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JAIN RAMAYAN
He, after a careful scrutiny found that those objects of the Samsar which he had deemed permanent were indeed transitory and fleeting. He developed an aversion to the Samsar, whose refuge he had sought previously. Blinded by Moha infatuation he had believed that all his relatives and the members of his family were his but now he realized that they did not really belong to him and that they were alien. He realized that he was alone in the Samsar. Formerly, he had deep attachments for the members of his family and for his relatives; but now he developed a sense of detachment for them. The great truth Ekoham "I am alone” began to reverberate through his mind and heart. He began to adopt an attitude of amity for the Jivas against whom he had formerly animosity and hostil
He went to the palace of his father, Sahastrar to seek his permission to become a Sadhu Sahastrar at that time sat in meditation reciting the Namaskar Mahamantra. Indra approached his father, prostrated before him and said politely :
"Dear father ! I have come to obtain your consent and I am confident that you will give your consent cheerfully".
"Consent to what ?” "To renounce the Samsar".
"Oh! How shocking! What do you mean ?” and Sahastrar's old and sunken eyes were filled with tears.
"Dear father! I know you love me greatly. Therefore, you are prepared even to bring down to earth the moon and the stars if by doing so, you can restore peace and happiness to me; but now I have no interest in this life; in this Samsar. After I learnt from Muni Nirvana Sangam the real nature of the Samsar, I decided not to remain in the Samsar even for a moment. Now, I do not have any interest in the Samsar. The great Muni narrated to me the story of my Purva Janma and opened my eyes to realities; and by doing so, he destroyed my attachments, infatuation and illusion, regarding the Samsar. Probably, fearing Ravan you want to make me a slave to him;
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