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[ Last Repentence of Goshala
shall die on the seventh day from to-day. Therefore try to know the truth, and put an end to your evil feelings, so that the end may not be bad.” With these words, the Lord kept silence.
Goshala was dumb founded by the reaction of Tejoleshya. Then Gautama Svami and other disciples of the Lord addressed him thus:--"O foolish Goshala, this is the result of insulting Dharma Gura. Those who do not have faith in them, suffer such consequences. Under force of pride, show and false self-respect, you disregarded even the Shastras, logic and rules of good conduct. You have ruined yourself by your opposition to the Shastras, by your illogical arguments, and by your misconduct. Where is the power of your Tejolesh ya now ?” Goshala was looking towards them like an old and crippled hungry lion, but as he was now quite unable to do anything, his anger began to burn him instead of causing any injury to others. After some time when his anger lessened, he daparted from that place and came to his own residence in great agony.
Six.days passed one after another. The seventh and the last day of his life came. Although this last week of his life was full of griefs and miseries still his end was not unhappy. At the very last moment, he felt some awakening in him, on account of which he began to repent for the misdeeds done by him in his life. He called his disciples to-gether and said to them, “I have really deceived the world and myself so far, because on account of my pride neither I myself believed in the principles of my omniscient Guru, Lord Mahavira, nor did I allow others to believe in them. I have tried to conceal my real name up till now. Indeed my name is Goshala. I
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