Life as I have Seen It

Author(s): Urmila S Dholakia
Publisher: Urmila S Dholakia

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Life - As I've seen it
right. To love and raise my own biological children was not an option. My husband had ordered that on behalf of his first wife. There was no question about what my wish was or was not. The reigns were in his first wife's hands, and my life was steered in any directions that she wished. I had to live in this, jail, which I was to call my home. Even my maternal family was not going to help me this time.
Under these circumstances, my life continued on. I was the mother of three children, but I felt that the fruits of my labor were stolen right out of my hands. I carried and gave birth to three children, but had no right to call them my own, Thus, sadly, what is meant to be the joyous Spring season of one's life turned into the miserable season of Fall.
Today, I am forty-five-years old. I have entered the fourth phase of my life. My husband passed away, and his first wife is now an elderly lady. Along with living life, I have learned a lot through my experiences. Today, an inner strength has given me a new life. Now, I know that inner strength very well. Wielding this strength, I have seized full control of my life and circumstances. My children are all grown up, and I was able to plant some seeds of wisdom into them at the appropriate time. With God's grace and my few grains of wisdom, my children are leading a good life.
Having seen the result of finding my own inner. strength, I wonder what life would have been like if someone had helped me seek this strength -earlier