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ABUNDANT JOY OF SENTIMENTS
Although you are of generous character, at time I saw an element of misery in you; remembering often in the days of unhappiness. In the times of happiness I totally forgot you. Putting hypocrisy of a religion and covers showing that I am at your service, I played trickeries to cheat you. All these- my robbery, mean and lowly attitude, the age-old attachment of selfish motives ~ till I remove away, how can I be able to see you? I want to leave my evil attachments; I want to live my entire life under your cool and comfortable shelter. Without you, even the things considered meaningful from the materialistic worldly view outwardly, appear without any meaning and dwarfish. In your presence even small, little things are experienced as very much meaningful. In your absence what is the meaning of outer wealth affluence or affluence of this worldly life? Without you, I, myself is totally meaningless. My value, my meaningfulness-for that all credit goes to you. In your separation I have been hurt several times; by taking risks, and suffering. Even after getting many injuries, in taking risks also I have sustained injuries, in the materialistic worldly affairs. But while talking measuring every word, weighing every word, I do not keep any kind of equipments to measure or to weigh my worship to you. I am not such a devotee to speak or write words after measuring your weighing in your devotion. I have my flow of devotion full of all forces available.
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