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________________ cAhe to pAra karo tapAgacchAdhirAja pUjyapAda AcAryadeva zrImadvijayarAmacandrasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. ke ziSyaratna munizrI vairAgyarativijayajI pravacana prakAzana 488, ravivAra peTha pUNe - 2 AvRtti mUlya pUnA ahamadAbAda nAgapura akSarAMkana : prathama : : ru.1000 PRAVACHAN PRAKASHAN, 2005 prAptisthala pravacana prakAzana 488, ravivAra peTha, pUnA - 411002 phona : 020-30922069, mo. 9890055310 : azokabhAI ghelAbhAI zAha 201, oesIsa, aMkura skUla sAme, pAlaDI, ahamadAbAda- 380007 phona: 079-26633085, mo. 9327007579 : dIpaka kocara 11, kesariyAnAtha sosAyaTI, nikAlasa maMdira roDa, itavArI, nAgapura - 440002 virati grAphiksa, ahamadAbAda phona: 079-22681814 prakAzaka kI ora se * 'cAhe to pAra karo' yaha choTI sI pustikA munizrI vairAgyarati vijayajI likhita 'prabhuyAre kRpA 2zo' kA hindI saMskaraNa hai / caityavandana vidhi meM prayukta hone vAle 'prArthanA sUtra' kA hRdayaMgama vivaraNa pUjya muni bhagavanta ne yahA~ prastuta kiyA hai| jisakA hindI anuvAda zrI bhaTTa ne kiyA hai| ApakI zrutasevA kI hama anumodanA karate hai 1 yuvA saMskAra grUpa - nAgapura ne isa prakAzana kA pUrNa lAbha liyA hai| ApakI pravacana bhakti kI anumodanA / pravacana prakAzana, pUnA - CHAROSEdan
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________________ jaya vIyarAya ! he vItarAga paramAtmA ApakI sadA jaya ho / samA lene kA mujha meM na to sAmarthya hai aura na to kSamatA, phira bhI viSa ko amRta banAne vAlI, ApakI karuNA ke do bUMda bhI mujhe mila jAe~, to maiM apane Apako bahuta bhAgyavAna samajhUgA / he prabhu ! itanI karuNA hama para jarura karanA / maiMne sunA hai ki Apake dvAra se koI kabhI khAlI hAtha nahIM lauTatA hai| zrutapremI yuvA saMskAra grUpa - nAgapura he vItarAga prabhu ! ApakI sadA jaya ho / he jagadguru paramAtmA ! Apake prati merA niHsvArtha prema hai, Apa mere prANapriya ho| Apake pAsa Ane kA mujhe bArabAra mana hotA hai, Apako dekhake merI A~khe kabhI saMtRpta nahIM hotI, mere mana ke smRtipaTa para hamezA ApakI yAda rahatI hai| ye jihvA Apake hI guNagAna gAyA karatI hai, aura adhara para ApakI hI jayajayakAra hotI hai| he paramakRpAlu paramAtmA ! Apa mere aNu-aNu meM vyApta ho / Apa mujhe itane acche kyoM lagate ho, jAnate ho? kyoMki Apa 'vItarAga' ho / Apane svArtha, rAga, dveSa, lobha Adi ko chuA taka nahIM hai| Apane ina sabako ThukarAyA hai| ApakI ye vItarAgatA kA mUla hai 'karuNA' / he dInAnAtha paramAtmA ! vItarAgatA ke vizAla samudra ko mere chIpa jaise choTe-se hRdaya meM pravacana prakAzana
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________________ jagaguru ! he jagata ke guru ApakI sadA jaya ho ! he paramAtmA / Apa isa jagata ke sabhI jIvoM ke kyoMki guru ho / Apa jIvamAtra ke mitra ho / Apane tamAma jIvoM ke hita kI kAmanA kI hai aura vo bhI kisI apekSA ke binA / guru usIko kahate haiM, jo badale kI bhAvanA rakhe binA apanA sarvasva detA hai| "mitratA" aura "gurutA" donoM meM eka samAnatA hai| donoM dete hai, lekina mitra apekSA ke sAtha detA hai, aura guru apekSA ke binA detA hai / he paramAtmA ! Apane jagata ko sarvasva diyA hai| sabakucha dekara Apa jagatguru bana gaye ho / jabaki sabakucha pAkara bhI maiM kucha nahIM bana sakA / ApakI taraha jagatguru banane kI kalpanA maiM svapna meM bhI nahIM kara sktaa| mujhameM aisI yogyatA kahA~ hai ? maiM jagatguru to kyA ? guru bhI nahIM bana sakatA / hA~! ApakA bhakta banane kI yogyatA aura sAmarthya jarUra mere pAsa hai| -3 lekina bhakta bananA bhI kahA~ AsAna hai ? zuddha, zAMta, samarpita aura sarala vyakti meM hI bhakta banane ke lakSaNa hai| bhakta banane ke lie to paramAtmA ko apanA dila denA par3atA hai| jaise agni meM hAtha rakhakara dAha se bacanA asambhava hai, jaise kUr3e-kacare meM hAtha DAlakara gaMdakI se bacanA asambhava hai, vaise hI dila meM saMsAra rakhakara bhakti karanA bhI asambhava hai| saMsAra - sAgara meM Asakta banakara bhI maiM ApakA bhakta banU~ ye asambhava hai| he prabhu! zAyada ApakA aura merA gaNita kahIM alaga par3atA hai| ApakA mata yaha hai ki merA sArA sukha jagata ke sabhI jIvoM ko mile| aura merI bhrAmaka mAnyatA yaha hai ki jagat kA sArA sukha mujhe mileM / Apa apanA saba kucha jagata para lUTA rahe ho, aura maiM lUTane meM vyasta hU~ / he prabhu ! Apa merI isa galatI ko palaTa do / lenevAle se denevAlA bar3hakara hai maiM isa sanAtana satya ko samaja saku~ / aisI mujhe samaja zakti do / he jagatguru ! Apa mere guru bano, aisI hRdayapUrvaka kI prArthanA / ~8~ hou mamaM tuha pabhAvao bhayavaM bhagavan ! Apake prabhAva se mujhe yaha teraha varadAna prApta ho / zIze se banA hIrA bhale camakIlA ho, usakA mUlya zUnya hotA hai| nakalI motI bhI bhale camakIlA ho, mUlyahIna hai| hIre kI camaka aura motI kI camaka tabhI mUlyavAna batAI jAtI hai, jaba ve hIre-motI asalI ho / ++ "camaka" hIre-motI kA prabhAva hai| jabaki hIre-motI kA svabhAva alaga hI hai| kuzala jauharI hI usako parakha sakatA hai| isa satya ko hama acchI taraha se pahacAnate haiM, aura isalie hIro-motI kI pasaMdagI karate samaya hama svabhAva ko chor3akara sirpha prabhAva se prabhAvita hote nahIM hai| prabhu ! Apake pAsa Ane ke bAda Apake prabhAva se atirikta Apake svabhAva kI mujhe anubhUti ho aisI merI aMtaHkaraNa pUrvaka bhAvanA hai| ApakI vItarAgatA taka hameM pahu~canA hai| isalie hamAre sukhazIla svabhAva ko vItarAgatA meM palaTa deM, aise Apake prabhAva kA hameM anubhava karanA hai| hamArI yaha icchA saphala ho aisI hamArI Apase prArthanA hai| 141
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________________ bhavanivveo prabhu ! saMsAra ke pAgalapana se mukti do / vaha bahuta sukhI hai| use rahane ke lie bahuta sundara jagaha milI hai| use samayapara apanI ruci kA bhojana milatA hai| ThaMDI aura garmI meM usakA pUrA jatana kiyA jAtA hai| usakI sevA meM do naukara tainAta hai| ghara ke sabhI sadasya usakA bahuta dhyAna rakhate haiN| sabhI loga usakI bahuta prazaMsA karate haiN| usakA svabhAva bahuta acchA hai| usake pAsa sabhI suvidhAe~ haiN| usake pAsa sampUrNa salAmatI hai| phira bhI vaha apane Apako duHkhI mAnatA hai| vaha sone ke piMjare meM bandI banA huA pakSI hai| vaha hararoja piMjare ke bAhara dekhatA hai| sAmane khar3e hue peDa para usake jaise kaI pakSI Ate hai, mIThA kalarava karate haiM, paMkha phaDaphaDAte haiM aura ur3a jAte hai| yaha dRzya dekhakara usakA hRdaya mAno chala uThatA hai| piMjare meM vaha paMkha phaDaphaDAtA hai jarUra lekina ur3a nahIM sakatA / nIle gagana kI goda meM paMkha phailAkara nIce phailI huI sRSTi kA nayanaramya Ananda use nahIM miltaa| aba to use suvidhA bhI acchI nahIM lagatI / vaha salAmatI ko tiraskRta karatA hai| -& use to saba kucha chor3akara sirpha svataMtratA hI acchI lagatI hai| vaha use pAnA cAhatA hai| paMkha phailAkara mukta nIlAmbara meM ur3ane kI svatantratA cAhatA hai| he prabhu ! mujhe rahane ke lie sabhI suvidhAoM se bharapUra ghara milA hai| acchA bhAvanAzIla parivAra milA hai| Arthika saddharatA bhI acchI hai| samAja meM nAmanA bhI acchI milI hai| suvidhA aura surakSitatA meM bhI koI kamI nahIM hai| phira bhI maiM sukhI nahIM hU~ / Aja dina taka maiM yaha nahIM samaja pAyA thA ki maiM sukhI kyoM nahIM hU~ ? lekina, Apako dekhane ke bAda maiM apanA duHkha bahuta acchI taraha se samajane lagA huuN| Aja taka "suvidhA aura surakSitatA" hI sukha hai, yaha mAnakara maiM prayatna karatA rahA / usameM maiM saphala bhI rahA, lekina usake badale meM maiM apanI svatantratA kho baitthaa| suvidhA aura salAmatI ko sukha mAnane kI merI bhramaNA itanI gAr3ha ho gaI ki maiM merI vAstavika svatantratA tarapha bedhyAna ho gayA / ApakA darzana karake merI antarAtmA jAgRta ho gaI hai| use svatantratA kI pahacAna ho gaI hai| lekina he prabhu! merA ye piMjara mujhe itanA acchA lagatA hai ki koI mujhe piMjare kI bAhara nikAle to bhI acchA nahIM lagatA / 191 mujha para itanI hada taka pAgalapana chAyA huA hai ki koI mujhe piMjare se bAhara nikAle to bhI maiM apane Apa vApasa Akara piMjare meM baiTha jAtA huuN| anya loga piMjare se bAhara Ane ke lie utsuka hai| jabaki maiM piMjare meM rahane ke lie tatpara huuN| lAkha samajAne ke bAvajUda bhI ye anAdi kA abhyasta mana mAnatA hI nahIM hai| eka aura AtamA isa bandhana se chuTakArA cAhatI hai to dUsarI ora mana bandhana cAhatA haiM / lagatA hai isI asamaMjasa meM hI merI Ayu pUrI ho jaaegii| isalie he prabhu! duvidhA meM pha~sA huA hU~, merI Ayu pUrI hone se pahale mujhe isa piMjara meM se chuTakArA de do / kama se kama isa bandhana ko Alambana mAnane kA pAgalapana dUra kara do yahI merI vinatI hai| itanI kRpA jarura karanA / -4
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________________ maggANusAriA Apake mArga para calane kI zakti miile| iTThaphalasiddhi prabhu ! mujhe iSTa phala kI siddhi prApta ho / merI hareka cIja kI mujhe cintA rahatI hai| anya dUsaroM kI ora se mujhe bhaya lagA rahatA hai| avizvAsa, sandeha, cintA aura bhaya isa cAra mahAripu meM phaMsA dene kA kAma merI ye nAdAna buddhi ne hI kiyA hai| he prabhu! maMjila dUra ho aura rAstA kaThina / kadama-kadama para Apatti khar3I ho aura vAtAvaraNa pratikUla ho| paira thaka gae ho aura sAmane vizAla pantha ho phira bhI pathika sthala prati kI zraddhA aura vizvAsa ke bala para cala sakatA hai| usI taraha Apake prati zraddhA se paidA huA vizvAsa, agara dila meM sthira ho jAye to Apake dikhAye hue rAha para calane meM bilakula kaThinAI nahIM hogii| lekina musIbata yahA~ haiM kimaiMne hamezA buddhi para hI prAdhAnya rakhA hai| buddhi ke sahAre jItA-jAgatA rahA hU~ maiM, mujhe na ApakI zraddhA kA anubhava hai aura na to Apake prati vizvAsa kA ahesAsa / isalie hI mere jIvana meM na to prema hai ki na to mA~ kI goda meM sote hue bacce jaisI nizcitatA aura nirbhayatA / merA mana aneka zaMkA-kuzaMkA se bharA huA hai| aura avizvAsa se chalaka rahA hai| merI buddhi ke sivA mujhe hara cIja para zaka hotA hai| mujhe apane Apake sivA kisI para bhI vizvAsa nahIM hai| mujhe isase bAhara nikaalo| mujhe prema karanA sIkhA do| mujhe vizvAsa rakhanA sIkhA do| dimAga ke badale maiM dila kA upayoga karU~ aisI kalA sIkhA do| taba hI maiM Apake batAye hue mArga para acchI taraha se cala skuuNgaa| Apake dvArA nirdezita kiyA huA mArga mujhe mere ghara kI ora le jAegA, aisA vizvAsa mujha meM jagA do| Apako hI ye vizvAsa mujha meM jagAnA hogA kyoMki ApahI merI pyArI-pyArI mA~ ho / mA~ hI nahIM balki mA~ se bhI kucha vizeSa ho / merI U~galI pakar3akara Apako hI mujhe calanA sIkhAnA hai| mukti kI maMjila taka kI saphara sarala banAne kI jimmedArI sirpha ApakI hI hai| he prabhu! merI eka mAtra iccha paramAtmA banane kI hai| merI yaha icchA saphala banAne ke lie maiM Apako mere hRdayamandira meM virAjita karanA cAhatA huuN| mujhe patA hai, jahA~ Asakti hai, Apa vahA~ nahIM rhte| isalie mujhe mere dila kI Asakti dUra karanI hai| yenakena prakAreNa saMsAra mere dila ko har3apa karanA cAhatA hai| kabhI sampatti kI lAlaca dekara, kabhI sampatti kA abhimAna paidA karake, kabhI sukhoM meM ha~sAkara, kabhI tuccha duHkhoM meM rUlAkara, kabhI viSayoM ke Avega meM DUbAkara, kabhI kaSAyoM ke Aveza meM bhAna bhUlAkara, kabhI sundara rupa meM mohita kara, kabhI rasa meM masta banAkara, kabhI sparza meM, kabhI zabda meM, kabhI gandha meM Asakta banAkara, kabhI svArtha paidA kara, kabhI ISyAM meM jalAkara, kabhI harSa paidA kara, kabhI gamagIna bnaakr| kisI bhI tarIke se ye saMsAra ApakI pavitra mUrti ko mere -10
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________________ logaviruddhaccAo ziSTa loka meM nindita karma kabhI na kruuN| hRdayamandira meM se nikAla denA cAhatA hai| lekina mujhe ye maMjUra nahIM hai| he prabhu ! jaba jaba saMsAra mujhe Apase dUra kareM taba taba Apa mujhe najadIka le lenA / jaba jaba saMsAra mujhe apanI sudha-budha bhUlA deM, Apa mujhe jagA denaa| Apase dUra le jAnevAle aise sukhoM ke badale meM Apake samIpa lAe~ aisI sadbuddhi ko meM prathama pasanda kruuNgaa| ApakI yAda bhUlA deM aisI durbuddhi ke badale meM ApakI yAda nizadina satAve aise du:khoM ko maiM snmaanuuNgaa| yadi Apa mujhe milate haiM to jagata ke tamAma duHkha mere lie iSTa hai| Apa nahIM milate haiM to sAre vizva kA rAjasukha bhI mere mana aniSTa hai| ApakI prApti hI mere lie eka iSTaphala hai| Apa hI merA iSTa / Apa hI merA phala / Apa hI merI siddhi| kA~TA, cAhe choTA ho yA bar3A, lekina jaba paira meM cubhatA hai to darda hotA hI hai| doSa, choTA ho yA bar3A, jaba antara meM praveza karatA hai to DaMkha detA hI hai| paira meM cubhA huA choTA-sA kA~TA bhI calane nahIM detA / usI taraha antara meM ghusA huA choTA-sA doSa bhI zubha pravRtti nahIM karane detA / he paramAtmA ! acche loga jise burA kahate haiM, vaise bar3e bar3e doSa bhale hI mere jIvana meM bhale hI na ho, lekina choTe-choTe doSa to bahuta sAre hai| bleDa choTI hotI hai aura talavAra bar3I hotI hai| phira bhI mArane kA guNa donoM meM samAna hai| talavAra eka hI jhaTake meM galA ur3A detI hai, to bleDa nasoM ko kATakara mAratI hai| donoM kI zakti aura sAmarthya meM bhale hI antara ho, balki natIjA to samAna hotA hai| he prabhu ! jainakula meM janma milane ke kAraNa aura dharmasaMskAra se suvAsita mAtA-pitA milane para maiM talavAra kI taraha zubhabhAvoM ko nAza karanevAle doSoM se to baca gayA huuN| lekina bleDa kI taraha choTe-choTe TukaDe karanevAle laghu doSoM se apane Apako kaise bacA sakai? he prabhu! maiM kisI kA apamAna karate hicakicAtA nahIM huuN| binA kAraNa anya kI TIkA karane meM mujhe bahuta Ananda milatA hai| utanA hI Ananda mujhe dUsaroM kI TIkA sunane meM bhI AtA hai| koI mere doSa dikhAyeM yA sunAe~ to mujhe bahuta gussA AtA hai| maiM hamezA apane doSa ko chupAne meM nipuNa rahA huuN| maiM apane Apako 'suprIma' samajatA huuN| mere svArtha ke lie anya kA nuksAna karane meM mujhe bilakula saMkoca nahIM hotA / merI ye A~khe amaryAda aura bephAma hai| jhUTha bolanA mere lie bilakula AsAna hai| thoDI sI dhanaprApti ke lie maiM beImAnI aura anIti ke patha para calane ke lie taiyAra huuN| anya logoM kI pragati mere lie asahya hai| mujha meM itanA krodha hai ki loga mujhe TAImabomba kI upamA dete hai| rAjanItijJa kI taraha chalakapaTa meM maiM mAhira huuN| cUhe kI taraha mere mana ke zubhAzayoM ko phUMka-phaeNka kara kataranevAle isa kAtila doSoM se bacane kA mujhe eka hI upAya dikhAI detA hai, aura
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________________ gurujaNapUA mere gurujanoM kA Adara karu! vo hai mana ko sadAcAra kA kavaca pahanAne kA / merI A~kho ko ApakI pratimA ke sAtha joDa + / merI jihvA ko ApakI stuti ke sAtha bA~dha huuN| mere pairoM ko ApakI yAtrA ke sAtha saMkalita kruuN| mere hAtha ko ApakI pUjA ke sAtha sambandhita karUM / mere mana ko Apa ke guNoM meM piro huuN| mujhe milane vAle hara eka ko maiM apanA mitra mAnU~ / dUsaroM ke sadguNa dekhane kA prayatna karU~ aura guNa-prazaMsA karane kI Adata DAlU~ / dUsaroM ke durguNoM ke prati maiM dhyAna na huuN| duHkha meM sahAnubhUti rakhU aura mana ko zAMta, sarala, samarpita aura santoSI banA hU~ / prabhu ! itane sarala niyama bhI apanAne meM mujhe bahuta kaThina lagate haiN| phira bhI meM naciMta huuN| kyoMki Apa mere sArathI ho| maiMne aba merI cintA Apako sauMpa dI hai| gADI ke sAtha jur3e hue baila ko yA ratha ke sAtha jur3e hue ghoDe ko rAstA bhUlane kA Dara kabhI nahIM lagatA, kyoMki usane apanI lagAma sArathi ke hAtha meM sauMpa dI hotI hai| he prabhu ! merI bhI lagAma maiMne tere hAtha meM rakha dI hai| aba sauMpa dIyA isa jIvana ko bhagavAna tumhAre caraNo meM mujhe samhAloge nA? pitA ke vacana ko nibhAne ke lie rAmacandrajI ne vanavAsa kA svIkAra kiyaa| andha mAtApitA ko kAvaDa meM biThAkara zravaNakumAra ne tIrthayAtrA krvaaii| pitAzrI kA patra par3hakara kuNAlakumAra andhA bana gyaa| rAmacandrajI, zravaNa aura kuNAla tInoM hI mahAna vyaktioM ne mAtApitA kA prema jItane ke lie bhavya balidAna diyaa| rAmacandrajI ne rAjagaddI ke badale vanavAsa ko priya kiyA / zravaNa ne kArakirdI se bhakti ko mahatva diyA / kuNAla ne bhaviSya ke bajAya vinaya ko pasanda kiyaa| kyoMki mAtApitA kA prema jItane kI unakI bhAvanA ucca aura tIvra thii| jisa taraha A~khe khulI rakhakara sonA asambhavita hai, tapatI dhUpa meM zItalatA kI AzA rakhanA vyartha hai, usI taraha mana meM abhimAna rakhakara prema denA yA prema jItanA asambhava hai| he prabhu ! Apa, gurubhagavanta aura mAtApitA Adi gurujana ina tInoM ke prati samarpaNa bhAva rakhane se hI merA jIvana sArthaka bana sakatA hai| lekina maiM ina tIna tattvoM meM se pratyakSa jIvana meM mere sabase karIba rahanevAle mere mAtApitAdigurujana kA prema hI nahIM jIta sakA hU~ aura unako maiM prema de bhI nahIM sakA huuN| to gurubhagavanta ke prati yA Apa ke prati maiMne samarpaNa bhAva paidA kiyA hai, aisA kaise kaha sakatA hU~? he prabhu ! mere isa tuccha abhimAna ko dUra karanA / rAmacandra, zravaNa aura kuNAla jaise utkRSTa vinaya-Adara aura samarpaNa ke phUla mere jIvana meM jaba taka nahIM khilate taba taka basa eka hI prArthanA karatA hU~ ki rAma kI taraha pitA ke vacana ke khAtira maiM gRhatyAga bhale hI na kara sakU~, lekina mere khAtira mA~-bApa ko gRhatyAga karanA paDe itanA svacchaMdI aura svArthI maiM kabhI nA bnuuN| zravaNa kI taraha mAtApitA ko kaMdhe para biThAkara tIrthayAtrA bhale hI na karavAU~, lekina bur3hApe meM unakA vizvAsa toDakara unako na tthukraauuN| kuNAla kI taraha pitA ke vacana ko nibhAne ke lie maiM bhale hI apanI A~khe nikAlakara na dUM, parantu mere mAtApitA kI A~khoM meM se azruvahana hone meM nimitta nA hI banU~ / paha,
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________________ paratthakaraNaM ca maiM paropakAra ke kArya nirantara kruuN| suhagurujogo mujhe zubha guru kA yoga ho| phUla kA~Te apane pAsa rakhate haiM aura parimala anya ko dete haiN| vRkSa dhUpa aura tApa svayaM sahana karatA hai lekina anya ko chA~va detA hai| saritA khuda sAgara meM samAkara khArI ho jAtI hai parantu dUsaroM ko mIThA jala hI detI hai| prakRti hara cIja meM parArthabhAva hI dikhAI detA hai / eka manuSya hI aisA prANI hai, jo lagAtAra anya ko lUTatA rahatA hai| mAnava ke pAsa dUsaroM ko dene ke lie do mUlyavAna bhAvanAe~ hai: sadbhAva aura sahAnubhUti / lekina kucha dene kI bAta manuSya kA mastiSka svIkAra hI nahIM krtaa| he paramAtmA ! parArthabhAvanA ke abhAva se dUsaroM kA astitva svIkArane ke lie bhI maiM taiyAra nahIM huuN| isI kAraNa maiM anya se alaga ho gayA huuN| mere jIvana kI sabhI yAtanA kA mUla yahI hai: dUsaroM kI upekSA karanA aura dUsaroM se apekSA rkhnaa| nadI parvata se hI nikalatI hai, lekina jaise jaise sAgara ke samIpa pahu~catI hai -18 vaise vaise vizAla hotI jAtI hai| itanA hI nahIM, kinAroM para hariyAlI phailA detI hai| parvata jaise jaise U~cA jAtA hai, vaise vaise saMkucita hotA jAtA hai| isalie to parvata para kucha paidA nahIM hotA hai| he prabhu ! merI Apase namra araja hai ki parvata jaise abhimAna aura saMkocavRtti ko dUra karake vizAlahRdayA nadI kI taraha mujhe bhI vizAla hRdaya kA svAmI banAnA / hama na soce hame kyA mIlA hai hama ye soce kiyA kyA hai arpaNa phUla khuziyoM ke bAMTe sabhI ko apanA jIvana ye bana jAye madhubana apanI karuNA kA jala tUM bahA de kara de pAvana hara eka mana kA konA..... itanI zakti hameM denA dAnA / rAjA ke mahala meM dhvajA aura kAlIna ke bIca carcA huii| dhvajA ne phariyAda ke sUra meM kAlIna se kahA "tuma kitanI sukhI ho ! hai koI tumheM takalIpha ? tuma to mahala ke mukhya dIvAnakhaNDa meM ArAma se par3I rahatI ho / kahIM jAnA nahIM aura kucha karanA bhI nahIM / mujhe to sArA dina havA ke jhoMke lage rahate haiN| garmI aura ThaMDI bhI sahana karanI par3atI haiN| jaba bhI yuddha hotA hai, to mujhe sabase Age rahanA par3atA hai|" kAlIna ne unakA uttara dete hue kahA : "dhvajAbahana ! saca kahu~ ? Apake duHkha kA aura mere sukha kA mujhe to sirpha eka hI kAraNa dikhAI detA hai| Apako to sabakI upara aura sabase Age rahanA hI acchA lagatA hai| isalie Apa duHkhI ho / maiM sabake paga ke nIce hI rahatI hU~, isalie hI sukhI huuN|" he paramAtmA ! isa jagata meM sabako mahAna bananA acchA lagatA hai lekina mahattA kA mUlya cukAne kI kisI kI taiyArI nahIM hai| -19
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________________ tavvayaNasevaNA abhAvamakhaMDA jabataka saMsAra meM hU~ tabataka guru ke vacano kI sevA kruuN| vArijjaI jaivi niyANabaMdhaNaM vIyarAya ! tuha samae / tahavi mama hujja sevA bhave bhave tumha calaNANaM / he vItarAga ! Apane prabhuke pAsa mAganekA niSedha kiyA hai phirabhI meM janama-janama ApakI padasevA mIle aisI cAhanA rakhatA huuN| merI bhI yahI hAlata hai| "laghutA meM prabhutA base, prabhutA se prabhu duur|" yaha santa vacana ko maiM jAnatA hU~ phira bhii| vicitratA yahI hai ki mujhe choTA bananA acchA nahIM lagatA jisa taraha zarIra vajana jarUrata se jyAdA bar3ha jAtA hai to zarI anekAneka rogoM kA ghara bana jAtA hai| usI taraha mana meM ahaMkAra kA vajana bar3ha jAtA hai to mana aneka doSoM kA ghara bana jAtA hai| isalie he prabhu ! ahaMkAra se bhare hue mere mana ko doSoM se bacAne ke lie anuzAsana kareM mana ke viSaya aura Asakti para kAbU rakha sakeM aura sukhazIlatA ko dUra kara sakeM aise mArgadarzaka guru kI mujhe bahuta jarUrata hai| Apa to jagatguru ho| jaba taka Apa mere guru nahIM banate tabataka kRpA karake eka aise sadguru se bheMTa karA do jo Apake sAtha merA milApa karA deN| arjuna ne dhanuSyakalA AcArya droNa jaise kuzala kalAguru ke mArgadarzana se prApta kI thii| usI prakAra kI dhanuSyakalA ekalavya ne AcArya droNa ke pratyakSa mArgadarzana ke binA hI hA~sila kI thI ananya aura asAdhAraNa samarpaNa ke prabhAva se / jisa prakAra naiyA pAnI meM DUbate hae ko bacAne kA kAma bhale hI karatI ho lekina nadI yA sAgara ke usapAra pahu~cane ke lie hameM patavAra kI jarurata par3atI hai| usI prakAra guru kA yoga saMsAra se bacAne kA kAma bhale hI kare lekina mukti ke kinAre taka pahu~cane ke lie samarpaNa aura kRpA ke binA nahIM clegaa| isalie hai bhagavanta ! Apake pAsa maiM itanI yAcanA karatA hU~ ki guru to mujhe janmojanma milate raheM lekina guru ke vacanoM kA Adara jaba taka saMsAra raheM taba taka akhaNDita rheN| prasanna mana sukhI hone kA prathama aura antima cihna hai / jaba ki aprasanna mana duHkhI hone kA prathama aura AkharI cihna hai| he paramakRpAlu paramAtmA ! jaba se mujha meM samaja AI hai taba se maiM khoI huI 'mana kI prasannatA' kI talAza meM rahatA huuN| kintu nirAzA hI hAtha lagI hai| ApakI bAta mujhe bilakula saca lagatI hai| "saMsAra meM rahakara prasannatA prApta karanA asambhava hai| gande pAnI ke nAle meM gulAba kA phUla kaise khila sakatA hai? AsapAsa ke saMjoga -21 -22
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________________ dukkhakkhao mere sAre du:kha dUra ho! gulAba dUsaroM ko sugandha detA hai lekina sugandhita nahIM kara sakatA / paramakRpAlu paramAtmA Apa to prasannatA dete bhI ho aura bhaktajana ko sahaja prasannatA ke svAmI banA bhI sakate ho| isalie hI maiM Apase bintii| karatA hU~ ki isa dAsa ko bhavobhava ApakI sevA kA adhikAra prApta ho / "prabhu mere avaguNa citta na dharo samadarasI hai nAma tihAro cAhe to pAra kro|" hI aise hai ki manuSya kA nirmala mana bhI dambha, doSa aura durbhAva se kaluSita ho jAtA hai| aura saMkleza kA bhAjana bana jAtA hai| saMsAra meM rahakara mana ko sahaja, svastha aura sarala banAnA bahuta hI kaThina kAma haiN| merA udAsa caherA aura mere nakArAtmaka vicAra hI batAte haiM ki mere manameM kitanA saMkleza bharA huA hai ? saMkleza ko dUra kiye binA prasannatA kabhI nahIM AtI aura zubhabhAva ke binA saMkleza haTatA hI nahIM / aisA zubhabhAva ApakI sevA ke binA milatA hI nahIM / ataH he prabhu! mujhe janmojanma ApakI sevA mileM / maiM to nIca, adhama, pApI aura kupAtra hU~ phira bhI maiM ApakA hI huuN| he prabhu ! pApI samajakara Apa mujhe dUra karoMge to maiM kahA~ jAU~gA? cAhe kitanA bhI gandA manuSya jaba gulAba ke pAsa jAtA hai to use suvAsa kA hI anubhava hotA hai / usI taraha mahAna pApI bhI ApakI zaraNa meM AyeM to use prasannatA kA hI anubhava hotA hai| -24 malinatA se bhare hue hAtha se mu~ha sApha karanA asambhava hai| kAdava se bhare hue jhADU se ghara kI saphAI karanA asambhavita hai| yAni ki mu~ha sApha karane ke lie hAtha svaccha rakhanA jarurI hai to ghara ko sAphasutharA banAne ke lie jhADU bhI svaccha rakhanA jarurI hai| usI prakAra duHkho se bacate rahanA hai to durbhAvanAoM se dUra rahanA anivArya hai| gande jhADU se yA gande hAtha se to gandakI bar3hatI hI hai vaise hI durbhAvanAoM se bhare hue mana se duHkha hI bar3hate haiN| he paramakRpAlu paramAtmA ! durbhAvanAoM se bharA huA merA mana aura duHkhoM se bhare hue mere jIvana ko dekhakara mere bhAvikI mujhe eka hI zakyatA dikhAI detI hai aura vo hai merI 'durgti'| mRtyu ke bAda kI gati kA mujhe aMdAja nahIM / balki lagAtAra saMklezagrasta manane mere vartamAna jIvana ko bhI durgati jaisA hI banA rakhA hai| -26
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________________ kammakkhao mere sAre kamoM kA nAza ho| he prabhu! terA bhakta hokara merI durgati ho, kyA aisA tumako zobhA degA? kyA tuma mujhe isase chuTakArA nahIM doge? mujhe tuma para pUrA yakIna hai prabhu ! tuma mujhe jarura chuddvaaoge| tuma hI mujhe mukta karAoge, ina duHkhoM se, doSoM se, durmati se aura durgati se| eka rAjA ne suprasiddha citrakAra ko citra banAne kI AjJA dii| viSaya diyA-"pRthvI para kA svarga" isakI khoja meM citrakAra bahuta ghumA / Akhira meM usane usI nagara ke eka choTe-se bacce kA khikhilAkara ha~sate cahere kA citra banAkara rAjA ko btaayaa| rAjA ati prasanna huaa| kaI sAla bIta gaye / rAjA ne citrakAra ko phira yadi kiyaa| eka aura citra banAne kA hukma diyaa| isa vakta viSaya diyA - "pRthvI para kA nrk|" citra kI khoja meM citrakAra isa vakta bhI bahuta ghumA / isa vakta vaha kedakhAno meM gayA / eka bahuta bar3e gunegAra kI mulAkAta lI aura usakA citra bnaayaa| citrakAra ne socA ki isabAra bhI merA yaha citra jagavikhyAta bnegaa| usa gunegAra ne citrakAra se pUcha : 'Apa mujhe pahacAnate ho?' citrakAra ne kahA - "nhiiN|" gunegAra ne uttara diyA - "kaI sAla pahale eka choTe bacce kA Apane citra banAyA thaa|" citrakAra ne kahA~ - "haaN|" -28 taba gunegAra bolA - "maiM vahI bAlaka huuN|" he prabhu ! isa rupakakathA meM aura mere jIvana meM pharka sirpha itanA hai ki merI jindagI kA citrakAra bhI maiM hI huuN| kuvicAra aura kusaMskAra kI badI ke bIca jIkara nandanavana jaisI isa suhAvanI jindagI ko maiMne smazAna jaisI bhayAvaha banA dI hai| isake lie karmoM ko doSa dekara maiM karmoM ke phala se mukta hone kI koziza karU~ vaha vyartha hai| kyoMki babUla ke zUloM ko mere hAthoM se bone kA pAgalapana bhUtakAla meM maiMne hI kiyA hai| aura vartamAnakAla meM maiM use jar3a-mUla se kATane ke bajAya usakI zAkhAe~ kATane kI dUsarI bar3I mUrkhatA kara rahA huuN| mujhe karmoM ke phala se yA karma se nahIM, kintu kuvicAra aura kusaMskAra se bacane kI jarurata hai| mere aMta:karaNa meM se sukha kA prema aura duHkha kA Dara, dhana kI lAlasA aura bhoga kI lAlaca, hRdaya kI vakratA aura buddhi kI vicitratA jaise aneka kuvicAra aura kusaMskAra dUra ho jAe~ aise vicAra aura saMskAra kI mujhe pAtratA deN| basa itanA hI maiM mAMgatA haiN|
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________________ samAhimaraNaM ca aura mRtyu ke samaya samAdhibhAva mIle / gujarAtI meM eka hai| kahAvata hai "aghu sAraM no aMta sAro" (jisa kA anta acchA, vaha saba kucha acchA ) he prabhu! eka dina mere jIvana kA anta AnA hI hai, kaba ? kahA~ ? kaise ? vo maiM nahIM kaha sakatA / merA anta acchA hogA yA bUrA ye maiM nahIM jAnatA / lekina acchA anta lAne ke lie zurUAta bhI acchI honI cAhie, madhyAMtara bhI acchA cAhie aura gati bhI acchI hI honI caahie| acche phala pAne ke lie bIjAMkura kA bhI acchA honA utanA hI jarurI hai| aura sAtha sAtha khAda aura pAnI bhI ucita mile ye bahuta Avazyaka hai| mere jIvana meM sadguNoM ke kaI bIja kevala acche khAda aura pAnI ke abhAva se niSphala gae haiN| maranA to nizcita hai lekina lAcAra banakara, jindagI kI bhIkha mA~gakara, dIna-hIna banakara, rote hue, hRdaya meM tRSNA 30 aura lAlasA ko sAtha, mana meM irSyA aura zarIra meM vedanA lekara mujhe nahIM maranA hai| mujhe to ha~sate-ha~sate maranA hai| maranA nahIM hai, mujhe to mRtyu se bheTanA hai| he prabhu! maiM jAnatA hU~ / jisake jIvana meM, jisako jIte jI kabhI "samAdhAna" na milA ho use mRtyu ke samaya "samAdhi" mila sakatI hai ? agara amRta pInA hai to hAtha meM pakar3e hue jahara ke pyAle ko pheMkanA hI par3atA hai| usI prakAra jIvana meM agara samAdhAna cAhie to hRdaya meM rakhe hue saMgharSa kA tyAga bhI karanA hI par3atA hai| he paramAtmA ! saMsAra ke kapola kalpita sukha kI sAmagrI kA saMgraha karane ke lie maiM bemisAla saMgharSa karatA rahA huuN| saMgharSa kiye binA saMsAra kA sukha nahIM milatA / saMgharSa kA matalaba hotA hai apane aura parAyoM ke dila meM paidA hue kaSAya aura kleza kA mizraNa / he prabhu ! maiM acchI taraha se maranA cAhatA hU~ isalie hI maiM acchI taraha se jInA cAhatA huuN| - 31~ uttama jIvana ke lie maiM saMgharSa nahIM karU~gA / saMgharSa kA javAba nahIM dU~gA / kisI kA bhI bUrA nahIM socU~gA / kisI kA bhI bUrA nahIM bolUMgA / kisI kA bhI bUrA nahIM karU~gA / maiM Apako yaha vacana detA hU~ / he prabhu ! aba to mujhe tAroge na ? mana meM na mAna hove, dila ekatAna hove, tuma caraNa dhyAna hovo, jaba prANa tana se nIkale / -32
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________________ bohilAbho a mujhe sadRSTi prApta ho ! saMsAra meM rahakara bhI saMsAra mere bhItara na praveza jAe~ aisI kalA mujhe sIkhA do| "saMsAra merA nahIM hai, saMsAra acchA nahIM hai itanI sumati mujhe mila jAe~ to mAno ki mujhe saba kucha mila gayA / he paramAtmA ! Apake padakamala meM zIza jhukAkara maiM prArthanA karatA huuN| merI prArthanA kA Apane svIkAra kiyA yA nahIM ? vaha to maiM apane Apa meM hone vAle parivartana ke dvArA jAna skuuNgaa| merI yogyatA ko jAne binA maiMne Apase mA~gA hai, ApakI prabhutA dekhakara / ApakI prabhutA para mujhe pUrA vizvAsa hai he prabhu ! mere jIvana kI tamAma samasyAoM kA mUla hai saMsAra para kA gAr3ha vizvAsa aura tIvra Asakti / isa Asakti ke kAraNa saMsAra ke sabhI padArthoM prati AkarSaNa paidA huA hai| aura isa AkarSaNa ke kAraNa mujha meM galata abhigama utpanna huA hai| 'saMsAra acchA hai aura saMsAra merA hai' yahI abhigama aba mujhe saccA lagane lagA hai| aura isalie hI saMsAra mere AtmA ke aNuaNu meM vyApta ho gayA hai| ApakI kRpA ke bala para sAre saMsAra se mujhe mukti mileM / aisI merI manokAmanA hai| lekina jaba taka mujhe isa saMsAra se mukti na mileM taba taka mujhe kamalapatra jaisI nirlepatA ke svAmI banA do, jisase ye saMsAra mere antarAtmA ko achUta na kara jAyeM / pAnI meM par3A huA namaka kA TukaDA pigala jAtA hai, kyoMki vaha pAnI ko bhItara praveza detA hai| lekina paththara pAnI meM rahakara bhI pigalatA nahIM hai, kyoMki vaha pAnI ko apanI uparI sataha se Age jAne hI nahIM detA / saMpajjau maha eaMtuha nAha paNAma karaNeNaM / Apako praNAma karane se merI ye prArthanAe~ saphala ho sarva maMgala mAMgalyaM, sarvakalyANa kAraNam / pradhAnaM sarvadharmANAM, jainaM jayati zAsanam // sarva maMgala meM zreSTha sarva kalyANa kara sarvazreSTha zrIjainazAsana jayavaMta hai| -33 -34