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also develops a mental inclination to avert pain or resist it. Yet, it is not possible to avoid the pain. At that time, his ego gets hurt as his desire to avoid the pain is crushed. He experiences helplessness. All these forces make his misery all the more unbearable. When an elder sister-in-law, who is trying to avoid her own chores, is forced to do even the younger sister-in-law's work, how painful would the situation seem to her? When the situation of undergoing pain presents itself, one is bound to experience agitation and confusion.
When you think of someone as the root cause of all your troubles, he is going to appear to you only as an enemy. Who would be prepared to endure afflictions given by an enemy? There is no choice but to suffer them. This makes the soul perplexed. He becomes extremely impatient to get even, and therefore, till he is able to avenge himself, his mind is not at rest. Besides, he had committed the mistake way back in the past. Now, there is no possibility of its diminution. Therefore, there is a mental acceptance of the fact on his part that it is not in his hands to reduce whatever he has to bear as a punishment. However to a person who sees someone else as the perpetrator of his difficulties, the other person's present deeds in the form of strange words or behaviour only seem as the root cause of his afflictions. He believes that if these strange deeds stop, his afflictions would also lessen. His desire to see his afflictions reduced also prompts him to make an attempt in that direction. However the other person does not relent as a consequence of which his troubles continue. This situation becomes intolerable for him and
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