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lapses of this vow. I might not have preserved the five restraints, or completed properly the scrutiny, or followed the fixed time. I might have concluded the vow before the fixed time was over, or I might not have made the determination to renounce whatever obstructed the pursuit of the vow. I might not have observed the vow which was to limit the things like food or clothes, or other daily things, on a day to day basis. I might have used or desired food, water or juices, while I was fasting or had chauvihar.
PAUSHADH VRAT
I reflect on and confess wrongdoings in respect of the eleventh vow, the Paushadh Vrat, in which for one or more days I gave up all worldly affairs and usually performed fasting, and lived like a monk. If I am guilty of any wrongdoings of this vow, I request to be forgiven and my sins nullified. During the Paushadh Vrat, I might have become guilty of being careless in checking clothes or mat for living beings or not looking properly, or not examining or being careless while spreading mat or wearing the clothes for living beings or not removing the living beings carefully to a safer place; or being careless in checking for living beings or not looking properly, the place where urine or fecal material was being disposed off, or moving them to a safer place. I might not have observed the Paushadh vow in right order, including fasting and other things in the right manner. Moreover, I might not have carried out the Paushadh for at least twenty-four hours or more, might not have properly examined all the mouth-cover, special broom, my clothes or mat, or performed the meditation with motionless body position. I might have indulged in talks about other sex, restaurants and food, town, city, country, or politics. I might have shown desire for food, sexual activities, or materialistic gain, or felt fear instead of doing religious activities. I might have slept during the day time, or indulged in useless talks and left aside the study of scriptures. I might have avoided removing ornaments. I might have kept the keys of the house or the shop. I might have performed Paushadh out of temptation that it would end with a nice celebration and a meal before and/or after it. I might have observed Paushadh not as a purifying process, but as a result of a controversy of somebody not believing me as a religious person, and done without understanding what it is. I could have asked for some particular reward for Paushadh, or given advice or suggestions regarding the ceremonious conclusion, and/or to celebrate Paushadh by giving something like sweets. I might have shown anger or uttered proud words during Paushadh. I might have resorted to fraud, deceit, entertained greedy thoughts, abused someone, or resorted to levity in sight, speech and passion. I might not have done Pratikraman and scrutiny twice as needed. I might not have disposed of urine or fecal material with proper carefulness and as prescribed in scripture. I might have gone out of the Paushadhsala bare at night or when it was raining, or might have wished to eat when hungry. I might have terminated the vow before the time is over, or might have found fault with the person who suggested me to observe the vow when beset with calamities, or might have ignored religious activities. I might not have observed the vow with respectful devotion, or lost the faith as a result of the vow. I might not have observed the restrain to how many clothes should be kept, or might have used the mat which was as thick as a mattress. I might have used wooden blocks as pillows. I might not have served aged, weak or ill ascetic, who have observed Paushadh Vrat. Instead of keeping a pleasant attitude, I might have felt anguish in the mind. OFFERING TO UNEXPECTED GUEST
I reflect on and confess wrongdoings related to the twelfth vow to offer alms to unexpected guests, such as Monks or Nuns, for which I had to follow certain criteria, of which I might have been guilty. If I am guilty of any wrongdoings of this vow, I request to be forgiven and my sins nullified. I might have been guilty of putting an animate thing on top of inanimate things or an inanimate thing on top of animate things while offering alms, or offering a thing to a monk which was spoilt or fermented stale. I might also have asked someone else to offer alms while I had been fit to do
