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ABUNDANT JOY OF SENTIMENTS
I may believe that in this birth until death, you do not meet me. By that I am not going to get tired. Perhaps my search of you for one birth, the entire lifetime search, you do not find adequate. Then, in the next birth, I shall continue your search. Tam not an atheist that I wish to finish my all work, my all actions only in this birth; I just do not have any such crazy idea. Yes, I have such craziness; but that only of searching you. If you are on the other side of this life, then we shall meet there; and if not so, we shall meet in the life thereafter. From birth to birth, constantly I shall pursue to search you, find you. But, my Lord! One thing is absolutely certain that you will meet me, but not when I have a desire, but when you wish to meet me. For our meeting, in the end, it depends very much upon you. | simply go on writing with eagerness, anxiety and pain. And what else I have other than this? Friend! Now atleast you become merciful. Today atleast you allow me to tell you that if you had been an idol of stone it would have been much better. Looking to my affiction, it seems that, perhaps, even a stone also would have got melted. You just do not get dissoved, get melted, get drenched or soaked. Oh Idol of Iron! If you do not become a candle, it is alright; if you become an idol of marble or if you become an idol of the stone; then also I shall get you melted.
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