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being. As Lallujiswami informed about it to Shrimad, the latter wrote as under.
"Coming to the decision on one's own without resorting to contact of the enlightened is not the path of liberation. Every soul is godly, there is no doubt about it. As such, if Devkaranji thinks himself as godly, it is not wrong. But so long as the godly state does not accurately manifest, it is better to remain a liberation-seeker, a truth-seeker. The true godliness manifests that way. It is not possible to get the significance of that state while forsaking the right path and one merely happens to behave disrespectfully to the concept of omniscient Lords. There is no other problem. Death is surely going to overtake us."
By reading that letter Devkaranji came back on the line. Thereafter when Shrimad came to Surat and saw the monks, Devkaranji complained, "When I come back from a sermon, Lallujiswami says that I indulged in arrogance; if I meditate, he terms it as fancy. Do the omniscient Lords have partiality to admit what he does and not mine?”
Shrimad (peacefully): “Whatever is done with self-indulgence is arrogance, it is foul; whatever is done as per commands of true Guru is blissful, is true in religious sense."
At Surat Lallujiswami was having fever since long. During that time one Lallubhäi died after illness for about 12 months. Thereupon Lallujiswämi felt that he might also pass away. So he wrote several letters to Shrimad requesting, “Lord, this body is now not likely to survive; if I leave without right perception, my human life would go in vain; so please endow me with the right perception." Thereupon Shrimad sent to him the Letter of Six Fundamentals and compassionately wrote that it was not worth being afraid of death. Thereafter when he came to Surat, he elaborated the contents of that letter at length and explained its inner significance to Lallujiswämi. He also recommended to memorize it and to repeatedly ponder over the same.
About the said letter Lallujiswämi frequently used to say during the later years, "That letter has removed lot of our misconceptions. It did not allow us to stay in Sthänakwäsi fold; neither did it keep in Tapgachchha, nor allowed to enter Vedänt. Steering clear of all the sectarian differences, it kept us only on soul. It is a miraculous letter; it is a wonderful letter that can lead a deserving soul to contemplate about the right perception. It is worth memorizing and pondering over repeatedly."
Guru Harakhchandji had died prior to Lallujiswami's monsoon at Bombay in 1893. After coming in contact with Shrimad Lallujiswami's faith had undergone change. The people came to know that he was treating a layman as his Guru and had given up fasting on the alternate day that he used to observe earlier. As such, popular regard for him had gone down. Lallujiswämi ignored that and remained devoted to Shrimad.
Lallujiswämi stayed at Khambhät during 1896 monsoon. That time Ambälälbhäi and others used to take a day off on every full-moon day and spend it in devotion. On one full-moon day Lallujiswämi also stayed with them overnight. It was the monsoon period and he stayed out at night without informing anyone. That led to great agitation in the sect. Lay people also did not like it and their regard for him went down further.
In 1896 Shrimad had been in Charotar area on a retreat for 10 weeks. After staying at Kävithä he came to Rälaj. As Lallujiswämi came to know about it, he thought that since he used to go out of Khambhät for natural call, there should not be any objection to going a little further up to Rälaj and see Shrimad. As such, he once went towards Rälaj. On reaching the boundary of the village he sent a message to Ambälälbhäi that a monk had been calling him. Accordingly Ambälälbhäi came there and asked in a reproaching tone, "Why have you come here without getting the instructions?"
Lallujiswämi: I am waiting here for the sake of instructions. If you consider it against the commands, I shall go back. Other liberation-seekers are getting the benefit of Shrimad's contact, while I am left out. I have come because of the inability to bear the separation.
Ambäläl: I would not allow you to go back that way; I may have to face the reproach. So let me ask Shrimad in the matter and then do as he directs.
So saying he went to Shrimad and told him about Lallujiswami's arrival. Thereupon Shrimad said, "If Muni is very anxious, I would go to see him and if he can feel at ease, let him go back.” As Ambälälbhäi gave the message to
