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________________ Apa sagAI kareM usase Before You Get Engaged From pahale ApakA jIvana Aga nahIM, bAga bane, isa lie hArdika zubha kAmanAoM ke sAtha saprema.. zAMti se par3heM... vicAra kareM aura phira Age... yAda rahe jaba jiMdagI kA sahI khela zaru hogA, taba | vaoNka sTAyala yA TaoNka sTAyala kAma meM nahIM AyegI / phera skIna yA phera luka bhI kAma meM nahIM AyegI 1 veltha, DigrI yA presTIja bhI usa samaya bekAra ho jAyegI 1 usa samaya myuz2iyama - pIsa jaise pAtra Apa ko duHkhI mahAduHkhI kara deMge 1 plIz2a apane Apa para itanA sitama na kareM 1 Apa kisI ko pasaMda kareM usa se pahale pasaMda karane ke sahI pahalU ko pasaMda kara leM 1 basa, phira ApakA jIvana svarga bana jAyegA 1 sacamuca 1
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________________ 20 viSayAnukrama SUBJECT PAGE 1. kyA dekheMge ? suMdaratA ? sampatti ? yA shikssaa| 2. prasannatA kA srota..... sakArAtmaka zakti 3. sukha yA duHkha ?... pasaMda ApakI yaha kitAba nahIM Apake eka nijI mitra kA pyAra bharA upahAra hai jo nahIM cAhatA ki ApakI eka bhUla jIvanabhara kI sajA bana jAye / 4. svarga yA narka ?... pasaMda ApakI 5. moDarna yA orthoDoksa ? ApakI icchA 6. ruko, dekho aura calo 7. gorI camar3I se riztA 8. zahara yA gA~va ?
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________________ "z2arUra, ye bhI koI kahane kI bAta hai ?" kyA dekheMge ? suMdaratA ?.... sampatti.... yA zikSA ?... "kyA bAta karate ho ? mujhe lagatA hai tuma pAgala ho gaye ho| amarikA kI lar3akI se terI sagAI ho gaI aura tumane tabhI kaha diyA, ki use smaraNa... kyAM bole the tuma ?" "hA~, jaba use paMca pratikramaNa, navasmaraNa, cAra prakaraNa, tIna bhASya aura cha karmagraMtha A jAyeMge, usa ke bAda hamArI zAdI hogii|" "kyA vAhIyAta, bakavAsa hai| lagatA hai tU usa amarIkI lar3akI ko ka~vArI hI rakhanA cAhatA hai, aura hA~ tU bhI ka~vArA hI rahegA, ThIka hai na? bAya da ve, abhI vaha kitanI par3hI hai|" "navakAra, onlI nvkaar|" "ho gayA kAma ! taba to terI zAdI ho cukii|" "hallo, jImita, mujhe abhI terI zAdI kA nimaMtraNa kArDa prApta huA hai| bahuta badhAI, kyA tujhe eka prazna pUcha sakatA hU~ ?... kyA yaha vahI lar3akI hai, jisake sAtha tUne pichale sAla..." "jimita. jisake sAtha maiM apane dila ko khola kara hara bAta kara sakatA hU~, aisA tU basa eka hI vyakti hai| Aja tujhe ghara bulAyA hai, to usakA eka vizeSa kAraNa hai| mammI-pApA upadhAna hetu gaye haiM aura vaha rAkhI bA~dhane apane mAyake gaI hai| jimita, maiM itanA duHkhI ho cukA hU~, ki mara jAne ke vicAra Ate haiN| usakA svabhAva niSThura hai, eka dama ktthor| sArA dina mA~ ke sAtha lar3atI rahatI hai| choTI sI bAta meM rone lagatI hai aura to aura jora-jora se bola kara sAre apArTamenTa ko hilA detI hai| maiM thakA hArA rAta ko ghara AtA hai, thakAvaTa, vyApAra ke TeMzana aura ArAma kI sakhta z2arUrata hotI hai... ye saba kucha use dikhAI nahIM detA, mujhe rAta ko eka-Der3ha baje taka basa usakI phariyAdeM sunanI par3atI haiN| basa, mazInagana kI taraha vaha bolatI hI rahatI hai, mujhe kucha bolane kA avasara bhI nahIM detii| kaI bAra mana aisA hotA hai ki maiM ghara jAU~ hI nahIM, lekina agara ghara nahIM jAU~ to kahA~ jAUM... itanI par3hI likhI hai lekina koI menara yA kaoNmanaseMsa, viveka jaisA kucha bhI.... agara par3ausa meM vaha kahIM kucha dekha Ae yA TI.vI.-akhabAra meM kucha dekha le to samajho ki maiM to mara gyaa| yAni jaba taka vaha vastu lA kara na do taba taka chuTakArA nahIM ho sakatA, lA kara denI hI par3atI hai| use mahaMgAI nahIM dikhatI, vyApAra meM AI maMdI nahIM dikhatI aura nA hI merI kepesiTI kA khyAla hai use| ghara ke kAma jaise vaise paDe hai to paDe rahe lekina usake mekaapa aura Tipa TaoNpa hone meM se use phursata hI nahIM milatI aura hA~, use kucha bhI kahane kA khatarA kauna mola legA? jimita, tU isa bAtako apane taka hI rkhegaa| isa bAta kA mujhe pUrA vizvAsa hai, isIlie tujhe kahatA huuN| vaha "neTa' para ghaMTo vyatIta karatI hai aura vo kyA karatI hai isa bAta ko gupta rakhane meM vaha bahuta sAvadhAna hotI hai| vaise bhI usake baMda kamare ko khaTakhaTAne kI kisI kI hiMmata nahIM hotii| vaha zaoNpiMga "to kyA tUne apanI zartoM ke sAtha samajhautA kara liyA ?" "nahIM, bilkula nhiiN|" "to kyA bAraha mahIne meM lar3akI kI zikSA itanI ho gaI ?" "oNphakorsa yasa, ye saMbhava thA aura mujhe isa kA patA thaa| tU koziza kare, to terA bhI itanA abhyAsa ho jAe, aura vaha bhI utane hI samaya meN|" "o.ke. yAra tU jItA, lekina jIta kara tUne pAyA kyA, mujhe ye samajha meM nahIM AtA hai ?" "ciMtA mata kara, ye samajhAnA bhI saMbhava hai| aba isa bAta ko chor3a de| zAdI meM parivAra ke sAtha z2arUra A jAnA / " - - Before You Get Engaged Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale
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________________ ke bahAne bAhara jAtI hai to kaba vApasa AyegI isakA koI bharosA nahIM hotaa| kyA kahU~ tujhe ! maiM to usake lie sirpha eka sAdhana hU~, jo usakI, usake zarIra kI, mana kI aura paise kI bhUkha ko saMtuSTa kara ske...|" jimita, maiM apane Apa ko bahuta bhAgyazAlI mAnatA thA ki mujhe itanI suMdara aura zikSita patnI milI hai, lekina aba saca kahU~ to aba usakI tarapha dekhane kA bhI mana nahIM karatA hai| use dekhate hI mujhe ghRNA hone lagatI hai, napharata hotI hai| zAyada vaha mere lie duniyA kI saba se kurUpa strI hai aura usakI zikSA ? mAya phUTa, isakI jagaha to kisI anapar3ha se zAdI kI hotI to acchA thA... jar3atA kI bhI koI hada hotI hai... thaka gayA hU~ maiM usase... aura apane jIvana se bhii| jimita varSoM ke bAda apane eka abhinna mitra ko rote hue dekha rahA thaa| jimita ko lagA ki agara sabhI ke pAsa koI "jimita" ho to saba isa taraha ro pdd'eN| lagabhaga sabhI / mecyora vyakti bhii| jimita abhI cupa thA, lekina usake AMsu usake mitra ko kAphI sahAnubhUti, sAMtvanA de rahe the... kucha pala aise hI bIta gaye, aura aba jimita ke hoTha hile... "nIzu, pA~ca sAla pahale tujhe merI bAta samajha nahIM AtI thI, vaha tujhe aba samajha meM A jaayegii| merA jIvana bahuta-bahuta sukhI hai, jisakA mukhya kAraNa ye hai ki merI patnI ekadama paoNjhiTiva hai| vaha mere mA~-bApa ko sirpha dikhAve ke lie nahIM balki dila se apane mAtA-pitA mAnatI hai| merI mA~ ke kucha mAinasa poIMTa the lekina usakI sevA aura mA~ ke prati usake abhigama ko dekhakara mA~ usa kI tarapha ho gii| daphtara se ghara jAU~ aura mujhe aisI phariyAda sunane ko mile ki merI sArI thakAna utara jaae| mA~ kahatI hai ki "ye ArAma karatI nahIM hai" aura vaha kahatI hai ki mA~ se kaha do ve kicana meM na Ae~, sArI jiMdagI unhoMne ghara kA bahuta kAma kiyA hai, aba unake ArAma karane kA samaya huA hai, ArAma karane kI umra hai|" nIzu, tU saca mAnegA ? Aja taka usane apane khuda ke lie kabhI kucha kharIdA hI nahIM hai| jo bhI liyA hai, vaha bhI mere Agraha karane para liyA hai| - Before You Get Engaged pAlItANA meM maiM jabaradastI use bAjAra le gayA thA, maiMne vahA~ use eka sAr3I lene ke liye kitanA kahA, usakA basa eka hI javAba thA, ki jarUrata nahIM hai, jo hai vo bhI bahuta adhika hai| maiMne bhArapUrvaka use kahA, "cAhe tU use kabhI mata pahananA, lekina le to le," taba kahIM jA kara vaha sAr3I lene ko taiyAra huI, sirpha merA mana rakhane ke liyeN| nIza, usa kI naz2ara TI.vI. athavA neTa para nahIM hotI hai balki ghara ke kAmoM meM hotI hai| usane ghara meM saba ke dila jIta liye haiN| apanI pharasata ke samaya meM vaha akhabAreM nahIM, dhArmika pustakeM par3hatI hai| mujhe niraMtara aisA anubhava hotA hai ki aisA Adarza vyavahAra aura svAdhyAya-ina donoM se usake guNoM meM bar3hautarI ho rahI hai| hara ghaTanA meM usakI udAratA, sahanazIlatA, niHspRhatA, saMtoSa... Adi guNa A~khoM ko dikhAI par3ate haiN| nIzu, tU mAna yA na mAna, bAhara kI duniyA ke sAtha usakA koI vyavahAra hI nahIM hai| vaha AtmasaMtuSTa hai| ToTalI selph-settiisphaaiidd| use khuza hone ke lie kisI vastu kI jarUrata nahIM pdd'tii| vaha to pahale se hI khuza hai aura usI ke kAraNa merA ghara svarga bana gayA hai| nIzu, kucha dhArmika-prAthamika ekTIviTIjha ke liye maiMne use sagAI se pahale hI samajhA diyA thA / merA matalaba hai use kanvIMsa kara diyA thaa| usa ke lie bhI dhArmika abhyAsa jarurI thaa| usane paMca pratikramaNa Adi ke bAre meM artha ke sAtha abhyAsa kiyA hai, isalie usane sacamuca gahana abhyAsa kiyA hai| Adhunika vijJAna bhI maMtrAkSaroM ke prabhAva ko svIkAra karatA hai| paMca pratikramaNa evaM namasmaraNa kI pavitratA ne hamAre ghara aura hamAre mana ko pavitra banA diyA hai| 'jIvavicAra' kA abhyAsa karane se usake aMdara dayA aura karuNA ke bhAva dikhAI par3ate haiN| vaha 'cIMTI' ko bhI 'samajhatI hai aura mA~ ko bhii| 'navatattva' ko par3hane se vaha yunivarsala TUtha-vaizvika satya ko samajhI hai, isa kAraNa usakA vyavahAra aura ImAnadArI kucha alaga prakAra kI hai| dUsare adhyAyoM ke abhyAsa se aura jJAna se usakI zraddhA sabala banI hai| bhASyoM ke abhyAsa se usakI dhArmika prakriyAyeM hakIkata meM badala gaI hai| ye saba dekha kara hameM usake prati mAna hotA hai| karma graMthoM ke abhyAsa se use "karma ke siddhAnta" kA sUkSmajJAna ho gayA Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale
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________________ hai, jisakA sIdhA pariNAma ye AyA hai ki phariyAda yAni 'kampaleina' zabda usake zabdakoza meM hai hI nahIM tathA sahanazIlatA usakA svabhAva bana gayA hai| kisI ko duHkha paha~ce aisA koI kArya vaha karatI to nahIM hI hai, aisA bolatI bhI nahIM hai| zAdI ke bAda bhI usake phursata ke samaya meM usakA abhyAsa jArI hai| AraMbha meM usane 'zrAddhavidhi' graMtha kA adhyayana kiyaa| usake bAda usake jIvana kA DhaMga sacamuca rica ho gayA aura sAtha hI sAtha usakI vyavahAra kuzalatA bhI bar3hane lagI hai| abhI Akhira meM to usane "jJAnasAra" kA adhyayana kiyA hai| agara isa bAre meM maiM apanI rAya dU, anubhava batAU~ to ye kahanA cAhU~gA ki usakA vyaktitva behada guNavattA se paripUrNa yAni vaha hAIlI-kvoliphAIDa bana gaI hai| vaha jahA~ bhI upasthita hotI hai, usake Asa-pAsa ke vAtAvaraNa meM eka alaga hI prakAra kI prasannatA aura tAjagI kA anubhava hotA hai| mujhe aisA lagatA hai ki vaijJAnika loga jise pojhiTiva enarjI kahate haiM vaha yahI hai| nIzu, mujhe tujha se sirpha eka taraphI bAta hI nahIM karanI hai| adhyayana karane se aisA pariNAma prApta hogA hI yaha jarurI nahIM hai| vidyArthI meM bhI kisI stara kI yogyatA honI cAhie, usakA udbhava bhI kucha sakArAtmaka honA cAhie, jo merI patnI meM pahale se maujUda thaa| muzkila lagane vAlI merI zarte bhI usane hamArI zAdIzudA jiMdagI ke hita meM hai, aisA samajha kara svIkAra kara lI. yaha bAta usakI yogyatA kA pratyakSa pramANa haiN| hA~, yaha bhI nizcita hai ki aise adhyayana se bhI vyakti meM yogyatA bar3hane kI saMbhAvanA hotI hai| lekina ta jise ucca zikSA kahatA hai, usameM aisI koI saMbhAvanA hI nahIM hai aura na hI usa meM koI sakArAtmaka pariNAma prApta karane kI AzA rakhI jA sakatI hai, isa bAta kA to anubhava tujhe ho hI gayA hai| nIzu, zAdIzudA jiMdagI na to 'rupa' se calatI hai, nAhI paise se yA 'skUlakaoNleja' kI zikSA se calatI hai| zAdI calatI hai sadguNoM se / saccI suMdaratA bhI yahI hai, saccI sampatti aura saccI zikSA bhI yahI hai| tere lie zAyada samaya vyatIta ho cukA hai tathApi AzA amara hotI hai| tU prayatna kara ke dekha, sukha kA mArga to yahI hai, tere lie bhI aura usa ke lie bhii| prasannatA kI srota sakArAtmaka UrjA "sAhabajI, Apase eka nIjI bAta karanI hai, kaba AU~ ?" muMbaI-bhAyakhalA meM eka caubisa varSIya yuvaka ne mujhe prazna puuchaa| maiMne jo samaya use diyA thA vaha usa nirdhArita samaya para AyA aura usane apanI bAta khii| "mahArAja zrI ! cAra mahine pahale maiMne zAdI kii| prema vivAha, mere aura usake gharavAloM ke virodha ke baavjuud| usakA usake ghara se riztA ekadama samApta ho gayA usa ke bAda vivAha huaa| maiM bhI dhArmika nahIM hU~ aura vaha bhI nahIM hai| vaha pahale derAsara jAyA karatI thI, lekina bAda meM usane derAsara jAnA chor3a diyaa| vaha kahatI hai ki bhagavAna kucha dete nahIM hai| yaha to sirpha bhUmikA kI bAta hai, hakIkata meM hamArI takalIpha yaha hai ki hamAre daramyAna bhayaMkara jhaghar3e hote haiN| kucha usakI galatI hotI hai aura kucha merI bhI galatI hotI hai| jaba jhaghar3A hotA hai to hama donoM bhayAnaka krodha meM hote haiM, aura na bolane jaisA bola jAte haiM, jisa kAraNa vAtAvaraNa taMga ho jAtA hai aura vaha jhaghar3e meM hamezA talAka kI dhamakI detI hai| mahArAja zrI ! kucha badalAva Aye aura kucha manoraMjana ho isalie hama thiyeTara meM jAte haiM, lekina isase to hamAre jhaghaDe aura bhI bar3ha jAte haiN| use hIro pasaMda AtA hai, mujhe hiroina acchI lagatI hai, phira hama eka dUsare ko pasaMda nahIM krte| ye AMtarika kAraNa hai phira bAhara kI bAta kA vajUda ho yA na ho, lekina hamArA jhaghar3A khar3A ho jAtA hai| mahArAja zrI ! maiM sacamuca meM taMga A gayA huuN| abhI to zAdI ko sirpha cAra mahIne hI hue haiM aura ... sArA jIvana... maiM to talAka bhI nahIM de sakatA - Before You Get Engaged Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale 8
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________________ aura usake sAtha raha bhI nahIM sktaa| talAka le kara vaha jAyegI kahA~ ? yahI bar3A prazna hai| talAka ke bAda agara hama dUsarA vivAha karate haiM, taba hameM samajhautA hI karanA par3egA, bahuta bar3A smjhautaa| isa samaya isa samasyA meM maiM na to ghara meM zAMti se raha sakatA hU~ aura na hI dUkAna meM dhyAna de sakatA huuN| aisI sthiti meM mujhe kyA karanA cAhie ?" eka naujavAna apane prema vivAha kI TrejeDI le kara mere pAsa AyA thaa| usa kI lAcArI, bebasI aura usakA duHkha dekhakara maiM hila gyaa| sakArAtmaka UrjA na to usake pAsa thI aura na hI usakI patnI ke pAsa thii| paise de kara nakArAtmaka zakti le Ane kI bhUla ve niyamita rupa se kara rahe the| TI.vI. viDiyo, neTa, akhabAra, patrikAe~, kharAba mitra maMDala. sinemA Adi ye saba nakArAtmaka UrjA ke strota haiM, jina ke kAraNa zarIra aura mana meM taraha-taraha ke vikAra janma lete haiN| krodha para kAbU nahIM rahatA, kAma vAsanA bhar3aka uThatI hai, sajjanatA ghaTatI jAtI hai, AzA apekSAe~ bar3hatI jAtI haiM. aura ye sAre ghaTaka jIvana meM eka ke bAda eka musibateM lAte rahate haiN| sakArAtmaka UrjA yAni paoNjiTiva enarjI sukhI jIvana kA eka mAtra srota hai| sAmAyika, pUjA, svAdhyAya, pravacanazravaNa ye sAre ghaTaka sakArAtmaka UrjA dete haiN| ina se mana praphullita rahatA hai| zarIra svastha rahatA hai| svastha zarIra aura svastha mana se vyavasAyika aura vyavahArika jimmedArIyoM bhI acchI taraha se nibhAI jA sakatI hai| agara usa yuvaka ne aisI sakArAtmaka UrjA vAlI kanyA se vivAha kA Agraha rakhA hotA, to usakI aisI dazA nahIM hotii| sukha yA duHkha ? pasaMda Apa kI Your choice "hailo, maiM harSada bola rahA huuN| do dina pahale tumhAre ghara riztA le kara AyA thA vo, tumhArA beTA coviyAra karatA hai... isaliye.. merI beTI ko usa ke sAtha ThIka nahIM rahegA... sorii..|" harSadabhAI ke kucha mahIne ciMtA meM vyatIta hue| isa daramyAna unhoMne tInacAra lar3ake dekha liye, lekina kahIM bhI bAta nahIM bnii| AkhikAra eka laDakA rizte ke lie taiyAra ho gyaa| unakI beTI ko bhI yaha laDakA bahuta acchA lgaa| dono zaukhIna mijAja ke the| hoTala-lArI meM jAnA. naI naI philmeM dekhanA... vagairaha-vagairaha unheM pasaMda thaa| laDakI ko lagA ki yaha laDakA mere lie ekadama sahI hai| isake sAtha merA jIvana acchI taraha se sukhamaya vyatIta hogaa| ina donoM kA vivAha ho gyaa| dasa dinoM ke bAda beTI kA phona AyA, "pApA, maiM sukhI hU~, bahuta hI sukhI huuN| basa, mujhe jaisA cAhie thA vaisA hI milA hai| Apa merI kisI taraha kI ciMtA na kreN| ve mujhe bahuta hI acchI taraha se rakhate haiM aura itanA majA hai ki..." sukha kA sAMsa lete hue harSadabhAI sophe para laMbe ho ge| calo, beTI sasurAla meM sukhI ho to mAno jaMga jIta gae aura gaMgA nahA lie| harSadabhAI beTI ke bacapana se lekara vivAha taka kI smRtiyoM meM kho ge| " sukhaM dharmAt sukha kI ekamAtra srota hai dhrm| "hailo, beTA ! kesI ho, AnaMda meM ? do mahIne ho gae tumhArA koI samAcAra hI nahIM hai|" harSadabhAI ne sAmane se phona kiyA thA / zAdI ke cha mahIne bIta cuke the aura Akhira meM jo phona hue the unameM beTI ne koI utsAha nahIM dikhAyA thaa| "beTA, terI AvAja kyoM itanI dhImI aura aspaSTa hai? saca bola, kyA cala rahA hai?... are, tU ro rahI hai?... kyoM?... tujhe merI kasama hai, baul|" beTI uttara de pAye usa kI jagaha phUTa-phUTa kara ro pdd'ii| harSadabhAI kI A~khe Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale 10 Before You Get Engaged
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________________ sophe para gaTharI sI bana ke gira gaye harSada bhaaii| unako eka dUsarA sTIkara yAda Ane lagA, "rAtri bhojana narka kA dvAra hai|" (AtmahatyA kaI prakAra kI hotI hai, jisa meM se eka prakAra yaha hai| dharma se puNya milatA hai aura puNya se sukha milatA hai| isa prakriyA para cAhie utanA vizvAsa zAyada na ho to bhI itanA to najaro samakSa dikhAI paDatA hI hai ki sukha sadguNoM meM hI hai aura sadguNa dharma meM hI hai| sukha ke liye dharma se iMkAra karanA vaha khAne ke lie bhojana ko iMkAra karane ke barAbara hai| agara sakhI bananA hai to dharmI bano aura sAmanevAle pakSa se bhI dharma kA Agraha rakho, varnA duHkhI hone ke liye...) bhI chalaka utthii| thoDA rudana aura thoDA mauna ... bhInI A~kho se harSadabhAI uttara kI rAha dekha rahe the aura sAmane se vahI uttara AyA jisakI zaMkA thI... "pApA, pahale do mahIne to saba kucha ThIka svarga jesA lagatA thA, aura aba saba kucha narka jaisA lagatA hai| unakI va unake sAre parivAra kI asaliyata sAmane A gaI hai| unakA svabhAva bahuta hI kharAba hai| jarA sA bhI vyavahAra unake anukUla nahIM ho to ve mujhe aisA-aisA sunAte haiN...paapaa| itanI halkI bhASA .... aisA apamAna.. pichale do mahinoM se eka bhI dina aisA nahIM gayA hai, jisa dina maiM roI nahIM hU~, aura pApA, plIjha kisI se kucha kahanA mt| pichale tIna mahIne se hama sAtha koI philma dekhane nahIM gaye, nA hI kisI hoTala meM gaye haiM, lekina ve hara roja rAta ko bAhara jAte haiN| pahale kahate the ki "vyApAra kI vajaha se jAnA paDatA hai| phira kahane lage, "tujhe kyA hai? maiM jahA~ cAhU~ jAU~, tuma pUchanevAlI kauna hotI ho ?" pApA mujhe khyAla A gayA thA ki unakI kisI dUsarI ke sAtha... eka bAra ve bAtharUma meM the taba maine unakA phona risIva kiyA thA, pApA ... usa dina unakA asalI ceharA..." ghara ke sabhI una ke pakSa meM haiN| merA yahA~ koI nahIM hai| sAsa ne to mAno majhe rulAne kI kasama hI khA rakhI hai| pApA apane ghara meM eka sTIkara thA na..., "saba ke binA cala sakatA hai lekina dharma ke binA nahIM cala sakatA, dharma hI jIvana kA AdhAra hai|" aba pala-pala mujhe vaha sTIkara yAda AtA hai, lekina use samajhane meM mujhe dera ho gaI...kAza... pApA, mujhe patA hai ki agara maiM vApasa A gaI to Apa saba duHkhI ho jAoge, isaliye maiM isa narka meM dina vyatIta kara rahI haiN| maiM to tumheM yaha bAta bhI batAnA nahIM cAhatI thI, lekina Apa ne kasama jo de dI... plIz2a, merI ciMtA nahIM karanA, maiMne to khuda ne hI apane pA~va para kulhADI mArI hai| jaba taka sahana hogA taba taka sahana kruNgii| phira.. patA nahIM, aura hA~ pApA... merI Apa ko bAra-bAra prArthanA hai, kAjala kI sagAI kisI dhArmika laDake se hI karanA, plIz2a, nahIM to merI bahana kA jIvana bhI merI taraha..." sabjI bigar3atI hai to dina kharAba hotA hai aura AcAra bigar3A to vrss| patnI bigar3I jisa kI, bigar3A usakA jIvana aura adharma huA to bigar3A srvsv| - 11 _Before you get Engaged Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale ____ _
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________________ svarga yA narka ? pasaMda ApakI "riyA ! maiMne sunA hai ki Arya ke liye tUne nA kara dI hai| kyA yaha satya hai?" "haaN|" "lekina kyoM / vo to kitanA acchA lar3akA hai| tujhe usa meM kaunasI kamI dikhAI dI ?" "koI nhiiN|" "to phira... kyoM?" " dekha mAnasI, vo roja sAmAyika karatA hai, caudasa ko pratikramaNa karatA hai aura isa umra meM bhI dharma kA adhyayana karatA hai| cAhe vo bahuta suMdara hai, phira bhI hamezA usake mAthe para tilaka hotA hai, isa liye..." "isaliye kyA ?" ye saba to acchI bAte haiN| isa meM koI mAinasa poIMTa to hai hI nhiiN|" "dekho mAnasI ! dharma ke lie mujhe zAdI nahIM karanI hai, aura agara aisA dhArmika vyakti dIkSA le le, to phira merA kyA hogA ?" "riyA, usakI dainika dinacaryA meM amuka prakAra kI dhArmika kriyAe~ agara zAmila hoM to isakA artha ye kadApi nahIM hai ki terI zAdIzudA jiMdagI meM dharma ke sivA aura kucha bhI nahIM hogA, tU itanI mUrkhatA pUrNa soca sakatI hai, aisA mujhe abhI taka vizvAsa bhI nahIM ho rahA hai, hameM to apane dharma kA garva honA cAhie, itanA hI nahIM apane dharma kI prAthamika kriyAyeM to hameM karanI hI caahie| jo apane dharma ke prati vaphAdAra hotA hai, vahI apane jIvana sAthI ke prati bhI vaphAdAra raha sakatA hai| aura rahI terI usake dIkSA le lene kI bAta, to terI isa bAta para mujhe behada ha~sI A rahI hai| are, agara use dIkSA hI lenI hai to vaha zAdI kyoM karegA? tune kabhI kisI dIkSArthI ko zAdI karate hue dekhA haiM? mujhe aisA lagatA Before You Get Engaged 13 hai jo prAthamika, sAmAnya dhArmika kriyAe hai use tUne bahuta jyAdA samajha liyA hai, isI kAraNa se tUne ye itanI bar3I bhUla kara DAlI hai| aba usake jaisA laDakA tujhe...|" " mAnasI.. plIz2a.. isa bAta ko aba chor3a do.. mujhe jarA bhI nahIM lagatA hai ki maiMne koI bhUla yA galatI kI hai| " * * * "riyA... tU ?" kitane varSo bAda milI !!! oha... tU kitanI badala cukI hai| cala, merA ghara yahI hai... Ao... baiTho.. pahale nAztA karate haiM, phira bAte kreNge|" "aba bola, kaisI hai tU ? maje meM ?" riyA 'hA~' kahate hue nIce dekhane lagI aura usake cehare kI lakIreM kaha rahIM thI ki vaha jhUTha bola rahI hai, bilkula glt| mAnasI ne yaha bhI dekhA ki vaha apanA ceharA chupAne kA prayatna kara rahI thI aura pasInA poMchane ke bahAne apanI A~kho ko poMcha rahI thii| mAnasI kucha na kahIM jA sake aisI paristhiti meM se gujara rahI thii| usa kI sthiti aisI thI ki na to vaha riyA ko dilAsA de kara use khola sakatI thI aura na hI usakI upekSA kara sakatI thii| kucha pala yUMhi bIta gye| riyA ne thoDI sI AMkhe uThA kara mAnasI kI tarapha dekhA / mAnasI kI A~khoM meM use AtmIyatA aura sahAnubhUti kA sAgara chalakatA huA dikhAI diyaa| vaha apane Apa ko roka nahIM sakI... vaha mAnasI se lipaTa gaI, aura phUTa-phUTa kara rone lgii| apane varSoM ke duHkha ko Aja vaha kisI ke pAsa abhivyakta kara pA rahI thii| mAnasI kA uSmApUrNa hAtha usakI pITha sahalA rahA thA... dhIre-dhIre vaha zAMta ho gaI aura phira usakI A~khe bhara gii| mAnasI usase kisI bhI taraha kA koI nIjI prazna pUchanA nahIM cAhatI thI lekina riyA svayaM aba apane dila kI bAta use kahe binA ruka nahIM pA rahI thii| usake hoMTha hile aura usakA eka-eka A~su mAno bolane lagA... " mAnasI, tU bilkula ThIka kahatI thI.. maiMne jo galatI kI, usakI saz2A maiM bhugata rahI hU~, aura bahuta hI kharAba taraha se bhugata rahI hU~ / tune mujhe saccI salAha dI, lekina maiMne use mAnI nhiiN| maiMne apanI pasaMda ke laDake ke sAtha zAdI kii| vaha pUjA karane nahIM lekina hukkA ghara meM niyamita rUpa se jAtA thA / Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale 14
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________________ vaha caudaza kA pratikramaNa to karatA hI nahIM thA, use caudaza ke sAtha kucha lenA denA bhI nahIM thaa| usane yA to jIvana meM sAmAyika kabhI karI hI nahIM thI athavA bacapana meM zAyada kabhI kI bhI ho to vaha use yAda nahIM thii| dhArmika jJAna ke bAre meM vaha zUnya thaa| mAnasI, maiMne bahuta taraha kI jAnakArI hAsila kii| vaha rAta ko bArahaeka baje taka bAika para ghUmatA phiratA rahatA thA, vaha sAyabara kaiphe meM bhI jAtA thA, thiyeTarsa meM bhI aura klaba meM bhii| itanA hI nahIM agara use samaya milatA to vaha popa myujhika sunatA aura taraha-taraha ke cainalsa dekhA karatA thaa| basa, mujhe to aisA hI pati cAhie thA, raMgIna aura rsik| dharma cAhe use pApI kahatA ho, mujhe to basa jIvana meM AnaMda-mauja-zaukha hI karanA thA aura yaha aise hI pati ke hone se saMbhava ho sakatA hai aisA maiM mAnatI thii| mAnasI... hamArI zAdI ke pandraha-bIsa dinoM ke bAda kI bAta haiM, ve rAta ko bAraha baje ghara Aye the| maiM to taba taka unakA iMtajAra karate-karate thaka kara cakanAcUra ho cukI thii| maiMne dekhA unakI A~khe eka dama lAla haiM aura unakI cAla Dagamaga, Dagamaga kara rahI thii| maiM unheM hAtha kA sahArA de kara beDarUma meM le gii| vahA~ to unakA mu~ha jaise hI khulA to usa meM se ekadama gaMdI bAsa aaii| mere mu~ha se basa ye nikala gayA, "risI, tumane zarAba pI hai ?" usane mujhe jora se thappaDa mAra diyaa| maiM to Azcarya cakita raha gii| maiM vahIM baiTha gaI aura rone lgii| usane mujhe bAloM se pakar3A aura mujhe paira se lAta mArate-mArate mujhe gaMdI gAliyA~ sunAnI zuru kara dii| ve to thor3I dera ke bAda thaka kara so gaye, lekina maiM sArI rAta rotI rhii| mAnasI, jaise jaise samaya guz2aratA gayA, vaise-vaise unake vyasana, unakA svabhAva, unakI niSTharatA aura kharAba AdatoM kI jAnakArI mujhe hotI gii| mAnasI, hara dUsare-tIsare dina ve mujhe mArate haiM... unakA gussA to burA hai hI, unakA prema bhI bhayAnaka hai... sigareTa aura kaTara binA vo mujhe yuz2a nahIM krte| maiM vedanA se cIkha uThaM aura ve uttejita ho jAte haiM. merI mauta.. aura unakA AnaMda... mAnasI... merI sthiti aisI ho gaI hai ki kisI leDI DokTara ke pAsa bhI jAte hue mujhe zarma AtI hai| * Before You Get Engaged mAnasI, zAdI ke dUsare sAla kI bAta hai ki hameM eka hoTala kI pArTI meM jAnA thaa| usa pArTI meM lagabhaga pandraha yugala (pati-patnI) Ane vAle the| usameM kyA hone vAlA thA isa bAta kA aMdAjA mujhe ho cukA thaa| maiM una ke pA~va par3a gaI aura hArdika prArthanA kI kI majhe nahIM jAnA hai. badale meM majhe milI gAliyAM aura jAnavaroM kI taraha pittaaii| mujhe vahA~ jAnA hI pdd'aa| unakI tIkSNa A~khoM ne mujhe DriMka pIne ke lie majabUra to kiyA hI... paraMtu... riyA phira phUTa-phUTa kara ro pdd'ii| mAnasI ko bAkI sArI bAta kA aMdAjA ho gayA ki vahA~ usake sAtha kyA huA hogaa| vaha parezAna thI kina zabdoM meM use sAMtvanA de, use kucha samajha nahIM A rahA thaa| riyA thoDI zAMta haI aura phira usane bolanA zuru kiyA, Aja zAyada use kucha bAkI nahIM rakhanA thaa| "mAnasI, maiM luTa gaI, eka janma meM kitane janma! kitanA gaMdA ! kitanA vikRta ! kaise rAkSasa jaise loga ! aura kaisI narka jaisI pIr3A!" "mAnasI, ekabAra rAta ko meM jAga gaI, taba ve lepaTopa para na dekha sakeM aisA dekha rahe the| apanA pati kisI strI ko aisI sthiti meM dekhe, use kauna-sI patnI baradAza kara sakatI hai? maiMne use bhAvanApUrNa AvAja meM prArthanA kI, "plIjha, ye saba mata dekho|" vo mujha para eka dama gussA ho gye| mujhe unhoMne gAlI dI aura gusse tathA naze meM bola uThe, "tujhe itane meM hI takalIpha hotI hai| maiMne to Aja taka.." mujhe khayAla A gayA ki agni kI sAkSI meM li gayI saugaMdha usake lie sirpha eka majAka thii| mAnasI, mujhe eka baccA cAhie thA, jise maiM lADa pyAra kara apanA saba duHkha bhUla jaauuN| eka dina mujhe khayAla AyA ki maiM garbhavatI huI haiN| merI khuzI kA ThikAnA nahIM rhaa| vo jaise hI ghara Ae maiMne unheM ye samAcAra diye| mujhe lagA ye samAcAra unheM AnaMda degA, lekina unakA caherA to gaMbhIra ho gyaa| dUsare hI dina unhoMne mujhe kaha diyA ki tujhe mA~ nahIM bananA hai| mujhe lagA AkAza TUTa paDA aura mere pA~va ke nIce kI jamIna khisakane lagI hai| maiM cAra dinoM taka vilApa karatI rahI, prArthanA karatI rahI lekina ve Tasa se masa nahIM hue| isa samaya maiM bhI jhukanA nahIM cAhatI thI. maiM apane bacce ko kisa trh...|" unhoMne mujha para bhayaMkara julma gujArane zuru kara die, lekina maiM aDiga Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale 16
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________________ rhii| dasa dinoM ke bAda ve mujhe kahIM meDikala caikaapa ke liye le gye| vahA~ mujhe behoza kara diyA gayA aura jaba mujhe hoza AyA to... mAnasI do bAra garbhapAta ho cukA hai, jisa kAraNa mere zarIra meM jo komplIkezansa hue hai, ve mujhe jIvana bhara darda dete rheNge| aba vo bAta-bAta meM Divorsa talAka dene kI bAta karate haiN| unake vyasanoM ke kAraNa unakA vyApAra bhI TUTa gayA hai| eka ke bAda eka mere sAre gahane bhI unhoMne beca diye haiM aura apane mAyake se paisA lAne kA dabAva aura atyAcAra mujha para karate rahate haiN| koI bhI dina aisA nahIM gayA hai jisa dina maiM roI nahIM hU~ aura AtmahatyA karane kA vicAra na kiyA ho / mAnasI, dhUla paDe isa Adhunika kalcara para, isa sinemA, TI. vI., viDiyo aura inTaraneTa para.. yaha saba kucha jala kara khAka ho jAnA caahie| mere jaisI kitanI hI abhAgana striyoM kA jIvana inhoMne barabAda kara diyA hai| maiM jise phaizana yA nyU janarezana samajhatI thI, vo saba kitanA horibala hai| kitanA gaMdA, DarTI... ghRNAspada hai| maiM barabAda ho gaI... merA sArA jIvana barabAda ho gyaa| mAnasI, Aja cAhe tU varSoM bAda mujhe milI, lekina tere zabda mujhe hajAroM bAra yAda Ate rahe, jo apane dharma ke prati vaphAdAra ho... mAnasI, Aja mujhe sAmAyika kI kimata samajha meM AI hai| Aja mujhe pUjA, pratikramaNa aura tilaka kA mahattva samajha meM AyA hai| Aja mujhe samajha meM AyA hai ki saMskAroM aura tattvajJAna kI jIvana meM kitanI AvazyakatA hai! kA...za... maine usa samaya terI... kucha paloM ke lie mauna chA gyaa| riyA aba bAta badalanA cAhatI thI / usane dhImI AvAja meM pUchA, "tuma kaisI ho?" aura mAnasI ke cehare para prasannatA kI muskAna phaila gii| isa samaya apane sukhI saMsAra kI bAta zAyada riyA ke duHkha ko bar3hA sakatI hai, aisA mAnasI ko aMdAja thA, isalie vaha cupa rahI lekina usakA ceharA hI saba kucha kaha rahA thaa| tabhI daravAje kI ghaMTI bjii| mAnasI ne daravAjA kholA aura eka madhura muskAna ke sAtha AnevAle kA svAgata kiyaa| AnevAle vyakti ko dekha riyA kI A~khoM meM eka bhUtakAla ghUma gyaa| apanI mitra ke sAthI ko vaha pahacAna gaI thii| Aja caudaza hone ke kAraNa ve ghara jaladI A gaye the| 13 Before You Get Engaged mArDana yA orthoDoksa.... tumhArI icchA "lekina jo lar3akI mujhe pasaMda AI hai maiM usake sAtha zAdI nahIM karUMgA to kyA jo na pasaMda ho usake sAtha karU~gA ? tU bhI kaisI bAta karatA hai|" "dekha, vIkI, maiM tujhe pahacAnatA hU~, aura usa ko bhI jAnatA huuN| vaha tujhe kyoM pasaMda hai, mujhe ye bhI mAlUma hai| usakA lAiphasTAIla ekadama biMdAsa, AjAda hai| aura kaI taraha se svataMtra bhI, tU zAyada usake lie "bolDa' zabda kA upayoga karatA hogaa| pozAka ke bAre meM vaha bolDa hai, ha~sane-bolane meM bolDa hai, dina ho yA rAta, ghUmane phirane ke bAre meM bolDa hai vagairaha-vagairaha... vIkI, isa lar3akI ke lie mere mana meM koI bhI durbhAvanA nahIM hai| maiM jo kahatA hU~ vo tere bhaviSya ke liye upayogI hai| maiMne kaI bAra tujhe usako ekaTaka nihArate hue dekhA hai| tujhe vo adhika ekTIva lagatI hogI, lekina hakIkata meM vaha dUsarI lar3akiyoM kI apekSA kucha jyAdA hI teja hai aisA nahIM haiM, yaha to vaisTarna peTarna Dresa kA prabhAva hai| jaba ki jo suMdaratA anya saMskArI lar3akiyoM meM hai, usa se adhika isa lar3akI meM kucha khAsa nahIM hai, isake viparIta eka bahuta baDA mAinasa poInTa hai ki lAjazarma ko bilkula tyAga kara raste calate AlI - mavAlI, vAhiyAta logoM ko bhI apanI tarapha burI naz2ara se dekhane kA inaDAyarekTa AmaMtraNa detI hai| vIkI, maiM tujhe 'leDija varlDa' kA Topa sikareTa batAtA huuN| strI kI koI pahalI pahacAna athavA to guNa ho to vo hai lajjA / vaha lajjA se hI zobhAyamAna lagatI hai, lajjA hI usakI zobhA hotI hai, vaha lajjA se hI jItI hai| ye jo bolDanesa kahalAI jAtI hai, vaha strItva kI zamazAna yAtrA hai aura isase jyAdA kucha bhI nahIM hai| Ajakala talAka ke kesa bar3hate jA rahe haiN| zAdIzudA jIvana no lAsTIMga hotA jA rahA hai| ina saba kA kAraNa eka yahI mAtra hai| zAdI puruSa aura strI hI Tika sakatI hai, do puruSoM kI nhiiN| yadi yaha riztA TikatA hai, to bhI vaha 'meriDa lAIpha' nahIM hotI hai lekina 'vora lAipha' hotI hai phira cAhe vaha Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale Lu 18
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________________ mauna lar3AI ho yA noIz2I laDAI ho| vIkI, sArvajanika kSetra meM aMga pradarzana karanA ye pahale ke jamAne meM bhI nahIM thA, aisA nahIM thaa| hajAro sAla pahale bhI thaa| lekina acche khAnadAna kI kulIna kanyAoM meM nahIM, vezyAoM meM thaa| Aja kala khAnadAna kanyAye phaizana ke nAma para isa rAste para jAtI to haiM, lekina unheM patA nahIM hai ki yaha rastA vezyAoM kA hai| jinheM zAdI karanI hai. pArivArika jIvana jInA hai. unake liye yaha eka dama viparIta rAstA hai| vIkI, mApha karanA, opana bolDanesa vezyAvRtti kA hI Adhunika nAma hai| eka gRhiNI aura vezyA ye donoM aise chora hai jo eka dUsare ke sAtha kahIM bhI milate nahIM hai| merI bAta agara tU mAne to usa kA vicAra chor3a de aura kisI saMskArI kanyA ko pasaMda kara le|" "ye saMbhava nahIM hai| mujhe vaha pasaMda hai aura maiMne ye taya kara liyA ki maiM usI ke sAtha zAdI kruNgaa| terI bAta meM kucha poInTa to hai lekina aba ye sArI vAteM AUTa oNpha DeTa ho cukI haiN| sanI, tu samaya ko dekha, sArA mainiyA dekha, ye to maiM hU~, agara koI aura hotA to tujha para ha~satA aura tujhe pAgala khtaa|" vIkI, terI isa bAta ke uttara meM tujhe eka dUsarI mahattvapUrNa bAta kaha detA huuN| samaya badala gayA hai, lekina puruSa nahIM badalA hai| rAste calate hue aura kaoNleja meM Ate hae hajAroM puruSa usa lar3akI ko dekha rahe the, tU bhI una meM se eka thaa| saba loga to use dekha rahe the aura dekheMge, lekina tUne use pasaMda kara liyA hai| aba aura loga use dekheMge to tujhase ye sahana nahIM hogaa| jaise hI terI sagAI hogI ye prazna aura bhI jaTila bana jAyegA, itanA hI nahIM zAdI ke bAda ye eka jvalaMta samasyA bana jAyegI, ekadama ashniiy| aura hA~, aisA honA eka dama necarala hai, svAbhAvika hai| apanI patnI ko jaba koI chU jAtA hai vaha jaise asahanIya bana jAtA hai, usI taraha koI use burI naz2ara se dekhe, vahI bhI asahanIya bana jAtA hai| eka meM spArza (By touch) vyabhicAra hai tathA eka meM cAkSuSa (By eyes) vyabhicAra hai| hajAroM sAla pahale kA pati bhI yaha sahana nahIM kara sakatA thA, aura AjakA pati bhI use sahana nahI kara sakatA hai, phira khuda cAhe kitanA hI morDana athavA phorvarDa kyoM na kahalAtA ho ! hA~ ye bhI eka bar3A savAla hotA hai ki usakI bolDa patnI para usakA kitanA niyaMtraNa hai| ataH kitane hI pati mana hI mana sahama se jAte haiM athavA mana hI mana jalate rahate haiN| kaI logoM kA to dAmpatya jIvana "sa poinTa" para yuddha kA maidAna bana jAtA hai| hA~, kaI pati mUrkha bhI hote haiM jo cupacApa apanA jIvana vyatIta kara dete haiN| lekina meM jo bAta kara rahA hU~ vaha samajhadAra puruSoM kI hai aura tU bhI una meM se eka hai| vIkI, Aja ke puruSa kI hAlata bahuta hI vicitra hai| vaha maryAdA binA ke vyakti ko pasaMda karatA hai aura phira usa se sampUrNa maryAdA kI apekSA rakhatA hai| jisa jInsa aura TizarTa ko dekha kara vaha zAdI karatA hai, vahI zAdI ke bAda usakI A~khoM meM khaTakane lagatI hai| jo haMsI majAka kI Adata use pahale acchI lagatI thI, AkarSaka lagatI thI, vahI Adata aba use asahya lagatI hai| dUsaroM ke sAtha kama milane-julane vAlI, zarmIlI, saMyamI lar3akI use orthoDoksa lagatI thI, lekina zAdI ke bAda - vaha kahA~ gaI thI, ghara meM kauna AyA thA? selaphona para usane kisa-kisa ke sAtha bAteM kI -- ye sAre prazna usakA pIchA chor3ate nahIM hai| vIkI, tujhe patA hai duniyA ke alTrA mArDana pati bhI apanI patnI kI aneka taraha se jAsUsI karate haiM aura usa ke lie vyavasAyika jAsUsoM kA bhI upayoga karate haiN| "isa phona nambara para jo kolsa hue hI, unakI Tepa mujhe caahie|" phona kampaniyoM ke pAsa aisI mAMga karane vAle patiyoM kI koI kamI nahIM hai|" "tU to puruSoM ke viruddha bola rahA hai|" "dekha vIkI, ye sArI bAteM na kisI ke virodha kI hai, aura na hI kisI ke pakSa meM haiN| ye saba svAbhAvika bAte haiN| jo prakRti hai, svabhAva hai, aura jo dUra nahIM ho sakatA hai, usa bAre meM bAta haiM, isa meM kucha bhI galata nahIM hai, kyoMki prakRti to maryAdA hI mAMgatI hai| sukhI vaivAhika jIvana yA sukhI pArivArika jIvana maryAdA ke kAraNa hI saMbhava ho sakatA hai| hamAre haz2AroM varSoM Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale * - 19 ___Before you get Engaged
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________________ ke itihAsa meM talAka jaisI ghaTanAe~ dUra-dUra taka kahIM dikhAI nahIM par3atI usakA kAraNa 'maryAdA' hI hai| agara jIvanabhara maryAdA hI apekSita aura Avazyaka banatI ho, to buddhimattA isI meM hai ki hamArI pasaMdagI hama maryAdAzIla vyakti para hI utaareN|" "sanI, aba maiM tujhe eka bAta kahatA huuN| yaha merI mAnyatA nahIM hai, lekina yaha ati Adhunika AlphA janarezana kI mAnyatA hai| isa mAnyatA ke AdhAra para terI sArI bAteM bekAra, yUjalesa bana jAtI hai| hakIkata meM bAta yU~ hai ki yaha opinIyana vivAha aura parivAra meM mAnatA hI nahIM hai|" "ye unakA ajJAna hai| gahana ajJAna-DArka ignoreNs| ve jaisI jIvana zailI kI kalpanA karate haiM, usameM samAja, svAsthya, mana kI zAMti, AnaMda, surakSA, sthiratA... kucha bhI saMbhava nahIM hai| videzo meM isa bAta ke asaMkhya udAharaNa haiN| vivAha aura parivAra ke binA do hI vyakti sukha se jI sakate haiM - yogI aura paagl| merA matalaba hai agara gRhastha jIvana ko sukhI banAnA hai, to usa ke lie maryAdApUrNa jIvana jInA hI ekamAtra vikalpa ho sakatA hai|" "vela sanI, aise to terI bAtoM kA mere pAsa koI hala nahIM hai, para... maiM vicAra kruuNgaa|" dila sampUrNa rUpa se khola kara bAta karanI hai... mujhe terI salAha bhI caahie| terI bAta zata pratizata satya thI, phira bhI maiMne jida pakar3a rakhI aura tviSA ke sAtha hI zAdI kii| maiM aisA socatA thA ki meM terI bAta galata sAbita kara ke dikhaauuNgaa| maiM pUrI mahenata kara ke aisA dikhAvA karane laga gayA lekina dikhAvA to dikhAvA hI hotA hai, aura hakIkata hakIkata hI hotI hai| eka mahIne meM hI hakIkata bAhara A gaI aura hamAre ApasI jhaghaDe zuru ho gye| maiM to use eka saMskArI, saMyamI jIvana jInevAlI hAUsa vAipha ke rUpa meM dekhanA cAhatA thA jaba ki use to abhI bhI koleja garla athavA to alTrA vumana ke rUpa meM hI jInA thaa| usake taMga-custa aura choTe kapar3e mere lie siradarda bana gye| eka bAra vaha bAjAra jAne ke liye nIce utarI, maiMne khir3akI meM se dekhA to sosAyaTI ke javAna lar3ake use Takara-TUkara tAka rahe the| maiMne apanI A~khoM se unakI A~khoM meM vAsanA bharI dekhI, maiM to mAno jIte jI jalane lgaa| maiM beDaruma meM gayA aura use phona kiyA, "tU abhI vApasa A jaa| jo cAhie vo maiM lA kara dUMgA" usane merI bAta mAnane se iMkAra kara diyA aura kahA ki use 'voka' (saira) karanI hai| maiMne kahA ki, "agara tujhe saira hI karanI hai to kapar3e badala kara jA, isa Dresa kI jagaha dUsarA acchA Dresa pahana le|" sanI, tU mAne gA nahIM ki merI isa bAta se usa kA kaisA dimAga kharAba huA... vaha cillAI, "tuma kahanA kyA cAhate ho? kyA merA yaha Dresa kharAba hai ? aura mujhe kyA pahananA hai isa bAta kA nirNaya maiM karuMgI, tumheM inTarapheyara karane kI z2arurata nahIM hai|" sanI, aisA lagA mAno jIte jI maiM naraka meM A gayA huuN| bAz2Ara meM saiMkaDoM, hajAroM loga merI patnI ko burI naz2ara se dekhate hoMge, yaha kalpanA hI mAno palapala merA katla kara rahI thii| maiM krodha se itanA ubala rahA thA ki maiMne alamArI kA zIzA tor3a DAlA aura zo kesa kA kA~ca bhI tor3a ddaalaa| merA dimAga mere niyaMtraNa meM nahIM thA isaliye mujhe lagA ki agara meM gharameM rahU~gA to zAyada vaha AyegI taba maiM usa kA khUna kara baitthegaa| isalie meM pArka meM calA gyaa| maiM vahA~ ke eka baiMca para baiThA thA, para merA mana... Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale 22 . "hailo, sanI, Aja zAma ko tere pAsa samaya haiN| hA~, to ThIka hai zAma ko milate haiM... nahIM ghara para nahIM, cha baje TAUna hola ke pAsa AnA, vahIM kahIM..." ___ "sanI, tUne mujhe phira kabhI vo bAta yAda nahIM kraaii| merI zAdI kA kArDa tujhe milA taba bhI nahIM, aura Aja taka bhI nhiiN| zAdI ke samaya meM bhI tUne to prema ke sAtha mujhe zubhecchAe hI dI thI... paraMtu maine svayaM hI "A baila mujhe mAra" jaisI mUrkhatA pUrNa harakata kI ho to usa meM terI zubha kAmanAe~ bhI kyA kara sakatI hai ? ____sanI, maiM eka bahuta baDI problama meM pha~sa gayA huuN| Aja tere pAsa apanA - 21 _ _Before Jau get Engaged
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________________ bahuta bAra maiM gama khA jAtA aura kaI bAra apanA mana kisI anya viSaya meM lagAne kA prayatna karatA, kaI bAra hamArA jhaghaDA ho jAtA, bhayaMkara jhghdd'aa| vo jisa pAvara se merI bAta ko kATatI aura merA apamAna karatI, usase mujhe bahuta darda hotA jaise vo merI chAtI meM khaMjara bhauMka rahI ho / sanI, kaI bAra mujhe aisA khayAla AtA ki jo laDakiyA~ yA striyAM aise bezarmI bhare kapaDe pahana kara ghara ke bAhara nikalatI haiM kyA ve kabhI zIzeM meM apanA phranTa aura beka nahIM dekhatI hoMgI? kyAM unheM itanA bhI kaoNmana sensa nahIM hotA hogA ki unheM aisA dRzya apanI pati ke alAvA kisI aura ko bhI nahI batAnA cAhie? kyA unheM itanA khayAla nahIM AtA hogA ki pablika meM unakA aisA dikhAI denA eka bIbhatsa pradarzana bana rahA hai? yA unake mana kI gaharAI meM saba ko impresa karane kI eka khvAhiza hogI ? sanI, kyA ise sIdhe-sIdhe yA parokSa rUpa se koI dUsarA pati talAza karanA nahIM kaheMge ? saba se bar3A prazna ye hai ki kyA unake ghara meM pitA, bhAI, putra yA devara vagairaha nahIM hoMge ? tviSA kI eka-eka Adata mere liye mauta banatI gii| vaha jisa kisI ke bhI sAtha ha~sa-ha~sa kara bAteM krtii| komenTa karatI, bezarma bana kara hAtha bhI milaatii| kaI bAra apanA bacAva karate hue yU~ kahatI, "isa meM kyA ho gayA ? maiM to sirpha tumheM hI cAhatI hU~, sirpha tumheN| lekina aMta meM vahI huA jisa kA mujhe Dara thaa| tviSA kA vyavahAra tejI se badalatA jA rahA thaa| maiM kaI bAra use kisI aura hI duniyA meM khoyI huI dekhatA / jaba use khyAla AtA ki pAsa meM maiM bhI khar3A huA hU~ taba mAno usakI corI pakar3I gaI ho isa taraha vaha kisI kAma ko karane meM vyasta ho jaatii| pahale to jaba daphtara se maiM vApasa AtA taba merA koI khAsa dhyAna nahIM rakhatI, lekina phira jaise bahuta pyAra darzAtI, merA suTakesa hAtha meM le letI, mere jUte, jurAbeM nikAlatI, pAnI detI... maiM bhI koI buddha nahIM thaa| maiM samajha rahA thA ki yaha usakA asalI vyavahAra nahIM hai, balki kisI bar3e gunAha ko Dha~kane kA prayAsa hai| mujhe roja baroja daphtarase Ane meM derI ho jAtI aura bAra bAra TUra para Before You Get Engaged 23 - bhI bijhanesa ke liye jAnA paDatA thaa| dUsarI tarapha ghara kharca ke bahAne vaha adhika se adhika paiso kI mAMga karane lgii| cha mahInoM meM tIna bAra usa ke alaga alaga taraha ke gahane corI ho ge| ve gahane kahA~-kaba kaise corI ho gae usake bAre meM usane jo uttara die vo mere gale ke nIce nahIM utarate the| usa kA svAsthya ThIka laga rahA thA, phira bhI usane phijIzIyansa ko dikhAne ke lie amuka riporTasa hetu bar3I rakama kI mAMga kii| maiMne apanI bacata ke paisoM meM se vyavasthA kI aura use kahA ki calo maiM tumhAre sAtha calatA huuN| usane sApha iMkAra kara diyaa| phira se gharameM se do-tIna kiMmatI vastueM guma ho gii| saba kucha vicitra sA ho rahA thA, aura maiM to tejI se khAlI ho rahA thaa| usa ne phira eka bar3I rakama kI mAMga kii| aura isa bAra usane kahA, "use isa sAla bhara kA rAzana- gehU~ aura cAvala kharIdane haiN| mujhe zaMkA to thI hii| maiMne ghara meM Dramo kI khoja kI ve saba anAja se bhare hue the aura sIjhana Ane meM abhI cha mahIne bAkI the| maiMne bhI bahAnA lagA kara iMkAra kara diyaa| taba maiMne nirIkSaNa kiyA ki vaha behada ghabarA sI gii| do dina ke bAda usane phira kisI kAma ke lie paise maaNge| maiMne usake liye sApha iMkAra kara diyA aura kahA, "do mahIne taka koI bhI vyavasthA ho pAnI saMbhava nahIM hai|" vaha ghabarA gaI aura rasoIghara meM calI gii| rasoIghara kA daravAjA bhI baMda ho gyaa| sanI, isa bAta ke ThIka eka saptAha ke bAda mujha para eka ema. ema. esa. AyA, jisa para se aisA lagA mAno mujha para AkAza TUTa par3A hai... tviSA kisI ke sAtha... mujhe aisI zaMkA to thI hI, tathApi maiM use svIkAra karane ke lie taiyAra nahIM thaa| vaha kampyuTara proDakTa hogI aisI saMbhAvanA karane ke lie maiM mara rahA thA, lekina mujhe ye khayAla A gayA, ki maiM apane Apa ko dhokhA de rahA huuN| agale cAra dinoM meM mujhe alaga alaga cAra ema. ema. esa. mile| unameM jo TeksTa meseja thA, usa meM tviSA ke boDI spoTsa ke bAre meM likhA thA, jo satya the| merA sira ghUmane lagA / tviSA AUTa lAIna para calI gaI thI aura usake yAra ne use blekamela kara kara ke merA ghara khAlI kara diyA thA, isa Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale au 24
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________________ bAta kA khayAla mujhe A gyaa| merA krodha sArI bAUnDrI pAra kara gyaa| maiM rotA thA, jIte jI sulaga rahA thA, gAliyA~ bolane lagA, itanA hI nahIM, hAtha meM jo A use uThA kara pheMkane lgaa| mujhe tejI se eka ke bAda eka bhayAnaka khayAla Ane lage... tviSA kA aisA eka hI yAra hogA ki aura bhI hoMge ?... vaha kitane janoM kI At time Money (ATM) hogI ? ... khUna pasInA eka ke maiM kamAtA hU~, ye isa liye ? maiM use itanA cAhatA hU~, aura usane mere sAtha... usakA yAra aba kyA karanA cAhatA hai ?... sanI, maiMne isa bAre meM jo-jo bhI vicAra kie vo saba tujhe kaha bhI nahIM sakatA huuN| Akhira meM maiM eka nizcaya para pahu~cA ki tviSA ko khatma kara DAlU~ aura phira maiM khuda bhI AtmahatyA kara luuN| tabhI phira eka vicAra AyA, ki kyoM na maiM tujha se bAta karUM, terI salAha lU~? tU mujhe batAyegA ki aba isa meM kyA ho sakatA hai?" TAUna hola ke pIchale bhAga meM aMdherA bar3ha rahA hai, aura sanI yahI soca rahA hai ki aba kyA ho sakatA hai ??? jIvana bhI eka meca hI hai, yahA jo bolDa hotI hai vaha beTiMga nahIM kara sakatI / 25 Before You Get Engaged * Stop, Watch & Go "abhi, jisa lar3akI se tere rizte kI bAta Age calane vAlI hai usa lar3akI ke parivArane kisI jAna pahacAna se tere pApA ke sAtha samparka kiyA thA ? yA phira akhabAra kA vijJApana dekha kara...?" "vijJApana dekha kr|" "agara tU merI bAta mAnatA hai to isa bAta ko vahIM kA vahIM roka de / maiMne tere bAre meM vijJApana paDhA thaa| isa vijJApana se to sirpha eka hI artha sAmane AtA thA ki use par3ha kara jo tujha meM ruci le, vaha lar3akI tere lie acchI nahIM hai|" "yaza, tU kyA bola rahA hai isa bAta kI tujhe khabara hai ? " "hA~, bahuta acchI taraha se jAnatA huuN| vaha lar3akI malTInezanala kaMpanI kA cha lAkha kA paikeja, Dilaksa phlaiTa aura senTro kAra kI sampati dekha kara vivAha karegI, vaha tujha se nahIM lekina terI sampatti se vivAha kregii| usase vivAha karake tU sukhI hogA isa bAta meM koI dama nahIM hai| hakIkata to ye hai ki aisI eDa-vijJApana de kara tUne bahuta bar3I bhUla kI hai| hakIkata meM to tujhe terI guNAtmaka yogyatA batAnI cAhie thI aura sAmane vAle pakSa se bhI usI yogyatA kA Agraha rakhanA cAhie thA, isa taraha tumhArA riztA jur3atA to tumhArA jIvana bhara kA usa meM hita thaa|" 'dekha yaza, loga sirpha yahI eka yogyatA samajhate haiM, aura unake sAtha dUsarI kisI bhASA meM bAta karane kA koI artha nahIM hai|' "abhi, tU ? velkama / kitane dinoM ke bAda AyA hai? haiM... tujhe to sArI duniyA meM yahA~ se vahA~ uDAna bharanI hotI hai na ? phira tU AyegA kaise ? A.... baiTha | dekha to kauna AyA hai... apane mahaMge mahemAna hai.. merA baisTa phrainDa... sAre sAla kA byAja utAra denA hai... phira kaba AyegA, isakA bharosA nhii|" "yaza, maiM eka khAsa kAma se AyA hU~, hama jarA aMdara baiThe ?" Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale 26
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________________ Relation With Fair Skin * --(vivAha se saMbaMdhita prasiddha udyogapati... ke ciraMjIva jaimina ke lie gorI-pheyara skInavAlI, AkarSaka kanyA ke abhibhAvaka samparka kre| "oha, zyora, kyoM nahIM, A... baiTha, aisA lagatA hai tU TeMzana meM haiM, bola, kyA bAta hai?" "maiM jisa kampanI meM thA vaha maMdI kI capeTa meM A gaI hai| isa sAla bonasa radda ho gayA, vetana kama ho gayA aura pichale hapte pAMca sau logoM kI chaTanI kara di gaI, usa meM merA nambara bhI hai| kAra to unhoMne turaMta hI le lI aura aba phlaiTa khAlI kara dene kA noTisa bhI A gayA hai, lagabhaga badalApura meM kirAye para rahane ke lie jagaha mila jaayegii|" "dekha abhi, tU aisA mata bola, yaha ghara terA hI hai| tU Aja hI yahA~ A jA, rahI bAta kamAne kI to..." "yaza, eka minaTa, tU kisI galataphahamI meM mata rahanA, mujhe kisI kI madada nahIM cAhie, maiM apanI taraha se hI 'riseTa' honA cAhatA huuN| jo bAta meM tujhe kahane AyA hU~, vaha bAta aba zurU hotI hai| pichale haphate jaba mujhe nikAla diyA gyaa| taba se AratI kA vyavahAra ekadama badala gayA lagatA thaa| mere pAsa thor3A paisA thA lekina nayA dhaMdhA zuru karane ke liye paisA kama par3atA thaa| cAra dina pahale maiMne usa se kahA ki agara tere amuka gahane beca deM yA giravI rakha deM to apanA kAma ho jaayegaa| vaha kucha bolI to nahIM, lekina usake cehare se sApha dikhAI paDatA thA ki use yaha bAta bilkula pasaMda nahIM thI... yaza, mujhe bahuta dhakkA lagA usako kitane gahane to maiMne hI giphTa ke rUpa meM die the| dUsare dina mujhe kucha bhI kahe binA vaha apane kapar3e-gahane aura dUsarI vastueM tathA kucha nagada rakama le kara mAyake calI gaI, aura kala mujhe usa kI tarapha se eka kavara milA jisa meM se talAka ke kAgaja nikale haiM, sAina kara dene ke liye, bola aba kyA karU~ ?" AghAta Share ho gayA, narvasa ho gae yaza ne apane donoM hAtha Deska para Teka diye aura apanA sira DhaMka liyaa| bistara para par3e hae akhabAra ke eka bhAga meM usakI najara sthira ho gaI, vahAM zAdI ke bAre meM eka AkarSaka vijJApana thaa| 27 _Befare You Get Engaged jaimina ne caubisa suMdara yuvatiyA~ dekhI, lekina usa ke mana ko koI pasaMda nahIM aaii| hara lar3akI meM use koI na koI kamI dikhAI dii| DeDha sAla isI taraha vyatIta ho gyaa| paccIsavIM kanyA ke sAtha usakI mulAkAta huii| prathama dRSTi meM hI vaha usake mana meM basa gaI, ye svAbhAvika bhI thA, kyoMki vaha acchI se acchI kanyAoM ko pIche chor3a de aisI kanyA thaa| zAdI ho gii| jaimina ko to mAno sArI duniyA kA rAja mila gyaa| rAta aura dina vaha apanI patnI ke vicAroM meM hI khoyA rhtaa| daphtara se ghara vApasa na Ae vahA~ taka bhI usakA mana usa kI patnI meM hI DUbA rahatA thaa| pala-pala parsa meM se usakI phoTo nikAla kara dekhatA rahatA, oNphisa se ghara meM ATha-dasa bAra phona na kare to use caina nahIM par3atA thaa| eka zAma ko usake daphtara meM eka phona AyA..."tumhArI patnI kA kAra eksIDeMTa ho gayA hai, hospiTala meM..." usakI to mAnoM sA~sa ruka gaI, pasIne se tarabatara jaimina hospiTala daur3a gyaa| oNparezana kA bekagrAUMDa taiyAra ho gayA thaa| DaoNkTara oNparezana thiyeTara ke pAsa pahu~cA, vahA~ para jaimina usake pA~va para gira paDA, "DaoNkTara plIjha, plIjha merI patnI ko bacA lo. usake binA maiM jI nahIM sakuMgA, plIjha jo lenA ho le lIjie... lekina..." "vI vila TrAya avara besTa..." DaoNkTara ye kaha kara aMdara cale gye| daravAjA baMda ho gyaa| sophe para doharI deha kara baiThA thA, usake donoM hAtha jur3e hue the aura A~khe ro ro kara saja gaI thii| tIna ghaMTe bAda oNparezana pUrA ho gyaa| DaoNkTara bAhara aae| jaimina khar3A ho gayA... "DaoNkTara sAhaba !" jaimina kI A~khoM meM prazna thaa| DokTara ne uttara diyA, "do dina taka kucha bhI kahanA muzkila hai|" Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale
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________________ do dina kA eka-eka pala kaise bItA vo to jaimina kA mana hI jAnatA thaa| tIsare dina eka riporTa milI, "aba vaha khatare se bAhara hai|" jaimina AnaMda se nAca utthaa| pAMcave dina use AI sI yU. meM jAne kA avasara milaa| Aja usa ke cehare kI paTTI bhI khulanI thii| paTTI ke eka ke bAda eka paTa khula rahe the aura jaimina kI najareM tarasa rahI thii| AkharI paTTI khulI, davAe~ sApha kI gaI to jaimina cauMka kara raha gyaa| kAMca kI kiracoM ne usakI patnI ke cehare ko bhayaMkara rUpa se badasUrata banA diyA thaa| usakA dimAga tejI se kucha socane lagA, AdhI minaTa bhI nahIM huyI aura vo vahAM se bAhara nikala gyaa| DaoNkTara se mila kara usane dhImI AvAja meM kahA, "DaoNkTara Apa ko jo lenA ho le lo lekina use jahara kA injaikzana de kara mAra ddaalo|" * City Or Village ? "usa kA ghara itanA bar3A hai| itanI sArI jamIna hai, acchA khAsA byApAra hai| khAnadAna ghara hai to phira bhI tuma ne use nA kyoM khaa|" "dekho zreyA, ye sArI bAteM saccI hai, lekina vaha gA~va meM rahate haiM, vahA~ mujha se nahIM rahA jaayegaa|" "lekina kyoM ? zahara meM tU jisa ke sAtha zAdI karegI, usakA to vana ruma kicana yA to Tu ruma kicanavAlA phlaiTa hogaa| tIna kamare bhI ho sakate haiM, para tU dekha to sahI, una sAre kamaroM ko ikaThThA kare itanA bar3A to sirpha usake ghara kA haoNla hai|" "bhale hI ho, mujhe choTA ghara bhI clegaa|" "bAta sirpha ghara kI nahIM hai| zahara meM terA pati subaha 8 yA 9 baje kAmadhaMdhe ke lie calA jAyegA aura rAta ko 8, 9 yA 10 baje vApasa aayegaa| isakA matalaba hai AdhI se jyAdA jiMdagI to vaha tere sAtha hogA hI nahIM aura hAM, usameM se bhI sone ke ghaMTe nikAla do to phira bacA hI kyA ?" "rImA, terI bAta yU~ to sahI hai, lekina phira bhI jo bAkI rahegI, utanI jiMdagI kA AnaMda to maiM lUMgI n|" "zreyA agara ye bhI saMbhava hotA, to abhI bhI ThIka thA, lekina sITI lAIpha bahuta hI sTresaphula hai| usameM AnaMda kama hai, aura jo hotA bhI hai usakI bhI TeMzana ke kAraNa maz2A mara jAtI hai| dUsarI bAta ye haiM ki zahara meM mahaMgAI bahuta hai, saba kucha bahuta hI mahaMgA hai| ghara se lekara sabjI taka aura meDikala se lekara zikSA taka... ye sAre kharce aba apara miDala klAsa ke bhI basa kI bAta nahIM hai| isalie jIvana nirvAha ke lie pati ko yA to do yA tIna kAma karane par3ate hai, nahIM to patnI ko naukarI karanI par3atI hai| aba agara pahalA opzana svIkAra karate haiM to pati jaldI choTI umra meM hI bUDhA ho jAtA hai tathA bhinna-bhinna prakAra ke rogoM kA zikAra ho jAtA hai| agara dUsarA rAstA apanAte haiM to patnI ko Dabala Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale 30 usa se Daro jo bhagavAna se DaratA nahIM hai| vizva kA asIma sauMdarya, aura eka mAtra sauMdarya hai, sadguNa jo guNI kuTuMba hai, vahI sukhI kuTuMba hai| 29 _ _ Before You Get Engaged
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________________ rImA, zaharI jIvana bhayajanaka, asurakSA, mahaMgAI, kaThina mehanata, sTresa aura TaiMzana se bharA hotA hai jaba ki gA~va ke jIvana meM sArA gA~va eka parivAra jaisA hotA hai| niDaratA, surakSA, kama mahaMgAI, AsAnI aura zAMti jIvana meM sulabha hotI hai| apanI Arya saMskRti meM jIvana ke kaI sukha sahaja rupa meM saMcita hai| yaha saMskRti zaharameM mara rahI hai lekina grAmya jIvana meM yaha abhI bhI panapa rahI hai, jIvita hai| kyA tujhe patA hai zaharoM kI apekSA gA~voM meM roga bahata kama hote haiN| zahara kI apekSA grAmya jIvana meM svArthavRtti kama hotI hai| tathA zahara kI apekSA gA~va meM talAka kI saMkhyA bahuta kama hotI hai| rImA, tU merI saba se najadIki sakhI hai| tUjhe patA hai ki maiM tujhe jo kaha rahI hU~ vaha tere bhale ke liye hI kaha rahI hU~, satya ye hai ki tujhe aba hakIkata meM ye socanA hai ki kyA tujhe duHkhI honA hai yA sukhI honA hai ?" zreyA dekha rahI hai, rImA soca rahI hai| kAma karanA paDatA hai| baccoM meM saMskAra, ghara kI dekha-rekha tathA khAnA pakAnA Adi sabhI kucha astavyasta ho jAtA hai| rImA, zahara kI bhIr3a, TrAnsaporTezana kI parezAniyA~, samaya para pahu~cane kI ciMtA, dhakkA-mukkI, ye saba to puruSa ke liye bhI muzkila kAma ho jAtA hai, to phira strI kI to bAta hI kyA kareM? usakI prakRti-svabhAva, zarIra saMracanA, DyuTI... eka bhI bAta isa se mela nahIM khAtI hai| isakA pariNAma patA hai, svAsthya se bhI hAtha dho baiThanA, mana ko niraMtara TeMzana meM rakhanA aura jo kucha kamAyA hai, use dera savera meDikala TrITameMTa meM khatma kara denA, ye kaisI mUrkhatA hai ! rImA, Aja cAroM tarapha se vAsanA ko bhar3akAne vAle hAlAta bar3ha rahe haiN| kisa kI kaba kaisI vAsanAe bhar3aka uThegI aura kauna kaba kisa ke sAtha kyA kara DAlegA, isa bAta kA koI bharosA hai ? sITI lAIpha meM puruSa aura strI donoM hI alaga alaga taraha se asurakSita hote haiN| tu merI bAta samajha rahI hai na ? rImA, gA~va ke jIvana meM tujhe sirpha pasaMdagI aura mAnyatA meM hI samajhautA karanA hai, jaba ki zaharI jIvana meM tujhe hAlAta ke sAtha samajhautA karanA hai| tujhe spaSTa rUpa se mahasUsa hogA ki terA baccA binA kisI kI dekha bhAla ke jI rahA hai, bhIr3a meM tere sAtha cher3achADa ho rahI hai, bosa yA oNphisa kA sTApha vyavahAra meM apanI sImAe~ lAMgha rahA hai, ghara ko terI jarUrata hai aura tujhe ghara kI z2arurata hai, tathApi tujhe bAhara rahanA par3atA hai... rImA, tujhe patA hai ki muMbaI jaise zaharoM meM hara roja saiMkaDoM akasmAta hote haiN| tujhe patA hai ki vahA~ subaha ghara se nikalA huA vyakti zAma ko sahI salAmata ghara AtA hai to ye eka bar3A Azcarya hai, lekina agara usa kA koI kharAba samAcAra AtA hai to Azcarya nahIM hai| rImA, tU kalpanA kara sakatI hai ki roja rAta ko 9 baje vApasa A jAne vAlA pati, agara sADhe dasa baje taka vApasa na Aye aura usakA phona bhI na lagatA ho taba patnI kI kyA dazA hogI? hararoja aisA nahIM hotA, ye saba saca hai, lekina aisA kabhI bana hI nahIM sakatA, yaha bAta aMdhazraddhA nahIM hai? Before You Get Engaged paralokaviruddhANi kurvANaM dUratastyajet / AtmAnaM yo'tisandhatte so'nyasmai syAt kathaM hitaH ? // jisa se paraloka meM duHkhI honA paDe aise kAma jo karatA hai, use to dUra se hI tyAga denaa| jo apane Apa ko hI dhokhA detA hai, vaha dUsaroM kA bhalA kahA~ se karegA? dharma eva hato hanti dharmo rakSati rakSitaH // jo dharma ko Thokara mAratA hai, usake jIvana meM ThokareM hI zeSa raha jAtI haiN| jo dharma kI rakSA karatA hai, usakI rakSA khuda dharma karatA hai| Apa sagAI kareM usase pahale 30