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Letter 16
109 Just see, that by knowing the modification of Pudgal substance, a state of unhappiness and anxiety and crave for things just vanishes/goes away. The moment you know that these are not my own modifications the next question which arises in the mind is what are my modifications then ?
Imagine we have not seen each other for a very long time and you have come to receive me on a railway station platform. You see hundreds of ladies alighting from the train. And while looking at each of them the moment you realise that this is not your mother you quickly look at the next lady and start searching for me. And once you see me your attention will concentrate on me. Thereafter you will not be interested in looking anywhere else because the search has ended. Now while cutting the crowd, even if you see some ladies known to you, you will not be interested in them, because your mind is concentrated on your mother. Though the mother is little away from you, you are confident and sure that she is there. Even if you see other ladies known to you, your attention/ mind is on your mother. You are eager to be with her and hug her as soon as possible.
Similarly once you know that all these modifications are of Pudgal substance, then your attention is not on them. You are eager to know what are your own modifications. Once you know about the modifications of Jeev substance then you will not be interested in knowing the modifications of Pudgal through your sensory organs. After knowing the modifications of your own self, there will be firm belief that the substance from which these modifications are arising, that eternal ( farmat) Dravya is me. Once you identify yourself as the steadfast Dnyayak you will experience a Bliss and joy i.e. Anand BİG which you had never experienced before. This is Atmanubhooti 3TCHfa. Once you have achieved this, you will be interested in concentrating inwards to see you and experience yourself again and again.
For this first and foremost it is necessary to know the special attributes of Jeev substance. Unless one knows the true nature of one's own self, this Jeev will not shed its ignorance and will keep on going through the four phases i.e. Gati ufa.
Bliss is a modification of Bliss attribute of Jeev. That is why the true Bliss will be manifested only by knowing one's own self.
We will discuss this in details in my next letter.
Till then keep on practising in your mind that, " all the modifications of Pudgal which are known to me are not 'me' or they are not my modifications and I am not their creator nor I am their enjoyer."
With love.
Your Mom.
