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________________ ApaNuM saMskAradhana pravakatA-pUjya munirAja zrI caMdraprabhasAgarajI (citrabhAnujI) Ajano svAdhyAya "ApaNuM saMskAradhana" che--je dhana vaDe bhArata samRddha hatuM, samRddha che ane samRddha thaze. jo ke atyAre emAM oTa AvI che, chatAM enI gauravagAthAo te evI ja gavAI rahI che. je saMskRtinA nAma upara, je AdhyAtmika prakAza upara pazcimanA leke Aje paNa vArI jAya che ane dara varSe tyAMthI pravAsIo AvatA ja jAya che e saMskAradhana zuM che te samajavAnI jarUra che. dhana konuM nAma? je mANasane samRddha banAve, sukhI banAve, jIvanane jIvavA jevuM ane mRtyune maMgaLamaya banAve. je dhana mANasane ciMtA lAve, je dhana mANasane kaMgAla banAve, je dhana vaDe karIne mANasa manathI ane tanathI ahaMkArI ane ajJAnI ane e dhana na kahevAya, ene pasa kahI zako. paise ane dhana e be vacce moTuM aMtara che. paiso jugArInI pAse paNa heI zake, naTa ane nartakI pAse paNa hoI zake, paNa dhana te saMskArasaMpana naranArI pAse ja hoya. eTalA ja mATe paiso meLavyA pachI paNuM dhana meLavavAnuM bAkI rahI jAya che. jyAM sudhI A dhana na Ave tyAM sudhI e paisAdAra kahevAya, paNa zrIpati, dhanapati ke lakSmIpati na kahevAya. lakSamI, dhana, zrI e badhAMya jIvananI zebhAnAM upanAma che. AvA dhanathI bhArata samRddha hatuM, paisAthI nahi. paisAthI te amerikA ApaNuM karatAM ghaNuM samRddha che, paNa bhAratavarSanI samRddhi judI che. je dhana vaDe karIne mANasa sukhI thAya, hRdayane udAtta thAya, jJAnane upAsaka thAya, jIvanane dhanya banAvate thAya ane mRtyune maMgaLamaya banAvate thAya e dhana ApaNA dezanuM dhana; jene huM ApaNe vAraso kahuM chuM, ApaNI mUDI kahuM chuM. pise cAlyo jAya te paNa A mUDI na jAya. mANasa paisAthI nAdAra thaI jAya te cAle, paNa A AdhyAtmika saMskRtithI kaMgAla thaI jAya te nahi cAle. saMskRtithI nidhana 27
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________________ zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlaya suvarNa mahatsava-graMtha ane kaMgAla na banI jAya e mATe zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlayanA suvarNa mahotsavanA zubha prasaMge A svAdhyAyamAM enuM smaraNa tAjuM karAvavA mAguM chuM. zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlaya" Akhara te eka vidyA pradAna karanArI saMsthA che. e kaMI lojiMga ane beDiMga mATenuM sthAna nathI ke vidyAthIone khavaDAvyuM, rAkhyA ane ravAnA karyo eTale kAma patyuM. A saMsthA sAthe bhagavAna mahAvIranuM pavitra nAma joDAyuM che. aDhI hajAra varSa pahelAMnI ApaNI bhavyatAnuM smaraNa eka A nAnakaDuM nAma karAve che. aDhI hajAra varSa pahelAne e jamAno e hatuM, jemAM bhagavAna buddha ane bhagavAna mahAvIra vicAratA hatA, jemAM ahiMsA ane premane prasAra hite; jemAM adhyAtmanA prakAza mATe rAjAe rAjya choDIne, maMtrI maMtrIpada cheDIne, zreSThIo havelIo cheDIne saMtanA caraNamAM jaI besatA. emane lAgatuM hatuM ke A ja amAruM sAcuM dhana che. vicAra karavAne che ke e dhana zuM hatuM, je dhanane meLavavA mATe paisAdAre paNa mAnatA hatA ke A dhana maLe te ja ame sAcA dhanapati banI zakIe. mane eka prasaMga yAda Ave che ? aDhI hajAra varSa pahelAne A prasaMga che : eka vAra bhagavAna buddha rAjagRhI nagarImAM AvyA che. emane vaMdana karavA, emanA jJAnanuM sudhApAna karavA keTalAMye naranArIo utsAhabhera jaI rahyAM che. e vakhate gAmane nagarazeTha paNa jaI rahyo che. eNe vicAra karyo : "huM bhagavAna buddhanA darzane jAuM chuM, emanA caraNe huM zuM dharIza? emanI pAsethI to huM kaMIka paNa laIne AvIza, paNa huM emane ApIza zuM? ApyA vinA kAMI meLavI zakAtuM nathI, khAlI karyA vinA kAMI bharI zakAtuM nathI." aMdara je bhareluM hoya to navuM tame kema bharI zako? aMdara bhareluM hoya ene kADhI nAkhe to ja tame navuM umerI zako cho. . zizira Rtu hovAthI badhAM kamaLa baLI gayAM che, sukAI gayAM che; jaLAzayamAM mAtra eka ja khIlela kamaLa bAkI rahI gayuM che. sudAsa mALI e kamaLane vecavA nIkaLe che. nagarazeTha e kharIdavAnI vAta kare che keTalA paisA?" sudAsa eka sonAmahora mAge che. eTalAmAM tyAM rAjaputra AvI pahoMce che. e kaheH "A kamaLa mATe huM tane pAMca sonAmahora ApuM." banne vacce harIphAI cAle che. kamaLane kharIdavAnI harIphAImAM bane jaNa vadhu ne vadhu sonAmahoro ApavAnuM kahetA jAya che. sudAsa emane AzcaryathI pUche che: "Apa A kamaLanuM zuM karavA mAge che?" bane kahe che: "bhagavAna buddhanA caraNomAM A kamaLa amAre dharavuM che." sudAsane vicAra Avyo: "jenA caraNomAM kamaLa dharavA mATe A nagarazeTha ane rAjaputra harIphAI kare che e caraNe keTalAM pAvana hAvAM joIe ! to A kamaLa emane vecuM enA karatAM huM ja jaIne e caraNemAM Ane samarpita zAne na karuM?" ane e doDI AvyA, AvIne buddhanA caraNomAM kamaLa dharI DhaLI paDyo. bhagavAna buddhe kahyuM: "vatsa! tAre zuM joIe che?" sudAse namrabhAve kahyuM: "mAtra ApanI kRpAbharI najaranuM eka kiraNa maLe ane mArA aMtaranuM timira TaLI jAya!"
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________________ che. zrI caMdraprabhasAgarajI (citrabhAnujI) : ApaNuM saMskAradhana 211 je vastune cArAthI acAvavA mATe ujAgarA karavA paDe, je vastune mATe bhAI ene laDavuM paDe, pitAputrane manadu:kha thAya e dhana nathI. bhagavAna buddhe zu kahyu ? emaNe kahyuM : " AjanI sabhAmAM sAcA sauMskArI ane dhanapati hoya te A sudAsa che." A vArtA buddhanI jAtakakathAmAM Ave che. kavivara ravIndranAtha TAgere ene sarasa vicArAnI kalagI ApI che. aMdaranA aMdhakArane dUra karavAmAM madadgagAra thAya enu' nAma te dhana che, bAkI badhuMya paisA che. ApaNe je dharatImAM jIvIe chIe, e dharatInA aNuaNumAM A bhAvanA bharelI hatI. paNa deza-kALanA prabhAvane lIdhe keTalIka vastuo badalAI jAya che; ane badalAI javA chatAM dharatImAM je vastu paDelI che e dharatIne sAva mUkIne jatI nathI rahetI. ApaNuM A sauMskAradhana zu' hatuM ? ApaNI A saMskAragAthAne kavi kAlidAse raghuvaMzamAM noMdhatAM kyu che ke-- zaizave'bhyasta vidhAna, yauvane viSayaiSiNAm / vArdhake munivRttInAM yogenAnte tanutyajAm // mAnavajIvananA cAra tabakkAonI cAra vAtA A AkamAM mUkI che : pahelu' zaizava, khIju` yauvana, trIju prauDhatva che ane ceAthu mRtyu. jIvananA A cAra prasaMgeAne ApaNe kaI kaI vastuthI dhanya ane ciraMjIva banAvI zakIe enA upAye ApaNane A eka ja AAkamAM e mahAkavie matAvyA che. "rozane asvastavidhAnam '---zaizava zenAthI ala'kRta bane ane cira'jIva ne ? tA kahe, zazava vidyAthI layu heAvu joIe. jema keAI pAtra amRtathI bhareluM hAya te pAtramAMthI ApaNe enuM pAna karI zakIe paNa pAtra khAlI hAya to ? khAlI pAtra game eTalu' suMdara hAya paNa enAthI ApaNI tRSA chIpatI nathI...bhale pAtra pleTinamanu' hAya tepaNa zu? pyAsa te emAM rahelI vastu ja miTAve che. ema zaizava e pAtra che. emAM vidyA e amRta che. vidyAnuM amRta emAM bharelu hAya tA ja e jIvananI pyAsane miTAve che. zaizava e vidyAne mATe ja hAvu' joI e. murabbIee dhyAna rAkhavuM joI e ke bALakAnA vidyAbhyAsanA suvarNa kALamAM amArA taraphathI jANatAM ke ajANatAM kAI pittaLa na maLI jAya ke jethI emanuM suvarNa jIvananA kharA samayamAM khATu paDI jAya! A vAta rAjadvArI mANasA, netAe ane mAtApitAe dhyAnamAM rAkhe teA khALakanA jIvanamAM sadA vidyAnA ja prakAza rahe ane enu zaizava suMdara ane sa`skRta banI jAya. paNa Aje vidyAnA ane vidyArthI enA upayAga ghaNAkharA peAtAnA svArtha mATe karI rahyA che. rAjadvArI mANase emanI pAse patharA phekAvIne, kolejo ane yunivarsiTIe saLagAvarAvIne, zikSakAnI sAme khelatAM karIne, ceApaDIe ane pustakAlayAne khALatA karIne emanA zaizavane khagADI rahyA che, je khIjAtu zaizava khagADe enA peAtAnA buDhApA zA mATe na bagaDe? enAM mULa kANu che? sattAnA ucca Asana upara beThelA, jemanuM tame hAratArA laI ne svAgata karI che. ane gayA pachI niMdA zarU karI che. te!
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________________ 212 zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlaya suvarNa mahotsava-graMtha vidyArthIo ke jemanuM mana nirmaLa che, emanA jIvanamAM tame bagIce sarjavAne badale verAna kema kare che? Blotting papernuM (zAhIcUsanuM) kAma to sAme je hoya te cUsI levAnuM che, pachI e kALI zAhI hoya ke lAla hoya. evuM ja kAma vidyAthI onA mAnasanuM che. emanuM mAnasa zAhIcUsa jevuM receptive che, je Ape te grahaNa kare. AvA bALamAnasane je bIjA mAge vApare che e, eka rIte kahuM te, bhAratIya saMskRtinuM khUna kare che; e moTAmAM moTo gune kare che. suMdara zaizavane vadhAre suMdara banAvavAmAM ApaNe sAthe ApavA prayatna karavAne che. ApaNuM vicArethI, ApaNI vANIthI, ApaNuM vartanathI emanA mAnasa para kaI asaMskRta chApa na paDI jAya te mATe sadA sAvadhAna rahevuM paDaze. vidyAnI upAsanA kare karate vidyArthI jIvananuM eka darzana meLave che. vidyAthI bhaNIne Avye enI pratIti zuM che? enuM jIvanadarzana zuM che? tenA mApadaMDanAM A be pAsAM che. eka to jIvananI zAvata ane azAzvata vastuonAM mUlyane viveka; ane bIjuM, pitAnAmAM je AtmA che evA ja AtmAnuM darzana vizvanA prANImAtramAM karI, pitAnI paratve je jAtanuM AcaraNa jAheramAM ane ekAMtamAM Acarate heAya evuM ja AcaraNa jAheramAM ane ekAMtamAM sarva AtmA pratye AcaravAnI abhiruci. vidyAnuM A darzana che. jenI pAse vidyA Ave enI pAse A be vastunI apekSA rAkhIe. e zAzvata ane azAzvatane viveka karIne e bene judA pADe. e jue ke eka deha che, bIjo AtmA che; eka mUkI javAnuM che, bIju laI javAnuM che. A beno viveka thatAM zAzvatane bhege azAzvatane na sAcave eTaluM ja nahIM, paNa jarUra paDe te e azAzvatane bhege zAzvatane TakAvI rAkhe. jenAmAM AvI prajJA jAge che, A viveka jAge che enI pAse vidyA che. A benuM vizleSaNa karatAM AvaDI jAya pachI ene kahevuM paDatuM nathI ke te AtmA mATe svAdhyAya kara, paraloka mATe prayatna kara; kAraNa ke e jANato hoya che ke A mAro AtmA zAzvata che, enA bhege huM duniyAnI koI paNa azAzvata vastune saMcaya nahi karuM, zAzvatanA tattvane huM kyAreya hAni nahi pahoMcADuM. Aje vidyAvAna to ghaNuM che, paNa AvI jAgRta vicAraNAvALA keTalA ? vidyAthI A daSTi na Ave te mAnavuM ke e mAtra pustakiyuM jJAna che; bIjI rIte kahuM to mAtra zabdane saMgraha che. e pustakAlaya banI zake paNa prANa puruSa nathI banI zakata. tevI ja rIte mANasa mAtra pustako ja raTI jAya, bhaNI jAya, yAda rAkhI jAya paNa jarUra paDe tyAre AcarI na zake to ene eka suMdara pustakAlaya kahI zakAya, prANa puruSa nahi. eka vidvAne sarasa vyAkhyA bAMdhI ke Man of words and not of deeds is like a garden full of weeds-je mAtra zabdane saMgraha kare ane e saMgrahane AcAramAM mUkavA mATenI abhiruci na hoya ene eka evA bagIcA sAthe sarakhAvyo che, jemAM puSpa ane phaLe kAMI nathI, mAtra kAMTA ane jhAMkharAM ja UbhAM che. bhaNatarathI mAtra smaraNazakti vadhe, zabdazakti vadhe, vAkacAturya vadhe ane AcaraNa
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________________ pU. mu. zrI. cadraprabhasAgarajI (citrabhAnujI) : ApaNuM saMskAradhana 213 na vadhe teA ApaNA jIvanamAM tyAganuM dana kema thAya ? vastune cheDavA mATenI abhiruci kema jAge ? zAzvata ane azAzvatanA viveka karavA e ja teA vidyAnuM prathama pAsu che. bIju darzIna e ke mArAmAM je che e ja tattva vizvanA madhA ja AtmAemAM nivAsa karI rahyuM che; te ekAMtamAM ane jAheramAM huM mArA pratye jevuM AcaraNa karuM chuM. evuM ja AcaraNa huM jagatanA jIve pratye karuM. A dRSTithI enA vicAramAM, enA uccAramAM, enA AcAramAM eka jAtanI uccatA-zucitA Ave che. A uccatA leAkeAne rAjI karavA mahArathI lAvelI nathI, paNa e aMdarathI UgelI che. vizvanA prANImAtramAM caitanyanA nivAsanuM eNe dazana karyu che. AvI dRSTivALA mANase ApaNane dareka dezamAM maLI Ave che. abrAhama li`kana eka vAra vhAITa hAusa jatAM kIcaDamAM Dukkarane taraphaDatuM jue che. peAte kIcaDamAM jaI ene kIcaDamAMthI kADhI e pachI ja vhAITa hAusa jAya che. tyAM kAI e DrAIvarane pUchyu ke liMkananAM kapaDAMne kIcaDanA DAghA kema lAgelA che? DrAIvare kahyu ke ' Dukkarane kIcaDamAMthI bahAra kADhatAM DAghA lAgyA che.' A sAMbhaLI eka mitre AvI liMkanane dhanyavAda ApyA, tyAre liMkane kahyuM. " rahevA de, meM A kAma dhanyavAda mATe ke bIjAne mATe nathI karyuM, paNa Dukkarane kAdavamAM taraphaDatuM joIne mArA manamAM eka vyathA jAgI ane e vyathAnA kAMTA kADhavA Dukkarane kADhyA vinA chUTako naheAteA." ATaluM' kahIne liMkana cAlatA thayA. bIjAne du:khI joIne pAte duHkhI thavu', A eka samabhAva avasthA, prANImaitrInI bhAvanA, vizvamAM rahelA caitanyamAM peAtAnA jevA ja eka caitanyanuM darzana. peAtAnA duHkhane dUra karavA mATe jevA prayatna karIe evA ja prayatna jagatanA jIvA pratye ApaNe karatA rahIe, karavA mATenI ApaNI satata abhilASA hAya, tyAre jANavuM ke ApaNAmAM vidyAnA prakAza AvatA jAya che. AvI vidyA vaDe karIne ApaNe dhanavAna banatA jaIe chIe. rAjasthAnanA gAmaDAnA eka prasaMga cheH e bhAIe che. mATAbhAInA vastAra vadhAre che, nAnAbhAInA vastAra thADA che. annenAM khetarA che, vacce eka vADa che. kApaNI pachI DUDAMnA DhagalA thayA che. rAtre mATe bhAI vicAre che ke A mArA bhAI nAnA che, meM saMsAramAM mANavAnuM badhuM mANI lIdhuM che, mArI jarUriyAta paNa ochI che; nAnA bhAI ne vadhAre jIvavAnuM che, jarUriyAta paNa vadhAre che. A vicArathI e peAtAnA khetaramAMthI pULA laIne nAnA bhAInA khetaramAM nAkhI Ave che. e ja rAtrinA bIjA praharamAM nAnA bhAIne vicAra Ave che ke meTA bhAInA vastAra vadhAre che, e kevI rIte calAvatA haze ? huM te juvAna ane sazakta chuM, raLI zakuM ema chuM. eTale e peAtAnA khetaranA pULAone meATA bhAInA khetaramAM nAkhI Ave che. AvI rIte be-traNa divasa cAlyuM. cAthI rAtrie anne bhAI e bhegA thaI gayA. eke pUchyu* * tuM kayAM jAya che ?' khIjAe pUchyuM 'tuM kayAM jAya che ?' annenA hAthamAM pULA. pele Ane tyAM nAkhavA jAya ane A pelAne tyAM nAkhavA jAya ! Anu' nAma vidyA che, A sAcI keLavaNI che. nAnA moTAnA vicAra kare, meATA nAnAnA vicAra kare. bannemAM ekabIjAne samajavAnI vRtti che. AvI vidyAthI samAjanuM dana prApta
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________________ 214 zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlaya suvarNa mahotsava graMtha thAya che. AvI vidyA vinA, kahe, samAja UMce kema Ave? samAja sukhI ane samRddha paNa kema thAya ? samAjanA darzana vinA ekalI AtmAnI ane paralokanI ja vAta karIzuM ane vyavahAramAM prANImAtra pratye samabhAvanI vicAraNuM nahi Ave to, mane lAge che ke, ApaNe havAmAM UDyA karIzuM, jamIna upara paga paNa nahi mUkI zakIe. je mANasa jamIna upara paga mUkI zakato nathI e kadAca havAmAM UDI zakato haze, paraMtu sthira nahi hoya. havAmAM UDavAnI paNa eka maryAdA che. Akhare mANasane dharatI upara cAlavAnuM che. adhyAtmanI -dharmanI jAgRti e je vyavahArazuddhithI zarU na thAya, bIjA jIvamAM rahelA AtmAnuM darzana karIne enA pratye samabhAvAtmaka buddhithI jAgRta na thAya, te je dhyeya tarapha pahacavAnuM che, tyAM e kadI pahoMcI nahi zake; mAtra ApaNA zabdomAM mokSa, vicAramAM nirvANa ane kalpanAmAM mukti rahI jaze; enI prApti te AvA samAjadarzanathI ja thaze. jenAthI zAzvata ane azAvatanAM mUlyane viveka ane sarva bhUtomAM pitAnA jevA ja citanyanuM darzana A samAnubhUti thAya, samasaMvedana thAya e ja sAcI vidyA. Avo vidyAvAna puruSa jyAre kaMI vicAre tyAre enA vicAronI aMdara paNa eka mRdu ane nirmaLa tatva hoya; enA uccAramAM komaLatA ane saMvedanA hoya; enA AcaraNamAM saunAM sukha ane zAMtine parimala hAya. evI vyaktinuM darzana AtmasparzI hevAthI samAjane mATe e eka AzIrvAda rUpa banI jAya che. "vauvane viniry"--jenA zaizavanuM pAtra vidyAnA amRtathI chalakAI rahyuM che e zaizavamAMthI nIkaLIne tame yauvanamAM Avo cho. tamArI pAse zaktio che, buddhi che, thanaganATa che ane kAMIka karI chUTavAnI manamAM svamasRSTi paNa che. yauvanamAM je svama ane sarjanAtmaka zaktinA vicAre na hoya to e zakti ene ja khalAsa karI nAkhe che. mAre A saMsAranA bagIcAmAM eka suMdara ro ropIne javuM che, bane to saMsArane bagIco samRddha bane evuM suMdara kArya karyuM, paNa eke ropAne UkheDIne saMsAranA bagIcAne daridra banAvavAnuM nimitta to na ja banuM" eka rAjamArganI bAjumAM eka 81 varSane vRddha khADo khetIne nAnakaDo choDa ropI rahyo che. eTalAmAM be juvAniyAo enI ThekaDI karatAM pUchavA lAgyAH "dAdA, zuM karo che?" "AMbAnuM jhADa vAvuM chuM." "he! A uMmare AMbAnuM jhADa vAve che? 81 varSe A vAvo che to A AMbe Ugaze kyAre? ene kerIo Avaze kayAre? ane dAdA, tame e khAzo kyAre? ghaDapaNamAM tRSNa ane meha jAgyAM lAge che!" vRddhe namratAthI kahyuM : "tArI vAta sAcI che bhAI, tRSNa to konAmAM na hoya? huM ema kaheto nathI ke mArAmAM tRNuM nathI. na hovAne dAvo kare e vastunA astitvane siddha karavA barAbara che. A je Abo huM vAvuM chuM e mAre mATe nathI vAvate; A rastAnI banne bAju je jhADa UgelAM che enI chAyAne, enAM phaLane meM ghaNuM varSo sudhI lAbha uThAvya che. te have huM jAuM chuM te pahelAM AvatI kAlanI peDhIne kAMIka ApatA javuM joIe ne? eTale huM A AMbe vAto jAuM chuM. gaIkAla pAsethI lIdhuM che te AvatIkAlane ApaNe
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________________ pu. mu. zrI, ca'draprabhasAgarajI (citrabhAnujI) : ApaNu` sa`skArayana 15 kAMIka ApavAnu che. ane ApyA vinA cAlyA jaIe te ApaNe kudaratanA cAra kahevAI e ! huM cAra na banI jAuM... eTalA mATe A mArA prayatna che." pelA e yuvAne A sAMbhaLIne namI paDayAH dAdA, tamane samajavAmAM amArI bhUla thaI che! '' mANasa mANasane samajavAmAM bhUle che, tyAM ja jIvanayAtrAnI niSphaLatA che. mANasa sAmAne samajI zakatA hAya teA enI yAtrA kevI saphaLa thaI jAya ! yauvananuM kArya sukhApabhAga che, paNa enI vizeSatA e mATe karavA paDatA puruSArthAMmAM rahelI che. ane puruSArtha e ja yauvananI gheAbhA che. ghaNI vAta karanArane huM mahattva nathI . ApaDe, ene mAtra vAtanA rAjA gaNu` chuM. tamArA hAthathI dayAnuM, karuNAnuM, sevAnu kAMIka paNa kAma thavuM joIe. gayA varSoMnI vAta che. bihAramAM duSkALa paDayo tyAre me 4-5 lAkha bhegA karyAM. e vakhate jeo AdhyAtmika kahevAya che evA eka bhAI mArI pAse AvyA; mane kahe : " mahArAjajI! AtmakalyANa mUkIne A zuM upADayu' che? AtmAnI vAta kareA. bihAranA lekA tA janme che; ane mare che, e teA svabhAva che. janmyuM te kANu nathI maryuM...? emAM tame pAMca lAkha mANasAne anAja pahoMcADayuM teya zuM ane na paheAMcADayuM taiya zu'? A mUkIne eka AtmajJAnanI zikhira ceAjo ne!" jo ApaNAmAM jAgRti na heAya te ghaDIbhara AvI vyaktinA vicAranA AcchAdananI nIce ApaNI prajJAnA dvIpaka DhaMkAI jAya. paNa me kahyuM: "AtmAnI vAta karanAra mANasa je AtmAone duHkhI joIne drave nahiM, ene hAtha la'bAya nahi, te ene AtmAnA anubhava thayA che ema mAnavuM e paNa ajJAna che." je je mahApuruSAe Atma-anubhUti karI che temanA jIvanamAMthI sevAnAM pratyakSa dRSTAMta jaDayAM che. paMDharapuranA devanA abhiSeka mATe nAmadeva kAvaDamAM gaMgAjaLa laI jaI rahyA hatA. paNa rastAmAM gadheDAne tRSAthI taraphaDatuM joyuM te emaNe ene e pahelAM pAcuM. koI e pUchyuM " are, gaMgAjaLa A gadheDAne pAcuM ?" uttara maLyA : "gadheDAmAM paNa AtmA che, bhAI! " A Atmadarzana che. A AtmadarzanathI tamArAmAM sarjanAtmaka sevAnI eka sahuja bhAvanA jAgI jAya che. sukhApaleAganI vRttithI bharelI yuvAnImAM A rIte puruSArtha AkAra le che ane ApaNI zaktione e samRddha banAve che. " vArdhake munivRttAnAM 'zaizava ane yuvAnImAM je taiyAra thaIne AvelA che e have vAkayamAM praveza kare che. jyArathI kheALA vALanA prAraMbha thAya, jyArathI tamane ema lAge ke tamArA AMgeApAMgamAM kAMIka phera jaNAya che, dAMta hAlavA mAMDe, AMkhamAM metiyA Ave ke zarIra upara karacalIo dekhAya, teA vicAra karaveA ke jIvananuM' A trIjuM prasthAna che. have huM tyAM jAu chuM; zaizava ane yauvanamAM je bhegu kareluM che enA upayAga have vAkayamAM karavAnA che. zaizavamAM vidyA prApta karI, yuvAnImAM puruSAtha ane kAyazakti dvArA svapnasRSTi siddha karI, have vAkayamAM munipaNuM Ave che. muni eTale keNu ? je maunamAM AtmAnA saMgItanA anubhava kare. sa`sAranA viSama
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________________ zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlaya suvarNa mahatsava-graMtha vAdamAM vidyA ane puruSArthanI be zaktione lIdhe pite cittanI samAdhAnAtmaka avasthAmAM rahI zake enuM nAma te muni che. aMdara je jhINuM jhINuM guMjana cAle che e guMjanane anubhava mauna pALyA vinA, UMDA UtaryA vinA thato nathI. eka anubhava bApe pitAnA ALasu dIkarAone kaheluM ke huM jAuM chuM, paNa meM khetaranA UMDA bhAgamAM eka caru dATelo che e kADhI leje. eTaluM kahIne bApa marI gaye. pilA dIkarAo to maMDI paDyA khetarane khodavA. ALasu hatA paNa caru joIto hato eTale khodI khodIne AkhuM khetara uthalAvI nAkhyuM, paNa kyAMye caru na maLe. eTalAmAM varSA thaI khetaramAM ghAsa sAthe bIjI vastuo UgI nIkaLI ane khetara melathI lacI gayuM. tyAre pilA vRddhanA mitre AvIne kahyuM : "tamArA bApe kahyuM hatuM ke khetaranA UMDA bhAgamAM dATeluM che, ene artha e ke jema jema che tema tema khetara picuM thAya. emAM je Uge e ja tamArI samRddhi che." pitAe dIkarAne je kahyuM hatuM e ja vAta huM tamane kahuM chuM. tame tamArI jAtanI aMdara jAo, UMDA Utare. jema jema tame tamArA pitAmAM UMDA UtaratA jaze tema tema tamane navI ja anubhUti thatI jaze; AgaLa vadhatAM eka evI anubhUtinI avasthAne pAmaze, je bhUmikAmAM anubhavAya ke je tattva mahAvIramAM hatuM, buddhamAM hatuM, zrIrAmamAM hatuM ane AdinAthamAM hatuM e ja parama tatva mArAmAM che. A parama tatvanI samRddhino anubhava thayA pachI huM kaMgAla chuM ema lAge ja nahi. ema lAge ke huM mahAvIra chuM, huM buddha chuM, huM rAma chuM, huM AdinAtha chuM. paNa ema kahevA pahelAM ane ema karatAM pahelAM anubhava tha joIe. ane anubhava thayA pachI kahevAnuM rahetuM nathI; pachI te anubhavavAnuM ja rahe che. ghaNA loko kahetA pharatA hoya che. "huM A chuM." paNa jyAM kahevA besIe tyAM anubhavavAnI vAta cAlI jAya che. anubhava maune che. tyAM belavAnuM baMdha thaI jAya che. bhramara madhurasanuM pAna karato hoya che tyAre gujana baMdha ja thaI jAya che; guMjana cAlatuM hoya che tyAre enuM madhupAna baMdha hoya che. evI ja rIte anubhava thAya che tyAre bIjI badhI vAto baMdha thaI jAya che, tyAM mAtra anubhavanI vAta hoya che. A anubhavarasanuM jeNe pAna karyuM tenI khumArI kadI UtaratI nathI, ene saMsAranI mAnasika bimArI sparzatI nathI. e sadA anubhavamAM masta ane magna rahe che. A anu. bhava karatAM pahelAM pahelI be bhUmikAomAMthI pasAra thavuM paDe che. vidyAthI pahelAmAM, pachI bIjAmAM, pachI trIjAmAM ema eka pachI eka dhoraNamAM AgaLa vadhato jAya che, ema na karanAra mANasa uparanI kakSAmAM, yunivarsiTImAM, vidyApIThamAM pahoMcI zakto nathI; ekadama yunivarsiTImAM jAya che e peon-sipAI tarIke jAya athavA kalArka tarIke jAya, paNa e prephesara tarIke nathI jaI zakato. e ja rIte tamAre paNa jIvananI A trIjI bhUmikAmAM jatAM pahelAM zazavanI ane yauvananI bhUmikAone dhIme dhIme sarasa banAvavI joIe. mANasa sudharate sudharata ja upara jAya che--jeke emAM paNa apavAda hoya che. bemAM sAvadhAna na rahyA hoya tema chatAM trIjI avasthAmAM sudharI gayA hoya evA dAkhalAo maLe che kharA, paNa e apavAdane niyama samajIne na cAlI zakAya.
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________________ pU. su. zrI ca`draprabhasAgarajI (citrabhAnujI) : ApaNu' sa'skAradhana 217 vAkayanI A trIjI avasthA eTale adaranA sa'gItane anubhavavAnA samaya. AvA mANasA ja sasAramAM ane saMsthAo mATe AzIrvAdarUpa ane vidyAthI enA sAcA lAmiyA ane che. hu' tA ema icchuM ke mahAvIra jaina vidyAlayamAM gheADAka AvA TharelA, anubhavI, cAritryavAna ane vicArAthI samRddha puruSA vidyAthI enA vAlI ane. vAlI vinA vidyAthI ene kadAca menDiMga ane leArjiMga maLe paNa prema, vAsalya ane sneha kayAMthI maLe ? teo vidyAthI ene jaIne premathI pUche ke tamAre zuM duHkha che? tamArI zI vAta che? te vidyAthI e vAtsalyathI va Mcita na rahe. ane je vAtsalyathI vaMcita nahi rahe e saMsArane paNa jIvanabhara vAtsalya ApyA karaze. paNa jemane vAtsalya nathI maLyu e aMdarathI evA dagdha ane zuSka khanI jAya che ke jIvananAM vividha kSetrAmAM e bhayaMkara vikRtie lAve che. eMDiga ane lAjiMgamAM bhaNatA chekarAo mATe A eka manevaijJAnika prazna che. jemane mAkhApanuM vAtsalya na maLe, bahenanA prema na maLe, bhAInA sneha na maLe emanAM hRdaya ATha-dasa varSamAM dhIre dhIre zuSka manI jAya che. pachI jyAre e jIvanakSetramAM Ave che tyAre peAtAnI zuSkatAne paritRpta karavA jIvanamAM je maLyuM te apanAvIne AgaLa doDe che. e vakhate viveka adRzya thaI jAya che. eTale jemaNe munimata keLavyuM hoya, jemanA mana ane tanamAM maunanuM saMgIta hAya te bahu upayogI nIvaDe che. " yonenAne tanutyanam " ceAthI vAta bahu maMgaLamaya che. jenuM zaizava vidyAthI bhareluM che, jenu yauvana svapna ane kAthI sabhara banelu che, jenu vAkaya maunanA saMgItamAM magna khaneluM che te A dehane cheDavAnA divasa Ave teA kevI rIte cheDe ? yAgathI dehane cheDe. maratI vakhate sIla ane vIla e vAtA dUra rahevI joIe. pele che|ka| AvIne kahe khApAjI, vIla karavAnuM bAkI che. ahIM sahI karA! bIjo kahe ke sIla mArA. e bemAMthI khacavAnuM che. A mATe pahelethI ja ceAgya vyavasthA karI nAkhavI ghaTe. ceAganI samAdhimAM deha choDavAnu' tA kahyu paNa yAga eTale zu' che ? jemAM ApaNuM tana, mana ane caitanya e traNe eka bhUmikAmAM AvIne vase te cega. hA, tananA svabhAva che eTale e bimAra paNa paDe; evuM nathI ke yAgI puruSAne hamezAM tananI zAMti ja hAya, kadAca azAMti paNa hAya. paNa tananI azAMtimAM paNa mana zAMtine anubhava kare te ceAganI viziSTa zakti che. girAja AnadaghanajInA eka jIvanaprasa'ga yAda Ave che. te mAMdA che, khUba tAva Avele che. emanA eka bhakta emane vaMdana karavA jAya che. AnaMdadhanajI teA gAI rahyA che, sa'gItamAM masta che. bhakta paga dAbe che, zarIra garama garama lAge che. e kahe che, "gurudeva ! ApanA zarIramAM javara che." AnaMdaghanajIe kahyuM : vara teA A zarIrane che, AtmA te svastha che!" "akha hema amara bhaye na mareMge' e gIta tyAre ja pragaTayu.... deha vinAzI che ane huM teA avinAzI chuM. chellI avasthAnI A bhUmikA che. jiMdagInA mama kAI e kavi varDjhava ne pUchyo tyAre emaNe hasIne kahyuM : "kANu ** 28
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________________ 218 zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlaya suvarNa mahotsava-graMtha kema marI gaye e tame mane kahe eTale huM tamane kahuM ke e kema jIvI gayo." jIvananuM saravaiyuM e te mRtyu che. mANasa keTalI kUdAkUda kare che e moTI vAta nathI, enI chellI ghaDI kevI sudharI jAya che e moTI vAta che. A roganI AnaMdamaya bhUmikA sahune maLe ane mRtyu mATe vidAya letAM kaheH "huM jAuM chuM. ApaNe jItrA, sAthe rahyA, have raDaze nahi, AMsu pADaze nahi, kALAM kapaDAM paheraze nahi, kAraNa ke huM to musAphira chuM, nimna bhUmikAmAMthI UrdhvamAM jAUM chuM." ganI AvI bhUmikAmAM vidAya levI, chUTA paDavuM ane saMsArane eka maMgalamaya saMdeza ApIne javuM e samagra jIvanane hetu che, uddeza che. AryAvartanuM dhana eTaluM badhuM samRddha che ke ene ApaNe vicAra karIe to ApaNuM mastiSka Adara ane bhAvathI namI jAya che. ApaNo vAraso kevo maTe che! e vArasAna AvI kaI paLemAM zAMtithI besIne vicAra karIe ke e vArasAnA vArasadAroe -ApaNee vArasAne keTale jALavyuM che? ApaNuM dhana-saMskAradhana-ApaNane maLaze te ApaNe samRddha banIzuM. jIvananI sAcI samRddhi A ja che. prAraMbhamAM ja meM Apane kahyuM ke jIvanane paisAthI ke makAnathI nathI mApavAnuM, jIvanane te hRdayanA bhAvothI e keTaluM samRddha banyuM e praznathI mApavAnuM che; mana ane mastiSka vicArothI keTalAM sabhara che ane buddhi pavitra vicArothI keTalI zuddha che e vicArIe. A vicAraNA mATe Ajane A maMgaLamaya divasa ApaNA sahune mATe eka yAdagAra divasa banI rahe, e zubhecchA.* 1 * zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlayanA suvarNa mahotsava nimitte yojAyela vyAkhyAnamALAmAM tArIkha 23-1-1968, maMgaLavAranA roja biralA kIDA kendramAM Apela pravacanano sAra.