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Letter 27
about all the Parapadarthas vanishes, then only one will experience his own self i.e. will have Atmanubhooti.
Just by knowing Parapadarthas and the passions and feelings arising within oneself will not affect him in any way, But if he believes them to be his own or belonging to him, he will remain Mithyatvi. Knowing and believing them as Para and Swa as Swa is beneficial to him and this is the Bhed-Vidnyan which will help in achieving Atmanubhooti.
While knowing Para i.e. Para Dnyeya the passions or Raag, Dvesha etc. arise. And that is why in Swa Para Bhed Vidnyan, these passions are also considered to be Para. They are called Pudgal or Para Dravya, or Para Bhava. Despite the fact that they are Vikaras of Jeev they are said to be Jada or Achetan or inanimate. Since one has to have the experience of Shuddha i.e. purest form or Swarupa, Raag, Dvesha are called as Pudgal's, so that our attachments and ownership of them goes away.
Here we have to take into account the perspective or point of view from which this is said. Just as when the son gets married, and becomes a henpecked husband i.e. starts behaving as per the wishes of his wife, the mother thinks that he is controlled by his wife now, and therefore he belongs to his wife.
Similarly, though the passions of Raag, Dvesha are Vibhavas of the Atma since they arise because of Parapadarthas, they are also considered to be belonging to Parapadarthas. That is, though one knows that they are Jeeva's passions, one should not have oneness with them but should consider them to be other than his own true nature ( Swabhava).
Dr. Hukamchand Bharilla in his book 'Samaysar Anusheelan', part I on page 208/209 has discussed this in details. Do read that part by yourself. He says, "Your Atma does not attain Siddhi because, despite the fact, the Bhagwan Atma which by its nature is self realising and is being manifested in Dnyan in its each modification, you are not believing and knowing it to be your own self; you are not establishing your identity with it. But you are identifying yourself with the passions arising and are being experienced by you, and also with the Parapadarthas. This is the only small mistake you are committing. Once it is rectified, your salvation is not far away."
Kanaji Swamiji says, "This self realising Bhagwan Atma, is constantly existing within itself, it is also constantly being experienced by oneself. The only thing lacking is that, there is no explicit self knowledge that this Atma which is being experienced as Dnyayak is me or myself."
