Confession Path to Self Liberation

Author(s): Gunratnasuri
Publisher: Jingun Aradhak Trust

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unworthy people. I followed them in such a manner that I began to like amorous reading very much. Five star hotels became the house of my evil activities. I became characterless by touching others in the darkness of theaters. Once I was caught & insulted too! I could not sleep. Later on I got rid of such fear & after few days the same routine began. The preparation for my marriage ceremony started and I was afraid that somebody would interrupt the marriage. At last I got married. I didn't have the sincerity to consider other's wealth as stone & other's woman as mother. While walking by the roadside my wandering sight made others the victim of my evil desires. Oh! What have I done?
I also forgot the spiritual rule that the waste of a single drop of vitality is equivalent to death. O Guru! From one month's diet one litre of blood is produced in the body which further produces just 10gms of vitality: I neglected such bodily science also. The sequence of such evil deeds was going on continuously. O Gurudev! Nine lakh living beings are killed during a single physical intercourse. I didn't even recall the religious thoughts that the slaughter house of such violence should be stopped. I even didn't think about my next birth that where will such violence lead me when the soul moves after death.
O Gurudev! The desires are endless. I didn't try to mitigate the same with the help of knowledge. As the desires were not fulfilled, the ocean of deterioration overflowed. One terrible day, after getting the consent of a bad friend, we agreed to exchange our wives. Being a victim of passions, I totally neglected the thoughts of good character & virtues. Fortunately, my moral wife refused. To
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