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tive to the moment itself and say to oneself, “This is the moment!" Give yourself wholly to the moment, so that when conditions change and someone may not be able to keep his word, you retain the essence of the moment rather than the form it took. To depend on a promise is to invite sadness, for though it may be given in good faith, it may lose its validity with the changes which occur in time.
So let go of the moment and remember its essence. Realize, “My addiction to hold on to something or someone is my ignorance.” It is difficult to accept one's own ignorant state of mind. If someone tells you that you don't know something, you become a little angry. "What do you think I am, a fool?” you ask. You do not want to hear the truth.
Addiction makes you angry, bitter, irritated, resentful. What happens is that you alienate the person to whom you are clinging. When he or she goes away, you become bitter. Why carry bitterness? Why sulk? There are those who recommend that you express your anger and show it openly. Instead, I say-vomit it; throw it out! The person you are crying for is gone; why continue to carry him around?
This can only come from inner understanding. As an initiate, you neither suppress nor depress. For you, it is a different direction. You cast out. You say to yourself, “I don't want to hold this unpleasant feeling; it will spoil the rest of the day, and I don't know when this day is going to come back.” Every precious day which goes from our life cannot be bought back by any means. There is no currency in the world which can buy back the day which is going from our life. So if we cannot afford to buy the day, how can we afford to spoil it? This main awareness must permeate all parts of our consciousness. It must settle in.
Then, in the heat of anger, you will not be ready to
