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we are going to see him with coloured glasses of enmity. However others do not see him with those glasses and therefore do not think of him as a tyrant. On the contrary, they think of him as being virtuous and therefore they hail him, offer him their salutation and felicitate him with garlands. Moreover, when one's close relatives, dear ones and friends are also amongst this group of people, the situation becomes extremely difficult to bear. Sometimes, the other person may not be as virtuous but due to the arising of his good merits, people may think him as virtuous and therefore may shower praises on him. He may be successful everywhere and may forge ahead due to being meritorious. A soul is unable to see the success of the very person whose failure, slander and financial ruin he has been wishing on account of his deep-seated hatred. When that person succeeds often, there is a terrible turmoil in the mind. When he sees only good things happening to the person whose ill he has been wishing, he even starts detesting nature strongly. If he believes God to be 'the Doer, the Protector and the Destroyer of all things, a great tumult is caused in his mind whereby he even feels like abusing God. Sometimes, all this torment seems worse to him than even the irritation caused to him by the other person.
Even if one were to keep aside the benefit accrued to one in the other world, when one realizes and accepts one's fault, are the gains like freedom from repeated mental agony and experiencing unparalleled peace of mind in this life worth discounting?
All those people whose minds always remain highly
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