Jain Legend Vol 2

Author(s): Hastimal Maharaj, Shuganchand Jain, P S Surana
Publisher: Hastimal Maharaj Shugan C Jain P S Surana

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Female-votary: Reverend Sir! Yes, I am N gil , who took the vow of
complete celibacy and whose body is nothing but flesh, blood, bone and other impurities.
Bhavadeva looked at Female-votary N gil without blinking his eyes and stood silently like a picture. Female-votary N gil said, “Mah tm ! This life is like a bubble, destructible in a second. If you Dev ate from
rama a Dharma, your life would be like an endless journey; and hence, get back to your senses. Return to your Guru and repent for your sins (Pr ya citta) and strictly adhere to the five Mahavratas. By observing austerities and self restraint eventually you will wash out all the Karma and will successfully attain imperishable, infinite and eternal bliss
Just then the son of the Brahmin lady who accompanied N gil came there and vomited the rice pudding he ate a little while ago. The Brahmin lady said to her son, “This rice pudding is very delicious and sweet; and so eat the rice pudding you vomited”.
Hearing this, Monk Bhavadeva said, “O Righteous Lady! What are you asking the child to do? A person who eats back the vomited food is considered to be very mean and repulsive.
On this comment, N gil told the monk, “Mah tm ! Analyse yourself. Aren't you trying to eat the vomited food? You have come all the way to enjoy this disowned body made of flesh, blood and bones. If you don't mind, may I ask you a question? Don't you feel ashamed of yourself for entertaining the very thought of abdicating the path of renunciation to which you have been attached for so long? If any honour is still left in you, what ever ascetic principles you followed outwardly, at least now follow them wholeheartedly. Go back to crya Susthita and cleanse yourself of the frivolous thoughts that entered your mind.
By the valuable and analytical words of N gil , the clouds of delusion that had engulfed the heart of Bhavadeva were cleared and the darkness of ignorance got dispelled with the light of knowledge of conscience.
Bhavadeva expressed his heart-felt gratitude to N gil and went back to
c rya Susthita, redeemed for his faults and got engrossed in severe penance. After following the rama a Dharma for many years, having
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