Confession Path to Self Liberation

Author(s): Gunratnasuri
Publisher: Jingun Aradhak Trust

Page 22

HOPE
only this, inspite of being born & brought up in a well cultured family, I have also manipulated the sacred relationship of brother in law & bhabhi. Oh no! by being addicted to physical enjoyments, I have manipulated the nobility of my family. By the desires of consuming delicious & tasty food, I burdened myself with the sins such that even after taking many births on this earth, I will not be able to rescue myself from it.
I even didn't go to monasteries to wash my sins but instead, I criticized the people who went there calling them Bhagat: On the auspicious day of Samwantsari during Paryushna, I had dinner in a hotel secretly. During the Pratikramana also I did nothing but just played mischief. During fast, with the excuse of passing time, I would go to hotels and have my food. I have committed numerous sins with my wandering eyes. I have accumulated many layers of sins on my soul by hearing vulgar songs of movies & spoiling my mind.
To hide the unpleasant smell of my immoral behavior, I used more & more cosmetics & perfumes. But it was in vain. Later, diseases inhabited my body and I became a permanent victim of medicines.
I commenced business & my luck supported me. I began to earn lots of money as if I was minting them. Now, I considered my parents as an obstacle in the way of my pleasure. That's why, I started to behave with hate & rudeness with them. Instead of being grateful towards them, I drove them away from the house & offered a
Confession: The Path to Self-liberation...9