Life as I have Seen It

Author(s): Urmila S Dholakia
Publisher: Urmila S Dholakia

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Life - As I've seen it
would be impossible; my boyfriend belonged to a wealthier family and was from a higher class. No one in his family would care for me, especially given the circumstances. His family was so aristocratic, that they would not even throw a sideways glance in my direction. I was ignorant of the oppressed life that spoiled brats, like my boyfriend lived; he was completely helpless. I realized that a man who does not work for his own money, and has no sense of earning, is not a true man. When I realized all of this, it was too late. My mom concluded that if we wasted any more time, then people and society would destroy the rest of my life.
To get out of my misery, my mother thought long and hard. Her wisdom bore its' fruit. Under false pretense, she took me to a small, unknown village near Pune. In due time, my first daughter was born. My mother planed ahead. After leaving my daughter in the safety an orphanage, my mother and | returned to Bombay. There was some gossip, but the mater shortly resolved itself. People became busy with new gossip and forgot about my incident.
Now my mother wanted me to get married soon. My pregnancy ruined my value as a potential bride. I had to accept whoever was willing to marry me. No one felt the need to understand me or help me. Love was out of the question. I was trapped in the social norms. I was living the life of a dead body. I could not understand for what fault of mine was my life so miserable. Why did I lose the right to express my own views of desires? I was getting
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