Jain Journal 1980 07

Author(s): Jain Bhawan Publication
Publisher: Jain Bhawan Publication

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JAIN JOURNAL
Rathanemi was looking at her without a wink drinking the nectar of her beauty for the flowering of which he felt all that was most beautiful in the world had made their contribution : her elongated eyes she got from a doe, her gait from the swan, her softness from cakori who lived On moon beams. And that was why she was so beautiful, wondrously fascinating.
Rajimati by that time stood erect before him.
Looking at the downcast eyes of Rajimati Rathanemi said, 'O beauty, I want to know who you are ?'
Without raising her eyes said Rajimati harshly, ‘Monk, unbecoming is your question, still more unbecoming is your behaviour.'
Rathanemi was hurt. He said, 'O beautiful one, what unbecoming you have seen in my behaviour? I am Rathanemi of the Andhaka Vrsni clan. You know not, to look at the unparalled beauty of your form, to get the nearness of your youth, how eager is this universe | Your beauty is a marvel.'
Rajimati raised her eyes and began to look at Rathanemi's face. She felt no delight in this unrestrained praise of her beauty. Her heart ached. Did her beauty deserve such praise ? Oh no. Otherwise her beauty would have stopped her betrothed from renouncing this world.
Rathanemi said loudly, 'Do you hear me, my love ?
Rajimati looked at him with her sorrowful eyes. She said, 'O scion of the Vrsnis, it's not the proper mode of addressing the nuns.'
'But I am addressing the woman whom I desire.'
‘But I can't be the woman of your desire and you are forgetting that you are a monk.'
'O hearken me, one with beautiful lips, I have not forgotten that I am a monk. But at this moment I want to drink the nectar lips, my bosom eagerly waits to be tormented by thy firm and high breasts. The light radiating from your eyes are entering in my veins like melted fire. O one with slender waist and beautiful hips, grace this moment by the pleasures of love. Sramanahood can be embraced at any time but youth will not last for ever.'