI kalpanAzakti ( Imaginative Power) za 92414924991 tapaH e be pAMkho ja sAmAnya "jina" ne "jaina" banAve che. garUDa banAve che. siMha banAve che, deva banAve che, vijetA banAve che, sajana-saMrakSaNa ane saMhAra zaktino DAInema dharAvatI kuzalatA banAve che. jyAM te be pAMkho nathI tyAM jamIna para ALoTavAnI prakRti che, dInatA che ane dInatAjanya irSA ane daMbha che. kIDAnuM kalevara che.....kaDe jIvatarane laMbAvavA khe che, jena jItavA mATe jIvatarane paNa heme che. kIDAnuM dhyeya sukha" che, ke je jamInane sthUlanemilkatane-mAnapUjAne vaLagI rahevAmAM manAyuM che. jena'nuM svAbhAvika dhyeya "mukti" che, ke je purUSArthathI maLI AvatI tamAma prAptione rasa athavA anubhava cAkhI laI khokhAne yajJamAM homI devAmAM samAyelI che. "jainadharma' e bIjuM kAMI nahi paNa eka evuM bIbuM che ke je vaDe triguNAtmaka mATImAMthI gaganavihArI garUDe ghaDAya, araNya premI ekAMtavAsI siMha ghaDAya. jyAM ghaDatara kalA nathI tyAM janatva nathI; jyAM ghaDatara zekha ane zakti nathI tyAM jana dharma nathI." -vA. me. zAha - Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ * * 'ka ja * prakaraNa 1 luM. beTa ApanAra bAvAjI ! 3 janagaranA gaDha upara senerI raMganI cAdara pAtharanAra sUryadeva hamaNAM saghaLA manuSyane ane khAsa karIne raMbhA zeThANIne ghaNe priya lAgatA hoya ema jaNAya che; ane ziyALAnI havAramAM taDake kene kahevA lAge? lakSmIdevInI kRpAne lIdhe raMbhA zeThANIne karA jevA ThaMDA pANImAM hAtha nAkhI vAzI kAmakAja karavAnI jarUra na hovAthI dAsadAsIne te kAma saMpI zeThANI hamaNAM vizALa osarImAM beThAM che, hAM taDako chAkamachoLa che ane paDozInAM chokarAM pacheDI oDhIne bALaceSTAo kare che. raMbhA zeThANI ghaNuM bhAyALu hatAM tethI te chokarAMnI ramatamAM "bhAga laI hemane hasAvatAM ane badAma, pIstA, sAkaranA gAMgaDA vagere ApIne kharI karatAM; AthI chokarAM zeThANI pratye sagI mA karatAM paNa vadhu prema dharAvatAM hatAM. koI chokarAM raMbhAbAInA khoLAmAM jaI besatAM, to koI chokarAM hemanI adekhAI karI pite Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ khoLAmAM besavAnI jaka karatAM; koI chokarAM pitAne nAjuka hAtha lAMbo karIne zeThANInA hasamukhA he AgaLa dharatAM, ke jethI te hemane cuMbana kare, te koI chokarAMrabhAbAInI pAchaLa jaI lADamAM ne lADamAM garadane vaLagI paDatAM ne zeThANIne hasAvatAM. A chokarAnI bhAvaro pANInAM beThAM laIne gharamAM pisatAM ke gharamAMthI bahAra nIkaLatAM A kallola karatuM ToLuM joI hazI paDatI ane sagI mAtAo karatAM paNa paDozaNe A bALakonAM hadaya upara je kAbu meLavyo hato te vicArI Azcarya pAmatI. raMbhA zeThANInI sarovara jevI svaccha parasALamAM jANe ke piyaNa na khIlI uThayAM hoya evo dekhAva thaI rahyo hato, evAmAM e purUSoe ociMtA praveza karI A AnaMdamAM bhaMga pADe. e bemAMnA eka to raMbhAbAInA pati gAMDAlAla zeTha hatA ane bIjA eka lAMbI jaTAvALA bAvAjI hatA. lAlacoLa AMkho ane jhADa jevaDI jaTAvALA A bAvAjIne joIne chokarAM badhAM DarI gayAM ane saMtAtAM saMtAtAM sau senAM gharamAM pesI gayAM. bAvAjIthI kaNa nA Dare ? " chokarAonI mAne bAvA laI jAya" te pachI phula jevAM bicArAM chokarAMnA te zA bhAra ?! eka ajANyA purUSane laIne gAMDAlAla zeTha sIdhA gharamAM cAlyA gayA, e joI zeThANI paNa hemanI pAchaLa cAlyAM; kAraNa ke zeTha dareka kAma zeThANIne pUchIne ja karatA hatA, tethI zeThANIe vagara bolAvyA ja javuM joItuM hatuM. hAMDI takhatA ane jhummarathI zaNagArelA eka oNTA dIvAnakhAnAmAM gAdI upara zeTha tathA bAvAjI beThA ane zeThANI hemanI sAme jAjama upara beThAM. takIyA upara alIne gaMbhIra cahero dhAraNa karIne bIrAjelA bAvAjIe dIvAnakhAnAnI cupakI bhAgIH "jo mata? - ighara bulAke takalIpha denekA papA samaya hai?" . gAMDAlAla zeTha be hAtha joDI, mastaka namAvI, dIna vadane bolyAH "bApajI! Apa te bhAgyazALI purUSa che. te divase Ape pilA bheLAnAtha brAhmaNane tabuno sone karI Apyo tyArathI ja ApanI siddhinI ane khAtrI thaI hatI. Ape ghaNAMnAM darada maTADayAM : Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ ' che tathA mArA jevA ghaNAe vAMjhIAnAM dhara ughADayAM che evI paNa gAmamAM thatI vAte mahe sAMbhaLI che; ane tethI ja Aje. ATale sudhI padhAravAnI takalIpha Apane ApavI paDI che. ApanI pAthI khAre ghera lakSmInI lIlAlhera che, lAkhene vepAra cAle che. . AbarU paNa cetara phelAyelI che, strI paNa suMdara ane kaNAgarI che pAvAga-", vikatA to che . zreSThata, bhupatnI , ra da ra tu mikTa jaya hai mAri tuSAra . gua sigar sr $ hatA je lar Raa thaya?" gAMDAlAla:-"bApajI! heTuM duHkha putra sambandhI che. mArI pAchaLa A dolatano bhegavanAro eka paNa putra na hovAthI hAruM hRdaya zekAI jAya che. ane eTalA ja mATe Apane takalIpha ApI che. Apa dayALu che; utkRSTa tapazcaryAne lIdhe Apane siddhi varI che; te Apa kAMI kRpAdaSTi karo, e ja dAsanI yAcanA che." '' zeThANIe he macaDayuM. A vArtAthI hene kAMI asahya duHkha thatuM hoya ema bArIka daSTithI jonAra koI rahyAM hatA te hene jaNAyuM hatuM. paraMtu samayasUcaka zeThANIe mahe uparanA bhAva chupAvyA ane patinI ghelachA tathA bAvAjInI duSTatAnI kasoTI jevA khAtara cahere zAna banAvI dIdhA. : javo :-" jAya tau trIja hai tuma Ne gharamAM bhaktarAjako saMtAnakA duHkha dekhakara mujhe bhI asahya duHkha tA hai." gAMDAlAla:-"te bApa; kAMIka kRpA karo. derA-dhAgA mahe. puSkaLa karyA, amArAM gharavALAnI marajI virUddha thaIne mahe pIra-paga aranI mAnatAo paNa ghaNI rAkhI; paNa kazAthI dhAryuM phaLa maLyuM, nahi. have chevaTanA upAya tarIke Apane zaraNe Avyo chuM; Apa pharamAve te kriyA-anudAna karavA-karAvavA huM taiyAra chuM. ramA teTaluM kharca karavA khuzI chuM. harakoI rIte khArUM "vAMjhIA heNuM bAge, e ja hArI araja che." rAga -bata achA, jerA ! jA jA. huM kagr adAlU bhakta hai aura zeThANI bhI pavitra dikhatI hai; to merI sidise meM jarUra terepe upakAra karaMgA. magara itanA kAma Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ tereko karanA hogA; meM kala phajarase zAma taka zahara bahAra ke zIvamaMdIrameM jApa karatA rahUMgA, usabakta doporako tuma akelA udhara Akara pUjA karanA aura zAmako zeThANI akelI -" khAvAjI AgaLa bhASaNu kare che eTalAmAM tA vAdhaNunI peThe zeThANI tADukI uThayAM: " re duSTa DhAMgI ! nIkaLa mhArA dharanI bahAra. rahArA jevA vyabhicArI-DhagArA-cAra jogaTAnA sparzathI A mhArUM nItidevInA raheThANuvALuM ghara apavitra thayuM. jo hArA jIva bacAvA hoya teA eka kSaNu paNa ahIM ubhA na rahetA. ' zetA A sAMbhaLI bhoMThA paDayA. te Aste rahIne khelyAH " A zuM? saMta purUSanuM AvuM mhATu apamAna ? " zeThANIH--" prANanAtha ! ApanuM dIla dubhAya evuM kAMI paNa karavA ke khelavA mATe huM dIlagIra chuM; paNa mhAre mhArA samakrita ratna ane zIla ratna nAmanAM e kimatI ratnAnA bacAva khAtara A cArane jaladI ahIMthI kahADavA ja paDaze. putranI IcchA Apane che tevI kAne nahi hoya ? paNa putra mATe akkala gumAvI khesavI te zANA mANasAne pAlave nahi. zuM Apa ATalI sAdI vAta paNa nathI jANatA ke " dhIyA` vagara udharANI thavAnI ja nathI ? dhana-putra-tanadurastI vagere dareka prakAratuM sukha pUrve karelAM kRtya anusAra maLe che. nANAM kAI ne dhIyA ja nahi hoya teA udharANI zI rIte karavAnA "hatA ? zIva ke mahAdeva, pIra ke payagaMbara, deva ke devInA hAthamAM ApavApaNuM hota tA duniyAmAM koI du:khI raheta ja nahi. prANI mAtranuM sukha-du:kha henA potAnA ja hAthamAM che. jevI karaNI karI che tevuM sukhaduHkha pAme che ane jevI karaNI Aje karaze tevuM saMkhaduHkha have pachI pAmaro. tAlutanI mAnatA rAkhanArA jaina tAbhutA' eTalA pazu vicAra nathI karatA ke tAbhutane ja kASTha upADe che mAtA-melaDInI mAnatA rAkhanAra melAM manuSyAne eTalu paNa bhAna nathI ke te bicArI pAte ja gAkhalAmAM goMdhAI rahelI che ! jogaTAnA de|rAdhAgAthI cheAkarAM maLatAM hota teA kAi paraNata ja nahi ! e sa mAtra kAMdhAM che. putra ApavA kAinA hAthamAM nathI. are putra ApavA ' evA zabda khelAtA sAMbhaLatAM paNa rArama Ave che. e khelamAM ja azlIla bhAva samAyelA che. eka purUSa pAta 16 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ bIjA purUSane kahe ke "hArI ane putra Apa" te ethI bhAre. pitA uparanI gALa bIjI kaI hoI zake? . "prANanAtha ! huM Apane zikhAmaNa ApavAne yogya nathI. Apa hArA mAthAnA mukuTa che; huM tAbedAra dAsI chuM. ApanA A khoTA khyAlane dUra karI ApanuM mana satiSI, zAnta ane sukhI banAvavA mATe ja hAre ATaluM kahevAnI chUTa levI paDe che. ApaNane putra na hoya tethI zikAra karavA jevuM zuM che te huM hamajI zaktI nathI. paDozInAM chokarAM hArI AsapAsa keTalA hetathI vIMTAyelAM rahe che te zuM hame jotA nathI? emane kAMI cIja ApIne, ramADIne, sAravAra karIne je ApaNe AnaMda pAmI zatA hoIe to ApaNane putra nathI evI ciMtA zA mATe dharavI joIe? putra kAMI svarga apAvata nathI. sAre nIkaLe ane jagatane hita pahoMcADe evo thAya te te putra-pavitra karanAra gaNAya; paNa je durgaNIbhI -laMpaTa-bIkaNusvArthI nIkaLe te ulaTe duHkha rUpa thaI paDe. putra vaDe ApaNe je janasevA bajAvI zakIe te, putra tulya bIjA keIlAyaka mANasa vaDe, kema na banAvI zakIe? putranA lAlanapAlana arthe dravyanI je heTI rakama kharacIe te svadharmI anya bALake ke jeo lAyakAtavALAM heya hemane pALavApiSavA-bhaNavavA pAchaLa kharcAne lAve kAM na laI zakIe? ApaNo hetu hAM hAM lAve levAno ane AnaMda bhegavavAne che; te je koI kAmathI ApaNuM bhAIone sukha thAya evAM kAma karavAthI ApaNane kIrti maLe, nAma amara thAya, mana AnaMdamAM rahe ane puNya baMdhAya e zuM che. AnaMda ane ocho lahAvo kahevAya? prANanAtha! Apa su che, AtmAne ja saghaLAM sukhaduHkhane kartA ane bhoktA TharAvanArA vIranA anuyAyI che; sAdhumahArAjane upadeza roja sAMbhaLe che; chatAM putrane Ave gAMDe lebha ApanA magajamAM hajI bharAI rahyo che e ApanA vicAronuM sAMkaDApaNuM batAvI Ape che. zuM sukha badhuM ApaNuM A be hAthanA gharamAM ja bharAI piThuM che ? zuM huM tathA Apa ane ApaNe putra e traNa sivAya bIjA kaI prANI saMbaMdhI Apane khyAla paNa nathI AvI zakta? savAthI vicAre jahAM sudhI che tyahAM sudhI sukha ApaNAthI hajAra. 17. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ gAu dUra che. je mANaso paramArtha sAthe svArthane vece che temanI pAse sadhaLAM sukho cAhI cAlIne Ave che. mATe putraprApti arthe kaI paNa jAtanA bhAmAmAM chava na rAkhatAM AjathI paropakAramAM jIva rAkho te enA pakSa phaLa tarIke kadApi, bhAgyamAM haze te, putra- prApti paNa thaze." raMbhA zeThANanAM A vacana sAMbhaLI zeTha saMtoSa pAmyA. pitAnI bhUla hemane pratyakSa jaNAI. bAvAjI upara atyaMta gusso thayo ane hemanI haDelI AMkha joI bAvAjI paNa nIcuM joI gayA. have kevI rIte ahIMthI nAsavuM te ja vicAra bAvAnA manamAM ghoLAvA lAgyo. zeThANuM bAvAnA hoM uparathI ene gabharATa sahamajI gayAM ane pote svabhAvathI ja dayALu hovAthI belyAM "re dhUrta ! AjathI zikha ke, duSTa IrAdAnuM phaLa kaDavuM ja hoya che. A ekAMta jagAmAM hane sArI rIte methIpAka ApavA zeThajI talapI rahyA che paNa hArA karatAM amAre ja vAMka vadhAre hovAthI huM hane ja karuM chuM; jA, jaladI cAlyo ja. paNa ATaluM hArA pastAtA hadayamAM kotarI rAkhaje ke, deva rUpa mANase pote duHkha veThIne paNa bIjAnuM hita kare che; mANasa jevA mANaso potAnuM hita sAcavIne bIjAnuM hita kare che; ane rAkSasa rU5 mANaso bIjAne tUTIne pitAnuM hita kare che. A traNamAMnA pahelA vargamAM hArAthI na avAya te phikara nahi, paNa bIjA vargamAM AvavA jeTalo te udyama jarUra karaje ane Amalekane bhamAvavA-lUTavA-DUbAvavAnI kozIza kadApi karatA nA." narama paDI gayele-pastA-sudharavAnA TharAvapara Avelo Ave, "joga mAyA" jevI satIne A hukama mAthe caDAvI nIce De cAlato thayo. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ prakaraNa ra je. "kAryo hoya tevAM kare ! gAM t DAlAla zeTha bAvAnA prasaMgathI bahu DAhyA banI gayA hatA. zeThANanI salAha mujaba zeThe have lA levAnuM zarU karyuM. pite eka jaina zika vaNika hatA tethI prathama te potAnI kamamAM je je garIba nirAdhAra strI purUSo hatA hemane hAM daramahIne traNatraNa rUpiyA gujarAna arthe mokalI ApavA mATe amuka rakama kahADI ane harakeI dhamanA musApharone utaravA mATe eka dharmazALA baMdhAvI tathA lUlAMlaMgaDAM bhikSako mATe eka AzramasthAna sthApyuM. zeThane dharma sambandhI kAMI UMDuM jJAna na hovAthI dhAmika unnati mATe bIjuM kazuM karavAnuM hemane sUjhayuM nahi. koI kaI vakhata zeThANInI salAhathI lhANI-prabhAvanA ane dIkSAochava pAchaLa kharca karatA ane koI vakhata sAdhu sAdhvIjIne saMskRta zikhavAnI IcchA thatI te kAzIthI pagAradAra zAstrIjI bolAvI hemanI pAse bhaNavAnI jogavAI karI ApatA. A sivAya zeTha ke zeThANune dharmanA bIjA rastAnI khabara ja nahatI. paraMtu hArathI A zubha kRtyo zarU thayAM tyahArathI zeTha zeThANInAM hadaya bahu prakallita rahevA lAgyAM. hemanAM he hamezAM hasatAM jaNAtAM ane satkAryanA paDachAyA rUpa AnaMda te he upara hameza ramI raheto jovAmAM AvatuM. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ divasa upara divasa sukhamAM nirgamana thavA lAgyA. Akhare zeThANI raMbhAbAIne rUDo divasa Avyo. pura dahADe teNe eka putraratnane janma Apyo. gharamAM, kuTuMbamAM, nAtajAtamAM ane gAmamAM AnaMda vartA ane zeThe AkhA gAmanAM o gaLyAM karAvyAM; eTale ja nahi paNa A zubha divasanI yAdagIrI mATe eka lAkha rUpiyA kaI paNa popakArI kArya nimitte jUdA mUkyA. zeThe evo saMkalpa karyo ke A lAkha rUpiyAne upayoga Aje janmela putra ummare pahoMce tyAre pitAnI icchA mujaba pitAne je kArya vadhAre parepakArI lAge hemAM kare. * janAM darzanathI sarvane AnaMda AnaMda thayo hato evA A putranuM nAma sarvAnumate sudarzana pADavAmAM AvyuM, je ke sudarzananAM phAIbA te A khoTanA chekarAnuM nAma "nAtha" rAkhavA ghaNuMe kUdI rahyAM hatAM paNa AkhA gAmanI IcchA AgaLa hemanuM kAMI cAlyuM nahi. sudarzanane kALajIpUrvaka ucheravAmAM Avato hovAthI pAMca varSanI vaye pahoMcatAM te te 8-8 varSa jevo dekhAvA lAgyA. A vakhate sarva hene nizALe mUkavAnI salAha ApavA lAgyuM, paNa zeThane vicAra e naheAte; te ema IcchatA hatA ke pitAnA dhaMdhAne lAyakanI keLavaNI ghara AgaLa ja ApavI. tethI eka kAbela jenane sAro pagAra TharA-vIne sudarzananA zikSaka tarIke rAkhyo. A zikSakanuM nAma vivekacaMdra hatuM.te eka garIba paNa khAnadAna gharamAM janmelo ane uMcA vicAravALo yuvAna hato. gujarAtI bhASAnA sArA jJAna uparAMta, saMskRta tathA aMgrejI paNa te jANato hato ane vicAra darzAvavAnI chaTA tathA zuddha hadayane lIdhe te eka acchA upadezakanI garaja sAre te hato. henI *umara te je ke mAtra trIzeka varSanI ja hatI paNa ApabaLathI rasto karavAnA svabhAvane pariNAme hene anubhava puSkaLa maLyo hato. AvA zikSakanA hAtha taLe keLavAte sudarzane jevo saMskArI jIva dIpI uThe emAM zuM Azcarya ? sudarzanane lakhatAM-vAMcatAM, saghaLI jAtanuM, nAma-ThAmuM karatAM, aMgakasaratanA sAmAnya khela karatAM, nyAyasara vAdavivAda karatAM ane dukhInI dayA khAtAM. zikhavavAmAM AvyuM. dharaNasara dharmAna ApavA henA zikSake dhaNue IccharyuM paNa hele mATe khAsa vAMcanamALAnAM joIe tevAM pustake koIe taiyAra karelAM Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ A hAvAthI hAla je kAMI pustaka jene pustakazALAmAMthI maLI zakayA hetuM dehana karIne pitAnA zabdomAM ja jJAna ApavA mAMDayuM. * prathama hene vinayI, ugI, svadezAbhimAnI, paropakArI, sughaDa, karakasaranI mahAvidyAne jANuM ane zuddhAcAravALe bane evuM jJAna ApyuM. AvI rIte e bALakanuM hadaya kheDAyuM- dharmanAM bIja vAvavAne lAyaka thayuM--eTale hene samyakatvanuM rahasya zikhavyuM, jenAthI dharma ane "hema' vacce taphAvata te barAbara hamajI zake. pachI karma graMthone keTaloka anubhava karAvyo ane lukhkhuM jJAna miMcyA| bhimAna janma ApanAra na thaI paDe eTalA mATe bhaktAmara Adi te henA rahasya jJAna sAthe zikhavyAM. A pramANe sudarzana dhArmika ane vyavahArika jJAnamAM AgaLa vadhato jato hato te vakhate vivekacaMdra hene mahAvIra, prasannacaMdra, anAthI muni, zAlibhadra, vijaya zeTha vagere dharmAtmAonAM jIvanacaritra tathA rAma, zIvAjI, kRSNa, nepalIana, garIbalDIM' vagere vIra purUSonAM jIvanacaritra paNa saMbhaLAvatA hatA ane e sAMbhaLIne sudarzanamAM draDhatA, nipuNatA, paropakAra buddhi ane suzIla majabuta thatAM hatAM. vIsa varasanI umara thatAmAM to sudarzana eka saMpUrNa "saggahastha banI gaye, matalaba ke saMgrahastha" kahevaDAvAne lAyakanA sarve guNo henAmAM khIlI uThayA. zrImaMtAIne lIdhe sudarzananA janma vakhatathI ja vivAhanAM kaheNa saMkhyAbaMdha AvavA lAgyAM hatAM paNa zeThANI hemane yuktisara pAchAM kahADatI. henI IcchA putrane saMpUrNa lAyaka thayelo jovAnI hatI ane tethI nAdAna vayanA chokarAne DAkaNanI mAphaka vaLagATa vaLagADavA te khuzI na hatI. AthI visa varSa sudhI sudarzanamAM sArI rIte rakSAyeluM vIrya henA mhoM upara prakAza pADatuM hatuM ane henI vANI tathA hIlacAlamAM jusso ApatuM hatuM. - sudarzana je zarIre kasAyelo ane buddhie pahecelo thaze tema vinayavaMta gurUnA upadezathI vinayI paNa te ja . mAtA, pitA, dharmagura ane dareka vaDIlanuM mAna te sArI rIte jALavate. havAramAM vahelo uDI zarIrathaddhi ane sAta mAIlanI majala karyA bAda sAmAyikamAM besate ane te 48 mInITa zuddha AtmaSTimAM ja nigamana karato. e vakhate henA hadayamAM AnaMdanA dIvA thatA, ke je AnaMda kaI vakhate te sAdhu munirAja samakSa kahI saMbhaLAvate hAre Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ teo paikInA jeoe AnaMdanA adhikAra vinAnA hatA teone te sudarzananI vAta kathA' jevI bhAsatI! sudarzana hemanI e dazA joI kheda pAmate ane e vagane sudhAravAnI ghaNI jarUra che ema manamAM bolate, paNa vakhata hajI pAka nathI ema vicArI mAna bhajate; bahu thatuM te koI vakhata eTaluM kahe ke "mahArAja! covIse kalAkanuM Apane sAmAyika hevAthI arthAta sAmAyikanA ati, paricayathI Apane emAM AnaMda na paDe e banavA joga che. ati paricayathI navinatA nAza pAme che!" ane navinatA vagara majA nathI; mATe sAmAyikamAM mahune je AnaMda hure che te Apane AvA akhaMDa sAmAyikyAM hovAne lIdhe na skurato hoya te kAMI navAI jevuM nathI " ema kahI hazI jate mahArAje A bolavAne marma kAMI samajI zakatA nahi eTale teo paNa sudarzananuM hasatuM moM joI hasI paDatA. sudarzana bhAvika dekhAvA chatAM cAlAka che ema jANe kaI sAdhujI hene ema nahotA kahetA ke "bhAI amane gurU dhAre: amAruM samakita lyo !" kAraNake "bhAI eto parabA ja mahAvIra pitA pAsethI samakita lIdhuM hatuM ane zuddha cAritrane ja gurU dhAryA hatA. koI eka sAdhune gurU dhAravAnI hene leza paNa IcchA nahetI; e khAbocIAnuM pANI hene pasaMda nahotuM. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ CyoIne, ja prakaraNa 3 ju. vivAhanI vAta. ''. darzananA zikSaka vivekacaMdranI buddhi, nIti ane pavitratAnI chApa sudarzana upara kevI paDI te ApaNe joI gayA; ane bALa vayamAM paDelA te saMskAra jIMdagIbhara kAyama rahe che te ApaNe have pachI joIzuM. e uparathI ApaNane eka kimatI dhaDe maLaze ke, bALakanI keLavaNI upara puratuM lakSa ApavuM e pahelAmAM pahelI jarUrIAta che. potAnA putrane aMgabaLa, buddhibaLa ane nItibaLa traNene khajAne Apavo e ja premALa pitAne zreSTha dharma che athavA kharo vArase che; ane e dharma nahi bajAvanAra pitA "pitA" nahi paNa "zatru- agara kahe ke kasAI che. puratI kALajIthI ucheravAmAM AvelAM bALako bhaviSyamAM kuTuMbanAMgAmanAM ane dezanAM-re pRthvInAM bhUSaNarUpa thaI paDe che. vicaMdrane vicAra pitAnA ziSyane jaladI jaladI paraNAvI devAne nAte; je ke AvA dhanADhaya kuTuMbamAM kanyA ApavA eTalA badhA mANaso talapI rahyA hatA ke e badhAnAM nALIerone eka jagAe ekaThAM karyA hatA te ekAda oraDo bharAta! paraMtu vivekacaMdra raMbhA zeThANIne hamajAvo ane zeThANI gAMDAlAla zeThane hamajAvI detAM. vivekacaMdrano vicAra evo hato ke sudarzanane vicAromAM-sudarzananA AnaMdamAM-sudarzananI lAgaNIomAM je kanyA bhAga laI zake tevI jAya tevI ja kanyA zodhI kahADIne hene paraNAvavI ane evI na maLe te sudarzana jevA eka brahmacArI ane zrImaMta mahAtmAne jagasevA nAmanI suMdarI sAthe ja varAvI de! Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ mAgAM upara mAgAM AvatAM ane te pachI kahADavAmAM AvatAM. paraMtu vIsamA varSanI AkharamAM eka prasaMge zeTha, zeThANI ane vivekacaMdra traNe vacce ghara sambandhI kAMI vAtacIta cAlI rahI hatI. evAmAM kaI purUSa dAkhala thayo ane zeThane javAra karyA. "padhAre! mANekacaMda zeTha, padhAre!" kahI gAMDAlAle be DagalAM sAmA jaI AvanArane satkAra karyo ane pitAnI pAse besADI pAnasopArI ApyA bAda Agamanaprayojana pUchyuM. "zeThajI!" mANekacaMde zarU karyuM " ApanA cIraMjIvI vIsa varSanI umaranA thavA chatAM Ape keInuM mAthuM kabula rAkhatA nathI, e mATe bahAra vividha vAte saMbhaLAya che. Apa te hamajIne tema karatA hazo; paNa loke marajImAM Ave tema bole che. mATe ApanA snehI tarIke salAha ApuM chuM ke have vilaMba karavAmAM sAra nathI." mANekacaMdabhAI! hamArI vAta vAjabI che, paraMtu jugatajugatuM joDuM maLatuM hoya to amAre kAMi vilaMba karavAnuM kAraNa nathI." zeThajI! loko paNa A ja kAraNathI ApanI vAta kare che. kahe che ke gAMDAlAla zeTha lakSmInA madathI cheka ja chakI gayA che." gAMDAlAla zeTha A vAta sAMbhaLIne jarA jhaMkhavANuM paDyA; hemanA manamAM vicaMdranI haTha beTI bhAsI. : "mANekacaMdabhAI! paNa have hamArA jANavAmAM kaI sAruM ThekANuM che?" zeThe pUchyuM. "hAjI; be jagA mATe huM Apane bhalAmaNa karI zakuM chuM. eka te A gAmanA bhagavAnadAsa zeThanI dIkarI ane bIjI vadhamAnapurInA sagALazA zeThanI dIkarI. A bannenI tapAsa karI khAtrI karo." mANekacaMde javAba Apyo. "kema, mAstara!" gAMDAlAle vivekacaMdra tarapha jaine pUchayuM hame A banne kanyAonI tapAsa karI Avaze?" ghaNI khuzIthI, zeThajI!" hAjarajavAbI vivekacaMde javAba vALyo "paraMtu ApaNe ghaNIkharI tapAsa to ApanA A nehI bhArata ahIM ja karI zakIzuM; pachI jarUra jaNAze te kanyAone jevA paNa huM jaIza." ' Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ zeThane A vAta gamI. mAstare mANekacaMdabhAI sAthe savAla javAba zarU karyo " ! vardhamAnapurInA sagALazA zeThanI dIkarInI umara zuM che ane zI sarate te kanyA ApavA mAge che?" umara varasa sattaranA sumAre che ane--" "zuM? sattara varasa? khAnadAna gharanI kanyA sattara varasa sudhI kuMvArI? A zuM kahe che?" : "emAM Azcarya pAmavA jevuM kazuM nathI. jema sudarzana zeThane cogya kanyA na maLavAthI 20 varasa kuMvArA rAkhavA paDayA tema koI khAnadAna gharanI kanyAne joIe tevo vara na maLavAthI 17 te zuM paNa 20-22 varasa sudhI paNa kuMvArI rAkhavAne e taramAM cAle che. hakIkata ema che ke, sagALazA zeTha mULe te zrImaMta; paNa pAchaLathI paiseTake ghasAI gayA. te paNa ghara khAnadAnanuM, eTale emanAthI dIkarInA paisA levAya te nahi; paraMtu khAnadAnI jALavavA khAtara, TANuM mAMDe * hAre be paisA kharacavA te paDe ja ane e kharcane pahoMcI vaLavA mATe amuka rakama lIdhA vagara cAle nahi. e leke evI rIte levAtI rakamane "mAMDave dhovarAmaNa" kahe che. emanA gharaDAoe A rIvAja pesato jemAM koIne ughADI rIte paisA mAgavA na paDe eTalA mATe AgamacetI vAparIne varavALA pAsethI kanyAnuM mahe jovarAmaNa rUpIA 2), khoLAmAM mukavAnA rU. 5), evA evA rastA chane rU. 200-250 nI rakama to haka tarIke levAnI TharAvI che; ene teo "sAmuM upharAMTu " kahe che. khAnadAnamAM khAnadAna ghara paNa e to le ja. paNa emAM gAMDAlAla zeTha jevA lakSAdhipatine vicAra karavA jevuM kazuM nathI. vicAra karavA jevuM kazuM nathI kema? sadhaLuM vicAravA jevuM che. gulAmI athavA mANasa vecavAne dhaMdhe anArya kahevAtI prajAmAMnA papakArI purUSonA bhagIratha prayAsathI baMdha thayo che; hAre amArA zeTha jevA zrImate A adhamamAM adhama jAtanI gulAmIne uttejana Ape te te anAryathI paNa anArya gaNAya ke nahi? kanyAne-devIne vecanArane uttejana ApavAnuM kAma zuM amArA zeTha jevAthI banaze? ane zuM AvA gulAmInA dhaMdhA karanAra Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ bhaDavAthI saMbaMdha joDavA Apa ApanA snehIne salAha ApavA AvyA che ?" vivecake cokhkhuM parakhAvI dIdhuM. - mANekacaMda khasTa paDI gayo. henuM he jaMkhavANuM paDayuM; to paNa hiMmata dharI teNe kahyuM - "mAstara sAheba ! jarA vicArIne belo. cheka hada choDI na jAo. je sabsathI saMbaMdha bAMdhavA DuM hamaNuM bhalAmaNa karI te sabsa kaI 1000-500 "khAvA levA" icchato nathI; ane "sAmAM upharAMTA" ne rivAja te kAdamIne che. eTalA mATe hame "bhaDavA* je bhAre paDate zabda kahe che te aNuvicAryuM vade che." - " nahi"," makakamapaNe "mAstare ? javAba vALyo "huM aNuvicAryuM vadato nathI. gaNikAo pitAne dhaMdhe calAvavA mATe je "bhaDavA " rAkhe che te bahAranA mANase heya che; sagA nathI hotA; ane teo " gaNIkA" ne je AmadAnI karAve che te peTe amuka juja rakama ja pAme che,-bAkInI rakama te zIla vecanArIne maLe che; paraMtu kanyA nimitte paisA lenAra "bhaDavA" o te kanyAnA sagA-are bApa ke kAkA mAmA pote ja hoya che ane jene kanyAne khapa hoya che tenI pAsethI maLatI rakama vecavA karAyelI kanyAne ApatAM pite ja rAkhe che. keTalAka e rakamamAMthI dhara' kare che,eTale ke pote paraNe che agara putrane paraNAve che, keTalAka dhaMdhArojagAra kare che; ane keTalAka ghera beThAM amanacamana kare che; tathA khAnadAnane dekhAva karanAra bAkInAo e rakama te kanyAnAM lagna pAchaLa thatA kharcamAM vApare che ane e teNInA paise pite jaza khATe che (ane khAnadAnI sAcave che !) huM pUchuM chuM ke je dezamAM "sAmuM upharAM, nathI levAtuM te dezamAM kanyAne paraNAvavAnI pitAnI pharaja bajAvavA tathA pitAnI khAnadAnInuM jatana karavA je kharca karAya che te kanyAne bApa pite kare che ke bIje kaI? ane je pitAnI khAnadAnI jALavavA mATe kanyAnA paisA vAparavAmAM Ave te te, pitAnuM peTa bharavA mATe gaNikA pAsethI lAlI lenAra "bhaDavA" karatAM kaI rIte utaratuM kAma gaNAya te Apa ja kaho. " Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ jema jema vivekacaMdra spaSTIkaraNa karatA gayA tema tema mANekacaMdanA rASa vadhatA gayA. teNe kahyuM: ". zuM thAre mahAjana gAMDu che ke, 8 sAmA upharAMTA 'nA hakka pAse rahIne apAve che? ma tr mApha karA, zeTha sAheba ! " gaMbhIra here bhAstare' pratyuttara ApyA " mAk karA, maherabAna ! mahAjana gAMDu ke dalAlIka te tA hame sArI rIte jANatA haze!. * sAmA urAMTA nI vAta te dUra rahI paNa khAnagI rAhe ApavA kahelI rakama paNa jamhAM sudhI cukavI devAmAM na Ave saaN sudhI pherA pharavA' devAmAM AvatA nathI te vakhata paNa mahAjana tA kanyAvikrayanA dalAla'nuM ja kAma kare che; khullekhullA kanyAvikraya thayA che ema jANavA chatAM paNa jhAre mahAjana hAjarI Ape che ane lagnanI bAhAlI-majurI Ape che hAre paNa te kanyAvikrayanA dalAlanuM ja kAma kare che; khADADhAra, apAsarA vagere khAtAmAM varavALA pAsethI rUpiyA mAgavAmAM Ave che vhAre paNa te 'kanyAvikrayanA lAla'tu ja kAma kare che; ane ethI paNa khullI lAlInu pUchatA hai| tA kahIza ke, mahAjananA zekIAe paikI keTalAka navarApa jevA mAkhImArA anne taraphanI lAlI khAvAnA ja dhaMdhA kare che. koi vakhata peAtAnuM na cAle te kanyAvALAne nAtabahAra karI rU. 5--50 nA daDa karI pAchA aMdara leche ane ema karavAmAM paNa khAnagI daMDa pote vasula kare che te te jUdo ! are A sahavAsaNa dalAlI' karatAM paNa bUrI jAtanI dalAlI te paikI keTalAka kare che, te evI rIte ke, anna vastra vagara rIkhAtI vidhavAe sasarA pAsethI kharca apAvavAnI vinati zekIA pratye kare che thAre te zeDhIA te du:khI khAIne kahe che ke 'rAMDa, mahIne rU. 4) te rAAnA pAlave ? bahu paisAdAranI chokarIne ? varase rU. 25) zu thoDA che? khA teA khA; nahi te bhogAvAmAM paDe. hArA mATe hArA sasarAne mAthe kaI eTalA badhA jo nakhAya ? pelI khAI kAlAvAlA karatAM thAke che; chevaTe kAinI salAha maLavAthI rU. 25-50 ) nA cAMDalA pelA zeThIAne kare che, eTale zeDIo khAInA sasarAne melAvIne kahe che ke kalANAbhAi ! mArI vAta teA eka ja vI dekhu tA ? khIcArI vahune paDayA upara pATuM mAratAM zarame nathI AvatI ? hamArA dharanI lAja pramANe tyAre mahIne rU. 5) tA kharca bAMdhI ApavuM paDaze ja. nahi te hamAre mATe vicAra karavA paDaze.' hA mAM hA mAM karatAM karatAM 27. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ rU. 3 TharAve che ane enI pAsethI paNa rU. 50) hakasAI gajavAmAM mUke che ! "raDIrAMDa dalAlI, karanArA AvA hamArA mahAjanane mahArAthI mUrakha ke dalAlIuM kema kahevAya ?" raMbhA zeThANa A badhuM lakSapUrvaka sAMbhaLatAM hatAM ane prasaMga AvyuM te paNa kAMI bolavA talapI rahyAM hatAM. mANekacaMda zeThane cheka ja jakhavA paDayA joIzeThANIe hene zAnta karavA prayatna karyo. : "mAstara ! hamArI vAta kharI che; paNa kAMI pAMce AMgaLIo sarakhI hoya che? bhalAbhalI pRthvI paDI che. keI mAgaNa hoya che te kaI dAtAra hoya che; kaI vaDela hoya che ane kaI satIo paNa hoya che. mATe e vAta javA de ane bIjI kanyA keNa che te bAbata pUchaparacha karavI hoya te kare." mANekacaMda, zeThANInAM miSTa vacanathI kAMIka zAnta thayA, eTalAmAM te vicaMdra bIjI kanyAnA sambandhamAM vicAra darzAvavA zarU karyA, ke jethI zAnta paDavA lAgele samudra pAcho khaLabhaLavA lAge. - " bahena!" viveka raMbhA zeThANI pratye kahyuM "A zaheranI kanyA ApaNe dharma paNa na joIe. je ApaNe kanyAvikrayane uttejana ApavAnI viruddhamAM hoIe to varavikrayathI paNa ApaNe dUra ja nAsavuM joIe; ane A zaherane dareka vara 200 thI 1000 ne sudhInI rakama mATe vecAya che. ApaNuM ghara heTuM hovAthI ApaNA sudarzanabhAInuM lIlAma kadAca 2-4 hajAra jeTalI rakame thAya, ke je huM kadI sAMkhI zakuM nahi. vaLI gAmamAM ne gAmamAM lagna karavAthI vevAIo vacce sAro snehabhAva TakI zakato nathI. chokarI divase bApanA ghera rahe ane saMdhyA vakhate sAsare javA nikaLe e ja ema batAvI Ape che ke mAtra viSaya vikAranuM sagapaNa che. bApahemane uchere che te paNa te arthe ja. aphasosanI vAta che ke mAtra thoDA kalAkane mATe chokarIone sAsare mokalavAnA rIvAjavALA zaherIe te badala jamAIne AgaLathI sArI sarakhI phI" Ape che, jene teo "paherAmaNI" evuM bhavya nAma Ape che! piyara ane sAsarA vacce hIMcakA khAtI A madamAtI chokarIo keTalIka vAra te piyarathI sAsare javAnA ane sAsarethI piyara javAnA bahAne bIje ja koI sTezane utarI paDe che ane henI koIne khabara paNa paDatI nathI. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ A vagere kAraNone laIne sudarzanabhAI mATe huM to A zaheranI kanyA kaI rIte levA nahi ja dauM." zeThANIne "mAstara nI dareka vAta barAbara lAgI ane hetA caherA upara DenI pasaMdagI-nApasaMdagIne AdhAra hameza rahetA hate evA bhaLIAbhaTAka gAMDAlAla zeThe paNa mAthuM dhuNAvIne gaMbhIra vadane kahyuM ja barAbara che; mAstaranI vAta barAbara che." mANekacaMda zeTha ke je gAMDAlAla june nehI hate hene maLelA A jAtanA satkArathI hene ghaNuM lAgI AvyuM tethI he "mAstarane dADhamAM ghAlyo ane kahyuM ke "mAstara sAheba ! AjakAla Apane gAMDAlAla zeTha jevA bhAgyazALI purUSano hAtho maLyo che eTale zI vAta karavI ? koDapatinA mAnItA je bole te pivAya. juo maherabAna, amAre to kAMI nathI; paNa ApanA AvA vicArothI amArA junA snehInA ratna jevA putrane jIMdagIbhara vAMDhA AthaDavuM paDaze, e ja amane sAle che. ane dasa-vazI sarvanI cAlyA kare che; te na kare nArAyaNa ne je zeThajInI dazA palaTAI te Apane Avo mijAjI svabhAva duniyAmAM koI sthaLe kema vize enI mhane ciMtA thAya che." " "mANekacaMda zeTha!" mAstare ThAvakuM moM rAkhI kahyuM "hArI ciMtA rAkhavA mATe Apane upakAra mAnuM chuM. paraMtu jema Apane mArI ciMtA che tema mahane paNa ApanI ciMtA thAya che. Apa uttama manuSya janma tayA uttama kSetramAM uttama kuLa sAthe jaina dharma je uttama dharma pAmavA chatAM varavikraya ane kanyAvikraya jevA mahApAtakanI dalAlI kare che ane vaLI salAha ApanAra para krodha karI AtmAne bamaNe malIna banAvI che te pUrvanAM sukRtyanuM atyAre je phaLa bhogave che te phaLa bhegavAI rahyA bAda ApanI zI vale thaze, enI mane ciMtA thAya che." "dIka che, baccA, huM joI laIza. vale hArI ke mahArI thAya che te A bhavamAM ja batAvIza" ema kahetAnI sAthe lAlacoLa thai gayelo mANekacaMda zeTha ekadama ubhuM thayuM ane zAntana mATe taiyAra thayelAM zeThANI eka akSara paNa bole te pahelAM to sakasaTe era choDI cAlate the. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ " zeTha, zeThANI ane mAstara ghaDI vAra mauna thaI besI rahyAM. keTalIka vAra eka bIjAnA he tarapha joyAM kIdhuM; pachI viveka cupakI teDIH "zeThajI! AvA dhamakInA zabdothI Ape mudala ciMtA karavAnI jarUra nathI. huM jANuM chuM ke khaTapaTIA purUSo game tevA nibaLa jevA dekhAvA chatAM paNa koI vakhata moTI ADakhIla rUpa thaI paDe che. paNa teTalA khAtara ApaNe cittazAti gumAvavAnI koI jarUra nathI. "maraNa eka divasa te AvavAnuM che ja' e ApaNe cekasapaNe jANIe chIe paNa tethI kAMI hameza "muelA jevA gamagIna thaI paDyA rahevuM joItuM nathI. ApaNe ApaNe dharma" barAbara bajAvyA jaIzuM ane tema karavAmAM kAMI ADakhIla AvI paDaze te te "dharma bajAvavAnuM phaLa nahi paNa pUrvanA koIkukama nuM phaLa che ema vivekathI vicArI zAntapaNe te sahIzuM ane dharmane jALavI rahIzuM. hAla te eka vicAra mane sUjhe che; te e che ke, sudarzanabhAI mATe kanyA zodhavA mATe jAte nIkaLI paDavuM ane AvA "hetanA TukaDAone maheNuM mAravAno vakhata ja na maLavA devo." zeTha zeThANIe e vicAra mAnya rAkhyo ane viveca bIje ja divase prayANa karyuM. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ R YrE prakaraNa 4 thuM. kanyAnI zodhamAM. vivekacaMdra pitAnA ziSya mATe kanyAnI zodha karate karate aneka gAma-nagara-pUrapattana pharato pharate ghaNo thAkI gaye; paNa hene koI sthaLe saMtoSa maLe nahi. eka vakhata to ene ema ja kalpanA thaI AvI ke, zuM hiMda A kanyAratna vagarane ja thaI gaye che? zuM hiMdamAM badhA kAca ja che-ratna koI ja nathI? evI nirAza utpanna thavAthI te eka vAra te evA nizcaya para AvI gayo ke, have te je maLe te kanyA laI levI, ke jethI duSTa mANekacaMdanuM maheNuM sAMbhaLavuM na paDe. paraMtu vadhAre uMDA utarIne vicAra karatAM hene te vicAra ahitakAraka jaNAya. heNe pahelAMnA vicAra sAthe manamAM ja yuddha AraMhyuM: zuM eka ratna jevA yuvAnanI AkhI jIMdagIne mahArI ALasa ke huMpada khAtara barabAda karavA huM nIkaLyo chuM? nahi; mahane jarA vadhAre parizrama paDaze te huM sahana karIza, mANekacaMda jevA baso badamAsanAM maheNuM paNa sahana karIza, paNa agya patnIne lIdhe hArA ziSyane AkhI jIMdagI sudhI nisAsA nAkhavA paDe e jovAnuM mArAthI haragIja sahana thaze nahi. bahuratnA vasuMdharA mAM kaMIka ratno paDayAM haze. mahane adyApi sudhI IcchIta artha nahi prApta thavAnuM kAraNa mahArA saMkalpanI nabaLAI ja che. saMkalpabaLa vagarane mANasa taNakhalA tulya che ema kahetAnI sAthe te te uTho ane vijayanagara ke hAM pitAne mitra uttamacaMda raheto hato tyahAM gaye. Agamana jana mitrane jaNAvatAM mitre pitAthI banatI madada ApavA vacana ApyuM. ) 31 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ te sAMje jJAtijano meLAvaDo hato. uttamacaMdanuM AkhuM ghara e meLAvaDAmAM AmaMtrAyaluM hatuM tethI vivekacaMdra ekalA mATe rasoI karavI paDe tema hatuM. paraMtu vivekI vivekacaMdra nAtamAM jamavA javAnI IcchA batAvavAthI enA nimittano "AraMbha samAraMbha" bacyo ! sAMjanA cAra vAgyA. yuvAna strIo ane kanyAo, yuvAna purUSa ane baTukenI hAnIoMTI TukaDIo suMdara vastrAbhUSaNa paherIne jAhera rastA para thaIne jatI jovAmAM AvavA lAgI. vivekacaMdra ke jene avalokana karavAne svabhAva hato te dareka bAbatane anubhava levAne potAnA mitra sAthe rahelovhela nAtamAM javAne taiyAra thayo. te, raste jatAM strIpuruSonAM TeLAMne nihALIne jete ane hemanI vAta sAMbhaLatA. kumArIkAo ane vadhuo mukhyatve kevI vAtemAM AnaMda le che te sAMbhaLI te parathI nAtanI sthitine khyAla bAMdhate. pazAka ane cAlavAnI Dhaba uparathI te nAtanI nItine mata bAMdhatA. sariyAma raste avalokana karato karato te eka piLanI daravAjA pAse AvI pahoMce, ke jahAM saMkhyAbaMdha strIo jamavA beThI hatI. A strIo uThe tyArapachI purUSone jagA maLavAnI hatI tethI purUSa rAha joIne ADAavaLA beThA hatA ane strIo purUSone tapAvavAnA maLelA A prasaMgane lAbha laI vAgoLAnI mAraka caNatI caNatI ekAda be kalAkanI majA letI hatI! sArAMsAra khAnadAna gharanI berIo hamaNAM khullI piLa vacce gaMdI jamIna para patrALI nAkhIne beThI che. keTalIka te ladhunItinA cAlelA relA upara dhULa nAkhavAnI paNa takalIpha levA rAjI nahatI. eka gajane cheTe AvelAM jajanI durgadha paNa teone naDatI nahotI; ane miSTAnna jamyA pachI bhAta pIrasAvA mAMDyo ke turataja patrALIo luTavA mATe rAha joIne beThelA sTeDIA nAtamAM ghusIne eMThAM hevALI strIone dhakakA mAratA hatA te vakhate te strIone praSTAcArane paNa khyAla rahetA nahotA. A saghaLuM vivekacaMdra pATa upara beThAM beThAM joyAM karate hate. DIAnI luTa pUrajosathI cAlatI hatI evAmAM te lUMTArUonI TALI -vaccethI eka avAja saMbhaLAyo: "pakaDe, pakaDa !" sarvanA kAna Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ " : te avAja tarachu kheMcAyA. bIjAe hajI zuM haze ? zuM haze ? ' ema vAtA karavAmAM rokAyA hatA eTalAmAM vivekacaMdra te TALA tara doDayA ane te * lAisensDa lUTArAe ' ne koNIthI dUra karI peAtAnA mAga karyAM. heMNe je dekhAva joyA tethI prathama te te digmUDha, ja anI gayA. eka paMdara varSanI kanyAe eka DheDanA hAtha majabutAithI pakaDayA hatA, je cheDAvavA mATe te badamAze ghaNAMe taraphaDI mAryAM paNa te niSphaLa gayAM hatAM. te kanyAe taddana sAdAM kapaDAM paheryAM hatAM, te parathI te kAi garIba gharanI hoya ema jaNAtuM hatuM, paNuM heneA caherA garIba jevA nahatA. henA anyathA zaramALa caherApara hamaNAM sihaNuM jeTaluM thAya ane sUrya jevuM teja AvyuM hatuM. eka badamAsa paNa teNInA paMjAmAMthI chUTavA himata dharI zakaye! nahatA ane eka bilADIne joIne uMdara jema kamajora thai jAya tema henA hAMjA narama thai gayA hatA. vivekacaMdre kalpanA karI ke A bhikSuke strIonI vacce thaIne pasAra thatAM A kanyAne kAi dAgInA khecI lIdheA haze; tethI haNe ekadama huMto TATA paDayA ane haeNne bheAMya para pachADayA. kumaka AvI pahoMcI joi kanyAe krama lIdhA ane nizciMta anI. teNIe te kumake AvanAra ajANyA purUSane jaNAvyu` ke te bhikSuke eka cAra varSanA che.karAnI DeAkamAMthI seAnAnI sAMkaLI kheMcI lIdhI. hatI ane te sAMkaLI pAtAnA mAthAnA pALIAmAM chupAvIne te nAzI jatA hatA, je joi te paragaju chekarIe henI pAchaLa paDIne hete hAtha paDI ubhA rAkhyA hatA ane " pakaDA, pakaDA ! " evA avAja karyAM hatA. tr A khulAsA sAMbhaLI vivekacaMdra Azcarya pAmyA. eka vANIAnI karI ! emAM hAMsala zuM?" ema pUchyA vagara jarA jeTaluM... paNa kAma na kare evA vANIAnI chokarI ! ane pArakA dAgInA khacAvavA mATe ATalI badhI himata kare ? ! e khyAla hene camatkAra jevA ja lAgyA. hamaNAM loko A dekhAvanI AjIbAjI vIMTaLAi vaLyA hatA ane sau koi te bhikSuka para lAtA ke gaDadAnA prahAra karavA lAgyuM hatuM. vivekaca Mdre hemane evI nirdeyatA karatA aTakAvyA ane te bhikSukanA kALIAmAMthI sAMkaLA kahADIne te kanyAnA hAthamAM ApatAM mhorTathI jaNAvyuM: " A bhikSukana emAM je kAMi doSa che tethI vadhAre pa tA A nAtanA r 33*** Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ jamADanArAone che. strI ane bALake jevAM nirbaLa prANIo ArAbhathI jamatAM heya hAM DIAne ghusavA devAne rIvAja dAkhala karanArA AgevAne ja AvI corIo mATe ane (tethI paNa AgaLa vadhIne) koI strInI eba para nakhAtA hAtha mATe jummavAra che. jahemane hajAra rUpIAnuM jamaNa ApavuM maLe che hemane zuM eka paMgata jamIne uThayA pachI te jagyA sAphasupha karanArA nekare nathI maLatA, ke jethI eMThavADa laI levAne DheDIAne chuTA mUkavAmAM Ave che? AvA meLAvaDAmAM dUdhapAka-pUrI jamavA karatAM pitAnA ghera zAntapaNe su roTalo khAvAmAM vadhAre majA paDe." vaLI heNe strIonA TeLA tarapha najara karIne kahyuM: " he ne ! nhAnAM chokarAne dAgInA paherAvIne lhAvo levA pahelAM kAMIka vicAra karo ! je cAra varasanA bALakanA gaLAmAMthI A che sAMkaLI kheMcIne levAmAM AvI hatI, hene jaIne pUche ke have keTaluM duHkha thayuM hatuM? AvI rIte keTalAMka chokarAnA jIva paNa gayA che. lhAvo levAne talapI rahelAM e ardhadagdha mAbApa ! chokarAne ghareNAM paherAvIne hamArI AMkhane rAjI karavAnA svArtha sATe hame hemanA jIvane bhoga Ape che. hAnI vayanAM bALakonAM vevizALa ke lagna karIne humArI zrImaMtAI batAvavAno lhAvo levAnA svArtha mATe hame henI AkhI jIMdagI barabAda kare che. e putravatsala mAtAo! ! hame evA gAMDA lhAvA javA do ane putrane tanadurasta, vivekI, praviNa banAvavAmAM ja kharo kahA hamaje !" - vivekacaMdrane upadeza sAMbhaLavAmAM sarva keIne tallIna banelA joIne pelo cora lAga sAdhI gupacupa chaTakI gayA. keTalAkanI daSTi e tarapha gaI haze; parantu cerAyelI cIja pAchI maLI gaI hovAthI dayALa vANiyA kAMI keTe haDI vadhu vakhata ane paisAno bhega ApavAnuM pasaMda kare tevA nahatA ! upadeza pure che te daramyAna jamIna parathI patrALIo paNa upaDI gaI che ke nAsatA bhikSukonI aDaphaTamAM AvelA daDIAmAMthI jenI dALane lIdhe jamIne te kharaDAyelI ja paDI hatI! tema chanAM te jagA para purUSo jamavA besI gayA ane eka pachI eka vAnIo pIrasAvA nIkaLI. vivekacaMdane AvI jagAe jamavA Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ besavu gamatuM tA nahAtuM, paraMtu mitrane khATuM na lAge teTalA mATe esavuM paDayuM. jamatAM jamatAM haiNe vAtanA prasaMga lIdhe " bhAi uttamacaMda ! ... AvA nAtanA meLAvaDAthI hame zu kAyado mAnA che? " "" mitra ! phAyadA gaNIe te! ghaNAe che ane na gaNIe te eke nathI, balke nukazAna pratyakSa dekhAya che. dezanAM lAkhA manuSya: hajArAnA TALAmAM vaheMcAIne teTalA maDaLanu hita karavA lAgI paDe e icchavAyeAgya che. A hantarA mANasA paikI kAI eka gAmamAM, koI bIjA gAmamAM, ema ke jUde sthaLe rahetu hoi hemanA vacce hemanI jJAti eka ja hAvA rUpI tAranuM joDANa rahe tethI arasparasa sabaMdha jaLavAI rahe. jJAtibhAjananA meLAvaDAe saMbadhane pANI pAya che. eka khInna sAthe bhaLavAthI, eka bIjAnA guNa-anubhava-vicArAnI Apa le thavAthI, eka 'nizALa' thI je lAbha uThAvI zakAya tevA lAbha thAya che. " "te kharUM che; te uparAMta putrane bApa kanyA ane kanyAne bApa varanI pasaMdagI paNa jJAtibheAjananA meLAvaDAmAM sArI rIte karI zake. hamaNAM ja huM te kumArikA joI ane hune lAgyuM ke sudarzanabhAi mATe te ThIka che. umaramAM, rUpamAM, vivekamAM temaja buddhimAM bhAIne lAyaka ja zuM che. kaheA, hamArA te bAbatamAM mata che? ,, mhArA mata pUchatA hai| te huM te emaja kahuM ke evI kanyA hamane trileAkamAM dvAtha lAgavI muzkela che; paNa vAMdhA mAtra eTale ja che ke te eka garIba gharanI kanyA hovAthI hamArA zeTha teNIne majura kema rAkhaze ? "" "" " Aha ! e bAbatamAM ciMtA karavA jevuM che ja nahi. amArA zeTha zrImaMta che paNa zrImatAInA mehathI mukta che; hemanu mitrama`DaLa mukhyatve garIba varganuM baneluM che. sadguNuneA vAsa thoDAghaNA pazu koi jagAe hAya tA te prAyaH garIbAmAM ja che, ema te mAne che.' 29. uAre tA vAMdhA nahi. ApaNe jamIne sidhA ja kevaLadAsa 35 " Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ bhAInA ghera jaIzuM ane koI yuktithI hemanI putrIne vevIzALanI. vAta huM chekIza" - teo jaladI jaladI jamavuM puruM karI, DIAnA sparzanI hemane rahI hovAthI bhAta pIrasAvA nIkaLe te pahelAM te hAtha dhaMi ubhA thayA ane kevaLadAsane ghera gayA. . kevaLadAsa eka garIba paNa nItimAna svataMtra vicAranA gRhastha hatA. gujarAtI abhyAsa puro karIne sAdhananA abhAve hemane nizALanA mahetAjI tarIke rekAI javuM paDayuM hatuM. paraMtu roTalAnI phikara TaLe eTalI AvakathI te saMteSa rAkhanArA heI phurasadano badho. vakhata jJAnaprAptimAM ja kahADatA hatA. emanuM vAMcana bahALuM hatuM; emano anubhava paNa tevo ja bahoLe hate. hemanA vicAro sAtvika ane uMDA hatA. teo jema tephAnI sudhArAne pasaMda karatA nahi tema saDelA purANuM rIvAjone paNa huM ApatA nahi. ' anubhava jema jema vadhato gayo tema tema kevaLadAsane sarakArI nokarImAM rahI amuka rIte ja zikSaNa ApavAnuM baMdhana gamyuM nahi; kAraNa ke te paddhatithI chokarAnI jIMdagIne sauthI vadhAre upayogI -bhAga ghaNe nakAmo jato hato ane hemanI buddhi keLavAvAne badale hera mArI jatI, ema haimane lAgatuM hatuM. tethI prajAkIya dheraNapara, eka zALA potAnA taraphathI ja hemaNe kholI hatI ane hemAM namunedAra zikSaNa apAtuM hatuM. A nizALamAM 5-6 varSa bhaNIne nIkaLanArA chokarA "mAstara loka" banatA nahi paNa zAhukAra" banatA; teo daza-bAra rUpeDInI ozIyALa karatA polIsDa bhikSuka banatA nahi paNa hajAro rUpIAnI uthalapAthala karatA svataMtra parNa sAdA "vANIA" banatA. kevaLadAsa zeThanI nizALanA janmadivase ja hemane eka putrI rUpI ratnanI prApti thaI hatI; tethI Aje te zALA tathA bALA bannenI umara 16 varSanI thaI hatI. A putrI pachI 7 varSe hemane eka putranI paNa prApti thaI hatI. hemanI patnI lakSmI, putra maNi lAla karatAM paNa putrI vidyutabALA para vadhAre cAha rAkhatI hatI, kAraNake teNI ema samajatI hatI ke e bALA garbhamAM AvI hArathI hemanA hAnA gharamAM dareka jAtanuM nirdoSa sukha AvavA lAgyuM hatuM. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ vidhutkALAne vevIzALa mATe kevaLAsane hanA sagAvhAlAM vaNI utAvaLa karAvatAM; parantu kevaLadAsa jarAke ahIDAyA sivAya kapa sAMbhaLyA karatA ane vevIzALane anukULa sadhaLA jege maLatA sudhI zAnithI rAha jotA. je vakhate vivekacaMdra tathA uttamacaMda, kevaLadAsanA gharamAM dAkhala thayA te vakhate eka svaccha paraMtu AkarSaNIya oraDAmAM eka caTAI para kevaLadAsa beThA hatA. sAme vidyutabALA hAthamAM paDI laI vAMcatI hatI ane pitAne savAla karatI hatI. AMgaNumAM kaInAM pagalAM saMbhaLAyAM ke turata vidyutabALA bAraNu tarapha deDI ane kAkAne joI hene jayajinendra evA zabdoccArathI praNAma karI bannene paramAM praveza karAvyo. kevaLadAse paNa hemane yogya sanmAna ApI pAse besADayA ane jaLa tathA pAnasepArI ApI hemanuM Atithya karyuM keTalIka ADIavaLI vAtacIta karyA pachI uttamacade vidyutabALAnA vevIzALanI vAta cheDIH "bhAI kevaLadAsa ! rAjanagaranivAsI zeTha gAMDAlAlanA putra sudarzananuM nAma hamArA sAMbhaLavAmAM AvyuM che ? hA; ghaNI vAra nAma sAMbhaLyuM che, eTaluM ja nahi paNuM enI tArIphanI sugaMdhI cotarapha phelAyelI joI eka jJAtibaMdhu ane svadharmI baMdhu tarIke mahane atyaMta harSa thaye che. he ekAda vakhata hemanI mulAkAtane paNa prasaMga lIdhuM hatuM ane ATalI nAnI umaramAM te saMskArI che je jJAna ane vinaya guNanI prApti karI che te joI mahane Azcarya thayuM hatuM." . "e jagAe bahena vidhutanuM vevIzALa karIe te?" "kevI asaMbhavita vAta! e lakSAdhipatio ApaNA jevA nidhanane tahAM poSAya ja kema?" "ane te poSAya evo rasto huM karI ApuM te?" "eTale?" "eTale e ja ke huM hemanI 'hA' meLavI ApuM te?" . "hA meLavavI e ja eka muzkelI nathI, paraMtu maheTA dharanI ane pAlavamA jeTalI zakti hArI nathI,", Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ .. - te zakti na hoya te mATe kara na kare; sudarzana zeTanA mitra A mhArI sAthe ja che tee padarathI sarva kharca karIne hamArI lAja rAkhaze. " 66 mitra ! hame hune khacIta ja gerainsA Ape cheA. mhArI sAja koi divasa AchI thaI nathI, temaja ema thavAnA prasaMga paNa kadApi AbyA nathI, ke jethI te rAkhavA mATe kAinI madadanI jarUra paDe. he... koI divasa kAinuM kAMi lIdhuM-khAdhuM nathI, na karyAnuM karyuM nathI, mhArA hRdayane ayeAgyuMjaNAya evA ekapaNa kAmamAM huM kadApi sAmela cayA nathI; ethI mhArI lAja kadI jokhamamAM hatI nahi ane che paNa nahi; tA pachI hamaNAM kRtrima lAja mATe mhAre kAinA ezIALA cavAnI zI jarUra che ? " "hamArI vAta vAjakhI che, mitra! hame taddana pramANika hArda je kAMi kahe tenuM rahasya huM samajI zakuM chuM. parantu hamane koI raste upakAramAM AvavA IcchA na hoya teA A mhArA mitra hamane eka khullI rIte sArI AvakanA dhaMdhAmAM lagADIne te dhaMdhA pAchaLa joItI muDI dhIre (hamane vAMdhA hAya tA vyAje dhIre), ke jethI mhoTA dharanA lagna pAchaLa thatA kharca mATe hamAre koinI ezIALa veThavI ja na paDe; e vicAra hamane pasaMda che?" " haragIja nahi, mitra ! haragIja nahi. putrIne vecanArA purUSo khullI rIte nANAM le che ane A, vyApAranA nAme paisA levA kharAbara thayuM; te nANAM varanA mApa pAsethI levAya che ane A, varanA mitra pAsethI levAya che; te nANAM pAchAM na ApavAnI sarate levAya che ane A, pAchAM ApavAnI sarate levAya che, paNa mULa nANAMthI aneka gaNA lAla hemAMthI levAvAnA te kharA ja ! huM jANutA nahAtA ke mhArA mitra uttamacaMda jevA eka uttama purUSa eka nIcamAM nIca mANusane sabhaLAvavA jevA zabdo peAtAnA jIgaranA mitrane saMbhaLAvI haeNnA hRdayamAM kaTAra bheAMkavA jevuM duHkha karaze. " mhane mAr karA, mhArA mitra ! ! hamanesDamajI zakatA nathI. mheM svapnamAM paNa hamArI lAgaNI duHkhavavA icchayuM nathI. he humAM haMmate apamAna paDoMcADavA kAMI yukti karI nathI. hame mhAre eka uttama kanyA mATe uttama vara te zakayA che, chatAM phaiTa 46 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ I ' ' gajA uparAMtanA bejAnA DarathI. te lAbha letAM acakAo che, hAre huM mAtra yathAmati raste sUcavuM chuM; ane teTalAmAM paNa. je mArI lAgaNI duHkhatI heya to hamane kSamAvuM chuM ane mhArI darakhAsta pAchI kheMcI lauM chuM." "baTuM nA lagADe, mitra !" vivece vacce paDI bannenA sAvana arthe kahyuM "AnaMdanA kAmane Ama khedanuM kAraNa na banAve. hame bane satyane raste cAlanArA che; eka irAdo jema baTuM karavAnuM nathI tema bIjAne IrAde huM batAvavAno nathI. mAtra samajaphara thAya che. paraMtu kevaLadAsa zeThane Azaya ATalI vAtacIta parathI huM samajI zako chuM e parathI eka rasto sUcavuM. chuM, te tarapha Apa bane mitro jarA lakSa Apazo te huM hamAre aMta:karaNathI AbhAra mAnIza." ghaNu khuzIthI pharamA " bannee umaMgabhera saMyukta javAba dIdho. "juo; mitra !" vivekacaMdra viveka buddhine upayoga karIne vinayapUrvaka jaNAvyuM "kevaLadAsabhAI mahArA jevA vicAranA heya ema mane jaNAya che. pitAnI putrI hemane ghaNuM ja priya che. e priya putrIne pitAnA duHkhanuM kAraNa banAvavA te rAjI nathI; matalaba ke potAnI zakti uparAMta kharca te putrInA lagnamAM karIne koInA devAdAra banavAthI ke koinA upakAramAM AvavAthI te pANI putrI ja dIlagIra thaze ane pitAnI khAtara pitAnA vhAlA pitAne je dukha thAya te duHkhamAMthI te mukta na thAya ThAM sudhI teNI 5zu duHkhI ja rahevAnI. mahArI salAha Apa svIkAro te, vara game te zrImaMta hoya to paNa moTA kharcanI kazI jarUra nathI. ApaNe bhaNelAo ja A sudhAre dAkhala na karI zakIe te bIjAonI zI himmata cAlavAnI? huM te ema ja sUcavuM chuM ke vare 4-5 svajane laIne paraNavA AvavuM ane varakanyAne bIje ja divase vidAya karavAM. varaDA vagerenAM bhAre paDatAM kharcanI paNa kazI jarUra nathI." . barAbara che. barAbara che," kevaLadAse harSabhera jaNAvyuM Apa ArA Azaya barAbara samajyA che. paraNavuM eTale eka bI ane eka purUSa bhaviSyamAM sAthe rahI eka bIjAne ane dunIyA , 39. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ ne upayogI thaI paDavAne kalakarAra kare te; evA kalakarAra vakhate banne pakSanAM thoDAka mANase tathA jJAtinAM taTastha mANase sAkSI tarIke hAjarI Ape. AvA kAyamanA kelakarAra jevA gaMbhIra banAvane khAvApIvA tathA moja mANavAnA prasaMgamAM pheravI nAkhe koI rIte vAjabI nathI. hama mitronA punya pratApe mArI pAse 1000 -2000 kharcavA jeTalI to zakti che. paNa te kharcathI nathI lAbha varane, ke nathI lAbha kanyAne; nathI lAbha have ke nathI lAbha dezane. te nANune sArAmAM sAre upaga zA mATe na karavo ?" "have huM samajyo;" uttamacaMke kahyuM " hamAre banene. irAdo sudhAro dAkhala karavAne che; ane sudhAraka tarIke mAtra upadeza ApIne besI na rahetAM gharathI ja sudhAre zarU karavA mAge che. je. ema ja hoya to hama samAna vicAranA mANaso sagA tarIke maLI AvyA e mATe hamane bannene abhinaMdana ApuM chuM. gADAlAla zeTha jevA lakSAdhipati-kahe ke kroDapati-kadAca pAI paNa kharca na kare che tethI hemane maLatuM nathI, mATe kharcatA nathI' ema to ke nahi ja kahI zake." ' "ane kadApi kRpaNatAnuM tahomata koI mUke te saMbhavita che; paNa te saMbhava dUra karavAnA rastA che." vivekacaMde umeryuM. | carcA purI thaI. vevIzALa nakkI thayuM. lagnatithi paNa te ja vakhate mukarara karavAmAM AvI ane sarva kAma siddha karyA pachI vivekacaMdra rAjanagara tarapha prayANa karyuM. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ kAkI makaraNa pa muM. lagna. tuti ta kara * | darzana kumAranAM lagna najIkamAM ne vadhu najIkamAM AvatAM hatAM, chatAM paNa lagnasambandhI kAMI dhAmadhuma gAMDAlAla zeThanA gharamAM jovAmAM AvatI na hatI. zrImaMta to zuM paNa eka garIba mANasanA ghera paNa lagna agAu, ghaNuM divasathI gIta gAvAnI, vaDI-pApaDa karavAnI tathA bIjA aneka dekhAva karavAnI rUDhi che; paraMtu raMbhA zeThAJIe evI kAMI jaMjALa karI nahotI. lagnanA divase ja pahoMcAya evI gaNatrI karIne sudarzana, vivecaMdra tathA bIjA pAMceka svajane sAthe jAna seDhADavAmAM AvI. gAmanuM ghaNuMkharUM mANasa te jANavAe pAmyuM na hatuM ke lakSAdhipati zeTha gAMDAlAlano putra paraNavA jAya che. kevaLadAse jAnana sAre satkAra karyo ane pitAnA snehI .. maMDaLa sahita sAmA jaIne hemane zaheramAM praveza karAvyo tathA pitAnA ghara najIkanA eka makAnamAM hemane utAro Apyo. sAMjanA 5 vAgI gayA hovAthI vahelA vahelA vALanI taiyArIo karI sarvane jamADyA. vararAjAne kharAI ke masAle ApavAthI rakhene te khATA ke tIkhA thaI jAya eve Dara hemanAM sAsujIe rAkhyo na hate ! dudha, purI, zAka ane dALabhAtanuM sAduM jamaNa saMdhyA thatAM thatAmAM jamADI daIne musApharIthI thAkelA pazuone ghaDI ArAma maLe teTalA mATe utArAmAMnA nAnA bAgamAM khATalA nAMkhI ApavAmAM AvyA, jemAM DI vAra ALeTayA bAda sarva koI lagakriyAnI taiyArIomAM paDayA Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ lAla rezamI kInArInI chetI, DhAkAnI bArIka malamalanuM aMgarakha ane rezamI phaTakAmAM sajaja thayelo sudarzanakumAra AvAM cheka ja - sAdAM vastra chatAM kAmadeva je zobhato hato. henI bAjumAM hene yuvAna zikSAgurU ane mitra vivekacaMdra paNa cheka ja sAdA pizAkamAM cAlatuM hatuM. bIjA jAnaiyAne ThATha A banne karatAM kAMIka vadhAre hato. teo kevaLadAsanA AMgaNAmAM ubhA karelA maMDapamAM AvI pugyA te vakhate kevaLadAsanI patnI lakSmIbAIe ghaNuM ja harSa ane vinayapUrvaka pitAnA jamAInAM ovAraNAM lIdhAM ane madhura vacanathI satkAra karyo. te ja vakhate keTalIka kumArikAe vararAjAnA satkAra mATe khAsa gokhI rAkheluM gIta madhura avAje gAIne sarvane prasanna karyA. * : sudharelA vararAjA paraNavA AvyA che tevI khurazImAM besIne varakanyA zeka laeNnDa' karaze ! " evI vAto gAmamAM cAlI rahI hatI, A kAraNathI saMkhyAbaMdha strIo hAM AvI hatI ane maMDapane ghere ghAlIne ubhI hatI. paraMtu te saghaLIoe hAre saghaLuM vivekabharyuM joyuM tyAre teo kutuhaLa jovAnuM na maLavA mATe nirAza thaI eka mAMcI jevI nyAnI beThaka para varane besADavAmAM Avyo ane henI bAjue evI ja bIjI mAMcI upara kanyA padharAvavAmAM AvI. kanyAe koI aghaTita kAma kadI karyuM nahatuM temaja hamaNAM paNa te koI agya kArya karavA jatI nahotI ke jethI teNIne pitAnuM mAM chapAvavAnI jarUra paDe. teNIe khulle vadane mAMcI para jagA lIdhI te vakhate teNInI najara potAnA paga para ja hatI. varakanyAne pavitra kolakarArathI joDavA mATe kaI "garamahArAjane rokavAnuM banemAMthI eke pakSe pasaMda karyuM nahotuM. "bhAI khenane hAtha pakaDe !" evA mUrNa vAkyathI varakanyAne gALa copaDAvanAra jaDasA jevA brAhmaNanI jagA varanA zikSAgurU vivekayapurI hatI. A navIna "gora mahArAje agnidevane sAkSI tarIke padhAravAnI takalIpha ApavAmAM pA5 mAnyuM hatuM. he mAtra kanyAne hAtha varanA hAthamAM A tethI mUko ane gaMbhIratAthI jaNAvyuM. "vatso! hamo banenAM sagAMsnehIo ane anya sajajanonI samakSa ume AkhI jIMdagIne mATe eka bIjAthI joDAo che. sukhamAM ane dukhamAM, saMpattimAM ane vipatimAM hame eka bIjAnA thaI rahevAne Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ AjathI badhAe che; eka bIjAnA sukha mATe potAnuM sukha hemavA taiyAra raheze| evI pratijJA le che. sAmAnya rIte je agni varakanyA samakSa saLagAvIne hemAM pravAhI padArtha homAya che te ema dekhADavA mATe hAya che ke, evI ja rIte vara kanyA mATe ane kanyA vara mATe peAtAnA prANane arpaNa karavA taiyAra raheze; paratu evA bAhya phekhAva mAtra bALakAne mATe che. humA daMpatI ke jeo banne potapAtAnI pharajo samajyA pachI ja hastameLApa karavA tatpara thayAM che. hemane evA khAdya dekhAvanI kazI jarUra nathI. ' "" ** 66 jarUra kema nathI ? " eka ajANyA avAje vacce bha'gANu pADayuM jarUra kema nathI ? hame jaina che. teA huM paNa jaina chuM; hame brAhmaNane hamArI kriyAmAM na dAkhala karA te mATe huM kAMI vAMdhA levA mAgatA nathI; paNa jaina lagnavidhine paNa hame uDAve che e huM kASTha rIta sahana karI zakuM tema nathI. huM jaina SAnpharansanA eka upadezaka chuM. jaina zAstra mujaba agnimAM pANInI Ahuti ApavAnuM ane tema karatI vakhate 'zAntinAthAya svAhA ' " vagere pATha kheAlavAnuM pharamAna che. jovA maLelA TALAmAMthI eka 40 varSanI vayanA jaina nIkaLI AvyuM ane hiMmatathI vAMdhA levA lAgyA. Aveza, padhArA, jarA AgaLa padhArA ! " vivekadre DAuke mhADe te upadezakane uddezIne kahyuM hame yathAmati salAha ApavA padhAryAM te khAte hamArA AbhAra mAnu chuM; parantu huM AzA rAkhuM chuM ke mhArA khulAsA mane dareka satASa Apaze. amAre vararAjAne pherApherI pheravavA rUpI kasarata karAvavAmAM vakhata kahADavAnI jarUra nathI; kAraNa ke varanI tanadurastInI parIkSA bIjAnI peThe bArame kalAke nahi karatAM vevIzALa Agamaca ja kanyAnA bApe karI hatI. amAre vararAjAne tarAka, sAMbeluM, haLa vagerethI DarAvIne sa`sAranAM khAnA khAMDAeAbaDA khyAla ApavAmAM vakhata gumAvavAnI jarUra nathI; kAraNa ke varane te sarva anubhava atyAre Agamaca ja maLelA che ane te AvA hAsyajanaka TIMkhaLanI madada sivAya ja upadeza' lai zake tevI sthitimAM che. amAre varakanyAne eka kalAka sudhI hastameLApa karAvI najara kedanI zikSA karavAmAM vakhata gumAvavAnI jarUra nathI; kAraNa ke hamaNAM ame varane haMmezane mATe mahAbhArata okhamadArInA eka tarehanA aMdhanamAM nAkhavA taiyAra thayA chIe teTaluM ja O r r 43 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ puratuM che. Ama amAre ADIavaLI kriyAmAM vakhata gumAvavA na hovAthI jJAnacarcAmAM ekAda kalAka vyatIta karavAnI zubha to maLavAthI amane to ula AnaMda thaze." vArU hAre kaho ke zAtinAthanuM nAma yAda karIne svAda karavAnuM zAstrakAranuM pharamAna ulaMdhavAnuM zuM kAraNa hamArI pAse che? 'upadezake pUchyuM. " prathama te jainazAstrakAra koI paNa jAtanI sAMsArika kviA. ene upadeza karatA ja nathI. hamAre Ama khAvuM, Ama paraNavuM. Ama gharasaMsAra calAve e vagere upadezanuM kAma dharmazAstrakAranI nathI. bAhya ane AMtara "tyAga" thI bharapUra evA jaina zAstrakAroe te mAtra Atmika unnati mATeja vidhio sUcavI che. lagnanI vidhio batAvavAnuM kAma saMsArIonuM che. brAhmaNa e kAma ghaNuM vakhatathI bajAvatA AvyA che ane lagnanI neMdha paNa teo rAkhatA AvyA che. tathApi teo je vidhithI ApaNane paraNAve che te vidhi ApaNA 'dharmanA pAyA rUpasiddhAntane bAdhaka hovAthI ApaNe hArathIte bhUlajoI -hArathI te sudhAravAno prayAsa karavo joIe che; kAraNa ke gaNezAdi devone page lAgavAnuM te brAhmaNonI vidhimAM pharapAta che, ke jene ApaNe jeno cokhkhuM " mithyAtva" mAnIe chIe. A kAraNathI keTalAMka varSo para AcArazuddhinI darakAra vagaranA koI patie brAhmaNonI vidhinA jevI ja jaina vidhi ane temAM mAtra devanAM nAmo ja pheravyAM, paraMtu vidhimAM kAMI jhAjho pheraphAra karyo nathI. have jeone viveka cakSu che teo te vicArI zake che ke saghaLA jIvo para eka sarakhI dayA dharAvatA zAntinAtha bhagavAnanA nAme agni kAyanA ane apakAyanA anaMtAjIne "svAhA" karavA e zAnita dAtA devane kevo anyAya ApavA jevuM kAma che! eka mANasa cerI kare tethI te eka ja gunhAne pAtra thAya che; paraMtu sarakAranA sIpAI tarIkene piozAka paherIne cerI kare che tethI heNe sarakArane eba lagADavAne bIje gunha paNa karyo gaNAze." vivekacaMdra -javAba Apyo. pele carcA karavAne Avele upadezaka ke henuM nAma harilAla hatuM te A dalIla sAMbhaLI zAnta thaze. tene te tadana vAjabI lAgI, Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ tA chevaTe henAthI potAne kahe are karavA mATe chellA sivAya.' rahevAyuM nahi ke, " tyAre zuM amArI konpharansane jenavidhi mujaba lagna karavAnI salAha rUpa TharAva kheTe ja che ?" te te tame jANe." vivekacaMde javAba Apyo konphara. ransa ke harakeI bIjI saMsthA kaI paNa kemanuM hita karavA mATe sthapAI ' hAya, henA doSa kahADI hene lokemAM halakI pADavA huM icchatuM nathI. : bAkI konpharansa je kAMI kare te sarva sAruM ja hovuM joIe evI mAnyatA hoya to te jatI karavI ja bahetara che. konpharansa e game. tema te paNa chadmastha athavA apUrNa manuSyane eka samUha mAtra che; vadhAremAM eTaluM ja ke te prAyaH evA mANasane eka samUha che ke jeo samudAyanA hita karatAM potAnA hitanI vadhAre darakAra rAkhatA hoya! khulluM satya kahevAnI hiMmata dharanArane cagadI mAravAnI plAM rIta cAlatI hoya te zuM vAjabI kAma karanArI saMsthA kahevAze ?" potAnA ja karelA TharAva para pitAnA ja kAryavAhake pANI pherave ane tema chatAM AMkha ADA kAna karavAmAM Ave, A zuM sattA bhogavavA icchatI saMsthAne chAjatuM kahevAze ke AkhI dunIAmAM bhrAtRbhAva. ane suleha phelAvavAnA mahAna mizanamAM joDAvAne badale jainanA ja traNe phIrakAo sAthe mahemAhe eka yA bIjA kAraNuthI vacana temaja lADInI mArAmArImAM joDAvA agara joDAnArAone madadagAra, thavA chatAM e saMsthA zuM vAjabI kAma karanArI gaNAzejahene sAyA raste doravA mATe eka paNa AtmabhAga ApanAra vidvAna maLyA nathI tevI saMsthA bhUla kadApi kare ja nahi ema nizcaya-- vaka mAnavAne hamArI pAse zuM kAraNa che ?" mI. vivekacaMdra ! hame bhinna gacchanA jaina hovA chatAM mArI dalIlo kharI hoI te mAnya rAkhavAne huM baMdhAyelo chuM. satya "hA maLe tyAMthI vIkAravuM joIe, hame je mArmika zabda jI hanuM rahasya huM samajyo chuM ane have hane lAge che ke konsa. mAM sava bAbata para pUrate vicAra niSpakSapAte karavAne bhAgye ja . na levAmAM Ave che. kelIka vAra keTalAka dezacatura loko pitAne merA karAvavAmAM phAvI jAya che, keTalIka vakhata parApUrvanI rIta. gaDatAM zarama bhare che. jaina vidhinI bAbatamAM mahane ema samajAya " janavidhi mULa sutromAM te che ja nahi; paNa kaI yatie che te choDatAM zarama che ke, laganavidhi Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ brAhmaNa dhirmanI IrSyAthI yojelI che, devanuM nAma pheravIne enI e ja vidhi karavAmAM Ave enuM nAma IrSyA nahi. te bIjuM zuM? e. kriya brAhmaNane hAthe karAvavAmAM Ave ke jenanA hAthe tethI kAMI taphAvata paDatuM nathI; savAla mAtra eTalo ja che ke dharma viruddha kriyA na thavI joIe. jenanA hAthe anaMtA jIvonI hiMsAnuM pApa zAntinAthane mAthe DhaLavAmAM Ave te, brAhANanA hAthe gaNezane svAhA karavAnA rIvAja karatAM kharekhara bamaNuM doSita gaNI zakAya." , , , uttamacaMda, kevaLadAsa, sudarzana vagere sarvane A jJAnavArtAmAM ghaNe rasa paDe. A prasaMge brAhmaNe artha vagaranA maMtra uccAre ane sarva koI kaMTALIne bagAsAM khAya te karatAM AvI jJAnacarcA cAlavAthI sarvane ghaNo AnaMda paDe. e AnaMdamAM bhAta pADavA mATe -e AnaMdane vividhatA ApavA mATe--kanyA taraphanI strIoe eka maMgaLa gIta upADayuM ane evA te lAMbA rAgathI lalakAyuM ke sAMbhaLanArAo para uMdhanI asara thavA lAgI. e gItamAM te gAnArIee evo artha sUcavyo ke - " vIra sudarzane jenethI vasAyalI pRthvIne ahara uThAvavAnuM vrata lIdhuM. ghaNuM bahAdurIthI te kAma heNe zarU karyuM, paraMtu kaMTALe. ane thAkane dUra karanAra eka mitranI hene jarUra jaNAI e jarUra pUrI pADavAnuM kAma subhAgye gAnArIonI sakhI vidyutavALAnA bhAga AvyuM. have sudarzanakumAra pRthvIne pitAnA mAthe upADI ubhA raheze. ane vidyutabALA "mahAre mAthe beje che evo vicAra bhUlAvavA. mATe kumAranI AsapAsa garabA gAtI ghUmaze; te joi kumAra AnaMda pAmaze ane vagara thAye bhArane vahana karI raheze. e manahara dakya jevA lakSmI devI ane sarasvatIdevI tathA bIjI aneka AnaMdadAyaka devIe AvI pahoMcaze; teo vIra sudarzananuM baLa ane vidhutabALAnuM lAlitya joI prasanna thaze ane te prasannatAne lAbha kumAre upADelI pRthvI paranA jene ApaNe teo te vakhatathI baLavAna, rUpavAna, lakSmIvAna, buddhivAna ane nItimAna banaze sarva ekaThA bhaLIne AjanAM varakanyAne puSpavRSTithI DhAMkI deze; AkhI pRthvI puSamaya banI jaze . . ' . ' . ' Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ AvA lalita bhAvavALuM gIta kanyAnI sakhIoe evI te khubIthI lalakAryuM ke vara kanyA te gItane artha pitAnA AtmAmAM utAravAmAM magna thayAM ane bIjAo henA uttama bhAva ane mAdhurya thI nidrAdhIna banavA lAgyAM. . . . . . . . . . . kanyA taraphanI strIoe gAyelA A adabhUta gIta sAthe lagna kriyA pUrI thaI ane taikeI pitapatAnI jagAe ArAma levA gayuM. sudarzananI icchA bIje divasa havAramAM ja "zIkha levAnI hatI. paraMtu vivekacaMde jaNAvyuM ke eTalI badhI utAvaLa karavAnI kazI jarUra nathI; eka divasa rokAIne zaheranAM dharmAdA khAtAM ane bIje jAhera khAtAMo jevAM joIe. A vicAra ziSya kabula rAkho. havAramAM dUdha pI teo prathama pAMjarApoLa jevA gayA. hemanA " progrAmamAM te pachI sarakArI skula tathA eka jANItA vaidyanuM auSadhAlaya jevA javAnuM TharAvyuM hatuM. " " ' ' + - sudarzana, vivekacaMdra, upadezaka harilAla, uttamacaMda, kevaLadAsa tathA sudarzananA mitra sarva pAMjarApoLamAM AvI pahoMcyA. daravAjAmAM eka bhIkhArI jevo mANasa beTho hato, heNe hemane sAkAra karyo ane hemanI sAthe jaI saghaLuM batAvavA mAMDyuM. sudarzana dareka cIja bArIkAIthI tapAsate hate. prathama te hene eka ja bahArI vALI hAnI koTaDImAM 200 gheTAMnAM baccAMne purelAM jaIne trAsa chUTe. e 200mAM paNa pAMca te AgalI rAtre gataprANa thayAM hatAM; hemanAM mRta zarIrane joI hainI AMkhamAMthI AMsu chUTavAM. pelA bhikhArI jevA mANasane pUchatAM heNe vadhu mAhitI ApI ke, A pramANe dararoja 10-20 lavaraDAM mare che. cAMdAM paDelA baLada para mAkhIo baNabaNATa karI rahI hatI. cetarapha gaMdakI patharAI rahI hatI. lavaraDAM vagerene pAvAtA dUdhamAM bheLa thato hato. hisAba jotAM seMkaDe rUpIA khavAI "elA jaNAyA. darasAla pAMjarApoLamAM jIvadayA nimittanA seMkaDo rUpiyA bhAvavA chatAM ane amuka jAtanA vyApArapara pAMjarApoLane TekSa to seMkaDo rUpiAnI khAda" jaNAI ! UMDuM tapAsatAM jaNAyuM 'vADa cIbhaDAM khAya che ! je kaI rIte hamajAvIne agara rIthI paNa te nANAM zeDIAo pAsethI pAchAM phaheDavI zakAya te AgevAnuM hovAthI bIjA sAmAnya mANaso paNa piotapotAnI kasinAM pAMjarApoLanAM nANAM turata ApI de. - * to te AgevAna Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ vivekacaMdrane janma A ja zaheramAM thayele hevAthI te sarva hakIkta barAbara jANato hate. heNe sudarzanane jaNAvI -dIdhuM ke, te zaherane eka svargastha. AgevAna jaina, jenuM nAma mANekacaMda hIrAcaMda hatuM ane je ghaNe ja dharmazIla purUSa hate. henA kuTuMbanA gaMgAdAsa nAmanA eka AgevAne pAMjarApoLanI paNa amuka rakama guma karI che. tethI saghaLAne laine vivekacaMdra prathama gaMgA-dAsane ghera gayo. - gaMgAdAsa zeTha vivekamAM te jAya tevA nahatA. hemaNe A zrImaMta prAhuNAnuM sArI rIte Atithya karyuM ane pachI Agamanaprajana pUchayuM ane vaLI umeryuM ke jo koI vyApAra saMbaMdhI vicAra hemane haze te pite hemanI sevAmAM taiyAra ja che; kAraNa ke pote ADatanuM kAma karatA hatA. sudarzane khulAso karyo ke, vyApAra prasaMge nahi paNa pAMjarApoLa saMbaMdhI pUchaparacha mATe te AvyA hatA. : " dhanya che Apane, zeThajI! Apa dharmakArya pAchaLa sAruM lakSa Ape che e ApanI lAyakI puravAra kare che." gaMgAdAsa zeThe mAkhaNane prayoga zarU karyo. A ane Apa paNa kahAM ochI dhamasevA bajAvo che? sAMbhaLavA mujaba Apa atrenI pAMjarApoLanI AgevAnI dharAvo che, hisAbakitAba Apa rAkhe che ane jAnavaranI mAvajatamAMthI ghaDI eka svarA thatA nathI. " sudarzane henuM peTa levA kahyuM. ' gaMgAdAsa -"emAM zuM ? abola jAnavaranI baradAsa karavI e te ApaNI pharaja che. " sudarzana-"kharuM; paNa evI pharaja koIka ja samaje che. je badhA loke pharaja samajatA hatA te ahIMnI pAMjarApoLanI A dizA na heta. huM sAMbhaLyuM che ke ApanA keI svargastha kuTuMbIo pAMjarApoLane ApavA mATe amuka rakama Apane meMpI che; paNa te rakama koI mAgatuM ja nathI, jo ke Apa te te kharcavA taiyAra che, che. have leke vhAre ATalI paNa dharmasevA na bajAvI zake te bIjuM zuM karI zakavAnA hatA? Aja te je je upADe te me, evuM che; zeThajI ! " vivekacaMda- ekalI pAMjarApoLanI ja bAbatamAM tema che ema nathI; jainazALA khAte paNa rU. 15000 zeTha sAhebane se 48 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ -calA che paNa koI mAge ja nahi tyahAM zeTha te zuM bicArA mare ? patIyAM, apaMga manuSya, nirAzrita chokarAo vagerenA lAbhArthe paNa -hoTI rakama zeTha sAhebanA hastaka soMpAyelI che paNa kaI sALA mAgatA ja nathI hAM zeThano vAMka zuM kahADa ? e to Ape kahyuM temaja che ke jene mAthe paDe te bhegave. zeTha eka te badhAnA rUpiyA sAcave ane vaLI vahIvaTane be emanA mAthe paDe; e te 'bicArA zuM mare ? dIkaro eka ne dezAvara ghaNA ! " sudarzana-"mAstara sAheba ! ApanI vAta kharI che. gaMgAdAsa zeThane mAthe AvI "Dabala DayuTI " Ave che te asahya ja gaNAya. lake khare ja guNacora che. mane ema lAge che ke, zeThajIne soMpAyelI rakama, zeThajI, Apa tathA zaheranA be saMbhAvita gRhasthanA nAme vyAje mUkavI; ane hene vahIvaTa karavA mATe Apane ja ahIM rAkhavA huM icchuM chuM. have huM vidyArthI avasthA pasAra karI gRhasthAzremamAM paDyo hovAthI Apane ahIM rAkhatAM mahane aDacaNa Avaze nahi; temaja zeThajIne paNa vahIvaTanI takalIpha uThAvavI bacI jaze. (gaMgAdAsa pratye) kema zeThajI, A vAta Apane pasaMda che ne? Apa kayAM nAme TrasTI tarIke sUcavI zakaze ? " gaMgAdAsa -" maherabAna, je rakama mahane soMpAyelI che te bIjAnA hAthamAM ApavA huM taiyAra nathI. hArA karatAM bIjo koI mANasa vadhAre zAhukAra heya ema kabula rAkhavAne huM cokhkhI nA kahuM chuM ane rakama te ghaNIkharI dharmAdA khAte vaparAI paNa gaI che." - vivekacaMdra - hAre te vaparAyelI rakamane hisAba bahAra pADavA kRpA karazo? ApanI IcchA thaze te hisAba taiyAra karavAmAM madada karavA sevaka taiyAra che. " gaMgAdAsa:-"vivekacaMdra, jhAjhI zAhukArI javA de. AjakAlanA hame amAre hisAba mAganAra koNa che ? hame amArA mAlIka-bAlIka che ke zuM ? " vivekacaka-" ema gusso karavAnuM kAraNa nathI, zeThajI ! huM zAMta rIte vAta karuM chuM ane Apa zuM karavA tapI jAo che ? 'bhalA, hamArI bharachamAM Ave tema kare paNa ApanA kAkA marahuma gADIlAlanuM vula ( vasIatanAmuM ) jarA batAvaze ? amArA - zeThajInI IcchA evI che ke vuIla joIne hemAM je khAte vadhu rakama Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ apAyalI hoya te khAtAnI rakamamAM pAtA taraphanA amuka sArA pALA umerIne te khAtAne dhamadheAkAra calAvavuM. .. gaMgAdAsaH-- vIla-khIla kAMI thayuM ja nathI; marahume kAM vIla kadApi karyuM ja nathI. emanI kahevAtI saghaLI milkata vaDileopArjita hAi AkhA kuTuMbanA te para hakka hatA ane tethI ame te milkata heM'cI lIdhI che; ameA hemanA kuTuMbIomAM te milkata sabaMdhI takarAra thatAM paMcadvArA vaheMcaNI thai che, keje vaheMcaNInA dastAveja karatI vakhate ame bhalA thaIne dhama nimitte paNa amuka rakamo lakhAvelI che. .. vivekacaH--" sAheba, huM saghaLI vAta jANuM chuM. ' vurkala' yayu ja nathI ema jo hame kahetA hA te huM kahIza ke hamArA jevA labADa ane dhattA dunIAmAM koI che ja nahi. lAkha rUpIAnI milkata pacAvI pADIne zAhukAramAM khapanAra e caMDALa ! te, C A zuM che ? A hArA marahuma kAkAnuM karelu ' vuila ', ke je gai kAle ja mhArA DAthamAM AvyuM che! ane A jo te 'vuila ' nI sAmetI mATe dastAvejI padmA purAvA ! have tuM ' vula' thayu ja nathI ema bUma pADayAM karaje. huM have jouM chuM ke, tuM dharmAdAnI rakamA kevI rIte ucApata karI zake che. e naTa ! huM te vula' rada karAvavA mATe banAvaTI ' vuIla " paNa taiyAra karAvarAvyuM che te paNa mhArA jANavAmAM che; paNa e pApI ! barAbara samaje ke pApIne mANasa niha paNa peAtAnAM pApa ja khAze. mhArI pAse hArAM saghaLAM chidranA itihAsa che; jo te A rahyA; ane kahe tA hane vAMcI paNa saMbhaLAvuM. parantu tu` ke je ekaDAnA dUdhamAMthI ane laMgaDAM DhAranA ghAsamAMthI ucharelA che hene evu sabhaLAvyAthI paNa 2 zuM hAMsala che ? paNa have hArUM AvI banyuM che. have sarakAra ja hane insApha Apaze. huM Aje ja AjadArI ane dIvAnI banne rAhe hArApara karyAda noMdhAvavA sajja zaIza. vivekacaMdranI AMkhe. lAlaceALa thai gai. te kharA rUpa para AvI gayA. gaMgAdAsa paNa rAtApILA thai gayA paNa vAvRddha ane paheAMcatA hAi haNe gama khAvAnA dekhAva karyo. henA eka yuvAna bhatrIje tyAM kheDA hatA te lAMbA hAtha karI mAravA jevA dekhAva karI elI uDDayA: 9 jANyA jANyA hane zAhukAranA chekarAne ! rahevAne dhara paNa maLe nahiM ane ATalI zekhAi zA upara karI rahyA 50 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ che ? pharyAdanI dhamakI ApIne rUpIA kaDhAvavA icchato haIza; paNa paisA kAMI ema maLe nahi. te divase mANekacaMda kanyAnI vAta karavA AvyA hatA tyAre henuM paNa sajjaDa apamAna karyuM hatuM. dunIAnuM. rAjya hArA ghera AvyuM che ke zuM?" , vicaMdra -" o pAjI ! dharmAdAnI muDIthI ucharelA e . ra ! tuM mane maheNuM mAranAra koNa che ? hane rahevAnuM ghara na hoya e to ulaTI mahArI lAyakIne acuka purAvo che. Avaka karavAnI zakti chatAM ane keI paNa jAtanuM vyasana na chatAM huM ghara kharIdavA jeTalI 2000 rUpaiDInI rakama paNa bacAvI zakyo nathI ane gupta rIte janasevAmAM mahArA sarvasvane bhega ApuM chuM, e vAta to ulaTI mahArA lAbhamAM jAya che. hArI peThe pArakAM ghara bathAvI pADavAM ane dharmAdAnAM ghara vecI vecIne te paisAmAMthI baMgalA " karI gADIDAmAM mahAlavuM te karatAM ghara vagaranA thaI rastA para paDI rahevAnuM ane roTalA vagaranA thaI havA khAIne jIvavAnuM huM vadhAre pasaMda karuM chuM. have hajI khabara nathI ke havA khAIne jIvanAra arthAta sane DaMkha kevo hoya che ? aMgadhana kuLanA sApanI prazaMsA khuda bhagavAne karI che; te nAga pitAnI lIdhelI Teka cheDavA karatAM baLI maravuM vadhAre pasaMda kare che. ane jANa- kUtarA ! jANu-ke A nAga Aje je Teka le che te jIva jatAM paNa nahi cheDe. dharmAdAne khAdhelo paiso ekAvaze tyAre ja te jhaMpaze. hArUM kazuM cAlatuM nathI hAre tuM lAMca-rUzavatanuM helAmAM heluM tahemata muke che, paNa e rUzavatakhora badamAza ! eka paNa mANasa evo batAva ke je mahArA candramAM sasaluM batAvI zake ? he je evI rUzavate khAdhI hata te khAvA-pIvA ane oDhavA-paheravAnA zokha vagaranA mahAre Aje eka be hajAra rUpaiDInA gheghalIAnuM maheNuM khAvuM paData ja nahi. huM je raNuM chuM te jAhera sevAnA kAmamAM paDavA sababe kharcAI jAya che, tethI ja huM "lageTIo" ba . paNa have zuM khabara nathI ke "lageTIo" sarvathI vadhAre lakSmIvAna hoya che ? hArI mI kAle havAre cora ke sarakAra ke Aga uThAvI jaze; paNa hArI 1mI pellA daranA majabuta killAmAM jamA thAya che; te mane jarUra che 1khate maLaze. hamaNAM mahane lakSmInI zI jarUra che? khAvAne sAduM S" paNa bhejana maLe che rahevAne bhADAnuM paNa makAna maLe che, Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ loko mahArA tarapha mAnanI lAgaNIthI jue che; mArI salAha ane hAjarIthI keTalAMka jAhera kAma sudharyA che ane thayAM che. mahArAM hADakAM pahoMce che tyAM sudhI te huM lakSmInI darakAra karavAnuM kAraNa jete nathI. lakSmInI darakAra hArA jevA hADakAnA bhAgalA-bIcArAbApaDA pazuDAne ja seMpI che, ke jeone (pate raLavAne azakta haI) dhamadAnI lata tarapha daSTi karavAnI jarUra paDe che. mahArAM hADakAM hAre thAkaze tyAre mahe tyahAM-pelA adazya bhaMDAramAM jamA karAvelI lakSmIno jarUra jeTale hisso mahane mokalavAmAM Avaze. khapa karatAM vadhu lakSmIthI apaco thAya, apacAthI duHkha-darada thAya ane tethI mRtyu thAya; mATe ane te upAdhithI hAre paramezvara ja dUra rAkhe che. " saghaLe zAnti patharAI. vivekacaMdanI vAgdhArAe sarvanI vAcAne bAMdhI lIdhI. keTalIka vAre sudarzana ubhe thayo ane gadgadita kaMThe vivekacaMdrane uddezIne bolyoH "mAstara sAheba ! ApanI AvI badhI lAyakI hArA jANavAmAM Aje pahelI ja vAra AvI. A5 cheka ja khAlI che ane rahevAnuM ghara paNa dharAvatA nathI eTalI badhI ApanI kaDI sthiti Aja sudhI mahArA jevA lakhapati ziSyanI samakSa paNa Ape jAhera na karI e ApanA magajanI zrImaMtAI hine ApanA tarapha vadhu mAnathI jevA prere che. murabbI zrI ATaluM mahArUM mAne ane A be hArI Dokamone motane hAra. henA Apane 25000 rUpaiyA upajaze, ke je rakamamAMthI eka sArA sarakhuM makAna Apa atre taiyAra karAvI zakaze." ema kahetAMnI sAthe sudarzane te hAra vivekacaMdranA gaLAmAM nAkhyo. vivekacaMdra upakAranI lAgaNIthI gaLagaLo thaI gayo. te turata ube thaze ane hAra pitAnA hAthamAM laI pAcho sudarzananI DokamAM nAkhatAM bolyoH "bhAI ! e hAra hamane ja zobhe. huM koI jAtanA saguNane vecavA icchatuM nathI. huM hamane hArI nirdhanatA jaNAvI nahi agara koI jAtanI lAlaca rAkhI nahi e kAMI humArA hita mATe nahi paNa mahArA pitIkA hita mATe ja. ucca khavAsa athavA sadhavatana vaDe AtmAne vikAsa-unti thAya che, e lAbha karoDo rUpIAnA lAbhathI vizeSa che. mArA pitA hamane zikSaNa ApavA badala hune je pagAra Ape che. hemAMthI sAdAIthI para , Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ gujarAna calAvatAM je kAMI vadhe che hemAMthI koI vAra huM gupta rIte atyaMta duHkhI manuSyane svAya karuM chuM, kaI vAra tatvanAM navIna pustaka kharIdIne mahArA AtmAne ane jJAnavRddhine upakAra karanAra lekhakone sahAya karuM chuM ane koI vAra kaI lekahitanA viSaya para lekha lakhI henI 5-10 hajAra prato jAheramAM vinAmUlya vaheMcI lekenI utkrAntine hAyabhUta thAuM chuM. have AvA thaDe paise heTe na karavAnA dhaMdhAmAM huM hamAre ke koIne bhAga nAkhuM arthAta hamArI rakama laIne hamane te mahAna adazya lAbhanA eka bhAgIdAra banAvuM, e mahane-vaNikane-kema pAlave ?" sudarzana:-"murabbI ! Apa vadhu Agraha na karo. ApanA mhArA uparanA avarNanIya upakAra AgaLa A kadara kazA hisAbamAM paNa nathI. dhikkAra che mahane ke huM Aja sudhI pAse ja paDelA gulAbanI sugaMdhInI kiMmata na samajI zakyo. maherabAnI karI ATalI sevA te Apa svIkAre ja. " vivekacaMdra-" bhAI ! ApaNe eka jarUrI kAmane cheDI ADakathAmAM utarI gayA chIe. ApaNe ahIM dharmAdAnI milkatanA rakSaNa mATe AvyA hatA ane e kAmane badale hArA purANamAM utarI paDayA e bhUla ja thAya che. mahane mApha kare; huM kaI rIte mahArA pitIkA upaga athe te bakSIza svIkArI zaktA nathI, paraMtu "hAre hamAre ATalo badho Agraha che hAre hene hamaNAM hamArI pAse ja rAkho; koI jAhera hitanuM navIna kAma huM uThAvIza te vakhate te rakama haimAM vAparavA mATe mAgI laiza. agara dUra kaccha zedhavA javuM ? A gaMgAdAsa zeTha je hajAre rUpIAnI dharmAdAnI milakata pacane rAjIkhuzIthI seMpavA taiyAra na hoya te hemane ema karavAnI pharaja pADavA khAtara InsAphanI keTenuM zaraNuM levAmAM thatA kharca mATe te rakama jUdI rAkhe." sudarzane te kabula rAkhyuM ane se uThayA. gaMgAdAsanA hAMjA gagaDyA ! manamAM te te baLIne khAkha thaI gayo hate; paNa bahArathI mIThAza batAvavA khAtara javArakarI, sarvane vidAya karIne, gharanAM bAraNAM baMdha karI, ekAMtamAM jaIjANe henA bApane bApa te ja divase marI gayo hoya ane pite henA zokamAM heya tema, gumasuma thaI beThe. ane ahIM ApaNe paNa ene lAMbo vakhata khuNe rAkhIne vArtAne cIlo badalIzuM. 53 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ prakaraNa 6 huM. lagna (cAlu). je divase pAMjarApALanA sarva kAryavAhakone ekaDA karavAmAM AvyA. ane hemanI vacce sudarzane hemane keTalIka sUcanAo karI. * belatA jAnavarA tA kAMi udhama na maLatAM bhikSA dvArA ke. chevaTe cArI ke harAmI karIte paNa peTa bharI zake che paNa 'muMgA jAnavaro' ne kAnA AkAya che, ema jaNAvI evA jIveAnA rakSaNa mATe sthApavAmAM AvatI pAMjarApoLa tarapha dareka Ayatu zuM karttavya che te samajAvyuM. dayALu purUSone hameza ke aThavADIAmAM eka vAra pAMjarApALanA jIvAnI sthitinI khabara kahADavA sUcayuM, ke jethI teAnI kharAbara kALajI rakhAya ane pote jo satkAryo nahi kare te evI ja duHkhI ane parAdhIna sthiti bheAgavavI paDaze e satya zikhavAnI taka maLe. jAnavaro mATe eka DAkaTara rAkhavA sUcavyuM ane sAjAsArAM jAnavarA pAsethI kAma karAvI hemanI kheArAkInI kimata karatAM vadhu kimatanuM kAma lai zakAya ema sUcavI pAMjarApALane petAnI meLe nabhe tevI (Self-supporting) saMsthA banAvavA Agraha karyAM; ane chevaTe pAtA taraphathI A khAtAne uttejana tarIke, A khAtAnI mhoTI rakama gaMgAdAsa zeTha pAse lheNI rahI che te vasula karavA mATe karavI paDatI pharyAdanuM kula kharca ApavAnuM jAhera karI, saunI vAhavAha vacce sudarzana ane mitramaDaLa sAMthI ravAnA ca sarakArI skulamAM gayA. 54 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ kulamAM hemaNe keTalAka viSenI parIkSA lIdhI, tethI. vidyAthIone abhyAsa ThIkaThIka jaNA; paNa viveka, nIti ane dharmanuM zikSaNa hemane apAtuM na hovAthI heNe skulanA adhyakSane maLIne dharma-nItinA zikSaNa mATe pitAnA kharce eka zikSaka puro pADavAnI IcchA batAvI tathA je vidyArthI dharma-nItinA viSaya para sArAmAM sArA nibaMdha mAtRbhASAmAM lakhaze hene eka inAma tathA vadhAremAM vadhAre nItithI vartanAra vidyArthIne eka InAma : ema be inAma dara varSe pite ApavA IcchA jaNAvI; ane adhyakSe te sakhAvata ghaNuM upakAra sAthe svIkArI. vivekacaMdra, pachI, sudarzana vagerene eka vRddha vaidyanA kAryAlayamAM laI gayA. eka junApurANuM vizALa ane chuTA cegAnavALA makAnamAM seMkaDo bATalA ane hajAro DabA saphAIthI goThavAyelA hatA. saMkhyAbaMdha garIba daradIo ToLeToLAM thaI cagAna vacce liMbaDAnA jhADa taLe beThA beThA vaidyarAjanI pavitratA, nirlobhatA ane praviNatAnI tArIpha karatA hatA. junA jamAnAnA namunA rUpa vRddha vaidyarAja hamaNAM pitAnA abhyAsamAM hatA. sudarzananI mulAkAte te abhyAsamAM bhaMga pADe, chatAM te bIlakula kakaLyA sivAya zAntapaNe bolyAH "Apa kema padhAryA che?" - vivenca vedharAjane page paDI javAba ApyoH "deva! ApanI tArIpha sAMbhaLavAthI, rAjanagaranA sudarzana zeTha ane hAra lAyaka ziSya ke je hamaNuM ane mAstara" nI kanyA sAthe lagna mATe Avela che te ApanAM darzane Icche che." bahu AnaMda tha, sudarzanabhAI !" vaidharAja harSita thaI bolyA " hamArI lAyakI ghaNuM jagAethI mahAra sAMbhaLavAmAM AvI che. Aje hamane najare jovAthI have bahu saMteSa thaze. duniyA hamArA jevA mahAnubhAvo vaDe ja zobhe che." o deva! deva! Apa A zuM vada cho? Apa jevA paramAthI mahAtmAnA paganI raja chuM; mane ATaluM mahatva ApI zaramAve nahi. hajAre duHkhI chene vinA lobhe Apa duHkhamAMthI mukta kare che, zArIrika dukhamAMthI ja nahi paNa Arthika dukhamAMthI paNa keTalAkane gupta rIte bacAve che, anItine raste haDelA daradIne 55 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ paNa sAMjA karyAM bAda mIThThA upadezathI ThekANe lAvA che, vidyAnA abhyAsa ane zeAdhakhALa pAchaLa ATalI jaIk umare puSkaLa vakhata rANIne e mahAparApakArI vidyAne keLavecheA--khIlavA A sa ApanI lAyakInI kimata karavA kANu samartha che? " sune namIne kahyuM. cr 24 * eTaluM ja nahi paNa je vakhate jAgRtAvasthA jene krUrajyAta hAvI joie tevA sAdhue 6 ne badale 12 ke tethIe vadhu kalAka sudhI uMdhe che tevA vakhate Apa jevA 'bhAva sAdhu 'kalAkamAM 4 kalAkathI vadhu uMdha paNa pAmatA nathI ane darado maTADavAnI zeAdhA karavAmAM, daradIone rAtrIdivasanA harakAI vakhatehAyabhUta thavAmAM ane AtmacittvanamAM Apa hameza udhamI raheA che. e kAM ApanA jevAtevA guNa nathI. Aje tA vaideA, hakImA ane DAkaTarAnI pAse bAra mAsa ke e varSA ApanAra tarIke kAma karIne mhoTA vaidyarAja ke sarjana banI gayelA zrI levA chatAM paNa daradInI darakAra karatA nathI ane keTalAka duSTa teA ulaTA darada lakhAvI vadhAre :DDI pAmavAnA ghATa ghaDe che. rAganidAna ja humajI zakatA nathI. teo eka mahA upakArI dhaMdhAne halakAmAM halakA tarIke vagAvAve che. Apa e sarva kAgaDAo vacce eka husa che-khare zveta huza ja che. ' vivekacaMdre sAda pUryAM. te "AtmabaMdhue ! " vaidharAje javAba ApyA hame baMne lAyaka purUSa hAvAthI mhArAmAM lAyakI jue che. huM je kAMi karUMchuM te mhArA svArtha mATe ja karU chuM. jagatanA dareka prANI parApakAra karavAnI sthitimAM che; ane parApakAra dvArA ja potAnA AtmAne zrImaMta ane sukhI banAvI zakAya che. hemAM paNa vaidya, patrakAra, sAdhu, vakIla ane amaladAra eTalA te khare paramA mATe ja janmelA che. paraMtu asAsanI vAta che ke dareke peAtAnA vadhAre eba lagADavA jevI vartaNuka A jamAnAmAM calAvavA mAMDelI jevAya che. dunIAnAM-khAsa karI duHkhI dunIAnAM zArIrika duHkhA TALavA mATe potAnA meAjazeAkhanA bhoga ApavA evu AkarU kartavya vAnu che. lokasamuhanAM hRdayAnA kacaro dhoi nAMkhavA mATe ahArAtrI udyama karavAnuM mahAna kAma sAdhuonuM che. e kacarA utpanna karanArAM tatvone zodhI zodhIne nAza karavAnu pa Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ jokhamabharyuM kAma patrakAranuM che. dunIAmAM rahenAra mANaso ekabIjAnA sahavAsamAM Ave nahi te duniyA cAle ja nahi ane sahavAsamAM AvavAthI to koI koI vakhata kaleSa paNa thavA saMbhava rahe che; eve vakhate kaleSanA aTakAva mATe amaladAranI ane te nukazAna pAmelA pakSanuM nukazAna dUra karAvavA mATe vakIlanI, jarUra paDe che. vakIla kharAne beTe "kesa" karanAra ane khoTA khara "kesa karanAra na joIe; "pha" ne ja lAlacu na joIe paNa insAphane-te paramAtmAnI prasAdIne-premI he joIe. dharmAdAnI lAkheka rUpIAnI rakama keI ohI karI javA mAgato hoya hemAM sAmela thaIne etha pite laI kAyadAnI bArIkAI vaDe pelA harAmIne rasto karI ApavA jevI nIcatA vakIla karI zake nahi. ane rAjAonuM kartavya vaLI ethI paNa vadhu kaThIna ane upakArI che. rAjA kAMI lAkha kema. pacIsa lAkha mANasonA kAMDAnI majurIthI raLelA paisAne hisso ekaTho karI hemAMthI potAnA kSaNabhaMgura dehanI dareka indrione tRpta karavAno hakka dharAvato nathI. eNe te te lAkha ke pacAsa lAkha AtmAonI jokhamadArI potAnA zira lIdhI che; te pacAsa lAkhamAMne eka paNa mANasa bhUkhe marate hoya te te rAjAne ja doSa che- hene ja aparAdha che-tyenI ja rAjyavyavasthAnI khAmInuM pApa che. rAjyanA eka bhAgamAM sonAnA mahela hoya ane bIjA bhAgamAM lAkhkha mANasanI mAsika pedAza mAthA dITha rUpaio savA mAtra hoya, chatAM je rAjA te sthiti varasa sudhI joyA kare te rAjA ne lAkho mANasane drohI ja kahevAya ane te lAkhonA dIlanI badaduvA hene vahelImaDI naDayA vagara na ja rahe. bhAI sudarzana ! ATaluM barAbara magajamAM kotarI rAkhaje ke " jema vadhAre sattAtema vadhAre jokhamadArI ... eka sAmAnya mANasa karatAM eka zrImaMtanI jokhamadArI vadhAre che; zrImata karatAM vidvAnanI jokhamadArI vadhAre ane vidvAna karatAM "hadayanA vidvAna' eTale sAdhuonI jokhamadArI vadhAre che. je dharmanA sAdhu potAnA vargamAM vyabhicAra, jUTha, dagophaTakA ane kaleSa joI zake che te dharmanI hayAtI thoDA vakhatanI ja samajavI; ane henuM pApa te dharmanA gurU tarIke gaNAtA pAmara prANuonA zire che. tame mane eka ghara evuM batAvaze ke hIM chokarAne kSaya roga thavA chatAM bApa gupacupa besI rahyA hoya? Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ kadI nahi; te bApa te chokarAne laIne dareke dareka vedha, hakIma, DAkaTaraM, bhuvA ke maMtravettAne maLaze ane enAM phephasAM ke graha sudharAvavA dareka prayatna karaze. paraMtu hame hane eka paNa sAdhu evo batAvaze ke, je pitAnA putravata saMsArI janenA phephasAnA darada nahi paNa (ethIe bhayaMkara ) hadayanA daradane maTADavA kaMI paNa prayatna zuddhAzayapUrvaka karate hoya? aphasosa ! cotaraphano vicAra karuM chuM te hRdaya bharAI Ave che. hArI juvAnImAM huM je ucca khavAsa-kartavyaparAyaNatA cotarapha jete he dazamo hisso paNa Aje jevA pAmato nathI. dezanuM kalejuM vadhAre ne vadhAre bagaDatuM jAya che. jemanA upara tAraNane AdhAra che teo ja kartavyabhraSTa thaI gayA che. bhAI sudarzana! Ave vakhate hamArA jevA garbhazrImaMta yuvAna nyAnI umarathI ja dharmasaMskAra pAmyA che ane pitAnA paisAne upayoga samAjasevAnAM kAryomAM chUTathI karavA tatpara thayA che tathA pitAnI lAgavaga ane kItine upayoga duSTone jhADavAmAM niDarapaNe kare che e joI mArA baLatA AtmAne kAMIka zAnti upaje che. prabhu hamane dIrdhAyuH rAkho! " jagannAthajI (e vaidyarAjanuM nAma hatuM) eTaluM belatAM belatAM vRddhAvasthAnA kAraNathI ane thayelI tIvra lAgaNInA kAraNathI bezuddha thaI gayA; ane sudarzana tathA vivekacaMdra te joI bebAkaLA banI gayA. turata ja vaidyarAjane pautra ke je bAreka varSanI umarane prakAzamAna caherAvALe majabuta chekaro have te hAM AvI pahoMcyo ane gabharAzo nahi evA zabdo vaDe pelA banene himmata ApI pote eka davAnI zIzI lai AvyA ane dAdAnuM mastaka pitAnA khoLAmAM laI eka hAthe pavana nAkhate tathA bIjA hAthe zIzI hemanA nAka AgaLa dharI : rAkhate beTho. te beeka mInITa tema beThe nahi hoya eTalAmAM vaidharAja jANe kAMI banyuM ja nathI ema ubhA thaI gayA ane sUrya tarapha dRSTi karI pitAnI berinI prArthanAno vakhata thaye jANI banenI rajA laI cAlavA lAgyA. paraMtu sudarzane jatAM jatAM hemane kahyuM "mahArAja ! hArI eka prArthanA che. daza hajAranI eka najIvI rakama huM ApanA hastakamAM seMpavA mAguM chuM; Apa kRpA karI te svIkAraze?" " ane henuM mahAre zuM karavuM? " vede adaba vALI Azcarya cakIta thaI pUchayuM. ' - 18 " Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ keI nidhana daradIne be-cAra mAsa ApanI AMkha AgaLa rAkhavAnI jarUra paDe che tevAnI sAravAramAM te rakama vAparavI." sudarzane javAba ApyuM "ghaNuM uttama !" DosAe mAnabharyA bharakSA sAthe kahyuM " ghaNuM ja uttama! paraMtu evA nirdhana daradIonA punya pratApe hArI pAse kAMI vAtanI kamInA nathI. hame jANo cho ke huM gazAstrane zokhIna chuM. nirmaLa chaMdagI gujAravAne pariNAme ja hAre jahAre mhAre paramArtha mATe nANAMnI jarUra paDe che tyAre hAre, hAre khajAne bharelo ja jovAya che. vhAM ja satyanI kasoTI che. bhAI, hamArA rUpIA. hame ja ke ucita mArge vAparaje ane sukhI rahe. " eTaluM bolatAMnI sAthe vaidharAja eka eAraDAnA uMDA bheMyarAmAM utarI gayA ane banne yuvAne pitAnA bIjA sobatIo sAthe ghara tarapha pAchA pharyA. ' Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ ke 2RI A makaraNa 7 muM. lagna (cAlu) ja mr . A dAM judAM jAherAtanI mulAkAta lIdhA pachI udhamI sudarzanane eka kSaNa paNa vijayanagaramAM rahevuM gamyuM nahi. "samaya mAtrane pramAda na kare " e vIravAkyane te pUjArI hatuM. A hInabhAgya dezamAM hAre 90 TakA manuSyo eka varSane eka mInITa mAphaka uDAve che, tyAre dezanA che udaya mATe janmelA A sudarzanane eka mInITa paNa eka varSa jevI lAgatI; te eka mInITamAM aneka "samaya" joI zako ane dareka 'samaya'ne ekAda sukRtya, suvacana ke suvicAravaDe zaNagAravA cukate nahi. tethI te tAkIde ghara tarapha javA ane dezasevA tathA saMdhasevAnI janAo ghaDavA tatpara thaI rahyo hato. paraMtu heNe pitAnA TuMka vakhatanA samAgamathI gAmalokone je AnaMda Apyo hatuM tethI mahAjane hene eka divasa rokAvA ane pitAnA memAna banavA atyaMta Agraha karIne hene lAIlAja karyo hato. mahAjana' nI saMsthA ghaNuM junA vakhatathI A dezamAM cAlI Ave che. dareka zaheramAM, dareka gAmamAM e saMsthA hoya che. vilAyata mAM jema " AmanI sabhA " (House of :Commons) ane "umarAvanI sabhA" (House of Lords) hoya che tema A dezamAM " nAta " ane " mahAjana" evI be saMsthAo junA vakhatamAM lekone ghaNIkharI bAbatamAM insApha ApatI. khAnagI kuTuMba ne lagatA kachaA temaja koma ane dhaMdhAne lagatA kachaA A Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ saMsthAo cukavatI. rAjA pAse ceDA ja kajI jatA; kAraNa ke je jAya darabAra, henAM jAya gharabAra " evI eka kaheNuM junA vakhatathI mazahura hatI. AthI rAjasabhA bAda karatAM sarvazreTa saMsthA tarIke "mahAjana " gaNAya emAM Azcarya jevuM kAMI nathI. evI " sattA" nuM AmaMtraNa maLavAthI sudarzane henuM bhAna rAkhavAmAM zANapaNuM mAnyuM ane e prasaMgane lAbha laIne te rAtre gAmalokone ekaThA karI eka jAhera bhASaNa ApavA icchayuM, te icchA pitAnA zikSaka mAraphate mahAjanane jaNAvatAM sarvane ghaNe AnaMda thayo ane mahAjane gAmamAM thALI pITAvIne bhASaNa sAMbhaLavA " bajAracoka " mAM ekaThA thavAnI sarvane khabara ApI. te -zaheranA mahArAjA zrI vijayasiMhe paNa mahAjananI khAsa araja svIkArIne hAjarI ApavA bulyuM hatuM. niyata kIdhelo vakhata AvI puge te pahelAM te bajAra ke aDhAre varNanA lokothI cIkAra thai gayo. Akho rasto dIvAbattIthI jaLahaLI rahyA hatA. barAbara ATha vAge vijayanagaranA nAmadAra vijayasiMha mahArAja puradamAmathI padhAryA ane putra tulya prajAe ghaNaja premapUrvaka hemane satkAra karyo. "mahAjana" paikI eka AgevAne bhASaNakartAnI oLakhANa nAmadArane karAvI ane pachI nAmadAranA hukamathI sudarzane pitAnuM bhASaNa zarU karyuM, je nIce pramANe hatuM ' " nAmadAra mahArAjA sAheba ane mahAza ! " A duniyAmAM je koI hoTAmAM he AnaMda hoya to te eka ja che ane te bIjAnI sevA bajAvavAnI taka meLavavAmAM samAyelo che. anubhava, lakSmI ane buddhine je alpa bhaMDoLa mahane maLelo che te vaDe A zaheranA janasAdhAraNanI sevA bajAvavAnI mahane hamaNAM je je taka maLI che tethI mane ghaNe AnaMda thayo che: ane vadhu AnaMda to te sevA zuddha hovA chatAM hamo mahAzayee hene premapUrvaka vadhAvI lIdhI che ema jANavAthI thayela che. . hA bhASaNa zarU karavA pahelAM, gRha ! mahane AjanI sibhAnA mAnavaMtA pramukha ane ApanA pUjya rAjakartAzrInI hAjarI mATe aMtaHkaraNapUrvaka AbhAra mAnavA do. ahobhAgya te dezanAM ke avanI mAika rAja-prajA sAthe bhaLatA rahe che ! ahobhAgya - : hAM " Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ te dezanAM ke 'aaN prAnA aMtaramAM praveza karavA rAjAe hameza tatpara rahe che ane prajAnI AkhAdimAM ja potAnI nirbhayatA che ema cokkasapaNe mAne che. amArA prAMta ke mhAM rAjyanA eka sAmAnya ana ladAra paNa amArAthI ataDA rahe che ane amArA upara rApha batAvavAmAM ja potAnI buddhinuM sAlya samaje che te prAMtamAMthI AvatAM atre Apa sarvane mheM jAheAjalAlI, satASa ane AnadamAM joyA te vakhatathI ja A taphAvatanuM kAraNa zeAdhavA huM lAgI gayA hatA ane Aje traNa divasanA anubhave mhane samajAvyuM che ke te tAvata banne sthaLanA rAjAonI dRSTimAM rahelA tAvane ja AbhArI che. "gRhasyo ! AvA eka prajAvatsala nareza samakSa mhane mhArA vicAro jaNAvavAnI taka maLavA mATe huM potAne nasIbavAna mAnu chuM. huM AzA rAkhuM chuM ke mhArA vicAra sAMbhaLyA bAda nAmadAra zrI potAnA amUlya anubhavA jaNAvI mtane sudharavAnI taka Apaze. " gRhastho ! duniyAmAM sAthI jUnA ItihAsa kAi paNa prajAnA hAya tA te ApaNI Arya prajAneA che. bharatakhaMDanA sUrya te vakhate prakAzI rahyA hatA ke jhhAre hamaNAMnA agniratha khanAvanArA videzIe nagna sthitimAM krUratA hatA. kuTumba sukha ApaNuM ja hatuM; pratApI ane kartavyaparAyaNa rAjAe ApaNA ja dezamAM hatA; vimAnA banAvanArA ane uttama zilpIe ApaNA ja loko hatA; dharmanA, tatvajJAnanA ane nyAyazAstranA jharA ApaNI ja bhUmimAM vahetA hatA, ke mhAMthI vahetA vahetA hamaNAM te sarva dezeAna sajIvana jaLa purUM pADe che. evA A adbhUta pradezane kavie svabhUmi mAne--devavAsa mAne te emAM kAMi atizayAkti humajavAnI nathI. vaidaka ane khagALa, bhUtaLa ane bhustara, vyAkaraNa ane piMgaLa, kAyadA ane nyAya, rasAyaNa ane yaMtraH sarva vidyAe A bhUmimAM eka vakhata khIlI rahI hatI enI zAkSI puravA mATe purANAM pustakA hAla paNu mAjIda che. tr anya dezA hAlamAM sudhArA ane vidyAkaLAmAM AgaLa vadhelA jovAmAM Ave che; teApaNu hemanuM saMsArabaMdhAraNa evuM zithila che ke dara 5-25 varSe baMdhAraNa badalavuM ja paDe che, jyAre ApaNA AryAnuM sa'sAra baMdhAraNa Aja se'kaDA varSa thayAM kAyama che-jo ke musa 61 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ lamAna Adi videzI sattAoe ene joI nAkhavAnA prayatna karavAmAM kacAsa rAkhI nathI. zuM A ApaNA pUrvajonAM kAmanuM saMgInapaNuM, emanA buddhibaLanI khubI ane emanI pavitratAnI mahattA sAbIta karavA basa nathI? zuM ItihAsa eka paNa prajA evI batAvI zakaze ke henI AbAdInI tavArIkha AryAvarta jeTalI jUnI hoya? "paNa aphasosa! e sUrya Aje asta thaI gayo che, e AbAdI Aje vArUpa banI gaI che; e khyAti mAtra itihAsamAM gaMdhAI rahI che. e dezanA putroe pUrvajonAM saMtAneAje buddhihIna, ughamahIna, vIratvahIna ane vIryahIna banI gayA che. lakSmIhIna banavA mATe te kAMI ja zoka karavAnI jarUra nathI, kAraNa, lakSmI te lAgaNI, buddhi ane vIyanI cukI- . dAsI mAtra che; aaN te rANIone vAsa che tyAM lakSmIe anusaravuM ja paDe che. "ApaNe e ja bhUmimAM vasIe chIe ke jahemAM agAunI mAphaka hAla paNa kAcuM sonuM pAke che, jyAM saghaLI bhUminA-saghaLA dezanA pAka utarI zake che, jyAM vizALa nadIo che, hAM TADha tarko ane varasAda samAnapaNe che, hAM camatkArI auSadhionA khajAnA che; TuMkamAM hAM kudaratanI sarva kRpAonA bhaMDAra bharyA che. tema chatAM zA kAraNuthI ApaNe Aja bhukhamare veThIe chIe? ApaNAmAMthI zuM ochuM thayuM ke jahene lIdhe Adhi-vyAdhi ane upAdhithI ApaNe ahoniza rIbAIe chIe? "kaI kaheze ke videzI prajAonA humalAthI ApaNe nabaLA paDI gayA; koI kaheze uparAchAparI paDatA duSkALathI bhukhe maratA thayA; kaI kaheze kaliyuganA pratApe A dazA thaI. paNa e sarva zramaNA che. zuM kaliyuga mAtra AryAvartAmAM ja che? zuM hiMda bahAra ratyayuga cAle che? ane zuM agAu duSkALa nahi paDatA? videzIo sAthe agAu laDavuM nahotuM paDatuM? "videzIonA humalA ane duSkALa te ulaTA prajAne majabuta banAvanArAM sAdhana che. henAthI loke ezaArAmI thaI jatA aTake che, emanuM pANI vahetuM rahe che, emanI buddhi ane baLane kATa aThavA pAmata nathI. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ paNa banyuM che ema ke, ApaNAmAMnA ja keTalAka svArthI "bhUkhanI bArasa" lokoe ApaNane vahema ane ajJAnamAM dATI rAkhavA prayatna karyA che ane mAthuM uMcuM karI bahAra zuM bane che te jovA- . ' ja manA karI che. keTalAka dharmAcAryo prajAne vahemI banAvavAmAM ja pitAnuM hita mAnI beThA che. nava varSanI aMdara chokarIne na paraNAve te mahApApa, muA pAchaLa ghara vecIne paNa brAhmaNane na jamADe to mahApApa, gurUvacanamAM AMkha baMdha karIne zraddhA na rAkhe te mahApa, samudraparyaTana kare te mahApApa, brAhmaNane chokaro bhIkha mAgavA zivAyane udhama zikhe agara vANIAno chokaro gulAmI. sivAyano dhaMdho kare to mahApApa; AvAM AvAM pApo ghusADI daIne lokone evA te sAMkaDI buddhinA, vahemI, ajJAna, mUrkha banAvI. dIdhA che ke teo potAnI sthiti vicAravA ane te sthiti sudhAravAnA rastA zodhavA kadI taiyAra thaI zakatA ja nathI. prathama te nava narSanI chokarIne paraNAvI eTale te jJAna meLavatI baMdha thaI zarIra khIlatuM baMdha thayuM, mAtra gharakAma karanArI luDI banI ane kadAca 25 varasanI umara thatAMthatAMmAM 2-4 bALakonI mAtA bane che. je vakhate duniyAne lADa levAno hoya, je vakhate henA jJAnabaLa ane hRdayabaLane vikAsa karavAno hoya te vakhate te te cAra bALakenI khaTapaTamAM rIbAtI hoya che ane henA patine e bALakanI rojanI taMgIo purI pADavA mATe bhaviSya lAbha visArI tAtkAlika phaLadAtA halakA kAmamAM lAgavuM paDe che. have vicAre che, e nAnapaNathI TuTI gayelAM-AzAhIna banelAM-kaMTALI gayelAM-saMsArathI ahIDAI gayelAM prANuo zuM dezanuM ke potAnuM hitA sAdhI zake? are, emane dezonnatine vicAra ja kevI rIte AvI zake? pAraNAmAM piDhelA baccAne mATe AMgaDI joItI hoya te kharIdavAnI. jahene ciMtA thatI hoya te manuSya jIvaleNa majurI karavA jAya che. dezanI sthitine khyAla ApanArAM pustako ane chApAM vAMcavA jAya?" nahi, A eka mAnajo ke zarIra ane buddhinI pUrNa khIlavaTa vagaranuM paraNavuM te paraNavuM nahi paNa maravuM che. deza-kALa jeTalI - . keLavaNuM mAge che teTalI Avazyaka keLavaNI lIdhA pahelAM ane svarakSaNa mATe joItuM zarIrabaLa (kustI ane kasarata mAraphata) . meLavyA pahelAM tathA ochAmAM ochAM pAMca-sAta mANasanA kuTuMba Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ pahelAIthI piSI zakAya eTalI Avaka karavAnI zakti meLavyAM pahelAM paraNanAre mANasa AtmaghAtI ane dezadrohI che. je bIcArA. pazuo pazuvRtti tRpta karavAmAMthI navarA na thaI zake, ane emAM karatAM pahele khADe puravAnA rastA yojavAmAMthI navarA na thai zake, teo dezanuM zuM lIluM vALI zake? bahAdura videzIo atyAre ApaNuM raMka gAya upara sattA calAvatA na hota te ApaNI zI kamabatI thAta hene khyAla paNa thaI zakavo muzkela che. te bahAdura prajAe ApaNane zAti bakSI che, ApaNane sukhacenanAM sAdhana ApyAM che, ApaNane viSayasevana mATe sprIMganA mohaka palaMge ApyA che, pAcanane muzkela na paDe evAM "phuDo" ApyAM che, bhAra na lAge evI "neTa ApI che tathA hunnarakaLA ane zAstronA mAthAphaDIA abhyAsane badale sAhitya (Literature)no zekha ApaNA vidvAnane lagADe che; te bicArA emAM gothAM khAdhAM ja kare ane jIMdagI purI kare; "hute ne hutI" vaccenA viSaya saMbaMdhane prema nuM pavitra nAma ApI-emAM tatvajJAnanuM nAma ghocI vidvattAnuM pradarzana karyA ja kare ane emAM aMdagI purI kare! "mahAbhArata-rAmAyaNa Adi virarasakAvyo tathA gItAjI jevAM deza ane svadharma bannenuM rakSaNa karavAne upadeza ApanArAM pustako vAMcavA karatAM navala kathAo, lalita kAvyo ane videzI bhASAo zikhavAnI keTalA badhA loko hoMza dharAve che? pachI "AhAra te oDakAra," "sabata tevI asara" ane " vAMcana tevA vicAra, " thAya emAM zuM Azcarya ? jahene dezanuM ane pitAnA paMDanuM hita karavuM hoya haNe sauthI prathama to e ja nizcaya karavAne che ke je pite kuMvAra hoya to jamAnAne joItI keLavaNI, zarIrabaLa ane lakSmInAM sAdhana hAM sudhI na maLe tyahAM sudhI paraNavuM ja nahi. ekanuM jokhama uThAvavAnI zakti maLyA pahelAM anekanA rakSaNanuM jokhama uThAvavuM ja nahi. zarIrabaLane jema bane tema vadhAravuM. e baLa ApaNane ApaNuM upakArI rAjakartAnuM RNa cukavavAmAM paNa kAma lAgaze. "purUSA 25 varSanI umara sudhI kuMvArA rahe te kumArikAonuM zuM thAya?--e savAla kaI ubhe kare te pahelAM ja mahane kahI levA de ke e savAla pikaLa che. purUSe jaladI paraNavAnI nA Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ kaheze te bAlalagna ane kanyAvikraya aTakaze, mRtyu pramANa ochuM ' thaze tathA vidhavAvasthAnA saMbhava ghaTI jaze. nAte hAnI nhAnI thaI javAne lIdhe agya varane na chUTake kanyAo ApI devI paDe che tema thatuM aTakaze. strI keLavaNI pharajyAta thaze ane ApaNe gharasaMsAra ApoApa sudharaze. belatAM zikhyA hArathI ja chokarA chokarIne paraNavAnI vAta kahI saMbhaLAvIne ApaNe AjanA hiMdavAsIoe zuM kAMdA kahADavA dhAryA che te samajAtuM nathI; zuM strI sivAya bIjA kazAmAM sukha nathI? paNa are, te bicArA kuvAmAMnA deDakA jevA banI gayelA lokone zI mAlama hoya ke kudarata zuM cIja che, hemAM keTalI ane kaI khubIo rahelI che, uMcI bhAvanA ane uMcA vicAramAM keTale AnaMda rahelo che? " hamane je dharmo TuMka vicAranA, sAMkaDI daSTinA, 'kuvAnA deDakA" jevA ane vahemI banavA pharamAvatA hoya te dharmone jalAjali Api. veda ane jaina e dharmo A dezamAM jUnA che; e bemAMnA eka paNa dharmanAM mULa pustake evI sAMkaDI daSTine upadeza karatA ja nathI; tema chatAM je kaMI upadezako e dharmonA nAme e upadeza kare che te mAtra peTa bharavAnA rastA che ema hamajajepaNa e dhamene apamAna pahoMcADazo nahi. hame je dharmamAM che te dharmamAM custa rahe je bImADA hemAM pedA thayA hoya te jANavA zIza kare, henuM mULa zodhavA mathana karo. satya zuM hovuM joIe henuM zodhana kare ane hamArA dharmamAM rahIne ja dharmiSTha bane. veda dharma kahe ke jaina dharma kahe, koI, dravya-kSetra-kALa-bhAvane vicAra karyA sivAya vartana karavAnuM pharamAvati nathI. vedAnuyAyIne zrI kRSNa arjunane janarakSaNa arthe najadIkanA paratu AsurI vRttinA svajano para dayA nahi karavAne tatvajJAnI upadeza Apyo che ane jainenA sUtramAM vratadhArI varazunAga natavAe hajAro manuSyonA rakSaNArthe upavAsanuM pAraNuM karavuM cheDIne samarAMgaNamAM dehatyAga karyo hato evuM varNana che. sarvamAM apekSA nayI tarapha daSTi rAkhIne upadeza karAve che. vidyAbhyAsa, dezATana, satata udhama ane rAjA-prajA bane tarapha vaphAdArIH ItyAdine upadeza ane dharmoe karelo che. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ "mAtRbhUminA nirmaLa prema e sarva dharma ane sarva dezanu mAnItuM puSpa che. kAI te puSpane ukheDI nAMkhavAnI hiMmata dharaze nahi. jee saMsArathI vimukata thayA che, je brahma agara meAkSanI sAdhanAmAM lAgyA che, hemane sAMsAra sAthe kAMi ja nisbata nathI hemane bAda karatAM duniyAmAM koi paNa evA vicArazIla purUSa nathI ke je svadeza mATe sAcI lAgaNI dharAvatA na hoya. << ApaNA svadezapremamAM khalela nAkhanArAM dhaNAM kAraNo che. zakti vagaranAM lagna e mhoTu ane prathama kAraNa che. dhaMdhA vagaranA azakta upadezakA e bIjuM kAraNa che. te chAM chAM viSayI bhakti ane ALasupaNAnA upadeza kare che, ke je svIkAravA aneA mATe ghaNA sahelA che. AvA upadezake! ethIe vadhAre bhayakara pApa je kareche tee che ke, eka eka dharmavALAne laDAvI mAre che. musalamAne kArane mAravAthI meAkSa maLatuM mAne che, hiMdu mlecchonA sparzane AbhaDacheTa TharAvI apamAna pahoMcADI laDAInAMkhIja vAve che, jenAne amuka bhAga hemanAmAMnA ja bIjA bhAgane pajavavAmAM dhama mAne che, vaivA zaivIenI niMdA karavAmAM ja kalyANa mAne che. paNa e svadezadrAhIo jANatA nathI ke, kaleSamAM dharma batAvanArA loko dharmane lAyaka ja na hAi zake. dharma pustako mAtra hamArI buddhine khIlavavAnAM sAhitya che; pachI A khIlelI buddhi vaDe hamane je vadhAre hitakara lAge te khuzIthI kare. bAkI tAjAnA upavAsathI ja kAMI meAkSa nathI; vaiSNuvAnI bhaktithI ja kalyANu nathI; musalamAnAnA yakInathI ja jinnata maLatI nathI; A sarvanu tatva shamajavAnuM che ane te sTumajaNa vaDe pachI hamane anukULa paDe te kAma karavAnAM che. - dharmanA nAme kArDanA upadeza karanArAnu mAnanArA loko jANatA nathI ke, duniyAmAM pAMca-pacIza ja dharmo nathI paNa jeTalAM magajo eTalA dhama che. eka ja dharmapustakanI, cha magajamAM, cha nakala yAya; te chae nakalAmAM tAvata paDaze. ahiMsA paramo dharma: " e ekaja vAkya eka magaja evA rUpamAM hamajaze ke, kAraNa vagara jIvane mAravA nahi, bhANusanA upayoga mATe te mAravA; khIjuM magaja evA Aya leze ke mAtra dharma kAraNa mATe mAravA paDe te khAda karatAM bIjA kAraNathI na mAravA; trIjuM magaja vaLI ema shamajaze 67 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ . ke, kai rIte na mAravA. ema chae mata jUThThA Avaze. sUtra e chatAM dharma jUdA jUdA cha thayA; tethI zuM eke khIjAte gA devI ? hamArA dharamAM hamane tuvaranI dALa pasaMda che, hamArI patnIne aDadanI pasaMda che, hamArI mAtAne maganI pasaMda che ane hamArA pitAne lIluM zAka pasaMda che; te mATe zuM hame hamArA pitAne mUkhAM kaheze| agara mhenane zuM raDA ' kahezA agara mAtAne lAkaDI ugAmazeA ? . zu zuM--harakAi khAkhatamAM nahi-zatru thavuM ekasape kAma re dhanI zuM ke saMsArasudhArAnI matabheda tA thavA pAme ja; paNa ethI virAdhI banavuM nahi. dezahitanI bAbateAmAM hAtha sAthe hAtha meLavI karavuM, e ja dharmiSTha purUSonuM bhUSaNa che. dezanI dazA sudhAravA icchanAre prathama ayeAgya laggAnA rIvAjate nAbuda karavA kaTibadhdha thavuM oie; pachI 'vizrAntigRhe 'ne badale kustIkhAnAM ane kasaratazALAe DAmaDAma sthApavI joie. hemAM tAlIma ApIne prajAne hImatavALI, kasAyalI, dhIrajavALI batAvavI joIe. ethI vidhA levAnI zakti paNa vadhatI Avaze; bhaviSyanI prajA paNa jorAvara usanna thaze; nhAnI nhAnI mAMdagI adRzya thaze ane raLavAnI azakti paNa ghaTaze. thAra pachI keLavaNInA pracAra mATe gAmegAma nizALeA sthApavI joie. je gAmAmAM sarakArI zALA na hAya htAM khAnagI sAhasathI zALAo kahADavI; dareka chekarA ane dareka chekarIte pharajIta keLavaNI ApavI. gaaN ane hAM sarakArI nizALanA vakhata uparAMta khAnagI rIte eka kalAka svadeza ane svadharmanI sthitinuM bhAna karAvanArAM ane te sudhAravAnA upAya sUcavanArAM pustakonA abhyAsa karAvavAnI goThavaNa thavI joie. rAjya mAthe badhAM kAmeAnA jo nAkhavA te, kRtavratA kahevAya. prajAe potAnu karttavya pote sTamajavuM joie. ApaNA zrIma teAnI lakSmI zA kAmanI che? zuM te lakSmI para ApaNA hakka nathI ? zuM te mAnA udaramAMthI nIkaLatI vakhate te lakSmI sAthe bAMdhatAM AvyA hatA ? hamArI pAse daza rUpiyAnA pagArathI kAma karAvIne hemAMthI pacAsa rUpiyA raLanArA zeThIo lakhApati -khanI amanacamana kare ane hame ceDA pagAra ane samra mahenatane pari NAme bharayuvAnImAM tUTI javAne lIdhe nAkarI karavAne azakta aneA te vakhate Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ ta hamArI mahenatathI zrImaMta banelA te zeTha latAma'DapamAM nAkhelA suMvALA, kAcamAM esI vArAMganAnAM meAhaka gItAmAM mazagula banI hamArA bhUkhe maratA kuTuMbanA kAlAvAlA upara dhyAna paNa na ApatA hoya te evA zeTha mATe enAIsTA ubhA thAya hemAM zuM Azcarya ! emanA paisA emanA du:khI sevakAnA kAmamAM, du:khI svadezI baMdhuonA kAmamAM na Ave ane mAtra hemanI vAsanAtRptimAM ja vaparAya e zuM che gajaba che ? evA zeThA ( nahi, zo) AryAvartImAM nahAyatA vadhAre mahetara che. mahAna aMgreja yAddA nalsana maratAM maratAM khelyA. hatA keH-- England expects every one to do his duty; ' ttavyavIrAnI janetA AryabhUmi te potAnI putrIe pratye yugA thayAM kahetI AvI che ke -- "" " jananI jaNa teA bhakta jana, kAM dAtA kAM zura) nahi tA raheje vAMjhaNI; mata gamAvIza nUra ! svadezIe pAsethI ane svadezIonA kAMDAnI mahenatathI meLavelA paisA svadezIonA uddAra arthe ja kharcavAmAM Ave, tethI, kharcanArane kAraTa gaNA yaza maLe, potAnA bhAe sukhI yatA joI manane Ana maLe, paralAkanu bhAthu baMdhAya; ethI vadhAre khIjAM joie ja zu ? tr * 6 ' " zrImaMtA ! hame lADI gADI ane vADInA hadapArane zAkha . cheDI de. hame harAmanuM khAvuM. javA de. dezamAMthI meLavelA paisA svA mAM--halakA svArthamAM vAparaze| tA hainA hisAkha eka divasa ApavA paDaze. te vakhate te uDAvelAM nANAM vyAja sAthe gaNI ApavA. paDaze thAre karyAMAMthI lAvI zakaze ? mATe hAthamAM bAjI che shAM sudhI cetA; jApAnanA rAjAe mIlaneA udyoga peAtAnA dezamAM dAkhala karavA mATe.TharAva karyA ke je kAi mAsa mIla kare hene sALa dITha varase rU. 5 ) sarakAra madada Apaze. Ama khuda rAjyakartA taraphathI. madada maLatI haiAMya tAkANu hunnarazAdhana na kare ? jarmanImAM keLavaNI pAchaLa sarakAra abajo rUpiyA kharce che. sAMnI eka nizALanA makAnanuM varNana sAMbhaLeA tA hamArI DagaLI khasI jAya. rajavADA- 69 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ nA mahela e nizALanA makAna AgaLa tuccha mAtra che. ane A sarva rAjanI madadathI ja thayuM che. paraMtu ApaNu kamanasIba bhArataprajA mATe keLavaNInI jarUra nathI, ItihAsanI jarUra nathI, punarakaLAnI jarUra nathI, kavAyata zikhavAnI jarUra nathI. (kAraNa ke rakSaNa karanAra ane taiyAra vastuo banAvI banAvIne ghara sudhI mokalI ApanAra bahAdura videzI amara rahe !) rajavADAo nIca kAmanI raMDAo sAthe vyabhicAramAM je kharca kare che te vakhate zuM sArvabhauma sattAnI paravAnagI mAgavA jAya che ke ? khAnagI gRhastho eka makAna chatAM 4 bIjAM baMdhAvavA doDe che tyAre zuM pesAnI darakAra kare che ke? savAla mAtra manane ja che-savAla mAtra svadezAbhimAnane. che-savAla mAtra mANasAIne che. henAmAM mANasAI che, henAmAM hiMdupaNuM ke jainapaNuM-musalamAnapaNuM ke pArasIpaNuM che, nAmAM Izvaraprema che, jahenAmAM baMdhubhava che, jahenAmAM umadA vicAro mATe koI paNa jagA che tevA leke te svadezahitArthe dravya kharcavAmAM kadI AnAkAnI karaze ja nahi. ane hAre ema thaze. hAre ja keLavaNI ane hunarakaLAne, dharma ane tatvajJAnane phelA gheraghera thaze ane pitA pratye, pitAnAM sagAMvahAlAM pratye, pitAnA svadezIo pratye, pitAnA svadharmIo pratye ane pitAnA rAjakartA pratye potAnI zuM pharaja che te dareke dareka mANasa hamajaze; ane e samaja-e jJAnane prakAza ja hemane saghaLI jAtanA vhema, saghaLI jAtanA Apa ApasanA kajIA, saghaLI jAtanAM vhIkaNapaNuM, saghaLI jAtanAM svArthIpaNAM ane saghaLI jAtanA adharmathI dUra rAkhaze ane Arya dharma tathA Adezane uddhAra thaze. bhAgyazALI Aryo! AryabhUmimAM janma e ja mahad bhAgya che jahemanuM evA Aryo ! hamArI havAranI prabhuprArthanA vakhate ane dhyAna vakhate. me evI prArthanA kare ane evI bhAvanA bhAve ke hamAre dareka dezI bhAI ane dareka bahena jJAna pAme, baLa pAme, tathA jJAna ane baLane sadupaga karavAnI IcchA pAme! astu ! bela zrI A bhUmine jya! bela bele zrI mahAvIra, buddha, kRSNa, rAma, vikrama ane bhejanI janetA zrI Arya bhUmine jaya !!" bhASaNa puruM thatAM rotAgaNe harSanAdathI te vadhAvI lIdhuM ane ' pachI keTalAeka vaktAoe pitAnA vicAro jaNavyA; chevaTe mahArAjAe ubhA thaIne nIce pramANe vivecana karyuM. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ "Arya babdha sudarzana tathA prajAgaNa! "Aje huM eka evA AyabanyunI pichAna pAmyo , ke jene huM jIdagI paryata bhUlI zakIza nahi. e namra vaktAe je ucca vicAre hamaNAM darzAvyA che te sAMbhaLI hamane je lAbha thavA saMbhava che te lAbha mATe hamArA sarvanI vatI huM ja bhAvaNakartAne upakAra mAnavAnI taka letAM jaNAvuM chuM ke, emaNe mAtra hArI prajAne ja nahi paNa mahane paNa keTaluMka jJAna ApyuM che. emanA bhASaNamAM je vividha mudA emaNe carcA che te parathI samajAya che ke, AjakAla udayanuM sAdhana je dharma te ja pAyamAlInuM hajIAra thaI paDayuM che ane tethI ja pramAda, kaleSa, kAyaratA, viSayAsakti vagere durgaNe vadhavA pAmyA che. mATe huM hamane dharma-kharA dharma-saMbadhI DIka salAha ApIza te viSayAntara thayuM nahi gaNAya. "dharmane sAmAnya artha kartavya athavA pharaja. kartavyaparAyaNa mANasane ja leke mAna Ape che, teo ja kharA sukhI hoya che; hemanA ja upara vizvane AdhAra che. je mANasamAM pitAnA kartavyanuM bhAna nathI, jahene zuM karavA yogya che ane zuM chAMDavA gya che henuM jJAna nathI, te mANasa havAmAM tarakhalA mAphaka AmathI tema ane temathI Ama bhaTakI bhaTakI, athaDAI TIcAI duHkhI thAya che ane A ghora saMsAraaraNyamAM bhUlA paDI Adhi, vyAdhi ane upAdhimAM sekAI aMte mAThI gati pAme che. - "sAco dharma athavA kharUM kartavya mANasane mAtra paralokanAM mIThAM vacana ApIne aTakatuM nathI paNa A lokamAM ja pratyakSa pArakhuM Ape che. kartavya jANanAra ane te pramANe vartanAra mANasane eka evo kimatI khajAno A janmamAM ja maLe che ke henI barAbarI karavA hajAro kohInura paNa zaktimAna nathI. e khajAne paisAnA rUpamAM nathI hotA, ke bAdazAhI sattAnA rUpamAM nathI heta; kAraNake paisAthI ane bAdazAhI sattAthI sukhI thayelA purUSe bhAgye ja jANavAmAM AvyA che. paraMtu e khajAne sukhI aMta:karaNa - nA rUpamAM hoya che. saMsAranI koIpaNa cIja evI nathI ke je mANasane ciMtAo ane upAdhionI pIDAthI bacAvI zake. evI zakti te mAtra "sukhI aMtaHkaraNa" mAM ja che, ke jADene koI paNa prakAranAM Adhi-vyAdhi-upAdhi pajavavAmAM phAvatAM ja nathI. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ " "sukhI aMtaHkaraNa" e kAMI AkAza gaMgAnA puSpa jevI cIja nathI, arthAta kAlpanika padArtha nathI; te kharekhara hayAtI dharAve che paNa eTalA thADA manuSyomAM hayAtI dharAve che ke manuSya vargane mahaTa bhAga henI hayAtIthI paNa ajANyo che agara te hene kAlpanika padArtha mAne che. : "ApaNe thoDAMka daSTAnto lai jaizuM ke dharma athavA kartavya bajAvanArA lokone "sukhI aMtaHkaraNa" no khajAne maLe che e eka satya vArtA che ke kavionI kalpanA che. A "kAmadeva zramaNopAsaka AtmagoSThimAM lAgyo hateAhAre devatAo -bhayaMkara rUpa dharIne hene vividha prakAranA parisahanI pIDA upajAvavA mAMDI hatI; paraMtu kAmadeva sArI rIte hamajato hato ke mahAra "dhama AtmA che; zarIra e te mAtra AtmAnuM jaDa "dhara" che; e gharanA bacAva khAtara henI aMdaranA kimatI jAnane nukazAnamAM nAkhavAnuM kAma karavuM e mahArA "dharma" viruddha che. ema hamajI te AtmagoSThimAM maMDayo rahyA, he tAra tuTavA dIdho nahi. tethI devane parisaha haine lAge ja nahi. dharmaparAyaNa athavA kartavyaparAyaNa thavAthI zuM phAyado che ema pUchanArane kAmadevane dAkhalo pahelA -naMbarane javAba rUpa che. hene mAra paDyo e te satya ja che; ane mANasa jevuM prANI devatA jevA mahAbaLavAnanA hAtha pakaDI zake e paNa zakya nathI; hAre e mAranI asara ja kAI na thAya -are bhAra lAge ja nahi e zuM kharekharUM rakSaNa na kahevAya? eka bIjuM dRSTAMta laIe. grisamAM trIsa julamagAronA jamAnAmAM arthAta je vakhate prajA bahuja duHkhI hatI e jamAnAmAM sekreTisa nAmane eka tatvavettA thaze. henA pitAnA zabdo A pramANe cheH "juo ! hArA tarapha najara karo! hArI pAse zahera nathI, ghara nathI, jamIna nathI, dhana nathI, nekara nathI, huM jamIna upara suI rahuM chuM; mahAre strI ke saMtAna kAMI nathI, mAtra AkAza ane pRthvI tathA eka phATayuTo Dagalo ene ja -AdhAra che; te paNa hAre zAne che? zuM huM dIlagIrI vinAne nathI ? zuM huM Dara vinAne nathI? zuM huM svataMtra ane sukhI nathI? je IcchavA yogya hoya te mahane na maLyuM hoya ema kadI zuM Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ - banyuM che? agera je IcachavA yogya na hAya hene mATe huM kadApi prayatna karyo che? hamArAmAMnA keIe mahArUM vadana kheti joyuM che? hame jethI Dare che ane jahemanI prazaMsA kare che tevA lokone che kevI rIte maLuM chuM? zuM huM hemane gulAma mAphaka gaNato nathI? che hane maLanArA mANase, huM jANe ke hema rAjA ke mAlIka houM tema dhAratA nathI ?' "A dRSTAMta zuM ApaNane dharmaparAyaNa athavA kartavyaparAyaNa jaMdagInA phaLane Abehuba citAra ApatuM nathI? zuM lakSmI ane strI evuM phaLa ApI zakaze? lakSmI ane strIthI maLatAM sukhane huM anyAya ApavA IcchatA nathI, paraMtu zuM hemAM sukha karatAM duHkhanuM vadhAre pramANamAM mizraNa nathI? mATe A khuluM che ke dharmaparAyaNa jIdagIthI A janmamAM je sukhI aMta:karaNa" rUpI phaLa maLe che te jeTA vagaranuM che. " "duniyAnA saghaLA duSTa pura ane dukhadAyaka padArthone nAza karavA rAkSaso paNa azakta che; tathApi dharmaparAyaNa loko e savanI asarathI pitAne bacAvI zake che; AkhI pRthvIne kapaDuM maDhAze nahi; paNa potAnA page pagarakhAM paheravAthI mANasa pRthvI uparanA kAMTA-kAMkarAthI pitAnuM rakSaNa karI zake khare. temaja A anAdi sRSTimAM duSTa purUSo, duSTa padArtho ane aniSTha banAve thatAM AvyAM che ane thayAMja karaze; hemano nAza karIne sukhI thavAnI AzA koI rAkhe to vyartha che; ulaTa te bamaNe duHkhI thaze. paraMtu pitAne hemanI asara ja na thAya. evI gaThavaNuM karavAnuM te henA hAthamAM che kharuM; ane te ja pramANe kAmadeve ane sekreTise dhamanI madadathI karyuM hatuM. " AjakAla duniyAmAM lukhkhI vAtane ke bAhya kriyAne ja dharmamAM mAnanArA ghaNuM loko jovAmAM Ave che. hemanA upara AkSepa karavAnI mUrkhatA nahi karatAM ApaNe hemane eTaluM ja batAvIe ke je mANasanA gharamAM lAkha rUpIA dATelA che te mANasa hAM sudhI jamIna khodI rUpIA kahADI bajAramAM jaI joItI cIja kharIdI-bhegave nahi tyahAM sudhI e rUpiyA haine kazA kAmanA nathI" ema hamajAvIe te teo Apa Apa hamajaze ke, dharma e kaI pikaLa avAja nahi paNa amuka vartananuM nAma che. " Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ 8 prANIne maLelI kudaratI zaktionA dararojanAM kRtyAmAM sadupayeya e ja dharma che. ' dharmanI A sAdI vyAkhyA ne dareka manuSya svamare te! duniyAmAMthI durguNo ane vyasanA tathA durAcaraNeA adRzya thAya, maitrIbhAva arthAt bandhutvabhAva jaLahaLI rahe, zArIrika pIDAe AchI thai jAya, mAnasika ciMtA ghaTI jAya ane narakanAM Ara lagabhaga baMdha thavAne vakhata Ave. . vhAre have evA sAdA--svAbhAvika dharmane aMgIkAra karavA koIne icchA thAya to heMne kayuM nAma ApavuM ? A savAla aTapaTA che. ` saghaLuM jheravera aaN ja AvIte bharAyuM che. dharmane ale adhama ahIM ja thAya che. kharA dhama jo hame jainane kaheroA te vedAMtI lAkaDI lai ubhA thaze; vedAMtIonA dharmane kharA kahezeA tA jenA khaLabhaLI uDaze. A dhArmika jhagaDAoe ghaNAeka bheLA jIvAne dharmathI vimukha banAvyA che. dhaNAeka mANusA evA levAmAM Ave che ke jeo kahe che ke, sarva dharmo pAtAnI baDAi ane pArakI niMdA karatA hovAthI dharma' zabda ja pAkaLa che, AkAzagagAvat che. A nAstikapaNA mATe jo koI jImnevAra hAya tA te dhArmika yuddhanA nAyakA ja che. tee pote te| jtArathI tee kalahane tAbe thayA hArathI ja dharmarAjyathI bahiSkRta thayelA che, paNa te sAthe te bhInna saMkhyAbaMdha prANIone nAstikapaNAnI khAimAM haDaselI daI ' sukhI aMtaHkaraNa ' jevA umadA khAtA akSanAra dharmathI parAbhukha kare che. khare| dhamo purUSa te mUrkha upara pazu dhyArdaSTi rAkhe che, haeNnI ajJAnatAne hAMzInA viSaya banAvatA nathI. carcA ke dalIlanA nAme koInI lAgaNI du:khAvI dharmimAM khavA mathanArA bALajIvA kharekhara sarca karatAM bamaNA dayA khAvA jevA che. " " . kSamA, nilebhatA, saraLatA, mRdutA, lAdhava, satyatA, indriyanigraha, tapa, jJAnAbhyAsa ane brahmAcayaH e 10 saddaguNAnA sevanamAM ja dharma ! rahelA che ane jee AmAM pApa che ane AmAM puNya che evI vAtAmAM ja muMjhAi na rahetAM pUrvakarmAnusAra AvI paDatI dharo adA lAvavAmAM purUSAtana dAkhave che ane te vakhate aMtarAtmAne nirlepa rAkheche teo ja kharekharA dharmAtmA che--pachI bhale te purUSA game te dharmanA hoya ane game te veSa paheratA hoya. 7 - Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ . have huM bhASaNakartAe A rAjyane ApelA abhinaMdana saMbaMdhe DaMka kahIza. "mANasane sukhI ane duHkhI karanAra pitAnAM kare che e kudaratano kAyado kadI bhUlavo joi nathI. rAjanagaranI sthiti je saMtoSajanaka na hoya te hemAM kAraNabhUta tyAMnI prajAnI eka yA bIjI kasUra hovI joIe. je loke. mahemAMhe kusaMpa karI samAjabaLa gumAvatA hoya, pitA ja svArtha tarapha najara rAkhatA hoya, duniyAmAM zuM bane che te jANavAnI darakAra karavAnI nA kahetA hoya, zrama ane sAhasathI bhaDakatA pharatA hoya evA lakone rAjakartAnI te zuM paNa sagAbhAInI paNa taraphathI prIti ke nyAyanI AzA rAkhavAne haka nathI. baMdhu sudarzana ! hamArA jevA lAyaka purUSo je dezamAM pAkavA lAgyA che te dezane cheka ja nirAza thavAnuM kazuM kAraNa nathI. lakSmInI sAthe vidyAnuM ane sahRdayatAnuM jora maLatAM kaI prajA bheyapara paDI rahI sAMbhaLI che? hame hamArA dezamAM svadezI dhoraNa upara keLavaNI ApavAnuM kAma AgaLa vadhAre, svadezI vastuonI banAvaTa ane pracAra mATe kamara kasI dezanI utpAdaka zakti vadhAre, aMgakasarata (kAraNa ke baLa vagarano mANasa bejA rUpa che), khItAbo ane mAna akarAmanA lobhane amIbhUta kare, pAMcaso rUpIA mATe gulAmI karavA karatAM daza rUpIA svataMtrapaNe raLI sAduM bhejana letAM zikhe, sAduM bhojana paNa svataMtra mahenatathI na maLe to deza choDI dariyApAranA dezomAM jaI rahyAM udhama karI paisA laI dezamAM Ave. hamArA dezamAM varSo thavAM je bahAranA loko AvI vasyA heya hemaNe karelA julama have bhUlI jAo; kAraNa ke lAMbA vakhatanA vasavATane lIdhe teo have hamArA dezI bhAI banyA che mATe hemane " bhAI" mAphaka gaNa hamAruM baLa vadhAro (nahi te ochA keLavAyalA te lokone bIjAo pitAnA hathIAra tulya banAve hemAM hemane kAMI deSa gaNAya nahi); ane hemane keLavaNImAM AgaLa vadhAro. vaLI hamArAmAMnA jeo dharmane nAme jhINI jhINI bAbatamAM muMjhAI rahyA che hemane kahe ke, haTA dariyA oLaMgavA icchanAre vacce AvatAM khAbocIne, hisAba gaNave pAlave nahi. hemane paise dharmanA nAme thatA roga pachaLa kharcAtA hoya te te kare have oNlarazIpa ane videzagamanamAM jAya karavAne raste vALe. je zrImaMte hadapAranI svArthadhatA batAve | 75 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ 6 tenI barAbara khabara levAnu kAma 'mahAjana'' tu che. mhArI ATalI sUcanAe mitra murchAna lakSamAM rAkhaze te emanA mananA sadhaLI murAda pAra paDaze. Izvara hemane ja madada kare che je peAtAne ' madada kare che. be rAjanagaranA rADherIe pote potAne madada karaze agara pote ja karttavyaparAyaNa thaze te banavA dvega che ke sAmrAjya dvArA ja parama kRpALu paramAtmA hemane vadhu madada pahoMcADavA cuze nahi. .. bhASaNa khatama thayuM; tAlIonA cAlu avAje AkAza cIrI nAkhyuM ane chevaTe sabhA visarjana thaI. mahArAjAe sudarzanane rAja mahelamAM AmaMtraNa ApyuM hovAthI te sAthe ja bagImAM besI huMkArI gayA ane loko rAjA temaja mudatanI tArIpha karatA tathA 4 mAstara ' nI kanyAnA nazInI prazaMsA karatA saisAnI jagAe gayA. mahArAjAe murzana roDha sAthe zu goSTi karI te hajI jaNAyuM nathI. te eka guptavArtAja hatI anetesaMbaMdhamAM loko vividha ta vitarka karatA hatA. e teA game te hA, parantu banne vacce te vakhatathI gADha sambandha badhAyA ane moDI rAtre sudarzana potAnA tAre gayA. bIje divase mudana potAnI dharmapatnI tathA jAnaiyAone lane rAjanagara tarapha vidAya thaye. paraMtu te sahIsalAmata pAtAne ghera pahoMce te pahelAM kAMI kAMI khela vidhAtA khelavAnI hatI. sudarzanane mAthe eka vAdaLa gherAi AvyuM hatuM, je hamaNAM varasyuM ane une rastAmAM ja rokI rAkhyA. te vALu mokalanAra duSTa mANekacaMda hatA, ke je viivakraya ane kanyAvikrayanI hImAyatamAM apamAna pAmavAthI vera levAnuM 8 paNa ' late nAphe| hatA ema trIjA prakaraNa-mAM ApaNe joi gayA chIe. mANekacaMda hamaNAM A zaheramAM ja sudarzananAM lagna jevA AvyA hatA ane sabhA vacce mahArAjA ane sudarzana sAthe thayelA maMtrI sabaMdha henA hAthamAM hathIAra tulya thai paDayA hatA. te te ja rAtrIe eka jalada azva laine rAjanagara tara DayA ane chAMnA munnAne maLI eka dhAstIbharyAM mANasanA patto meLavI ApavAnI vadhAmaNI ApI. te parathI keTalAka sIpAie sAthesue tAbaDatAja 76 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ ravAnA thayA ane rAjanagara tathA vijayanagaranI madhyamAM paDAva nAkhe, evI matalabathI ke sudarzanane tyAM ja pakaDIne keda karavo. ja paraMtu subAnI madadathI mANekacaMda pitAnI dhAraNA pAra pADI zake te pahelAM vidhAtAe kAMI judo ja ghATa ghaDI rAkhyo hate.. , rAjanagaranA subAnI vahemI prakRtithI kaMTALI gayelA je nirdoSa zaherIo pitAnA kuTuMba para aNadhArI Aphata AvI paDavAnI dahesatathI najadIkamAM AvelA pararAjyamAM jaI vasyA hatA, hemAMnA keTalAka AkaLA svabhAvanA uddhatenI eka hAnI sarakhI TukaDI - manA bIjA zAntipriya dezabAndhavonA vicArathI jUdI paDI amalatedArone satAvI hemanI AMkha ughaDAvavAnA nizcaya para AvI hatI. jo ke haju sudhI te TukaDIe te uddhata nizcayane kadi amalamAM mUkyo hato ane tethI dezanI zAntimAM bhaMga paDayo nahato, tathApi hemanA manamAM lAgI rahelI Aga jovA pAmelA hemanA Tharela dezabAndhavo te TukaDInI uzkeraNIo tarapha sakhtamAM sakhta aNagamo dharAvatA hatA ane teo te TukaDIne pitAnI hamezanI DahApaNabharelI paddhatithI samajuta ApatA ke, Aga AgathI nahi paNa jaLathI ja bujhAya; avizvAsa sAme phatehamaMdIthI vAparavAnuM sArAmAM sAruM hathIAra vizeSa vaphAdArI ja che, ke jene ghA hadayanA uMDANa sudhI pahoMcIne avizvAsane jaDamULathI nAza kare che; sAmrAjya ane A dezane saMbaMdha kudarate ja jeDyo che ane kudarate haimAM bannenuM hita ja mAnyuM che; tephAna ke khaTapaTathI kadApi cIrasthAyI zAnti meLavI zakAze nahi, paNa vizeSatara prema, saMpUrNa aikaya ane suzikSitapaNAnA pracAranI hIlacAlothI ja Icchita sukhanI prApti saMbhave che. AvI ghaNI dalIle teo karatA ane hAre te svadezapremanA saMdaguNane uddhatAIne kALA vastrathI AcchAdita karI bhayaMkara TukaDInuM nAma pAmelA muThThIbhara mANaso te hamajAvaTa para lakSa na ApatA hAre teonA uchAMchaLA zabdo sAme jAhera rIte aNagamo ane tiraskAra batAvavAnuM pitA pAsenuM ekanuM eka hathIAra paNa te zAntipriya zaherIo khAtA hadaye vAparatA. jagatamAM devI ane AsurI prakRti kATakamIthI cAlI Ave che pachI A AsurI prakRtinI TukaDInI uddhatAIo ane tethI amaladArenA manamAMnAM vahemanAM bIjane maLatI puSTi mATe AMsu pADavAM nakAmAM che. dezamAM sAmudAyika ma" je anaphaLa ja haze te te karma kaI evA ja subAne mo Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ kalaze ke je bInaanubhavI uchAMchaLI ToLIne prema ane dIlasenA saMsthI vaza karaze ane hatheLImAM nacAvaze. te vakhate te nAdAna baccAMo pitA pAse kSamA cAhaze ane pitAnA avinaya mATe zaramAI prathamanI bhUlonA badalAmAM pitAnI sevAmAM prANa paNa karavA tatpara thaze. e vakhata AvatA sudhImAM rAjanagarathI parAjya * mAM jaI vaselI A hAnI nAdAna TukaDInI mUrkhAIne thoDoeka itihAsa ApaNI vArtAnA vaphAdAra nAyaka sAthe te ItihAsanuM amuka prakaraNa saMbaMdha dharAvatuM hoI--ApaNe dIlagIrIthI tapAsyA sivAya chUTake nathI, hakIkta ema banI ke, te " bhayaMkara TukaDI" ne evA khabara maLyA hatA ke rAjanagaranA sUbAne bhAI potAnA kuTuMba sAthe vijayanagarane rastethI AgaLa musApharI karanAra che. strI te TukaDIe pAMca majabuta gAmaDIAone hemane lUTavAnA AzayathI rastA rokI besADyA hatA. sudarzana ane henA sAthIone te raste pasAra thatA joi te gAmaDIAoe hemane subAnuM kuTuMba mAnI gherI lIdhA ane hAmA thavA sivAya tAbe thanAra para pahele prahAra karavo nahi evo mane niyama che ema jaNAvIne AbhUSaNe utArI ApavAnI mAgaNI karI. sudarzanane A mAgaNI ajAyabIbharelI lAgI ane te kasAyela hovAthI svamAna jALavavA mATe hA thavA taiyAra thA; aMgakasaratanA akhADAthI banazIba rahelA vivekacaMdra hene rokavA chatA te svarakSaNa ane svamAna khAtara laDavAne taiyAra thaI gaye ane pitAnI lAkaDI sajaja karI AgaLa dho. e nirbaLa thIAra vaDe eNe be zatruone te jamIna para sUvA DyA paNa te pachI bAkInA gAmaDIAo paikInA eke pIstAla tAkI. hathIAranA kAyadAe dezane svarakSaNa mATe ke nAlAyaka banAvI dIdho che e bAbatanuM A vakhate sudarzanane bhAna thayuM. teNe cAlAkIthI eka nIzAna te cUkavyuM hatuM paNuM. bIjI geLI henA paga para caherI ane temAMthI lohI vahevA lAgyuM. kasAyalA sudarzanane A che kAMI bebhAna karavAne purate nahI paraMtu potAnA sAbatIonI zArIrika nibaLatAne khyAla AvavAthI heNe atre yukti calAvavAnI jarUra joI pagamAM geLIne praveza thatAM ja te jANa joIne jamIna para DhaLI paDyo ane maraNa. tulya thavAne dekhAve karyo. AthI yuddhane aMta Avyo ane gAmaDIAo sarva A 178 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ bhUSaNa bhaI sAthe pitAnI hAme thanAra mUchita bhANasane upADI cAlatA thayA. A prasaMge vicaMdra,vidhutabALA vageree luTArUone ghaNae AjIjI karI paNa teoe te para kAMI lakSa ApyuM nahi. vidyutabALAnA kAlAvAlAthI dayA utpanna thavAne lIdhe chevaTe eTalo dIvAso teo ApatA gayA ke teo hene hemanA ziradAra pAse laI jaI kAMI paNa IjA karyA vagara choDI mUkaze ane tyAra pachI ja hemanA bane ghavAyelA batIone upADI jaze. traNa lUTArAo sudarzanane uMcakI sumAre be mAIla dUra gayA pachI thAka khAvA eka vRkSa taLe beThA ane khare madhyAnha hovAthI ugra garamIne lIdhe teomAM jarA sustI AvavA lAgI. pitAne kedI mUcchita dazAmAM hoi teo nirbhaya hatA tethI hene eka bAjue mUkI pite ghaDI leTI gayA. A takano lAbha laI sudarzana beTho thaye ane teonAM bhayaMkara hathIAra upADI javA tathA te vaDe teonuM ja khUna karI vaira vALavA haine IcchA thaI AvI. paraMtu e 'kAma hIcakAruM che evo khyAla AvavAthI te khAlI hAthe ane kAMI paNa ijA karyA sivAya nhAvA lAge. ema karavA pahelAM heNe pitAnI dhatIno cheDo phADIne ghA upara majabuta bAMdhyuM. AvatI vakhate mRcchanA Dhaga karavAnuM hovAthI potAnI AMkho baMdha rAkhavI paDI hatI te kAraNathI rastAnuM hene koI samaraNa rahyuM nahatuM ane padacinha joI jeIne cAlavA jeTale vakhata na hato; tethI te deve sUcavelA raste mUThI vALI deDavA lAgyuM, paraMtu doDheka mAIla jeTale rasto kApyA pachI A ghAyala thayelA pathikane tRSA, thAka ane sakhta tApanI - garamInI asara eTalI badhI thavA lAgI ke jaLa ane ArAma sivAya calAvI levuM ne azakaya lAgyuM. lUTArAo jogaze to pAchaLa paDI pakaDI pADaze e dhAstIe paNa haine hatAza karI dIdho hato. potAnI patnI, mitra ane jAnaiyAo pitAne mATe jhUratAM "haze e vicAra paNa hene gabharAvI nAkhavAne purato hato. A saghaLAM kAraNe have hene doDavA ke cAlavAne cheka ja ayogya anAvI dIdhuM ane te jamIna para paTakAI paDyo. , Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ prakaraNa 8muM. kSemasUrinuM Atmakathana. ja nA che dhAtAnA khela vicitra che. pUrvamAM jaIne uttaramAM nIkaLatAM hene evuM sarasa AvaDe che ke enI akaLa gatinuM rahasya pAmara manuSyathI . pAmI zakAya tema nathI. lagna jevA zubha kAme sudarzanane mokalanArI vidhAtAe jeta jAtAmAM lagnane vinamAM pheravI nAkhyuM ane -daMpatIne chUTAM pADyAM; eTaluM ja nahi paNa ghavAyelA sudarzanane bharavigaDe nirAdhAra ane nirAzAjanaka sthitimAM lAvI mUke. vidhinA ADAavaLA rastAne jene anubhava thaye nathI tevA manuSyo te sudarzananI jIMdagInuM nATaka ahIM ja purUM thavAnI dhAstI rAkhaze, paraMtu je vidhi lagnane vigha rUpamAM pheravI zake che te vidhi vidhyane mahAmaMgala svarUpamAM pheravI nAkhavAne paNa eTalI ja samartha che. janmavuM, paraNavuM ane maravuM e traNa aMkamAM je je manuSyanuM jIvana-nATaka pUruM thAya che tevA manuSyanuM caritra lakhavAne kaI lekhinI zramita thaze? sudarzana pAse hajI ghaNuM veza bhajavAvavA vidhi IcchatI hatI ane tethI ja hene zira Aphata gujArIne henA hAthe bhaviSyamAM thavA jevAM kAryonuM mArga sUcana karavAnI A taka teNIe lIdhI hatI. koma ane dezanI sevAmAM kaMIka kAma hajI henA hAthe karAvavA vidhie yojanA karI rAkhI hatI. sevAdharmanA pAlananA prAraMbhamAM ja viMne rAkSasa dhurakIo kare che e eka sAdhAraNa niyama che ane e niyamamAMthI sudarzanane bacI jate jovAnI AzA rAkhavI phekaTa che. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ sudarzanane jamIna para DhaLI paDayAne thoDI miniTa thaI nahi. 1 hoya eTalAmAM kaI mANasa najadIkamAM ja raDatuM hoya evo avAja henA kAne paDaze. te sAthe lokhaMDanA cIpIAnA prahArane avAja paNa saMbhaLAto hato. Ave vakhate je sahelAmAM saheluM anumAna bAMdhI zakAya te e hatuM ke eka mANasa para bIjo mANasa prahAra karatA haze ane IjA pAmate mANasa raDate tathA karagarato haze. sudarzane paNa e ja anumAna bAMdhyuM ane henI dayAnI lAgaNIo ekadama uzkerAI gaI. e uzkeraNIe henI adazya thayelI tAkAda. pAchI bolAvI ane te potAnuM duHkha ane jokhama bhUlI jaIne duHkhInI hAre dhAvAnA nizcaya para AvI jaI ubhe thayo. je dizAmAMthI avAja Avato hato te dizA tarapha traNeka miniTa cAlatAM eka DhoLAvavALI jagAmAM eka vaDa nIce adbhuta dekhAva henI daSTie paDayo. eka navadIkSita jevo dekhAte bAvo AkAza bhaNI joIne kAMIka bolato hato, pazcAttApapUrvaka rahate hato ane dara babbe traNa traNa miniTe pitAnA hAthamAM lAMbo cIpIo pitAnA kapALa sAthe aphALo hato. sudarzananI IcchA gupacupa te bAvAnI pAchaLa ubhA rahI henA zabdo sAMbhaLavAnI hatI, paraMtu hene paDachAye jevAthI bAvo turata cetI gayo ane pAchaLa najara karatAM heNe eka thAkathI loTapoTa thayelA, page ghavAyelA, bhavya mukhAkRtivALA yuvAnane joyo. thoDA vakhata banne cupacApa ubhA. darekane bIjAnI sthiti, vicitra lAgatI hatI ane khulAso pUchavAnI tIvra utkaMThA hatI. paratuM zarUAta kema karavI e ja muzkelI hatI. chevaTe sudarzane jANe ke pote kAMI ja joyuM nathI evo dekhAva karI ne bhAgavAne prayatna karyo "saMta! ATalAmAM koI AzrayasthaLa Apa batAvI, zikaze ? " bAvAe praznanA uttaramAM sAmo savAla karyo "4 davA! tUM kayauM gabhaDAtA hai ? terI sIkala paraseM tUM koI mahAkaSTameM AyA huA amIrI AdamI mAlUma hotA hai. isa taraha akIlA 2 grAma para tu yA nahata?" ke sudarzanane A praznonI paramparA pasaMda paDI nahi. heNe sakSepanA javAba vALeH " mahArAja ! lUTArAonA hAthamAMthI chaTakI Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ bhUle paDelo chuM eka tRSAtura ane thAkelo vaTemAguM chuM. kahAM rahe ane keNuM chuM tathA o sthitinuM kAraNa zuM che e badhuM jANavAnI ApanI jijJAsA tapta karavAnI hamaNu mahArAmAM zakti nathI. hAla. turata myane jaLa ane AzrayasthaLanI anivArya jarUra che, te je Apa batAvI zakaze to heTo AbhAra thayo hamajIza." * bAvo turata ja pathikanI sthitinI gaMbhIratA hamajI gayo ane hene pitAnI pAchaLa AvavAne isAre karI najIkamAM AvelI eka kAMTAnI vADa tarapha cAlyo. tyAM pahoMcatAM vADanI madhyamAM paDelI eka paththaranI zIlA upADI dUra mUkI ane potAnA atithine uddezIne bolyoH "dura gherA vatI kare taraha jA mata karanA, baccA! yahAM para tUM bIlakula nirbhaya hai; koI zatru terA vattA nahIM paNa sattA che." sudarzana guphAmAM utahenI pAchaLa pote paNa gukSamAM utarIne bAvAe pelI zIlA pAchI hatI tema goThavI dIdhI ane guphAmAMnA purANa kuMDamAMnA ThaMDA jaLanuM eka tuMbaDuM bharI lAvI sudarzanane ApyuM, je pIvAthI hene bahu zAnti thaI ane nirbhaya sthaLanI prApti sAthe guphAnI ThaMDakathI henAmAM navuM jIvana AvatuM hoya ema dekhAvA lAgyuM. A bAvo pitAne hamaNAMnI muzkelImAMthI mukta thavAmAM ghaNe madadagAra thaI paDaze evI henAmAM AzA unna thaI. henAthI vAtacItane. prasaMga pADI Ate Ate henA vicAro jANI levAnI IcchAthI mudazane hene pUchyuM: "mahArAja! Ape Aje svane navo janma Apyo che ema kahuM te kaI khoTuM nathI. ATalI nhAnI umare dunIAthI udAsInatA AvavAnuM kayuM kAraNa Apane prApta thayuM hatuM te ne jaNAvavA kRpA karazo te duHkhanA te kAraNane nAbuda karavI khArAthI banate zrama uThAvavA huM vacana ApuM chuM." javAbamAM bA prathama te khUba hasyo ane dhio. sudarzananI ajayabImAM AthI ghaNuM vadhAre thayo. chevaTe bAvAe pratyuttara Apyo "sudanabhAI ! prathama dRSTie huM Apane na pichInI zako te mATe ane kSamA karaze sasta tApanI asarathI ane koI jabarA bayane lIdhe, ApanI lAMbA vakhatathI mahene paricita thayelI mukhamukI paNa che nimakaharAma oLakhI zakyo nahi. pitAnA gurU ane dharmane nikirAma nIvaDele A khemacaMda bIjA kenA tarapha nimakahalAla Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ batAvI zakavAna hato ? sudarzanabhAI ! A vezamAM Apane maLatAM huM lajavAI maruM chuM. paNa "kamane zarama nathI" e Apa sArI peThe jANe che. huM Apane gharanA mAlamalIdA khAIne chevaTe ApanA samAjane eba lagADanAra thaI paDe. Aje AkhA deza nimakaharAma khemacaMdajI muninA nAma para dhUke che ane pitAnuM pApI mukha vadhAre vAra keIne batAvavAnI hiMmata nahi cAlavAthI ja mahAre A nirjana sthaLamAM vasavATa karI jIMdagI purI karavAnuM TharAva karavo paDe che. o baMdhu ! mahane hasaze nahi, ne kAMI kaheze nahi; huM baLI rahelo chuM -mahene lAta mAraze nahi. mahene mahArUM mahA chUpAvavA do ane ema ja maravA do. " bA ekadama chAtIphaTa - raDavA lAgyo ane te joI sudarzana paNa raDavA jevo thaI gayo. henuM komaLa hadaya duzmananA paNa duHkhamAM bhAga paDAvavA hameza taiyAra hatuM. premacaMda khemacaMda ! huM hamane oLakhyA. hamArI A dazA joI hArUM jIgara cIrAI jAya che. paNa hame Ama nAhimata na thAo. hame hamArA pApane pazcAttApa kare che tethI sudhArAne pAtra cho ema spaSTa jaNAI Ave che. hame himata rAkhe ane saghaLuM kema banyuM te mane saMbhaLAvo. huM hamane dareka prakAranA dilAsA rUpa thaI paDIza.sudarzane mAyALu avAjathI kahyuM. " " jenA darzanathI huM jevA seMkaDone zAnti maLe che evA o pavitra zrAvaka ! varSo sudhI hemane namAvyA pachI Aje huM hamane ghUMTaNIe paDIne kahuM chuM ke mArA mATe hame parizrama na letA. hane te ekAMtamAM maravuM ja vadhAre ucita lAge che. jevo aparAdha tevI ja zikSA thavI joIe. tame mane dayA batAvaze, paNa paramAdhAmInA dIlamAM kAMI dayA utpanna karI zakazo? mATe baMdhu ! mhAre mATe ciMtA karavI cheDI gho.hArI vAta jANavAnI IcchAne paNa ahIM ja dATI che. tethI hamane ora vizeSa kheda thaze. hamArA keTalAka pUjya purUSo ujaLA he nIce kevI malInatA chupAve che te jANI mAruM komaLa hRdaya cIrAze ane mahAre te mATe paNa doSita banavuM paDaze. mATe te vAta jatI karo ane cAlo ahIMthI pAMca mAIla para AvelA vijayanagaramAM che hamane mArI kAMdhe besADIne 83. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ pahoMcADuM, hAM hamArA pagane prasiddha vaidyarAjanI jaDIbuTTIthI ArAma AvyA pachI huM hamane rAjanagara sudhI sahIsalAmata pahoMcADI AvIza. hame kuzaLa hazo te hArA jevA bArasene zAtA upajAvaze ane ane huM kazaLa haIza te bArasone bagADIza." bAvo be " hame Aje mArI jIMdagI bacAvI mhArA upara mahAna upakAra karyo che " sudarzane jaNAvyuM ane te upakArano badalo khAtara-koI nahi to badalA khAtara paNa-hAre hamane madada karavI joIe. mATe kRpA karI mahane saghaLo ItihAsa jaNAve." keTalIka AnAkAnI bAda bAvAjIe pitAne itihAsa kahevo zarU karyoH "zeThajI ! daza varSa upara maheM ApanA "pUjya" tarIkenuM pada dhAraNa karyuM te pahelAM huM eka sAmAnya pATIdAra hate. khetI karato hato ane TADha, taDake tathA varSAdanA parisaha eka "bAvA". mAphaka sahato hate. jADI khAdInI baMDI paherato ane bAra che mahIne keI kAmasara najIkanA zaheramAM javuM paDatuM te zaheranI ronaka dekhI huM dimUDha banI jato. amArA gAmamAM eka vakhata muhapativALA muni padhAryA. hemaNe jIvadayAne upadeza karyo paNa te hamajavA jeTalI zakti mahArAmAM nahotI. mahArAje vyAkhyAnane aMte jaNAvyuM ke hemanA jevA thavAthI raLavA-khapavAnI kAMI ciMtA rahetI nathI ane mAlamalIdA tathA bArIka kapaDAM manamAnyAM maLe che tathA mhoTA DeTA zrImati paNa page paDe che; vaLI mokSa paNa najIka Ave che. Ama sukhe mokSa maLatuM sAMbhaLI rahe te emane celA thavA hA kahI. ne je kAMI sukha jaina sAdhunA pizAke ApyuM che hene citAra hamArI AgaLa zuM ApuM? TuMkamAM mahene rAjasAhyabI maLI paratu mahArA sArA nazIbe eka divasa mahane vicAra thayo ke huM amana camane karuM chuM ane dharmadhyAna te kAMI karato nathI, AtmAne kAbumAM rAkhavAnuM zikhate nathI, te pachI harAmanA mAlamalIdA kema pacaze? ane je paramAdhAmIne Dara huM bIjAone batAvuM chuM te paramAdhAmIne daMDa hune kema jAte karaze ? ema vicAra thavAthI huM zAstrokta kriyAo karavA lAgyA, cheDeghaNe abhyAsa paNa karavA lAgyo. ema thoDo vakhata cAluM. naveka varSa thayAM eTale vaLI mahane pramAda Avyo. khAvA mATe viSayane uttejaka padArtho maLatA hoya ane kAmakAja ke ciMtA kaI na hoya tyahAM pachI pramAdanuM pUchavuM Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ ja zuM ? adhurAmAM purUM cAtaratuM vAtAvaraNa paNu madhyamasara ja; koI kAne kahe tevuM na maLe; eTale huM svacchaMdI banyA. mhArAM svacchaMdI tA hamane vistArathI saMbhaLAvavA jatAM mhArA upakArIne kaMTALA ApavAnA gunhA thavAnA bhaya rahe che, tethI eTalu ja hIne patAvIza ke chevaTe mhArA gurUthI mhArU hada bahAranuM varttana sahana thaI zakayuM nahi eTale heNe mhane ThapakA ApyA. mhe te DhapakA eka kAne sAMbhaLI khIje kAnethI kADhI nAkhyA. gurUmAM kAMI krama nahAtA ke mhane sIdhA karI zake. hemaNe cAra pAMca vAra mhane rAyA paNa hemane kANu gaNakAratuM hatu ? eka divasa eka guNusUri nAmanA bIjA paMthanA sAdhu amArA apAsare AvyA ane khelyA ke ' huM hamaNAM ja vihAra karatA karatA A gAmamAM dAkhala thAuM chuM; mhane hamArA sthAnakamAM utaravA dezA ? huM huM atuM brahma' ' nA siddhAMtanA pujArI chu ane kazAmAM bhedabhAva mAnatA ja nathI; huM te haMme ane hame te huM chuM. jagate mAyAnuM AvaraNu lAgyuM che tethI hAra mhArUM kare che; temAM paNa tyAgIomAM hArU mhAra joine tA mhArUM kALajuM baLI jAya che. mahAtmAe ! mAdhyastha raSTi vagara ApaNA udhdhAra kadApi thavAnA nathI. ' guNusUrinAM A vacanAthI ame teprasannaprasanna thaI gayA. pachI ame eka ja sthAnakamAM bhegA rahyA. rAtre rAtre te amArAthI ekAMta karatA ane hemanA pathanA siddhAMtA mhete humajAvatA. eka divasa taka joIne hemaNe mhane kahyuM: hame A kuvAmAM paDayA che. tethI mhane kyA Ave che. jo tame mhArI sAthe AvA tA huM ha mane saskRta bhaNAvIza ane amArA bhakatA hamane mAnapAna paNa ahIM karatAM ghaNI sArI rIte Apaze.' " dhIme dhIme hu: palaLyA; paNa mhane ekalA javuM gamyuM nahi. mahArAja te be divasa pachI mhArUM vacana laI khIje gAma cAlyA gayA ane mhe nAsavAnA ghATa ghaDavA mAMDayA. eka zaheramAM vIzIne tyA karanAra paTelamitrane mheM khAnagI patra lakhyA; hemAM heta sUcavyu ke haNe rAtre sthAnakamAM AvavuM. ane mhArAM poTalAM laIta gupacupa adhArAmAM cAlyA javuM. paraMtu kamanazIbe paTelamitrane te magaLa pahoMcyA nahi, te patra kAI duzmananA hAthamAM gayA ane mhArI bAjI pakaDAi gai. pariNAme haMne samudAyathI khAtala karavAmAM Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ AvyA. mhArA purANA hArA dAtro have sA kAi yAda karavA lAgyA. huM paNa have nakaTa thayA ane mhArA sAta sAgrIteAne laI guNasUrine jai maLyeA ane khullI rIte ame badhA haimanA ziSya banyA. .. ', amArA navA janma thayA. vadhAmaNI ane dhAmadhumanI garkhaDa amArA navA bhaktamaMDaLamAM pUra jorathI cAlI. mhArI je upadezauli para mhArA jInA bhaktA tiraskAra karatA te ja upadezarIli ahIM tA 'vAhavAha' nA pAkAra utpanna karanArI thai paDI. bIje ja divase amane senAnI phremanAM casmAM ApavAmAM AvyAM ane vastra tathA AhAra pazu uttama pratinAM ApavAmAM AvyAM. ATA dharanI zeThANIe amArAM darzana mATe paravAnagI magAvatI ane ame tA mhoTA mAjIrAva' banyA. A pramANe, be traNa mAsa sudhI cAlyA karyuM. eka divasa huM gAma bahAra dizArAkata mATe gayA hatA; tyahAM rastAmAM mhArI paTelamitra maLyA, ke jenA upara huM rAtArAta sthAnakamAM AvIne vastra tathA pustakAnA jayA upADI javAnA patra lakhyA hatA. mhane kaMkhatAM ja te khAlI uThayAH * kema RSirAja ! badhAne pANI pAyu tema mhane paNa * jIlambe' karavA dhAryuM ke zuM ? ekhamabharI sa'talasA vakhate teA badAne hemavAmAM AvatA hatA ane jhAre saheluMsada kAma Avyu thAre hArA bApa kezavAne kheAlAvye ne ? tyAre ja nAsavuM ja hatuM teA zvane zA mATe rAteArAta melAnyA nahi? zuM huM khe maNu jeTalA vajananAM pustako ke vastra uThAvI javAne pazu sama nahAtA ? > H mhe kahyuM: * jarA dhIre khela; koi sAMbhaLaro hArA bApa! hArAM nazIba ja phuTalAM, htAM huM zuM karU ? he tA hane TapAlamAM kAgaLa lakhyA hatA. paNa te hane pahoMcyA ja nahi hAya ema jaNAyache. tethI chevaTe mhe kezavAne khelAvIne mhArA sarasAmAna uThAvI javAnuM Ama that sAMpyuM. paNa have hArI jInI dAstI yAda karI hane huM chuM ke kezavAne te mAla vecatAM je nANAM maLaze jemAMthI ApaNA traNenA sarakhA bhAga pADIzu'. . r "nA, nA, tema kAMI nahi bane. te paTelamitra khelyA kezavA mAtra majurI bhAge; te nANAM te ApaNe be ja vheMcI laIzuM; ane jhAjhuM karaze tA hane kaDI paNa nahi maLe. huM te kezaveA amArU phADI laIzuM. hamane tyAgIone paisAthI zuM yAjana ? 6 Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ ha, he, bhAgIne vaLI paisA kevA ?" paTela te heTe avAje lokone saMbhaLAvavA mATe barADA pADavA lAgyo. mahe kahyuM: "bhAI, have chAne bhara. paTela kaheH "bhAga choDI de; nahi te dvArA gurU pAse AvIne saghaLI hakIkta jaNAvI daIza.' - " Ama lAhala vadhI paDyuM. Akhare rakhene loke ekaThA thaI jaze e dhAstIthI huM zaramAIne deDI gayo. paTela hAM ja thoDI vAra ume ane pachI amArA apAsarAnA raste jatAM DuM hene bhA. jaMgala jaIne AvatAMmAM ne hajAre tarkavitarka thavA lAgyA. mhArA TAMTIA bhAgI gayA. lagabhaga be kalAke huM apAsare pahoMcyA. apAsarAne moTA khaMDa taddana khAlI hato. tapAsa karatAM jaNAyuM ke mahArA gurU guNasUri tathA be junA ziSyo eka oraDImAM aMdaranI sAMkaLa vAsIne beThA hatA. he gupacupa vAta sAMbhaLavA mATe bAraNA najIka ja kAna mAMDayA. teo dhImethI belatA hatA paNa mahane kaI paNuM ustAdInuM kAma karatAM ghaNuM mahAvarane lIdhe AvaDI gayuM hatuM tethI huM te saghaLuM sAMbhaLI zakyo. temanI vAtacIta A pramANe hatI. . "pahelo ziSya gurUjI ! pelA zremarine Apa A. TaluM badhuM mAna Apo ane mela paTela te kAMI navuM ja sabaLAvI gaye ! " bIje ziSya ane gurUjI te vaLI enI vyAkhyAnazaili para paNa zIdAdA thaI gayA che!' - " gura_hame bane bhUle che; huM hemanA jevA bArasone para pU tema chuM. teo mAne ThagI jAya ema na hamajatA. e loko ke jeo potAnA gurU tathA dharmane dago daIne tathA mAya ThekANe karIne nAThA hatA teo tathA hArAlamane dago daIne tathA khArAM pustaka Adi upADIne nahija nAse evuM kadApi mAnI zake kharA 1 mAtAtAtA zarIravALA e IdriyAnA gulAmo harI bhaktAthIonI AbarU para hAtha nahi nAkhe ema mAnavAnuM ane kAma kAraNa mahe te mAtra emanA asala dhamane halake pADavA khAtaraM ja e ApaNA paMthanI dIkSA ApI hatI. bAkI te hame hArA zikhyo vinayana ane vidyAvivADI che? ane tema chatAM hAra kevA zraddhALu, vinayavaMta ane vidyAvihAra Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ vadhu ziSya joitA ja hoya te ApaNuM bhaktamaMDaLamAM ghaNAe "blema mukavAnA sAMsA' jevI sthitine che; mAtra ekAda zrImaMta bhakatanA kAnamAM phukamArUM eTalI ja vAra eka nidhanane be cAra hajAra kukA ApyA ke turata te mahAre ziSya! paNa, devatAnA vallabho hame sArI rIte jANo che ke hane have evI rItanA ziSyonI icchA nathI. ApaNI A prathA kemane ghaNI hAnIkAraka che. huM to have ganiSTa banyo chuM, tethI have evI vAte pasaMda nathI.' bIje ziSya: hAre gurUjI ! A phemasUrinuM have karavuM zuM? te te kaheluM phaLa che tethI bIjA sArAM phaLane bagADaze ane ApaNe te "lene gaI pUta , ne khAI AI khasama ! enA jevuM thaze." 8 pahelA ziSya hAre te bAbatanI phikara karavI nahi, ApaNe kAMi enA jevA namAlAthI bagaDIe tema nathI. paraMtu emAM tuM gurUjIne pUche che zuM? e te ApaNuM kAma che. Aje je phemasari jaMgala jaI apAsarAmAM paga deteja A ceSTikA vaDe hena baraDe sApha karavo; eTale pachI te ane tenA sAgrIte ? ApoApa pibArA gaNuM jaze ane ApaNe ApaNuM bhaktamaMDaLamAM kahevAnuM thaze ke "joyuM ke? pelA sAdhu kevA veThelA hatAemanA pathamAM evuM ja zikSaNa apAtuM haze !" ema kahIne *ApaNe ulaTA maheNuM mArI zakIzuM." . . " gurU - zAntama pApama ! zAntama pApama ! eka gInA ziSya zuM AvuM vade che? hArI AgaLa mAravA-jhuDavAnI vAte nA karatA. mAdhyastha daSTi rAkhe devanAma priyA zAntayAo, zAnathAote bicArA AtmAnuM paNa bhaluM thavAnI bhAvanA bhAvo !" ema kahetAnI sAthe gurU te oraDImAMthI eka bIjI eAraDImAM cAlyA gayA; eTale pahelo ziSya bolyo - kAMI ciMtA nahi; garajI to mAdhyaratha daSTi ane bhAvanAnI ja vAte karatA bhalA; ane ApaNe ApaNuM kAma bajAvatA bhalA ! badhA rAjA bane te pachI pAlakhI koNa upADaze? badhA mAdhyastha daSTivALA banI saDe cAlavA deze te pachI saMdhanuM jhADa paNa vALaze? ane gurUjI paNa hamaje che; kevA DAhyA DamarA thaIne cAlyA gayA !" Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ kaTala bolatAMnI sAthe ja teo pitAnI soTIo . zodhavA lAgyA; ane mahArA che. hAMjA ja gagaDI gayA! jema tema A karI himmata dharI chuM tyahAMthI nIce utarI gayo ane zahera bahArane rastA lI. cAlatAM cAlatAM huM A sthaLe AvI puro ane - ApaNI mulAkAta thaI e vaDa nIce heM hA vo dUra karIne , eka bAvA je lageTa vALI lIdhe. mAthe jaTIyAM vadhyAM hatAM hema - dhuLa nAkhIne vALane cuMthAyelA karI nAkhyA (ane kharekhara have huM mAthAmAM : dhuLa ghAlavAne ja lAyaka hato !) pAsenA gAmamAM jaI kapaDAM vecI Avyo ane te paisAmAMthI eka cIpIo kharI. A pramANe eka bA banI huM A ekAMta sthaLamAM ja rahevA lAgyA. vakhata jatAM mahane A purANI guza hAtha lAgI tethI hene ja he hA , dhara banAvyuM. mane ahIM khare ja na janma maLe, mhArA mULa samudAyamAM temaja pAchaLathI svIkArelA paMthamAM cotarapha huM khuzAmatAothI gherAyelo raheto, tethI mahArI mati muMjhAI jatI ane have satyAsatyano vicAra karavAnuM ja sUjhatuM nahi. ' game tevuM pApa karavA chatAM hAruM hRdaya mane DaMkhatuM nahi; te lagabhaga } marI gayuM hatuM; paNa ahIM jaMgalanI nirdoSa havA maLatAM te hRdaya pAchuM sajIvana thayuM. ahIM ekAMtamAM-khuzAmatInA cepa vagaranI jagAmAM--ne te hRdayanI sobata thavA lAgI. Akho divasa ane AkhI rAta huM ane mahAre te mitra vAto karyA ja karatA. te hadaya hane kahetuM ke " mitra ! he ghera kukama karyuM che. eka bhikSamAMthI tuM he rAjA jevo sukhI banyo te paNa hane saMtoSa vo nahi. ahoniza dharatInA paTa pheDavAnA vyavasAyathI mukta thaI. AraMbha samAraMbhane tyAgI banI pUjAvA lAgyo te paNa hane saMtoSa vaLe nahi. he sAdhupaNumAM paNa kuDa-kapaTa ane lagabhaga sarva vratanA bhaMganAM kRtya karI dhamane eba lagADI ane bhakatane kubAvyA. e mitra ! huM hArA para dedha karatAM karatAM paNa jeTalI dayA khAuM chuM eTalI paNa dayA je have te hAra bhakata para heta te tuM mane tAravAne bahAne DubAvavAnI hiMmata dharata nahi. tuM bIjA paMthamAM bhaLe te kAMI parIkSAthI bhaLe nahi te mAtra vadhAre mAjazekhanI garaje ja bhaLyA hatA, ane hene mATe hane vyAjabI ja zikSA maLI che. hArAM eTalAM paNa sArAM nazIba ke tuM jIvate Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ nAzI chUTo ! nahi to, tuM te kharekhara sakhtamAM sakhta zikSAne lAyaka hate. tuM ke hene be bApa karatAM zarama AvI nahi, tuM ke jahene pitAnA asala bApanI beTI rIte niMdA karatAM zarama AvI nahi, tuM ke je hArA tAranAranuM gaLuM kApavA taiyAra thayo, evA hane jeTalI zikSA karavAmAM Ave eTalI ochI ja gaNAya. agara juluM chuM; hAre ze deza che ? hane AvA jokhamabharyA vyApAramAM jeDanArane ja saghaLe doSa che. dezadezAvaramAM jhaverAtanuM kAma karanAra koI vyApArIe potAnA pratinidhi tarIke koI gAmaDAnA kheDutanI nimaNuka karI sAMbhaLI che ? pAMcIkA tathA hIrAmANeka vacceno taphAvata kadI nahi samajI zakanAra bhikSukane koIe hIrA vecavAnuM kAma saMpyuM sAMbhaLyuM che? eka jIvanA upara keTalA jInA tAraNa ke mRtyuno AdhAra rahelo che te zuM celA muDanArAo jANe che? eka zikhAuM zikSaka 5-25 vidhAthione avatAra rada kare che; eka zikhAu vakIla 100-2005" asIle ne bhIkha magAve che; eke zikhAu DAkaTara 200-500 karadIonAM khuna kare che ane eka zikhAu ke aNudhaDa sApha hajAro zarIre nahi paNa) AtmAone vadha kare che. zikhAu. athavA jenI krAMti DIja thayelI hoya evA manuSyane sAdhu jevuM jokhamabharyuM pada, nahi ja ApavuM joIe. anubhava ane jJAna vaDe jene AtmA zAnta banelo hoya evAne ja e mahApada mATe svIkAravA joIe. ziSya tarIkenI yogyatA meLavyA pahelAM gurU banavAne usuka thayelA sAdhvAbhAse AkhI sRSTine DubAve che. e mitra ! e mitra ! hArA pitAnA karatAM , paNa te sAdhvAbhAse vadhAre aparAdhI che - hemane ja hArAM saghaLAM pApa mATe zikSA karavI joIe che.' A pramANe aneka jAtanI vAtacIta te hA hadaya ane saMbhaLAvatuM; tethI mane jarA zAMti maLatI. huM A ekAMtamAM paDa rahuM chuM; gAmaDAmAM ekavAra jauM chuM ane roTalAnA TukaDA ke leTa bhAgI lAvIne divasamAM ekavAra te khAI laI sateSa vALuM chuM. jana" nAmane lajAvanArA A mahArA pApI mahAne paDachAye have huM vadhAre vAra lokonI AMkhanI kIkImAM paDavA devA khuzI nathI.. lA jena sAdhu" ema kahI AMgaLI karAvI jene dharmane lAMchana , Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ lagADavA huM have ichate nathI. huM ahIM ja hAruM AyuSya - purUM karIza" . . . . . . . sudarzane A saghaLI vAtacIta gaMbhIratAthI sAMbhaLI ane chevaTe " prazna karyo. paraMtu hamArA kapALa vacce A che zAne che ? pelA "sAdhuoe hamane mAryA to nathIne? " macarie javAba ApyoH " nA, ema kAMI nathI; huM te bicArA niraparAdhI ne deSita kahevA pahelAM mArI jIbha ja kApI nAkhavAnuM vadhAre pasaMda karIza. he hAza gurU ane dharmane laja che eTaluM ja pApa mahane narakamAM ghasaDI javAne puratuM che; to have nAhaka zA mATe te pApamAM umere karUM? A ghA to mahArA pitIkA capIone che. jahArathI hRdayamitranI sobata mahane thaI che hArathI evuM TharAvyuM che ke, agAu karelAM duSko paikI pAMca pAMca dararoja saMbhAravA ane dara doSa dITha cIpIAno eka prahAra mhArA kapALamAM 'hArA hAthe ja kare. e pramANe dararoja pAMca prahAra thavAthI A ghA thayo che. dareka ghA mahAra akeka pApane nasADe che. dareka khAMsu mahArI akeka duSTabhAvanAne dhoI nAkhe che. ke prati dina halake kula je thatuM jAuM chuM. have huM prathama lAlAthI ' rIkSA ApanAra gurUne temaja pAchaLathI "mAdhyastha daSTine nAma : * pitAnA vargamAM kheMcanAra gurUne temaja mahane mAravAnI saMtalasa kara-nAra hemanA be ziSyone aMtaHkaraNathI AbhAra mAnuM chuM. ane have dunIA jAdA ja rUpamAM dekhAya che. pratidina pustakanI madada ! vagara ja mane jJAna thatuM jAya che, sudarzana A saghaLuM sAMbhaLI cakIta ja thaI ga. heNe namana . pUrvaka kahyuM " muni ! Apa have khare ja muni che. jenanA eka cA bIjA phIrakAnA lebAsamAM hame "muni' na hatA tevA muni Aje huM hamane eka bAvAnA lebasamAM jouM chuM; hame have khare ja 'vaMdanikA ne pitAne vezane mohanathI. vezamAM mela bharAI be nathI." te je jJAna ane hRdayazuddhi mekSanAM sAdhana che he hame umedavAra payA che ethI A vezamAM ja paDyA rahe te mane te mATe vAMdho levA jevuM, kAMI dekhAtuM nathI. paraMtu hamArA anubhava bIjA dhaNuM sudhArA karavAmAM mane kAma lAge tema che; mATe hame eka " avastha' nA bhAmAM khArI sAthe rahe te zuM khoTuM ? hamAre je svAdhyAya, tapa Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ zraryAM ane dhyAna:Adi karavA IcchA haze te ...aaN rahI karI zakazo. hamane ekAMta ja jotuM haze teA mhArI havelIthI bahu dUra nahi evIzahera ahAranI jagAmAM hamane anukULa paDe evuM eka makAna khadhAvI ApIza. tadana sAdA pASAkamAM ane ekAMtamAM rahI hamArA AtmAne pASavAnA hamArA zubha prayAsamAM kAI khalela na kare evI dareka sagavaDa huM karI ApIza. paraMtu mhArI pAse hamane rAkhavAthI saMdhamAM keTalAka sudhArA karI zakIza evI mhane AzA che. " premacaMde e darakhAsta para thoDI miniTa sudhI vicAra karyo ane pachI javAba ApyAH " mhArA vaDIla AtmabaMdhu ! hamArI e sUcanAnI kimata huM barAbara slaeNmajI zakuM chuM ane teTalA mATe dhaNI khuzIthI te svIkArU chuM. mhArA jevA tuccha manuSyanI sAmelagIrIthI te sAdhusudhAraNAnA mahad kAmAM Apane kAMi aMze paNa anukULatA thaze teA huM ethI potAne bhAgyazALI mAnIza. ApaNA varganA sAdhuomAM kayAM kayAM saDA che, te saDAnAM mULa kAraNa kayAM che ane te kAraNeA kevI rIte dUra karI zakAya e bAbateAnA nei yatkiMcit anubhava che ane te anubhava hamArI sAthe maLIne kAma karavAmAM vAparavA huM khuzI chuM. parantu hAla turata ApaNe A sadyaLI vAtacIta multavI rAkhI hamArA paganA daradanA ilAja karavAnI ghaNI jarUra che. hame atre ekalA thoDA kalAka ArAma kare te huM vijayanagara jaine auSadha lai AvuM ane Apane ArAma thayA pachI ApaNe rAjanagara tarapha kuca karIzuM. . sudarzanathI calAya tema na heAvAthI heNe A ceAjanA pasaMda karI. khemaca'da vijayanagara tarapha ravAnA thayA. mughdhana guNamAM ekalA paDaye ke turata ja hete pAtAnI patnI, mAtApitA ane mitranA duHkhanA khyAla AvavA lAgyA. te sAthe mhAM koi divasa lUTaphATa thai nahAtI evA pradezamAM A lUTArA kANu hovA joie e saMbadhamAM paNa aneka tarkavitarka thavA lAgyA. premacaMdanA AtmakathananuM bharaNu pazu haeNnA manamAM kAMi kAMi vicArA upajAvavA lAgyuM. enI madadathI sAdhusamAjamAM sudhArA thaI zakaze e vicArathI hene ghaDImAM AnaMda thatA ane e kAma mahAmuzkela che ema yAda AvavAthI vaLI hanuM mhAM paDI jatuM. vidyutsALAne samAjasevAnAM karyAM kAmamAM jeDavI, 2. Scanned by CamScanner
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________________ pitAe janma prasaMge jUdA mUkelA lAkha rUpiyAne sArAmAM sAre upayoga kaye raste kare, mahArAjA vijayasiMhajIe sUcavelA kartae zI rIte adA karavAM A ane evA seMkaDo vicAra karatAM karatAM thAkI gayelA henA mastakane nidrAdevIe potAnA komaLa khoLAmAM laI tenI samakSa aneka nATaka bhajavI batAvavA mAMDyAM. e nATa ke je sthUla nahi paNa niMdAdevIne sUma bhavana para sUkSma paramANuothI bhajavAtAM hatAM hemAM zuM zuM dekhAvo raju karavAmAM - AvyA hatA ane henI sudarzananA jIvana para zI asara thaI e, hainI vivAhita sthitine ItihAsa ja kahI batAvaze. prathama khaNDa samAsa Scanned by CamScanner