Aloyana

Author(s): Hiraji Swami, Gulabchandraji
Publisher: Pradyuman Vora

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And the last, regarding death: I wish I can accept fast until death and die laying in one position without anybody's help, or with help of someone to change my laying down position, or while I am moving around.
I might not have cherished these three ambitions at night time before going to bed; if at all I had done so, I might not have cherished them. I might have been careless in doing so, or might not have maintained faith during such thinking. I wish to be forgiven and my sins nullified.
FOR
FORGIVENESS
AND
OFFERING
REQUESTING FORGIVENESS
Khamemi Savva Jive Savve Jiva Khamantu Me
Mitti Me SavvabhuesuVeram Majjham Na Kenai
I forgive all the living beings of the universe, and may all the living beings forgive me for my faults. I do not have any animosity towards anybody, and I have friendship for all the living beings.
In this way, after saluting the 24 Jineshvars and completely reflecting on and censuring all sins committed by the three motives, and three yogas namely, the activities of the mind, speech and the body, retracting from sins and censuring despising and loathing all this I make my soul pure. In spite of such a cleaning, this soul may not become pure out of the influence of some sins. I might have in any way offended living beings in this, or previous lives, or made them unhappy, separated them, robbed their property, betrayed them, resorted to fraud or deceit, broken a promise after giving it, destroyed some living beings after giving them hope, cheated them under the pretext of religion, led them astray, given them wrong advice, made them quarrel or dispute, or made them sustain a loss.
Thus, I might have been in many ways guilty, or failed to acknowledge virtues, done wrong to a benefactor, or failed to acknowledge an obligation for a good done to me. I might have resorted to such animosity or opposition, or made someone resort to it or approve of it, by day or at night, either at right time or wrong time, with my thought, speech and action. I therefore, request them again and again to forgive me. O souls! I am guilty, forgive me for my offenses, pardon me. O God! Inspire me with such good thoughts that I may not violate again against any living beings.
Now, I specially request for forgiveness from 8.4 million living beings of different origins for any animosity or opposition done to them by me. These are 700 thousand earthly beings, 700 thousand water beings, 700 thousand fire beings, 700 thousand wind beings, 1 million individual bodied vegetable beings, 1.4 million common bodied vegetable beings, 200 thousand two-sensed beings, 200 thousand three- sensed beings, 200 thousand four-sensed beings, 400 thousand hellish beings, 400 thousand lower five-sensed beings, 1.4 million human beings, and 400 thousand heavenly angel beings. I might have killed or hurt any of these 8.4 million various beings while moving, walking, getting up or sitting down, knowingly or unknowingly, or made someone else to do so, or approved of such a killing or hurting by someone else. I might have cut, pierced, distressed, or harassed them; and moreover, I might have inflicted illness upon them by the activities of the mind, speech or the body. Again, I might have caused harassment, or distress to any of them. So keeping as my witnesses the infinite Arihants, the Siddhas and the revered Kevalis I again and again request to forgive me.
Now, I apologize and request for forgiveness from the relatives and friends for any offense I might have done to them. O mother! O father! O son! O daughter! O grandfather! O grandmother! O uncle! O maternal uncle! O brother! O sister! O nephew! O niece! O partners! O neighbors! O inlaws! and such relatives and friends! or to everybody, if up until today I have committed any offense against you, or found fault with you, or done ill in return for a good done to me, or failed to acknowledge your obligation, or done ill to you in any way or thought of it, if I have failed to do service to you or to show devotion for you, or if I have not shared your misery, or if I have not offered help to you, then with folded hands and curbing my ego, with my thought, words, and action, I again and again request you to forgive me. Please show mercy to this offender, that is me, and forgive me.