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one was informed about my Guru's death, many telegrams and calls were received and the people put on black clothing to signify their grief for the cremation.
At the cremation, another large black and heavy cloud formed over the temple and nowhere else and everyone stood in amazement. Again, the nectar from heaven in the form of rain fell upon the temple; and where my guru's body lay, 3 or 4 drops of rain splashed through an opened window upon his body; and the water seemed to turn a bright crimson color on his skin. He was twice blessed by the rain.
That night, everyone at the temple was feeling many things very strongly and I was searching to understand my own feelings and to clean my heart of its heaviness. So I went alone to a room and for the first time, I saw many tears coming from my eyes and I was thinking that it is necessary to clean my heaviness. After a while, I came back to my normal senses and I felt much better. That was the first and only time that I have cried. I have done and seen many things in my life but at no time have I allowed the emotions of fear, anger, sadness, depression, and the like, overwhelm me and cause me to lose control.
I am teaching that if you learn watchfulness, then no emotion can dominate your mind or your Self. If a feeling or an emotion comes, then you must go deeply within your Self and watch it as if you are standing on a
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