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Lallujiswämi, he said, "I have to act as directed and am therefore going back."
So saying he left with a heavy heart. On the way tears were flowing from his eyes with the idea that his ill luck did not permit him to see Shrimad. He spent that night with uneasiness. In the morning he got the news that Shrimad had sent Ambälälbhäi, Saubhägyabhäi and Dungarshibhäi from Rälaj to Khambhät. Accordingly Saubhägyabhäi came to Upäshray and told Lallujiswämi, "Shrimad would come to you and he has asked me to convey something to you alone."
As such, both of them went to Ambälälbhäi' home and Saubhagyabhäi gave him the message of Shrimad. Thereafter he conveyed the Mantra of 'Sahajätmaswaroop Paramguru' (The supreme Guru abides at ease within the Self), and said that Shrimad had directed to turn five rosaries of Mantra everyday. Lallujiswami was overcome with joy and tears of delight came in his eyes. He requested Saubhägyabhäi to convey the Mantra to other monks also, but the latter said that he was not authorized to do so.
After a few days Shrimad came from Rälaj to Khambhät. Lallujiswami and five other monks went to receive him. Shrimad called all the six monks in a lonely place at Vadvä. They bowed to him and sat in front of him. Lallujiswämi found it hard to bear the pangs of separation and he considered his Sthänakwäsi garb as an obstacle. Since his heart was overcome, he said, "Graceful Lord, please keep me at your service forever, I do not want Muhapatti (piece of cloth tied around the mouth)." So saying he put the Muhapatti in front of Shrimad. With tears in the eyes and in a choking voice he said, "I cannot bear the separation."
On seeing it Shrimad's delicate heart also was overflowed and tears came in his eyes. After remaining silent for a while he said to Devkaranji, "Give this Muhapatti to Lalluji and let him keep it for the present."
Shrimad stayed at Vadvä for six days, during which many liberation-seekers could get the benefit of his talks. Lallujiswami and those five monks could get that benefit at lonely places. Other monks and the people belonging to the sect criticized the six monks, but they remained very firm in their faith. Moreover, Lallujiswämi's personality was so impressive that the people could not say anything in his presence.
From Vadvä Shrimad went to Nadiad, where he composed Atmasidhishästra. Initially four copies were made, of which one was sent to Lallujiswami with the instructions that he should study it alone, and that it would be helpful to Devkaranji to read it later on. It was, however, mentioned that if Devkaranji was very eager to read it, there would be no objection to his reading in the presence of Lallujiswämi, if he firmly decided not to overlook the benevolence of the Saint till the end of life.
Lallujiswämi used to go to woods alone and study Ätmasiddhishästra. In this connection he has mentioned, "My soul was overjoyed to read it and recite some of its stanzas. I felt that there is unique significance in its every line. Regular study of Atmasiddhishästra and its contemplation led to internal pleasure. Atmasiddhi stayed in my mind while talking to anyone or while undertaking any other activity. I always remembered the serene face of Graceful Lord (Shrimad) or the delightful stanzas of Ätmasiddhi. I liked nothing else. Everything else remained insignificant. Only the importance of true Guru and his state stayed in my soul."
Lallujiswami passed the monsoon of 1897 at Khedä. During that time Shrimad sent to him 'Moksha Marg Prakäshak' for studying. One of its chapters relates to criticism of Sthänakwäsi sect. Dekaranji did not like it and had stopped reading the same. Thereupon Shrimad wrote that it was not worth hesitating in reading the book on any ground; one should give up looking for faults and adopt good points from any source. Devkaranji had realized that truth when he finished the reading.
During the monsoon of 1898 Shrimad went again to Charottar on a retreat. That time Lallujiswami was at Vaso and Devkaranji at Khedä. During August September Shrimad went to Kävitha and then to Vaso via Nadiad. He asked Lallujiswämi, "Muni, how long would you like me to stay here?" Till then, Lallujiswämi did not have any occasion
