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My heart was moved. It was brooding to go in the shelter of Gurudev. I wrote to my father for permission to go to Santiniketan. He called me at Karachi. Even though I went there and had to join some service for a while, but my heart was overpowered with the longing to go to Santiniketan.
In the meanwhile, I was caught in serious illness at Karachi. When the illness reached its climax and when I was placed on the ground surface, my father asked me with deep feelings of love and affection,
"Have you any wish to be fulfilled, dear Gurdial ?"
"Yes, father! I want one hundred rupees. I want to go to Santiniketan". I at once replied and kind father consoled me with love:
"Not one hundred, I shall give you one thousand, but recover and be alright first".
With this consolation and with Grace of God, I acquired back my lost health. Father gave me money. I sent a Telegram to Gurudev and reached Santiiniketan after five days journey.
THAT FIRST MEETING..........!
After walking the distance from Bolpur to Santiniketan, I at once asked one gentleman on reaching over there, "Where does Gurudev stay?"
"Gurudev was taken ill. He has been taken to Calcutta for treatment."
This reply shattered my hopes. I at once thought to go to Calcutta. But in the meanwhile, C.F. Andrews peeped in and following his advice I stayed back in Satiniketan.
After some days, Gurudev returned to the Ashram. Deenabandhu C.F. Andrews told him about myself. I was given an appointment to meet Gurudev at 12-00 noon.
After finishing my meals early by 11-30 a.m., I went and sat waiting on the staircase of Gurudev's residence. Deenbandhu saw me at 11-55 a.m. and called me after consulting Gurudev.
I went upstairs, but what do I see ? Gurudev seated crossed legs in the position of Padmasana amidst that still, silent and serene atmosphere. I bowed and stood aside with Deenbandhu.
One minute, two minutes, three minutes, but Gurudev was silent......! My heart began to weep: "What a strange fate of mine ! Even after calling me here, you disappoint me my God?"
Deenbandhu told me in gesture : "Still one minute is left."
......and Gurudev placed his right hand on my head and said:
"I HAVE KNOWN YOU FOR AGES. A SEAT HAS BEEN VACANT FOR YOU IN MY ASHRAM, SINCE LONG. WHEN WILL YOU OCCUPY IT ?"
And that's all...... as soon as I heard this, I at once realized from within that my old life has been over, new life has commenced, stream of water has melted in the Sea.......
I fell in the feet of Gurudev then. and resolved in mind with God's witness,
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