Autobiograpy of Gyani Purush A M Patel

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Dada Bhagwan Foundation

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Autobiography of Gnani Purursh
Autobiography of Gnani Purursh
believe that if the nail affected the soul as I walked, I had not yet acquired the soul. So I let the penance continue and the scars of that penance still remain. The scars of penance never go away. I eventually understood that it was a wrong path. Penance has to happen within. Silently Accepted The Penance, Without Anyone Knowing
Once I had to travel from Bombay to Baroda in a car. As soon as I sat in the car, I told myself, 'You will have to sit in the same place for seven hours. This is penance that has come your way.' Such internal talks are constantly taking place even as I am talking to you all. That day I told Ambalal Patel, “Today you have to accept this penance, and you are not to say a single word." People tried to make the journey easy for me by asking me if I was comfortable and I would tell them, "I am very comfortable". I never give any commission by telling others of such difficulties. I accept everything without any complaint. Some other Dada may speak up, but not this one. That is called accepting and going through the penance that presents to you. So Much Suffering In Waiting: Convert It To The Use
Of The Self Once at the age of twenty-two, I missed my bus by a minute. Actually I had come to the bus station an hour earlier, but I got delayed at a restaurant and missed the bus by a minute. This situation was one of turmoil. It would have been understandable if I were late in reaching the bus station in the first place; I would have accepted the fact that I was late and would not have been so annoyed. But here I had come an hour early and yet missed the bus and had to wait an hour and a half for the next one.
Now let me tell you what state I was in when I had to wait for an hour and half. What a though struggle was going on within. An ordinary person, for example would have, say fifty thought struggles going on within him whereas I would have a hundred thousand. You can imagine the suffering. I never liked waiting, even if someone were to offer a comfortable seat during the wait. That hour and a half seemed like twenty hours. That is when I realized that waiting for someone or something is the greatest foolishness in this world. So from the age of twenty-two I stopped waiting for anything. And if in case I had to wait I would engage my mind in something. There are times when you have no choice but to wait. I saw a great opportunity in such a situation. Instead of idling away the time worrying about the arrival of the next bus, I made some internal adjustments. Then I was at peace. Can some adjustments not be made?
Questioner: Yes they can be. Dadashri: Is there not a lot to be done? Questioner: So get the mind occupied in something. Dadashri: Yes, get the mind occupied in something. Questioner: In what?
Dadashri: In anything. I will tell you what I did. I would read Krupadudev's writing or some other saint's. I would not recite it but I would read it. To recite it is to repeat from memory. Instead I would read it. Do you understand this?
Questioner: How could you read without a book, Dada?
Dadashri: I would read without the book. I would