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DECEMBER 2015
PRABUDDH JEEVAN
39
THE SECKER'S DIARY
DOUBLE TROUBLE
"The quality or condition of being dual!"
magnanimous and secretly kept every 'hisaab' that you Peace and war, love and hate, up and down, and black have spent on your closed ones, kept a log book and and white are dualities. Another term for a duality is also held resentments if you thought you had given dichotomy.
more or received less? Today, my thoughts are on this term "duality"
Haven't your thoughts and actions been completely in Lately I have been immersed in this thought process conflict sometimes? of 'Why are we so dual? Why within and around us Has your Aadarsh'( ideal ) been Moksh and Samyak such dualities exists?
Darshan and liberation and your instinct yearned for Let me expound.
sensual pleasures, for Maas, madira, par stri gaman, All around me and so often within me I come across moti chori...? these totally dual and opposite experiences.
Have you considered yourself completely fair and made A close friend of my father speaks words of such deep a self image of Purushotttam Ram and yet hidden your gyan for hours, he propounds to all about love and large accounts, evaded taxes, paid your employees less, heartedness in families and of letting go of children to made one person do job of five and thought that this live on their own to others even as he is unable to give was completely how to get work done? up control to his own son and his wife.
Or even simple things like have you hated your A very prolific writer on Jainism and editor of a much companion or friend or spouse being distracted on the loved magazine on Jainism confessed that he had been mobile but when it comes to you felt that you had a an athiest for the longest time even while he wrote such genuine important reason to be so busy and distracted? proficiently on Jainism.
The list is endless and we will continue saying yes My friend's husband spoke strongly for years and years when we actually mean 'No', we will pretend to be of his supposedly idyllic marriage on fidelity and really happy when inside us we could be dying or we could criticised today's society for being so 'loose' his word) be really happy and feign false sadness, be actually and used to lecture on ideal and successful marriages. rich but show poor, or be less and show more. We will Recently it came out that he was in a long term extra sometimes be real and sometimes superficial, marital affair himself.
sometimes truly go out of the way for someone, at other To break it further, have we not really disliked someone time be completely thoughtless and callous. sometimes even as we have loved them.?
As Neela Ma( Neela Shashikant Mehta) used to always Have we not lied sometimes to the very people we say and now Pujyashri Gurudev constantly shows us have always expected the truth from?
our own mirror that we have intense love (raag), then Have we not had double standards for our siblings and intense dislike (dvesh) for the same person, object, friends as compared to our spouses and children? situation, and this pendulum, this shift of our moods is Have we not been hypocritical about so many things? all so fleeting. Have we not smiled at someone and met them warmly We all are full of dualities and full of contradictions. and then turned around and said 'Gosh he or she is hypocrisies and double standards and I guess that is such a @#$&*% (whatever the negative word may be). what it is to be human and little by little through Have we not advised a hundred times over to others awareness and just through sheer love of the divine, about fate "Aa to badhu lakheluj che" or " Jain dharam through actually realising how momentary everything ma rahi ne how can you do so much raag dvesh" and actually is we are all treading along this path of life in at the same time for hours plotting revenge or spending the hope that someday this worldly duality will end and hours in artha dhyan or saying bad things about the advait or 'samyak gnyaan' will dawn. person who you have felt bad about, or spend so much Chalo isi baat par gehri soch karte hain is mahine - time in self pity wallowing "How could hel she have Why not find that one space in us that does not change done this to me?"
and end the year with gentle thoughts, awareness and Have you not given millions in charity and at the same lots of love and gratitude in our hearts to be able to feel time don't think enough while giving the days leftovers and think, fall and rise and have the ability and to your own domestic help in your house?
opportunity to become a little better every moment of Have you not been talking about being liberal and open our lives ...... Happy 2016 minded even as you hide for years or are embarrassed
Reshma Jain about your child suffering from depression or is autistic?
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