Light of Nonviolence

Author(s): Sushilmuni
Publisher: Vishwa Ahimsa Sangh Delhi

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experience it fully without distractions from the outside world. On the fourth day, I had learned to control the fully awakened kundalini energy, when an absolutely beautiful young woman appeared to me. She was tall, dark-haired and her body radiated sexual desire. Her breasts and buttocks were perfectly shaped and her arms and legs were long and smooth-skinned. She moved in the light of a divine purity and perfect knowledge of herself. She appeared to be in a dream state; and yet her body and her energy were completely real to me, exciting and attracting me with her infinite beauty and perfection.
Even though I am a yogi and I have renounced sexual desire and erotic contact with others, this divinelysouled woman caused my mind to go blank and I felt the erotic energy of the kundalini body awaken in me. But before my yogic resolve and precepts were completely weakened and I gave into the desire to touch her, I suddenly realized who she was and why she was appearing to me. Her name was Bala Tripur Sundri, the divine Goddess of Wisdom, and she was there to test my Selfcontrol and my commitment to the life of the spirit. And just as I realized her identity, her sexual attraction and my desire disappeared completely from my consciousness. My being was no longer troubled and in conflict with itself.
These three experiences have confirmed that if you
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