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converged energy of Self.
It was a prolonged glimpse, some dots in time, yet it sang of all eternity. How long it lasted did not matter, for it opened up the whole inner world to his vision. Inwardly he knew that he was in a state of ahimsa. No desire to possess, no need to hold, no feeling to be in control. It was a height of demandlessness. One realization bubbled up from this wellspring of inner bliss.
Oh, I was clinging to my mother, sister, friend! Now I have let that need drop! There is nothing but love! Nothing but life! Nothing but pure consciousness! All I had to do was open the door which I thought was closed! It is all open space! I am here, a rising sun, hanging in infinite space, finding my home in the infinite sky! The whole universe is here vibrating in my awareness!
Such moments are the teachers of truth, the engravers of knowledge on the consciousness of soul. Clear and vivid, the power of this ecstatic experience was enough to lift him once and for all from his sorrow and confusion and quest.
His father did not know what to make of this son of his. He saw him laughing, smiling. He was used to taking care of him and could not imagine why he was acting like an intoxicated person! Later he sought out the Master's advice.
"Don't worry,” the Acharya told him. “It is ecstasy. When sorrow is lifted, a person feels lightness. He floats in newness." “But he is singing, laughing and giggling like a madman!"
The Master reassured him, “There is nothing wrong, dear soul! Your son now knows he is immortal. He is experiencing the real ecstasy of soul. From this day he is a free soul while living in this body. He has thrown light on that sorrow which had been burdening him. Now that condition has been dissolved. The clouds are lifted. He feels light. This is his great achievement. Now he feels and knows what he really is. That is all. The mood will pass, but the deep insight will remain to fuel the rest of his journey in this life.”
It was true. With the removal of his sorrow, Munishree was experiencing the ecstasy and tenderness of his natural spontaneous Self. Like a flower, his whole being was surcharged with softness and fragrance. Possessiveness had evaporated
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