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from his eyes. His heart was greatly agitated. He became unconscious and sank to the ground. Who was there to sprinkle cold water on his face to enable him to revive his consciousness? Who was there to fan air to him with fans studded with gems?' .... Who was there to pat on his head affectionately? What other evidence can be there to say that life is meaningless, and that human beings are really helpness? The desire to attain fame by placing this pitiable event before people arises only in the cruel hearts of those who have no knowledge of the human heart. We should experience agitation and grief witnessing this pitiable sight.... witnessing the broken heart of Pavananjay. We have to share his grief with compassion. If we can set together the pieces of his heart and if our heart can be useful for this purpose we should be
It is wrong to think that Pavananjay was grieved thus because of his passion for Anjana and because of his desire for sensual delights. We should not think that he was experiencing that anguish on account of his sensual cravings and his desire for sensual delights. If we think so we would have done a great injustice to that noble man; and we would not have visualized that great soul in the right perspective. There had appeared in Pavananjay's heart an extraordinary regard and affection for Anjana who was the very embodiment of sublime virtues. He loved her for those virtues. Moreover, the anguish he was experiencing was his way of repenting his total indifference towards that noble woman for twenty-two years and the in justice he had done her. It was this fire of repentance that was burning in his heart. He was angry with himself; and it was this anger that was consuming him and the result was that he was moving heaven and earth to find out Anjana and he was determined to leap into fires if he could not find her.
This is a special characteristic of great men. Their nature is to admire the virtues of those whom they have treated improperly. They admire their virtues after realizing their own mistakes and after this realization they also repent their action and effect a change in their conduct and behaviour.
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