Laghurajswami Biography

Author(s): Manu Doshi
Publisher: Manu Doshi

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On hearing it Shrimad took over the diary as well as the copies and did not give anything to Lallujiswämi. The latter repented that he had copied without permission and told it to Ambälälbhäi. He also reproached Lallujiswami for copying without permission. Lallujiswami then asked him to obtain Shrimad's permission for the copies of the authorized portion. Thereupon Shrimad asked Ambälälbhäi to make fair copies of some parts of the diary and hand them over to Lallujiswämi. That covered the earlier authorized portion as well as some other parts. Lallujiswami was instructed to deeply ponder over that. The latter had actually been thirsting for it and was gratified to get the material.
On the last day Shrimad gave instructions to Lallujiswämi for an hour and turned his approach from sect to Self. He stopped talking after the objective reached the bottom of Lallujiswami's heart.
When one month was over, Shrimad said, "Are you happy, we have stayed here for one month as desired by you." Lallujiswämi thought that it could have been better, if he had asked for longer time. Then with a view to awakening the monks Shrimad said: "Oh monks, you are at present indulging in indolence in the presence of the enlightened, but you would repent for that when he is not available. It would not be possible to come across the enlightened being even while traveling thousand miles."
From Vaso Shrimad went to Uttarsandä. After staying there for one month he went to Khedä and gave the benefit of contact to Devkaranji and other monks for 23 days. Devkaranji has described the benefit that he got in a letter addressed to Lallujiswämi in which he had written as under.
"The illusion pertaining to wrong guru disappeared by the instructions relating to the chapter 32 of Uttaradhyayan and I became fully convinced of the true Guru. That has now been firmly established in the mind. It was a thrilling experience. The conviction has reached the bottom of heart and it has been decided to remain faithful to him. What you had said has come true. The fruit was ripened, its juice has been tasted, and tranquility has been gained. It would now be possible to remain true to him. Liberation seems visible in remaining at the service of true Guru. The Graceful Lord has extended full favor.
"Here, aside from the time for taking food, we are spending the entire time at the service of Guru and that is right. The same sentence turning out of his mouth seems a new one. His main instructions relate to thinning of the body, figuring out its essence, and pass away leaving the skeleton behind. He says, 'Find out the defiling thief dwelling within, burn it, perform its funeral ritual and attain rest in peace; be free; rest within, and experience the bliss. Do that immediately. While listening to the enlightened Guru, if one adopts and resorts to even a word with total devotion, that itself is liberation; it points towards liberation."
At the end of monsoon all the seven monks got together at Nadiad. For about six weeks they used to take little food and sleep, and pass most of the time in reading, contemplation, meditation, devotion etc. They recalled the teaching of Shrimad at Vaso and Khedä, and exchanged with one another what they had learnt.
Lallujiswämi and two other monks were thinking to move from Nadiad to Khambhät, while Devkaranji and others had planned to go to Ahmedabad. However, on hearing that Shrimad had been on a retreat to Idar, Lallujiswami canceled the idea of going to Khambhät and proceeded towards Idar. He was repenting that he could not fully avail of the benefit of Shrimad's contact at Vaso. Thereupon Devkaranji said, "We also want to get the benefit of his teaching. As you want to attain the well being, so do we." So saying he also proceeded towards Idar despite the indifferent health.
Lallujiswämi, Mohanlälji and Narsirakh moved fast and reached Idar. Then Lallujiswämi went towards the dispensary of Dr. Pranjivan Mehta to look for Shrimad. On seeing him Shrimad asked Thäkarshi, who had been at his service, to take the monk directly to woodland. Thereafter Shrimad followed them. Then taking the Muni under a