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128 Twelve Facets of Reality spoil your day. No matter how angry you are, you don't throw your ten-thousand-dollar ring from a moving train. You know its value, so you preserve it. In the same way, when you know the value of the day, you don't spoil it at any cost, not for any lover, not for any boss, not for any business, not for anyone who comes into your life. It is more precious than anything in the world. It is not going to come back.
This is called examining one's inner universe. You begin noticing any condition which makes you upset. You bring that condition before your inner eye and ask, “Why does this condition make me unhappy? Why does this habit spoil my day?” As you start discovering which conditions trigger an unbalanced state of mind, then you are using double awareness to watch the process.
So you see that you have become upset. That is the first awareness. Second, you watch yourself being upset. That is double awareness. In this way, you are both the observed and the observer. You are both the patient and the doctor. You are the patient because you are angry, and you are the doctor because you are curing. Your mind is the patient; your soul is the doctor.
Seeing with double awareness, you take each occasion as an experiment. You say to yourself, “This is my laboratory. Now I am going to find out why this disease has come." Each event provides you an opportunity to learn something more and to remove additional layers of pudgala-ossified mental or emotional blocks.
When we live within the confines of limited perception, we exist in a very small inner universe. We color the outer universe with these limitations and perceive it as a hindrance. When we break those inner confines, our universe expands with our awareness. We dance through
