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Observing the Inflow of Vibrations 85 "That's all? Only to recite the word?” “Yes, that's all.”
The agreement was made, and the friend was very happy. For the first two or three hours, he sat thinking, “Well, everything is taken care of. I don't need to worry about paying my rent.”
And he started reciting the mantra. Four more hours passed. He got tired and a little bored sitting there. He started to think, “What am I doing? The same word over and over! Well, compared to the labor I was doing, it's not bad!” And he continued reciting the mantra.
The next day he went on. "So-hum, So-hum,” he repeated. “Such a dull sound! There is no song, no drum, no excitement! What is all this?”
He was sitting by the window with no one to talk to, with no one to listen to his jokes. He was taking all his meals by himself. By the third day, he began to feel heavy. On the fourth day, when he arose, he said to himself, “I will go crazy, I can't bear it!”
Thoughts from his subconscious had started coming, one after another. He thought of what kind of life he had lived, how he had played games with people, how he had cooked up so many lies. Each thing became magnified. In silence, that is what happens—things become magnified.
When you are suffering from too much heat, you can take off your clothes. But when there is suffocation of thoughts, how do you escape from them? It is so easy to change clothes, but how difficult it is to change thoughts! Thoughts carve so deep that they sometimes feel like thorns and give us pain.
This man was not ready to face himself. People have some device to cover up those things which they are not ready to face, to hide them or make them smaller. But on this day, for this person, things were becoming larger.
